The Mindful Heart

By Anna Hill

This book is about mindfulness and many other techniques and practices that allow for healing and spiritual evolving to take place. It is about the energetic bodies and how working with these bodies can help us remove our dysfunctions, which exist as energy imprints. It is about the use of physics and metaphysics to assist us in expanding so that we can once again find our own truths. It is about ways we can all participate in the clean-up of ourselves and the planet. It is about simplicity on all levels.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Balboa Press
• Release date: Mar 6, 2012
• ISBN: 9781452545387

Anna Hill

Dee Shaffer lives in the Midwest and has worked as an executive in the Healthcare and Human Services industry for 25 years. She has published several books in multiple genres, including fiction, non-fiction, short fiction, and children's stories. She has a passion for using her words to reach others in meaningful ways, and to help inspire their unlocked potential. Th rough the course of her professional career and parenting of four children, Dee has been blessed with wisdom that is only provided by the Lord and overcoming life's complexities. She enjoys writing, hiking, and creating heartfelt publications to bless the lives of those she touches.

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Contents

Introduction

What Is Life?

Ego Verses Heart

Growing Up

Unconditional Love

Letting Go

Metaphysics, Multidimensions, and the Planetary Shift

Energetic and Light Bodies

Grounding

The Three Selves

Mindfulness

Simplicity and Healing

The Natural World

Love Is the Best Sensation

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For Patch~

1992-2010

Thank you for being the most loyal, faithful, and compassionate friend I could ever have asked for. You are more to me than words can describe.

Thank you for hanging on as long as you did to know that I had finally reached a point where I would be okay to go on without you in physicality. I know that you know that point was myself finally realizing the most important lesson of life, to keep our heart open.

I look forward to the day when we run, lay,

and play in the tall grass together again.

I want to be the one who stands in between the two cardinal birds as they speak to each other. But I don’t want to know what they say, I don’t want to talk with them, I don’t want to understand. I just want to be, right there, in the middle listening, in stillness and peace, no thoughts, but a simple knowing by their sounds, that all is good.

Soon the child’s eye is clouded over by ideas and opinions, preconceptions and abstractions. Simple free being becomes encrusted with the burdensome armor of the ego. Not until years later does an instinct come that a vital sense of mystery has been withdrawn. The sun glints through the pines, and the heart is pierced in a moment of beauty and strange pain, like a memory of paradise. After that day we become seekers.

~Peter Matthiessen

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Introduction

Years ago I knew I wanted to write a book. I was amazed and intrigued with the power of mindfulness when I not only began learning about it, but also brought it into my life for experience. Most everything that I write of here has been formed of my own conclusions based on experience. I feel that experience and intuition are essential for feeling out what is real. That is how I believe we can truly learn and know what is best, what works, and what is right for each of us. I have paid close attention and continue to make observations all the time, whether this in regards to thought or just plain everyday functions. I treated myself as some sort of experiment and in turn wrote this book in an attempt to share some of the information I obtained with a hope and possibility that it may be of some assistance to others, and the world as a whole, on our journey here and beyond.

What I found in my search, that in an attempt to want to understand who I really was, and what was going on, I came across a vast amount of information, overloaded my senses, and this turned me off at many times. I still plugged through doing my work on my own the whole time in the background. I got incredibly confused at times because I was trying to learn on my own. I knew I had to experience for myself what was going on, which I hoped would eventually lead me to who I really was underneath all the layers. I read a lot, then I would pay close attention to how it affected myself and my surroundings as I applied it to life. I had no extra money. I am a mother and have a very regular life of working and so forth, yet I still found ways to incorporate spirituality into my life. I still listened for answers and I used every second of my spare time pursuing this quest. Right along side of my young daughter, my small organic farm, and my little home to take care of, I still managed to make this of equal importance. My conclusion came to this. It is just as obtainable to live a spiritual and mindful life, happy, and content, without surrendering one’s self to a temple, without devoting one’s entire life to a specific cause or religion and without letting go of every possession one owns. It is possible with children and a family, and it is possible with a career or job. In fact I think work of the heart is a blessing. I think crafts and arts of my own making is a blessing, my homemade curtains are a blessing, my garden and time pulling weeds in it is a blessing, all these things are blessings to me when made pure and given, created, or received from the desires, needs, and wants of the heart. We can live a life of harmony and balance with a shift from our old ways to new ways. It can be done in a gentle process, it needs to be done, and in actuality it is being done. We need to begin living a life from our heart and not our ego.

