I, Girl X - a novel in verse
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Carleigh is a 14 year-old girl trying to carve her own place in this world. Her younger brother's mental illness is slowly invading every aspect of her life.
Her family is troubled. Friendships are unbearable. And just when calm begins to seem possible, one night will change Carleigh, and her family, forever.
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I, Girl X - a novel in verse - Annalise Grey
"In the beginning
there was nothing.
When it’s over,
nothing will be all we have left."
SPRING
Our lives were a snapshot of perfect
For years
we were happy
My brother Carson and I
smiled
laughed
got good grades and
lived a life worthy of a crisp photo album
Things changed
as they do
in tiny blips on a radar of calm seas
which grew into storms then
hurricanes
A meltdown in a grocery store
became volcanic eruptions of fists and screams
Dad restraining Carson in his mile-long arms
Carson plays too many video games,
Mom would laugh uneasily
as if the problem could be cured by turning off the PlayStation
I used to laugh alongside her
until I realized third-graders don't normally
use the word
sabotage
in a sentence
nor do they stare out windows
at invisible people
hiding in hedges
Glimpses
Did you check the baton, Carleigh?
Carson asks, his eyes wide
The yard is lit with golden light and
the light breeze tugs at my hair as I
twirl my favorite performance baton
between my fingers
This is serious,
he shouts, making me
drop
my baton
I reach for it but he’s faster
The baton is a thin twig in his thick fingers
At times it’s easy to pretend
he’s joking
as he feels the weight of my green baton, spinning it
this way and that
inspecting the rubber ends for signs of
being messed with
It’s just my regular baton – nothing’s wrong with it,
I say as I snatch it out of his grasp
Be careful, Carleigh,
he warns
Keep it in a safe place where no one can get it.
Why would anyone take my baton?
I ask as
I flip it up in the air and
catch it behind my back
It could be used to hurt you.
Carson’s mouth is downturned and sour-looking
as if he’s accepted a worse fate
I have yet to conceive of
I turn to walk away but he
grabs my arm
hard
fingers digging into my flesh
Let go, Carson!
I say, astonishment overtaking me
before the pain can register
At ten
he towers over me
though I am rather small
for my fourteen years
He's what dad calls hefty
as he pokes Carson in the ribs
now buried under a thick layer
of mac and cheese, pizza, and
golden flakes cereal
The only foods he'll eat
because they haven't been
touched
by the monsters living
within the pantry cabinet
I am the opposite in every way
Pale and wiry – more Dad than anything
dull brown hair tangled in thin strands of too many
forgotten days
not unlike Mom - at least, these days
Be careful,
he growls, his voice harsh and full of terror
Then the pain does register and it’s
burning my muscles
Carson’s grip is like steel, cold and deadly
Hey! You’re hurting me! Carson, let go!
I sense Dad watching us from the back porch
In a flash he’s up from his seat, at a full stride over to where Carson and I stand
locked in a battle
my bony arm bruising beneath his vice grip
Tears spring into my eyes
Carson,
I beg
Ow! You’re really hurting me! Please!
I can’t turn out of his grasp though I try
His nails dig in deeper until I feel a prick and
the hot sensation of
blood
trickling down my arm
Carson,
Dad says calmly but firmly
Let go of her.
Carson just stares at me as if he’s trying to
pry into my mind with an invisible crow bar
Carson!
Dad yells and reaches for Carson’s hand
His fine hands pry at my brother’s fingers, little fragile things against stone
I manage to break free and
swipe at the streaks of blood
Carson explodes,
goes
volcanic
in my dad’s arms
Dad wrestles Carson to the ground and
pins him
beneath his reedy frame
until Carson is exhausted
from fighting and
screaming himself hoarse
The blood on my arm dries in three distinct
half-moon shaped punctures
I don’t even cry this time
The future waits for no one
This Friday, you will tour the high school wing,
Mrs. Burns informs us as
she hands out course selection sheets
Chatter erupts around her
High school is an important step,
she calls over the chaotic
chorus of voices
You all are moving up in the world.
She smiles at us
kindly but knowing secrets
have yet to reveal themselves