Big Bottom Blues

By lucie Buissereth

BIG BOTTOM BLUES is a gripping and emotional story about a woman’s traumatic childhood riddled with sexual and physical abuse and its devastating effects in her adult life. Lucie B takes us through the pain of body dysmorphia, isolation, addiction to food, binge eating disorder, shame, guilt and self-loathing that tormented her long after the abuse stopped. She tells her story from the heart, allowing readers to emotionally connect to her world of pain and suffering. This is a raw and unnerving story that hits the nerve of every woman and man who has been sexually abused, particularly by the hands of a family member. This emotionally vulnerable book helps survivors step through their “Ring of Fire” and to stand strong with the conviction to forge forward.  Big Bottom Blues is more than just a book about healing from childhood rape: it is a story that inspires and empowers childhood abuse survivors to flip the script on their trauma and triumph!

• Language: English
• Publisher: lucie Buissereth
• Release date: May 28, 2016
• ISBN: 9781533719508

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Big Bottom Blues

lucie Buissereth

Published by lucie Buissereth, 2016.

While every precaution has been taken in the preparation of this book, the publisher assumes no responsibility for errors or omissions, or for damages resulting from the use of the information contained herein.

BIG BOTTOM BLUES

First edition. May 28, 2016.

Copyright © 2016 lucie Buissereth.

Written by lucie Buissereth.

Dedication

This book is dedicated to my Father, Mother, Husband, My Little Girl Lost, Lulu, My Tree, and My Fellow Survivors.

Daddy: God took you from me much too soon, but I give Him thanks for the day you looked into my eyes and said, Bravo my Lulu, bravo! How different my life would be if you were here to see me now. Love you, Daddy!

Mother: Thank you for not aborting me in your womb. Our tumultuous relationship over the years left me with sadness and tears. I know you loved me in your own way. For that I give you thanks.

Staffan, My Beloved Husband: Words can never describe the love I have for you. You've proven to me that true, unconditional love does exist. Thank you my love!

My Little Girl Lost, Now Found and Healed: I will never lose you again! 

Lulu, My Beloved Swedish Tree: Without your strength and comfort, I would have never been able to write this book.

Jamie White Wyatt: Thank you for being God’s light and voice on the subject of Forgiveness. Not an easy thing for me, but your counsel and wisdom have helped me gain clarity and a better understanding of my trauma.

My Fellow Survivors, All Around the World: Please continue to stand strong and love yourselves!

Dedication

This book is dedicated to my Father, Mother, Husband, My Little Girl Lost, Lulu, My Tree, and My Fellow Survivors.

Daddy: God took you from me much too soon, but I give Him thanks for the day you looked into my eyes and said, Bravo my Lulu, bravo! How different my life would be if you were here to see me now. Love you, Daddy!

Mother: Thank you for not aborting me in your womb. Our tumultuous relationship over the years left me with sadness and tears. I know you loved me in your own way. For that I give you thanks.

Staffan, My Beloved Husband: Words can never describe the love I have for you. You've proven to me that true, unconditional love does exist. Thank you my love!

My Little Girl Lost, Now Found and Healed: I will never lose you again!

Lulu, My Beloved Swedish Tree: Without your strength and comfort, I would have never been able to write this book.

Jamie White Wyatt: Thank you for being God’s light and voice on the subject of Forgiveness. Not an easy thing for me, but your counsel and wisdom have helped me gain clarity and a better understanding of my trauma.

My Fellow Survivors, All Around the World: Please continue to stand strong and love yourselves!

Table of Contents

Dedication

Introduction

1// My Father

2// My House, That Tree, The Broom

3// Not Much of a Happy Home

4// The Rape

5// Payback Is A Bitch!

6// Social Isolation and Detachment

7// Mirror, Mirror, on the Wall

8// My World of Bingeing and Obesity

9// Knock, Knock, I’m at Your Door

10// Getting Real and Finding the Courage to Heal

11// The Healing Begins

12// My Little Girl Lost

13// Coping with the Aftermath of Childhood Abuse

14// Mirror, Mirror, What Do You See?

15// Triumph Through Telling

16// A Message to My Brother

17// Epilogue

Acknowledgments

About the Author

Introduction

Let’s get real! I’m not going to sugarcoat my journey. My wish is to share my story, as raw and as real as I can.

I’ll avoid nice and fancy words. If you’ve experienced similar trauma, you understand there is nothing fancy or nice about abuse.

There is no way to intellectualize a traumatic childhood and its lasting, devastating effects on survivors. Too often, we get caught up in trying to say and do things in just the right way, to satisfy and please others.

The struggle was, and still is, real. This book is for everyone who has gone through similar experiences. Our experiences connect us in ways like no other.

This book is for anyone who has struggled with loathing his or her body, as a result of rape or sexual abuse. It is for anyone