I realized on my search that just as life in general seemed complicated, a great deal made the spiritual realms complicated as well. Sometimes it felt as though it could not be escaped. For myself, I found I could not escape, ignore, or put aside the truth any longer. My spirit was finally coming to the forefront, allowing to be seen, heard, and felt. To make this new life one of consistency and authenticity, I realized I had to create my own world of simplicity, but to get there is another story.

I was tired of listening to everyone talk about things, but not seeing anything happening. I did not want to here just a phrase of living in the moment, or be in the now as so many like to say, but I wanted the actual skill in obtaining this for real. This attunement with the moment and no distraction be it internal or external, allowed me to learn how to tune in and connect with source. It brought source to me here, especially in the purest, most naturalist settings. I found what I needed and wanted to know and still do from this source, which is everywhere. We have lost connection with this and it is literally right around us, by a simple shift in consciousness, a bit of practice, and peeling down the layers around us, it becomes a truth for all. The real truth, no more games please, there have been plenty of those.

I took a great interest in mindfulness and the study of how the mind works, how it can be trained and retrained out of its habitual ways. I understood the power the mind has over us and how our perceptions leads us stray all the time. By a simple method of bringing our attention back to the moment of where we are at and into what we are doing, eventually we are freed of fears, worries, and doubts. We are freed of complicating and over analyzing. We are freed of wrong perceptions and confusions. It sounds simple, but when we begin to apply it, we quickly realize how difficult this may be after we have let our minds run free and at random for so long. Mindfulness also gets us very in tune with ourselves and with our thoughts, realizing the outcomes of emotional disturbances, false ego games, and forms of suffering that we often inflict on ourselves with our very own thoughts. It is a beginning to seeing the truth within ourselves and once those doors are open it is hard to close them again, just a fleck of truth, a glimpse of source and our real nature, of bliss and love, is all it takes to catch our attention and know there really is something better and more real. That is spirit and we have been ignoring it greatly.

My goal with this book was to integrate the idea of metaphysics and all the beauties and wonders it holds, but in a grounded and earthly sense as well, as this is where we currently reside. When I was struggling myself, I began to learn of Buddhist practices and found much of them to make great sense. To cleanse ourselves, live in purity, break the reincarnation cycle, and do it in a lifestyle that makes this easier. No attachments and meditation made clear sense to me. I had no intentions of becoming a Buddhist or anything for that matter, I simply just wanted to be. However I was struggling, and when I began to learn of mindfulness I was intrigued and felt better just knowing about it. I could not wait to apply it. What a simple concept to end our suffering and in turn the domino effect to those things around us, yet this simple magic is not applied by the majority in the world.

I was excited to have a real and more permanent solution to the struggles. It made clear sense and I was ready to get to work. I did and it was wonderful. I applied it as best I could to my own life and worked quickly at simplifying to allow for more ease of this gift to come in. I was perfectly content and truly happy for the first time. It was not the extremes of flying cosmic sparks and blissful feelings of being in love, which are great and to come in the return home, but for now we must live in a more balanced state and setting while on the earth plane. It is mindfulness that gives us this balance all the time. It takes the moment for what it is, whether good or bad, whether cold or warm, whether rainy or sunny, it does not judge simply by not putting thoughts beyond the initial observation, or rather allowing things to simply just be. This does not by all means mean that we do not make choices, but rather that our choices will be aligned with our proper path and with much less imbalances along the way. We can walk away with clarity of situations. I still did not have some of the things I held and missed so dearly, but I had freedom from suffering.

After some time I began to become more and more interested in metaphysics. I was having experiences that could not be ignored and were not of this dimension and everyday life realities. This led me farther and farther into the metaphysical realms. When we discover

our true self again and return back to spiritually evolving, we obtain our

true signature vibration and this puts us in situations and with people whom we vibrate with. Without operating from this true vibration, we are confused and getting into situations over and over that do not take us where we truly need and want to be. They may take us where we think we need and want to be, but that is entirely different. That is the beauty of mindfulness, because we can let go of the egos wants and needs and again discover our true realities, our intellect doesn’t get in the way. Only we can discover for ourselves who and what we really are and what we came here to do. This should be seen

as a process.

