The Delicate Sadness

By Pepper Pace

The life that Rosia Banks thought she would live came to a crashing halt with the death of her husband. Now a widow at the age of thirty-seven she must either re-create her life or continue existing in the safety of her loneliness. It takes a man that she has never set eyes on and so different from any she’d ever experienced to show her the way. But is this man who he says he is?

• Language: English
• Publisher: Pepper Pace
• Release date: Feb 7, 2017
• ISBN: 9781370940523

Pepper Pace

Pepper Pace stories span the gamut from humorous to heartfelt, however the common theme is crossing boundaries.Pepper's unique stories deal with taboo topics such as mental illness and homelessness. Readers find themselves questioning their own sense of right and wrong, attraction and desire.In addition to writing, the author is also an artist, an introverted recluse, a self proclaimed empath and a foodie. Please check out her e-book trailers on this page! You may contact the author at [e-mail] the Pepper Pace Newsletter and receive free stories! http://eepurl.com/bGV4tb

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The Delicate Sadness

Pepper Pace

The life that Rosia Banks thought she would live came to a crashing halt with the death of her husband. Now a widow at the age of thirty-seven she must either re-create her life or continue existing in the safety of her loneliness. It takes a man that she has never set eyes on and so different from any she’d ever experienced to show her the way. But is he who he says he is? Warning: graphic sex and language.

Editor:

CeCe Monét

Cover Art:

Kim Chambers

This story is completely a work of fiction. Characters – including their names, places and incidents are products of the authors’ imaginations or are otherwise used fictitiously. Any similarity from this book to events occurring in real life – including locations, or persons living or dead is wholly coincidental.

Copyright © 2013, 2014, 2015, 2016, 2017 Pepper Pace.

The Delicate Sadness. All rights reserved, including the right to reproduce this book or portions thereof in any form whatsoever, except for short excerpts appearing in book reviews. For reprint or excerpt permission inquiries, please contact the author by e-mail at [e-mail].

First published and distributed in the United States of America in August, 2013 in an anthology with CeCe Monét entitled; Seduction: An Interracial Romance Anthology – Volume 1. Copyright © 2013 Pepper Pace.

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Chapter 1

MIMIROSE1989, September 28-I don’t know exactly why I’m writing this. I began this blog two weeks ago and never even made a post. Someone I know suggested that it might help to blog my thoughts. But when I sit in front of the laptop and think about what I should write, all I can think is why in the world would anyone give a damn about what I have to say or how I feel? You don’t even know me so why would you care about this emptiness, this loss that’s so rooted in me that I don’t even remember who I used to be?

But today is a different day. And I’m beginning to realize that I write about how I feel and what I think and maybe someone else might need to write about what they feel and what they think. Maybe they can do that here. Maybe we can just do that together.

So I’ll start by explaining my blog title. I named it The Delicate Sadness after reading an article about Japanese Noh masks. Noh is a traditional Japanese theater where the actors wear masks which depicts their emotions. One such mask is called delicate sadness and is so elegantly designed that it is meant to illicit a sense of sadness from the audience. But its not just about sadness, because with a tilt of the head, delicate sadness becomes a different emotion; one mask with many different facets.

I think that many of us must wear delicate sadness sometimes. I know that I plaster on a face that doesn’t show just how shattered I am. But how else do we stop people from trying to put Band-Aids on our wounds? As if there is anything that can hold together all the broken pieces…

I am so lost. But I don’t want to wear the mask anymore. I just want to be manic when I’m whipping around my already clean house re-cleaning it for the third time! I want to be a zombie when I can’t pull myself out of my bed even if I’ve already been asleep for 12 hours! I’ll be the nutcase because I take Prozac and then suffocated by loneliness when I wake up in the middle of the night because I caught a smell of my husband on his pillow.

Yeah.

The mask stays on because I can’t stand the idea of my friends and family looking at me with the same sadness that I have been trying so desperately to rid myself of. I will just keep tilting my head, plastering on my smile—but underneath I am still the same sad me.

MStyles, September 29 -MimiRose, I hope that by writing out your feelings you succeed in writing away some of your pain. Pain is something I know a little about. But I’m wondering if the article you read was the one concerning the MRI study that was done on a person’s reaction to the Noh masks—particularly delicate sadness. Most reacted to it. I think it was entitled something like; Neural Correlates of Delicate Sadness. The study said that people reacted to it because the emotion had an underlying similarity to disgust or fear. But what I think is that you have no choice but to react to it because there is not a person alive that has not experienced sadness … and it will always touch you when you recognize it in someone else. For that reason, I do not believe that you will have a lack of response to your blog. Good luck.

Rose was ecstatic when she saw that there was a response to her blog post. She re read it several times, liking what MStyles had to say and elated that someone had not only read but had taken the time