I Left Myself Behind: A Selection of Poems and Prose Dedicated to Abused Women
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Offering vibrant imagery and eloquent language, I Left Myself Behind presents a collection of poetry and prose that speaks to the tragedy and triumph of abused women around the world.
I Let Myself Behind is divided into three sections: Reflections, Life, and Thoughts of Healing. With each poem, author Carol Samuels transforms the complicated mixture of human emotions into verse. Her poetry features a stirring momentum and striking use of both end rhyme and internal rhyme, creating a harmonious blend sure to evoke a myriad of feelings.
In Beginning of the End, Samuels shows how love and pain are often not the same, while Ego Tripping warns a woman to be on guard against the ugly words of egotistical men disguised as cajolery. Know Oneself gently reminds us of the crucial importance of forgiving ourselves, learning our lesson, and moving forward.
For some the road to affection, appreciation, lust, and love can be complicated and filled with inexpressible pain. In response, each day we climb mountains, jump hurdles, meet the challenges and forget our differences in order to survivea struggle that I Left Myself Behind seeks to express.
Carol Samuels
Carol Samuels lives in New York. She is a registered nurse, life coach, nutritional counselor, and motivator; she has also been in business with her husband for thirty-five years. Samuels is a consultant for NatakiCares and First Family Mission and Research Center. She is also the author of Smelling My Own Coffee.
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I Left Myself Behind - Carol Samuels
Copyright © 2013 by Carol Samuels
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ISBN: 978-1-4759-7287-0 (sc)
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iUniverse rev. date: 01/25/2013
Table of Contents
Dedication
Introduction
Section I: Reflections
1–LOVE NO POWER WITHOUT
2–WHAT DO I SEE
3–DAUGHTERS OF THE WORLD
4–HOW DO YOU FEEL
5–LIGHT IN THE DARKNESS
6–IT STANDS TO REASON MY DEAR
7–DELICIOUS BUDDIES MAKE ME SMILE
8–COLD
9–BEGINNING OF THE END
10–TODAY
11–LONELY
12–THE BEAUTY OF NO PAIN - HAPPINESS
13–A FRIEND FOR THE NIGHT
14–MELANCHOLY
15–EGO TRIPPING
16–JUST OUT HAVING A DRINK
17–AND THE MOON REMAINS
18–THE LAST LAUGH OR A COMICAL TRAGEDY
19–I LEFT MYSELF BEHIND
20–TO DO OR NOT TO DO
21–SKIN
22–ROOTS…STEP OUTTA THE TRAP
23–IF YOU LOVE ME
24–WHY I LOVE YOU
25–GET GROUNDED
26–DON’T DO IT
27–THIS TOO SHALL PASS - GROWING PAINS
28–LET IT BE
Section II: Life
29–LIFE
30–LET THERE BE MEANING TO LIVING
31–LIFE…IT’S JUST SOUP
32–ME MYSELF AND I AM
33–I KEEP MY EYES ON HEAVEN
34–CAN’T FIND NO REASON NOT TO LOVE YOU
35–HOW WE SURVIVE
36–CAN’T WAIT
37–THREE LITTLE WORDS
38–WHERE ARE YOU …WHERE ARE AM I
39–DAY AND NIGHT
40–NO LIFE / SUICIDE
41–AN EXTENSION OF HIS PERFECTION
42–NO THINGS WON’T BE THE SAME
43–THE GREATEST FIND….NEVER LOST
Section III: Thoughts of Healing
44–TO KNOW ONESELF
45–DO WHAT YOU FEEL
46–GETTING THERE
47–THE RE-CREATION OF LIFE
48–REHABILITATION …LEARNING TO WALK AGAIN
49–SMELLING MY OWN COFFEE
50–EYES ON THE FUTURE, LET NO HURDLE BE DISARMING
GLOSSARY
Dedication
Thanks to the persons that inspire me most my loving parents, my brothers George, James,
my children Monifa, Konata, Nataki, Brittany, Marcus, Dean, and dear husband Robert
may be blessed with peace, harmony success, prosperity and perfect health of body and mind
These poems, prose, and thoughts are dedicated to abused women
their mountains, hurdles and challenges…their family and friends
that suffer with and for them…
Introduction
There, truly is no words that express depth of feelings, just as there is some pain that cannot be smoothed, so we redefine it as mountains we climb, challenges we face and hurdles we jump in the life we live. I Left Myself Behind is to abused women around the world with the need to understand the extent we all try to satisfy the need for affection, attention, appreciation or just acknowledgment, positive or negative by the opposite sex. Daughters of the World
helps us to understand these feelings that many times are misconstrued as you filling a need with the abuser or you being needed by or deserve to be abused by the abuser. Do not get tricked by his Ego Tripping
… thus justifying The Last Laugh or This Comical Tragedy
.
I Let Myself Behind is divided into three sections; Reflections
, a look at what one is doing (not so much as looking back), Life
which is about living, and Thoughts of Healing
which is moving in positive directions and helps us to reflect on the steps we take to go through life and deal with the trials and tribulations of relationships. Some relationships are excellent others have their ups and downs. Still some relationships are filled with abuse verbally, mentally and physically. They exist only to make the abuser or abused value or devalue ones self worth. We try to make everyone happy but realize we sometimes suffer in the process and sacrifice ones own self esteem. In the poem Beginning of the End
… love and pain