Many people in the world acknowledge the existence of spirit, but yet very few live this truth. We live in a very different time now. We have metaphysics coming to us with ease now as we enter the shift that is happening. It is becoming clear truth, a much deeper connection to spirit. We have humans that have been on the reincarnation wheel for what should have been one or two incarnations for hundreds to thousands of incarnations. We are over populated. We have beings here at the present from many other dimensions and galaxies, some to assist in the earth’s shift, some to simply observe. We have some who are here as soul mates with a great desire to want to get together and be an example of a new much healthier type of a relationship. We have what are referred to as twin flames that have incarnated at this point as well for the assistance of the shift. They can accomplish their goals separate, but together they create a third and powerful energy and can accomplish more. So it leaves one a bit confused as to who they are and which way to go. It doesn’t have to be though. I was confused for a great time, eventually it gets worked out. It must get worked out, that is the idea about life, we must have a basic understanding of spirit to live out our lives fully and evolve properly. When we begin to discover this, we realize our place in all of it and find the most suiting lifestyle that adheres to that.

The magic of mindfulness is that the confusion lifts right when we begin to apply it and we realize that it is not us who has to seek for answers, but rather we are now surrendering to a relaxed state that allows for ego to be dispelled, which allows for the heart to open, which in turn allows for higher self to guide us. This is all we need. It is an absolute to living a life of strength and stability that for the most part, does not come and go. It is an absolute for being able to stay in connection with the creator source and all that is. It brings beauty, joy, simplicity, and unconditional love back into our lives, only this time to stay. Our simple lives become mystical as well.

It is easy to fall back to the world of doubt, as this is the former ego self whom was given so much power in a world primarily existing from ego, but mindfulness will dispel this doubt and we can begin to think for ourselves once again and remove limiting belief systems that our most often not even our own. It takes a lot to break free initially, but then it comes in great waves of gentleness. When we make the choice to shift and expand our consciousness to that of truth which is true spirit, we are backed entirely by the universe and source, as this is what we were intended to do, what we are, and where we came from.

There are many changes happening in the world and for good reason, they have to or there would be no world. That is not necessarily the reason for the planetary shift that is happening, but the timing seems perfect due to the fact that humans have reached a pinnacle of dysfunctions. We live in a confusing and chaotic time, yet a wonderful time. We have the choice to see it whichever way we choose, and most often this choice is made from how we feel within our own selves. How we feel within ourselves is going to constantly change, until we realize that it is not what we search for outside ourselves, but rather the open and clear heart that we all desire and need that gives us what we need. We have placed this need after the need of so many other things we think are going to give us happiness, when they only give us momentary glimpses of this joy.

Mindfulness is slowing down to the simplicities of life and enjoying them for what they are. It is remembering that everything will be okay and that each and every thing has this ability to be this. It’s hard to imagine with all the suffering inflicted in the world, how we could ever find peace, but we must find peace so that we can spread positive energies to help heal this world. This is why it is so important that we return to this state of joy and simplicity so that we can stop inflicting suffering on the innocent, and return the world to its true state of sacredness. We must remember that it is simply the process of spiritual evolution not only humans are going through, but all else as well.

We don’t have to claim to be any one thing as we are not one thing. We are each individuals that have our own individual hearts desires. These are what we want to get back, these are what we want to find again, these are what are real. Not the desires of the ego self, but of the open and clear heart. Each of us as our whole selves, with spirit intact, accomplishing our goals, tasks, missions, lessons, and creations is what we are all once again going to be remembering as we awaken. As the ego slowly dismantles, true spirit will once again be in the forefront.

I have, over the years learned to listen. I only wanted, and still want only truth. I have learned to open my heart and allow myself to feel what is real. I have learned to pay attention, be often in the quiet and stillness of nature, observing. I have learned to listen to not only my intuition, but trust it. I’ve learned the importance of keeping the heart open and allow for feelings to be guidance and truth as well. I don’t accept anything as my own until I go through this process. The wonderful thing is that as we grow in this direction, eventually it is no longer a process as it becomes very simple and easy to connect with higher self and source to then listen for answers. Answers and information can be given to us in many forms. This happens to everyone when they allow it to come to them.

