The Heart Remembers: A Memoir of Personal Growth

By J. Lei

For many years, J. Lei and her husband, Trent, lived an idyllic life on a Texas ranch, one that had been in their family for five generations. But then Trent was diagnosed with stage four cirrhosis and died unexpectedly. In The Heart Remembers, Lei offers a personal account of how she processed and dealt with the death of her beloved spouse.

This memoir follows her journey from the beginningthrough the uncertain steps of the initial diagnosis to the inevitable end of a fatal disease. She shares the grief she experienced as a surviving spouse and provides insight into the emotions, actions, and thoughts one might experience in a similar circumstance.

The Heart Remembers chronicles the courage and determination that was necessary to pull through one of lifes saddest and most shocking events. It presents an honest, intimate, and down-to-earth account of one womans struggle to turn tragedy into enlightenment and shows that hope exists in all thingseven death.

• Language: English
• Publisher: iUniverse
• Release date: Sep 12, 2013
• ISBN: 9781491704073

J. Lei

J. Lei earned a bachelor of science degree in education and a master’s degree in counseling. She is a certified teacher and counselor and has taught writing for more than ten years. A widow, she has two sons and four grandchildren and lives in the Southwest.

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