Mystical Musings

By Jeffrey Gilbert

Here is a chapbook contains the Mystical Musings of a modern mystic. I have found my way to "God" through binaural beats, plant medicines, meditation, Christian College where I got my Bachelors Degree in Bible/Philosophy, living in a Charismatic house church and holding "free healing" signs at the boardwalk where we lay on hands, travelling in a school bus to Costa Rica, ministering in the garbage dumps in the Phillipines, dancing at Electric Forest, being married twice, skating parking garages all night in San Diego, reading (and experiencing) A Course of Love, A Course in Miracles, Conversations with God, The Way of Mastery, etc. all of which I could taste the words of divine flow down my spine, and more recently just by being (still defining every day what that means).

I have put together some of my poems here with an intergalactic portal at the end. So if your into feeling happy, while exploring the angst of losing your religion these are some reflections of being there in the corner. In the spot light. Oh no I said too much. I set it up. I am hoping to create a community of sharing in which we collectively can share our insights on what life is. God. Love. That we can discuss our experience of God and help each other through the pain that we have inherited that we can together see this world with fresh eyes and hold each other's hand, allowing the race from death to become the valley of flowers in which we are holding hands. Let's get gay, let go of preconceptions and behold the light in each other's eye. I am hoping to put out another book with all my poetry after this, and then a book with all my wild stories going through the battle field with a steady platform where I see there never was war and the shadow's are feared become angels of light.

My long term goal from this sharing is for the world to be touched by a light that has never changed by time and that this love would put a house over every orphan, heal all sickness, and reveal to each heart the perfect love that lives within. There will be a necessary unveiling, yet how exciting to undress from limiting beliefs to come into an experience of unconditional love. I'm in, and I know so many others are too. I can't love alone. That's ridiculous. I need you. Let's do this. Let's form a love community where we express our Self in whatever form feels appropriate to the individual. Let's feed the hungry all the while remembering "you who desire to do much good in this world, realize only you can be accomplished."

• Language: English
• Publisher: Jeffrey Gilbert
• Release date: Apr 1, 2017
• ISBN: 9781370644964

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Mystical Musings

Table of Contents

Introduction

Lithium

God Is

God's an Atheist

True to Marley

PO-em^2

Insecurity, Love, and Ignorance

Angel

Confessions of a Christ

Kumare Kumare

Light My Candle's in a Daze

Losing my Religion

What is Love

Mimetic

3 Point

Galatians 2:20

Questions

High Energy

Breathe

A Course in Miracles

The Whack

Angst

I Don't Know

The Two Will Become One

Requiem For a Dream

The Prelude

Introduction:

Sharing. I am putting together some of my poetry here for the joy of sharing. It has been quite a trippy journey for me on this earth existence. I think my soul is overly sensitive and thus believes and lives each thought to the full. For me this looked like being seventeen and drinking cough syrup so the holy spirit could tell me where the garden of eden is in Lebanon while I read the bible. It also led me go straight edge and get my bachelors degree in Bible and Philosophy at a Christian College. I then lived in a charismatic house church for about four years where we would pray and heal people. I have traveled around the world (and my inner thoughts) sharing the good news. Over time this has simplified as I have felt more drawn into simple life. Like not sharing is the greatest glory. I guess it's like Paul wrote in Romans that those who did not seek me found Me. More so every day I am engaging with life as the highest flow. Not some otherly God which I have to conform my Life to but an all encompassing Life force which is embedded in the very molecules and is felt in spontaneity and friendship. In Tommorow's God by Neale Donald Walsch God tells Neale that in the next experience of God you can be an atheist. All that is important is that you believe in life.

In fact take the words God and life and switch them. Can you say I love life. That is all you need to believe in. I have been coming into this belief slowly. Honestly, I guess I'm just pretty fearful of the god in the sky judging thing and have been hesitant to fully dive into life. Not that I haven't dipped in here and there along the road. But I was all in, like church every day and when not at church trying to align my self. In fact I still have these tendencies. At the drop of a pin I can leave behind all this loose theology and run back to Jesus but even that is taking a different form. I feel like Israel realizing there is no Egypt to return to, except this time it is the desert I am leaving and coming back into the world. I am learning to hear this Christ voice within everything. I am seeing the Jesus I loved is substance which fills the fabric of my experience. I am grasping less outside of my self for a savior and standing up within my own skin. And then I see I was never needing to beg for water but was the ocean itself. Only as I thought I was a wave reaching out over the sand to grasp for home, the ocean, was I dry. But rather now, I am beginning to realize that I am the entire ocean and my expression beating against the land is a celebration not a death. A seed has to die before it gives life, And the death is simply it ceasing it's effort to be anything other then what it is. In acceptance a baby is born. The two become one. Heaven and earth. Husband and wife.

And so with the entire cosmos behind me, and never separate from the entirety I walk hand in hand with the All, trusting the motions of life and love and extending Truth into the void. I'll be blatant here because we are adults. The void is the vagina and to enter your Truth in is to supplant the seed carrying the DNA of life. What a beautiful picture. I feel like this is life summed up. And it is a dance. Not meant to just come to the end but each movement of Ecstasy to be felt through the entire being. I don't need to be you. I can be a unique expression and it is in me standing tall that the winds of the Spirit baptize with a hush. Out of your innermost being will flow rivers of life. If this is too much for you that's okay. As it says in Ezekiel there are levels where you can decide how deep to dive in. The water is warm though, and been brewing for Millenia. So if you will, come with me, on a ride through time and outside of space, where grace brushes our face and we see One human race. Alien and tree. All are me. I will express the depth of my heart for the one called Jesus. I will dance around the truth as love goes after the one. This poetry is reminiscent (yes I will use some fancy words) of Song of Solomon. More than anything I desire to embody my Love. It has taken such different forms through the years. As I child it was just God and as I prayed I felt