As the doubt fades, eventually it is gone. We can no longer doubt because we have reached a point of honesty and truth, we simply know. To explain in depths would be difficult and need not be. To me this is reality. Intellect creates what it wants. We do not have the ability to determine entirely through the intellect. Intellect is extremely limited when we see from the broader sense. We have to expand our consciousness and get our truths from higher vibration sources. Sources are reaching for us and are becoming easier and easier to connect with as our vibrations lift and rise with the earth’s shift. The most important of these connections being our own higher self.

Like most, I simply want to see the world return to harmony and balance, and although some think this may never happen, it is happening. It’s no longer a dream, it is very real. To what level it reaches is unknown, but every effort made from humans to open their hearts and assist in the process can only be more positive the outcome. Often the affects are unseen to the human eye. It is going to take time and patience, but the more that awaken to their true selves and purpose, the more we will shift the whole world and our selves back to the one true point of origin, and only real thing, that is love.

Everyone speaks of love, craves love, talks about love, but how many really apply this to their lives as a whole to all that is? How many really trust this as the all to everything? Not many speak of how to actually become this and attain this, they just repeat the word love because it sounds nice. We cannot expect the world to change if we are not changing or being living examples ourselves. This requires honesty, dedication, and will, it is not that hard if we decide it is not. Unconditional Love is the ultimate goal and the thing that we all most solidly seek, there is reason for this well beyond our current lives here. Eventually we all will take this path, back to our true home.

What is life? It is a flash of a firefly in the night. It is the breath the buffalo in the wintertime. It is the little shadow which runs across the grass and looses itself in the sunset."

~Crowfoot, Black Foot Warrior

What Is Life?

Do we ever feel like we are not really be true to ourselves, as if a piece or many pieces of ourselves are missing, as if we look in the mirror one day, it’s not the same person we saw yesterday or five minutes ago for that matter? Do we ever wonder if there is more to us than this physical existence? Do we feel we have a soul, a spirit, an essence, whatever we may call it, but yet we really don’t understand or feel that it is integrated into us fully or even at all? Do we doubt it at times? We must be truthful. We ignore our own healing and delay the process until we start with that simple concept. We should be honest with ourselves, it is ourselves essentially that is trying to get through to us and waiting patiently for us to listen.

We live in a world dictated by rules, structures, formations and beliefs based on those of others. If these others would have been ones who structured their lives around true spirit and heart first we would not be where we are today. Somehow the mass of population was tricked, convinced, manipulated, actively participated in, was a part of, thought they wanted this, was lost, gave into, or volunteered in the makings of a world lost of true spirit and in turn one in which the majority operates primarily from the ego self. We currently exist on this sacred ground, a sacred universe, and we are sacred beings. We have treated the earth as if it were a playground for our wants and needs. Again if these wants and needs were of true heart and spirit things would be much different. They would not have been damaging, destructive, cruel, divided, violent and so on, but they were desires of our ego self personality. Now we are evolving, we are changing. The earth has had enough, we have had enough. It cannot take anymore and we cannot take anymore.

Do we feel like something is happening around us, but we’re just not quite sure what that is? That’s because we are waking up. There are those who have woken up and are waking up and assisting themselves in the process. There are those who will linger in a confused state while they evolve, there are those who will hang rigidly onto egos old ways only to find it’s not as satisfying or fixing anymore, and there are those who may just be so stubborn and set in their ways it may take some more rounds of life maybe even into yet a lower vibration dimension, until we finally wake up and find ourselves again. The fact is that we are changing greatly right now.

The earth is shifting, it is rebirthing itself. We may here it referred to as a planetary shift, a vibration shift, a dimensional shift, a planetary line up, or other references. The fact is we’re evolving, but spiritually this time, and at a very rapid rate right now. Our old ways of living ego style, our old belief systems, our minor to completely dysfunctional baggage, our junk and our blockages, do not vibrate with this new earth. The earth is shifting into higher vibration, therefore we are naturally shifting as well. The problem comes in when humans do not understand or realize what is happening because they are so distracted by the ego self and wandering states of consciousness that they are not seeing, feeling, or hearing the signs and symptoms. They are also unaware due to the fact, once again of the lack of true spirituality in our world. It has not been such a pretty picture if we are paying attention, as peoples dysfunctions are coming into the open. People are often unknowingly trying to cleanse and purge themselves of all their old patterns, beliefs and dysfunctions that no longer fit. No one knows what they believe anymore, it’s as if they still try and hold on to things such as organized religion and claim how they are so and so this, but we can always detect a confusion undertone in their voice or demeanor. They really are not sure, in fact there really not sure of anything anymore, why should we be, look where it got us. We no longer can make excuses or blame this or that, we can’t even create anymore dysfunctions as if they’ve all been created, and in the midst of all this were still ready to blow each other to bits. Duality is merging.

