A Clear Mind: One Man’S Experience of Life After Lymphoma
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A Clear Mind presents a memoir of Robert Tosei Ostermans observations on individual existences, focusing on his thoughts and ongoing practice to purify and calm his mind. A pure mind is able to see all things in their beauty and wonder. A purified mind brings real freedomfreedom from clinging to life and freedom from the fear of death. For Osterman, this clarity only came to him when he sincerely applied himself to the practice of attentiveness. It is his belief that this is the most important thing that anyone can do in life.
He recorded his daily random observations, presented here and arranged under ten themes. He explores the concept of life after death, reviewing his own experience after surviving the randomness of lymphoma and the devastation that it brought to his life.
Is there life after death? Can one be truly happy and free in this life? In A Clear Mind, the ordinary becomes the extraordinary, from the children on the school bus that Osterman drives to the winter scenes he experiences. Follow one mans path toward the clarification of his mind and the journey to make his mind right.
Robert Tosei Osterman
Robert Tosei Osterman has been a practitioner of Zen since 1986. He was ordained a Zen Buddhist monk in 2004. He currently lives a quiet life in a converted granary in rural Wisconsin.
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A Clear Mind - Robert Tosei Osterman
Contents
Preface
Chapter 1: A School Bus And Its Passengers
Chapter 2: Winter Scenes
Chapter 3: Home Life
Chapter 4: People and Places
Chapter 5: Animals
Chapter 6: Observations
Chapter 7: Zen Moments
Chapter 8: Body
Chapter 9: Mind
Chapter 10: Pure Mind
Bibliography
Preface
There is no pain without joy, or night without day. There is no Death without Life.
In 1995 I experienced my mortality, that is, death. I became aware that someday I will cease to exist in this physical form. I do not recall that I had a sense of fear or a feeling of dread. I felt that I was merely an observer who watched the symptoms and the therapy that was taking place in my body.
In March of that fateful year, I was scheduled to have lower back surgery in order to repair a slipped disc. During the pre-surgery physical examination, the lymph node in my left groin was found to be swollen. After a biopsy, I was told that I had lymphoma. After another biopsy of a swelling under my left arm, a culture from my throat because I was losing my voice and the harvesting of bone marrow samples from my back; it was determined that the cancer was localized in the groin area.
This diagnosis was followed by four months of chemical therapy, four months during which time I felt that I was approaching the doorway to death. I had sores in my mouth, but this did not matter because food tasted like tin. At times I had difficulty breathing, and was once admitted to the hospital and given a three pint blood transfusion to increase my white blood cells. I also had to give self-injections for the same purpose. After each treatment, my urine was blue in color, which I thought was funny. Injecting the chemicals into me became an adventure because my veins suddenly turned shy. My digestive system was in chaos, and my energy was at a low point.
The chemical therapy was followed by eighteen treatments of radiation therapy. Compared to chemotherapy, radiation was a snap. A sunburned groin and a burnt lower colon were not pleasant signs, but at least I was able to eat food again.
Following radiation therapy, I had the lower