Life's a B*tch, I'm Still Hangin' On

By L. Gary O'Neal

Independent writer L. Gary O'Neal, releases her first novel from the L. Gary Love Files series...
''Life's A Bitch, But I'm Hangin' On''

• Language: English
• Publisher: BookBaby
• Release date: Dec 25, 2017
• ISBN: 9781543922639

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Gloria was off from work for the first time in weeks. She sat in her housecoat sipping coffee and admiring the sounds of early spring, the buds on the trees and singing of birds. Gloria wondered if her children were enjoying this day. Her parents were raising her children while she worked as a practical nurse and finished college.

Gloria worked six days a week, twelve hour shifts to save up for a home for her children. Gloria’s dream was to bring her children to Chicago and have them attend good schools. She shared an apartment with three other women that had similar circumstances. They all worked long hours and multiple jobs to fulfill their dreams.

Once a year, Gloria would visit her children. When August arrived, Gloria prepared for her journey home. This year was the family reunion and Gloria was happy to see her family and get much needed rest.

Gloria’s mind was not on meeting anyone or even falling in love again, after her hellish, brutal marriage. Jean Nelson married Gloria Woodward when she turned 17 years old and started beating her the first year of their marriage. Gloria suffered two miscarriages during the abusive beatings. At first, Gloria hid the abuse, then the black eyes, busted lips and bite marks were so often, she could no longer try to conceal them. Jean would grab Gloria, drag her, rip her clothes off, bend her over roughly then perform horrific painful sex acts on her. Gloria would faint, she would be covered with bruises and sores. Her spirit had been broken.

Gloria’s parents decided it was enough. This asshole was going to kill their daughter. They took their grandchildren and relocated Gloria to Chicago where a cousin lived. As Gloria arrived in Chicago she prayed, Help me start over God. All I got was beatings and babies. I need a better life and I’m willing to work hard for it.

During Gloria’s vacation, she was introduced to a man at the family reunion picnic. Stanley Hagman, he was Gloria’s age, good looking, tall and well built. Suited, as her mother would say. Stanley kept staring at Gloria with those signature light gray eyes. Gloria felt uneasy with Stanley’s stares at first. Then Stanley smiled widely and started laughing. He asked could they talk for a while. Gloria said yes. She yelled over to her mother’s picnic table, Mama! Is Stanley Hagman kin? Mama yelled back, No Gee, he’s not related to any of us. Not with those gray eyes. We all have dark brown eyes in this part of Chesterfield. Gloria learned from Stanley, they both lived and worked in Chicago. Stanley worked at the main post office downtown and Gloria worked twenty blocks from the post office.

Gloria and Stanley visited each other every day until they returned to Chicago. They kept their relationship going when they returned. Time moved swiftly, Fall, Winter, and Spring. The couple was inseparable. By Summer, they had their own place and were married one year after the reunion. Gloria still worked hard and her dream never wavered. The children would come to Chicago sooner now that she had help in purchasing a home for the children.

Stanley was good to Gloria but she knew she did not love him. She admired Stanley for taking on a ready-made family. Outside of being a good provider, that was it for Stanley. Their love making lacked real passion. It satisfied them but the act needed more effort on both their parts. They agreed to work on different techniques to improve their sex life on their upcoming vacation to Chesterfield. They planned on a two week stay so Stanley could get to know his step-children.

During the trip, Stanley spent time with the children. He took a little too much time admiring Gloria’s oldest daughter Blinda Jean, who was named after her father, Jean Nelson. Blinda Jean Nelson was what you call a thick body, big boned girl. Blinda was twelve and had her mother’s height already. Gloria and Blinda looked like sisters. Two beautiful women in Stanley’s eyes. Blinda Jean was just a gorgeous young pre-teen to everyone else.