A perfect and gentle solution really we are seeing. That is all that is wanted for us to begin with. We ignored almost completely our sacredness, we took advantage of nearly every speck on the planet, and we have wiped out numerous species, but it all still loves us. It loves us still because that is all that we truly are and there is nothing else. We are that. We are from that source, it is us, and we are it, and that is it. Everything in between is an experience for us to have and is intended for growth, evolution of spirit, and being co creators to share and take home. To learn to love unconditionally ourselves and everything is the ultimate lesson we undertake.

Humans on the earth plane have forgotten this truth long ago and have been spinning far off path ever since. We have disconnected so far from true spirit, we must face many lessons to get back to this truth. It is not as complicated as so many make it out to be. We can involve ourselves with the details and the numerous theories all we want, but simply put, we went down the wrong path, and this in turn reinforced the makings of the false ego over true spirit and created a world from this perspective. We have been living in tunnel vision and with a very narrow view.

We are born or created with free will, that is the perfection of all that is, but it has also been the seeming opposite. In the sense of learning through love it is perfect. We are not an experiment, we are not being punished, we simply chose wrong and lost the connection. We are now beginning to have natural awareness and expansion of consciousness, we are exploring in mind’s eye, slowly back to the truths of our existence. We are regaining ourselves bit by bit. We are becoming spiritual beings again, we are becoming real again. We are lessening our grip on physical reality. We are becoming one with all again. Yes indeed, patience it will take time.

So what is life?

Life is love. But we’ve most often forgotten that. I’m not speaking of the love we have for our partner or family, that is love of course, but I am speaking of the large picture, the wholeness, the all, everything and everyone, all directions. Are we spiritually evolving, learning and growing without causing harm and destruction to others or anything for that matter. I mean this on small and large scales. Pretty hard to avoid these days, but that’s the direction we are heading, evolution with no unnecessary suffering in the background. We will be remembering once again that we come from love, and as beautiful as that may feel to experience here, imagine this frequency multiplied by a billion and what that would feel like. If we believe this, than we probably want to get going now accomplishing our true missions, goals, tasks, creations, and rid of all those dysfunctions we carry so that we can actually and move on. Ultimately it is our choice, no one will do it for us, that the beautiful part you see.

Life is to each of their own making. That is the idea. We are here to be co creators. Life is vast, magical, infinite, mystical, eternally growing, learning, and creating. It is much more than we are experiencing here on the earth plane. Life is light and it is love, with the opposite to teach, appreciate, and give awareness. Life for one might not be at all what it is for another. We are all very different. We are one, yet we are individuals. We are not human, we are spirit. Life is consciousness with the intention of living through the heart center. When we expand our consciousness to the worlds beyond, when we begin to remember who we are, when we reconnect with the creator source/s, when we remember where we are from, our mission and where we want to go, then we ourselves will remember what life is. It is not for me or anyone to tell another what it is for them, but rather put an idea back that may or may not spark a truth within one’s self, then for each of us to actively participate in this experience of spiritual evolution. We should not always feel we need to reach for it, we can soften and let it come to us.

Do we feel like we are always searching for something? Do we think that if we surf the web long enough we just might find it? Do we feel if we join the latest dating gig we may just find the one as often stated, and all will be complete? Do we feel that if we just get all our daily tasks done or get the house painted and the lawn mowed, we will feel more relaxed and content? Do we feel if we just had a vacation we will be okay, only to come back to the same issues? Do we feel that if we spend enough time on whatever trendy new temporary state of fixation technology gives, connecting to people from our past and new ones for the future, reading profiles of strangers, or gaining enough so called friends, we will find that thing we are looking for? Do we feel that if we get a new job that’ll be the ticket, or if we change our hairstyle that might do it, or if we make more money and had a better home or contents in it, that for sure would be it? Maybe a new car, maybe a new pet, maybe another child? Much of the human species is not content. We name the hundreds of options for why we are in this position, but I guarantee it is not because we are learning from the heart. If this were the case we would be content. We would be content because we have that love in us.

We are searching for the missing pieces of ourselves. This piece has been scattered, ripped, torn, dropped, stuffed away, put aside, and covered up. This may have happened over many lifetimes, or it may have happened simply in one life, that is the intensity we face on earth, we can lose ourselves in one lifetime. There are beings here who have evolved well beyond and have come back to assist during this historical shift, they as well have lost themselves to the ego playground. We are waking up now and that is a good thing.

We are not here to be punished, although it sure does feel that way sometimes, but that is from our own perceptions, makings and choices. Even if we have had a rough life, so to speak, we still have the choice to see it differently. We are here because we chose to be here, whether it was to raise our vibration, clear unhealthy patterns, create and learn something, a particular mission, to be of assistance, or to simply just be a part of, we chose to be here. We have a purpose, we have uniqueness, we are much more than this person we see now. We are love and that is it, all else is real, but in the end illusion. Our intentions were, and are to create and be a part of the journey and gain experiences. We are given choices on how to do this. It was and is our choice. We must remember again how to create and live from the heart and not the ego. This is where we sidetracked and dug so deep we are having a difficult time getting out of the hole. This was our choice, but the intentions and lessons for us are from love only.

Love is the only tool that will get us back to where we need and want to be, that will get us back home, it is home. Love will connect us to what we need to be connected with and guide us. Mindfulness is what we need to do to obtain a consistent state of stability, which in its own way is happiness. It may not be the jump up and down kind most are use to, but we will find it to be much more than that. When we feel happy, we feel loving. When we feel loving, we are love. Only now it does not come and go. This is how I see the cycle working.

They say unconditional love is all we need to heal, to get rid of our dysfunctions, to raise our vibration, to get us where we need to go and assist others along the way, but very few ever speak of how to obtain and be this unconditional love. There are the obvious such as, healing the body and the mind, eating better, meditating, creating and doing loving things for ourselves and others. These things are an absolute must for our well being and the well being of all, but the way I see it and have experienced, is there are a large amount of things going on in and around us that can affect us. We are in constant flux, our bodies are always changing, the weather is always changing, we have unexpected news, astrological influences, environmental influences, we have to maintain and live responsibly with our current realities, the list is very long. If we stay mindful however, we are not influenced by all these factors because we are not giving them our energy or powers, by attuning to them. We have placed ourselves in the perfect place of where we need to be and always have the ability to come back to that. Because we are not draining our mental energies trying to understand or figure them out, because we are not being waivered by our moods or feeding into wrong perceptions, because we are clear our intuition flows and real answers to all our issues become simple and easy. They come to us instead of us trying to search for them. It is no more complicated than the ego self trying to control all situations verses the mindful heartfelt self letting go and trusting that we will guided properly. When mindful we are doing it in silence and stillness of our internal minds and bodies so they are at peace. When we are at peace we are happy. Mindfulness gives us this, therefore allows us to actually be able to manifest and become unconditional love.

What we are essentially searching for could in actuality be many things. If we see these things from a spiritual perspective then we may actually obtain freedom and contentment. We may have ties with beings from past lives we wish to heal, or we may have ties in this life we wish to heal. We may be searching for answers on how to accomplish this. We may be searching for ways to apply this knowledge. We are searching for reasons and meanings to the universe and our essence. We are searching for possibly the other half of our soul or a particular soul mate, this list could be long as well. Again, before we can delve into the depths of soul and its infinite being, we must realize and gain back one simple aspect first, that is us, right now, where we are at, the real me, not the false ego one. We must cut through the layers, dismantle the layers, remove the impressions and imprints instilled in and around us. We must regain our health and harmony. We must calm our mind to its original state and we must be balance again, then we will be back. We have been there all along, we were just hiding, or had been put aside or stuffed away for a while. We were overruled and dominated by our physical ego self and those of others. When we are back, then we can continue on our quest, our journey, our searches in other areas of our life. When we are mindful and in balance we won’t even want or have to search anymore, it will all come to us in the perfect timing. We can let the process unfold naturally, we will trust again, therefore things and answers will come to us. Information can come to us through intuition, and intuition will come to us when we are clear. The best way to become clear and to remain clear is to be mindful and always keep our heart clear and open.