Soon Stanley did not take notice to the other two children, 8-year-old Michael and 6-year-old Kimberly. Stanley was so infatuated, he spent time with Blinda Jean every chance he got. He would do all he could to create conversation with her. One evening Gloria’s mother said, Gee, careful, looks like Blinda Jean stole your brand-new husband. The women both laughed knowing Blinda Jean was a 12-year-old child.

Stanley thought of a good idea to get Blinda alone. Gloria, let me teach Blinda Jean how to drive before we leave, he said. If there is an emergency, she can be helpful to your parents. The lessons started out with all the children in the rental car, by the last 3 lessons, Stanley had Blinda Jean with him in the country for hours. The family trusted Stanley and thought nothing of the time Stanley and Blinda Jean were alone. They only noticed Blinda could drive now.

The couple vacationed in South Carolina four times a year until the children arrived in Chicago. Blinda Jean was 16-years-old, Michael 12 and Kimberly was 10 now. Stanley registered the children into private schools. They each had their own bedroom. Stanley insisted the girls have different rooms because of their age and their need for privacy. Gloria never protested, Stanley paid most of the bills so she let him make all the decisions for the family. Gloria was promoted to the head of her nursing department. She had long hours and more responsibilities. Gloria relied on Blinda Jean to prepare meals and assist her brother and sister with their homework assignments. Each night, Gloria would crawl into bed and hug her husband telling him about her busy day. Gloria was finally happy. Her dream had come true, a nice house and her children were living with her. Gloria felt blessed for all her hard work. Late December, Gloria became ill at work with the flu so she drove herself home. When Gloria arrived home, Blinda Jean was home sick in bed. Gloria assumed Blinda Jean had the flu so Gloria gave her medication. Gloria called Stanley and said, Blinda Jean and I have the flu, you have to take care of the children.

After 5 days, Blinda Jean was still vomiting and appeared weaker so Gloria took her to the emergency room fearing she might have developed pneumonia. After Blinda Jeans examination, the doctor requested to speak with Gloria. The doctor asked Gloria, Are you aware your daughter is 5 months pregnant with twins? Gloria was stunned, she could not conceive Blinda being pregnant. Gloria didn’t realize she knew any boys. She had only been in Chicago for 9 months. What would she tell Stanley? Maybe Blinda Jean had a secret boyfriend.

Gloria thought, when did this child have time to have sex? She was either going to school or taking care of her siblings. Gloria and Blinda Jean did not speak on the drive home. When they arrived home, Blinda Jean went to her bedroom and closed the door. Gloria sat down with Stanley and said, Did you know my child was pregnant?! Stanley looked like he wanted to run but could not move. Instead, Stanley repeated, Blinda Jeans pregnant? Gloria said, 5 months pregnant, with twins to be exact. Stanley asked, Did she say who the father was? Gloria said no, I was too upset and disappointed to question her. I will speak with her in the morning as well and call her school. I must sort out this mess.

The next morning, both Stanley and Gloria knocked in Blinda Jeans bedroom door, there was no answer. Blinda Jean left a note. Mama I love you. I am sorry I disappointed you and the family. Gloria sat down on Blinda’s bed and said, I can’t go to work today. I have to find my child. Blinda Jean was on her way to her grandparents to tell them the whole story of how she got pregnant and by who. Blinda Jean arrived in Chesterfield, SC at 2:30PM. Her grandparents were waiting for her at the train station with deep frowns on their faces. Gloria told them she was pregnant. Blinda Jean made up a quick lie. Grandma, this guy at my school was my study partner. We fooled around and I got pregnant. Now Carl won’t even speak to me because I’m pregnant. The wise grandmother looked at the child and knew at once she was lying. But instead she said, let’s go home Blinda Jean.

As Blinda Jean’s pregnancy progressed, things were changing fast in Chicago. Stanley stayed at work later and when he returned home, he kept his distance from everyone. Gloria did not notice he was moving most of his personal belongings out of the house slowly.