So sit back, watch, and enjoy the ride, oh but one important factor, we do need to participate. We are being assisted, but for full integration of change and to evolve, we have to do the work, let’s not even call it work, rather an adventure that leads only somewhere beautiful. We are learning to reopen our closed down hearts, that is what spiritual growth is about, this is when trueness of our essence unfolds. One day we will have our very own creation of eternal bliss and ecstasy, but for now we need to do what we need to do to get there and enjoy the experiences of this life for what they are, they are all intertwined. We cannot expect to wait around and have some saintly figure do the work for us. We cannot expect just because we are told so, that we are all freed of our negative choices. We need to be realistic about this life and the afterlife. We need to realize that we create what we want and will go where and with what we vibrate with. With mindfulness and living a life of truth from the heart, it actually becomes consistently pleasant to be here as well and this takes us directly where we truly want to be in our hearts.

My own explanation of what I feel life is all about, is nothing more than simply creator source and or sources expanding continuously in infiniteness through the use of what we refer to as energy. I consider myself an energetic being that has consciousness. I feel as though we should stop attempting to see a god source or almighty sitting above us somewhere, while we are all his children running around trying to choose between bad and good. I feel as though this presence of source everywhere. I also feel as though we are equal to this source, as we are this source. I do not believe the idea of life is to choose between bad or good but rather merge the yin and yang states among us. I believe we are from the most unimaginable and vast amount of love of which this source is, and this source simply wanted to find ways in which to express back to itself the love which it holds. I believe that in the beginning, (but really in actuality there is no beginning because there is no true sense of time) that the expression was done at much higher vibrations and as more comfortable as this may have been to experience, it was not allowing for the love to be reflected back as much as it actually could be in a lower vibration, hence the forming of dimensions and planets such as this. What better way to feel and understand love than in a dualistic type setting. I do still believe however, that this dualistic setting was not intended to be taken to the extent of wars and suffering as it has been. Duality in a more pure sense can be seen as a way to see and feel love for another or something. Again it goes back to simple choices that were made of which created the extremes we see today. We still have free will to choose.

When I was growing up I despised riding the school bus and going to school. It felt unnatural to me to spend that much time indoors, in a building with little to no windows and virtually no connection to nature for that matter, sitting in classes that in actuality if they were condensed to the amount of learning time, could have been cut in at least half. The air was stale and often smelled of chemicals. Fluorescent lights buzzed and spilled toxins into the atmosphere. For some strange reason we were not even allowed to open the windows. In actuality we are not spending a good amount of our precious years in a place of peace, but rather the opposite, one in which is creating poor health and division, which will create negativity, which will spill off one another. They cage us into this setting and wonder what happens to us when we reach teenage years. We were most often learning only things that had no relevance to spirit, almost no real tools and skills for us to integrate into our lives were taught. Often I would think what good is algebra if we have no interest in applying it to our life, if we have an unhealthy mind and body, if we are unhappy, or if the economy and the world crumbles.

Then there was health class where teachers would preach regurgitated nonsense in such a convincing way that they simply knew what was best for all of us. They were told this information by some unhealthy business men and women who would suggest to the majority what was healthy for everyone as if they were experts and that somehow our bodies are all identical. Well, often in their eyes we are because that is what they see themselves, and that is what some simply want us to be, working body clones. Somehow to them we were all the same. We were physical body clones, whether it was what we put in our bodies or our minds. If spirit was mentioned by anyone it was in some sort of religious connotation, even spirituality had to have a label and organization of being the same for all. We are individuals, not in the ego sense it is too often related to, by this I mean, not material and external wants that assimilate more of the ego self, but genuine wants and needs of spirit. These are wants and desires of the heart and that is it. The sooner we learn to recognize the difference and apply this, the sooner we are on our way back to contentment and honesty. We should let go of all we were told, it no longer applies. We are individual spirits that have wants, needs, and desires that are genuine and only known to us. We know the difference because these come from the heart only, and they always bring with them compassion.

I had an insatiate need to remove myself from these premises, I thought it strange and perplexing all the ones who seemed to comply or seemed to be enjoying themselves in this false environment. As I got older people seemed even more comfortable with it. I was still as disturbed, but began to wonder if there was something wrong with me. Sure enough that’s what