By the time Blinda Jean went into labor, Stanley could not be found. May 18, 2000 Gloria received a call from her mother to come home at once. When Gloria arrived at her parent’s home, everyone was quiet like someone had passed away. Gloria went over to the crib where the twins were. Two identical boys with Stanley’s unforgettable light gray eyes. Gloria screamed and fainted. The next day Gloria left Chesterfield never wanting to see her daughter or grandsons again.

Three weeks later Gloria’s telephone rang, it was her mother. It woke her up. She said, Gee, Blinda Jean left yesterday afternoon for the clinic with them babies and did not return home. Gloria hung up the phone, she knew Blinda Jean would follow Stanley, it was just a matter of time before he contacted Blinda Jean. Gloria sat on the bed and cried for her child, grandsons and disgraced marriage. Blinda Jean was ecstatic. This was her first time on an airplane. She was leaving the United States. When the young family finished going through customs, Stanley was waiting with a big smile. He was excited to see Blinda Jeans and his sons. Now their new lives will begin.

Blinda Jeans story

Stanley and I became friends when he married my mother. I loved his eyes. At 12 years old, I let him touch my breast. The next year when he returned to Chesterfield, we started having sex. Stanley was not my first, he was my fifth and the oldest man I made love with. I knew it was wrong but couldn’t help myself. Stanley touched me all over, using his tongue, moving his hands so slowly, then quickly. It excited me. I know I love him. When he contacted me, I will take my babies and relocate to where he is so no one can find us. Stanley’s last words to be were, We will have a future together and I will take care of you and my sons.

Stanley Hagmans story

I loved Gloria as a person but when I laid eyes on her daughter Blinda Jean for the first time, I fell in love. I had to have her as mine. I knew she was 12 years old, yet when I made love to her, she handled herself like a real woman. Blinda Jean was lustful, thrusting, biting, deep tongue kissing, she was starving for love. What Gloria lacked sexually, Blinda Jean fulfilled the need. For three years, I was very careful making sure I did not get Blinda Jean pregnant. When we found out she was pregnant, we both panicked. Blinda Jean ran home to her grandparents and I relocated my job to make a new home for my young family.

Game Players

Starson is one of the most sort after men. He maintains a 4.0 GPA in college, knows what he wants and is willing to work hard to achieve a solid future. Starson has a strong physical drive and works out to keep his bronzed Greek God athletic physique. Starson played college football for three years and had offers from two all-star professional teams. Instead, he accepted an offer from one of the largest law firms in New York City.

Starson wanted to become partner at a prestigious law firm but felt his risky past might affect the firm’s decision about him. Starson had an unforgettable sexual affair during his college years and this could cause a scandal at the firm. No matter how hard Starson tried to bury his past, it periodically resurfaced in his mind. He knew if his past was revealed, it could be the end of ever being a successful partner in the firm.

To Starson, it seemed like decades ago; someone else’s life, not his. It was March, a cold day with strong winds and heavy rains. Starson rushed to meet his study partner, Robert Miller. When Starson entered Robert’s dorm room, Robert was nude so Starson backed out of the room and said, Sorry man, what’s up? Starson felt embarrassed, yet he became aroused when he saw Robert’s nude body. Starson was confused. He had a girlfriend back home, they had sexual encounters he enjoyed. Starson yelled to Robert, See you later! Starson thought Robert had a young woman in the dorm room.

The next few days, Starson could not make direct eye contact or hold a sensible conversation with Robert. Starson kept visualizing Robert’s muscular moist dark chocolate nude body, his tight ass and rock-hard thighs. Starson had a yearning to touch and caress Robert’s massive penis. The thought of making love with Robert dwelled deep in Starson’s mind for weeks.

Starson made every excuse not to meet with Robert to complete their class project. One afternoon Robert cornered Starson after class. Robert asked, Are you avoiding me man? Robert said, We have to talk. Let’s go to the dorm. Robert agreed.

When they arrived in the dorm room, Robert asked, What’s up? Have I offended you? Starson lied and said, I had a family situation at home. I needed to put my mind in proper perspective concerning my family. Robert said,