Conversations With Mother Goddess: Finding Everlasting Peace and Natural Radiance in Your Life

By Natalie Kawai

Part explanation of humanity's origins, and part conversation about how humanity can move into a new and complete future, this book will bend your mind in new and surpassing ways, preparing it for the next step in your soul's evolution. In her ability to talk to the Great Mother of Creation, Kawai delivers the part you have always been yearning for, but never knew how to find. Join others in this exciting journey to restore harmony, creativity, and peace in all of us. Then prepare yourself to help bring about Heaven on Earth!

• Language: English
• Publisher: BookBaby
• Release date: Jul 1, 2015
• ISBN: 9781483556208

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KAWAI

INTRODUCTION

Deep in our matrix, lies a part of ourselves that has never been awakened. We hold within a lost consciousness that longs to return. This energy is our Mother of Creation; She has been denied since the beginning of time for the purpose of evolution. Whether men or women, we all bear that sacred substance within. Its name is the Will, coming from the Whole.

We have come a long way from the dark age of victim consciousness to the New Age where we became more aware of ourselves, applied our tools of creation, the power of thoughts and emotions, and started to release the blocks of our inner game. We have awakened to the Spirit side of Consciousness and are moving in long strides to the creation of our desires and the improvement of our lives.

It is time now to cover the last part of our awakening and restore the Consciousness and presence of our denied Will. However, since this feminine and emotional energy has been repressed from day one of creation, we don’t know how to retrieve it. As long as the Will is not in place, there will be a gap in our full consciousness, and in this gap, ego and duality will still influence our game.

The journey continues….

Deep within, a lack of fulfillment still nags us. No matter what we create and how much we do, there is still something missing. We don’t feel complete since we are indeed not. The denied essence, frozen in its forgetful place, is alive and percolates throughout our emotions, letting us know of its presence—and the need for its retrieval. It portrays the active duality we still have with our point of origin.

The New Era is at the door. It is time for we people of Earth to regain the totality of our substance and abolish duality once and for all. It is our responsibility to ourselves and to the planet—to humanity at large. As we know, we are all one. As long as we don’t own and awaken all of our essence, an ego portion will still be alive within us. And no matter how well we live, no matter how beautiful, sincere, and humanitarian our visions are, we will only carry on the persistence of ego through our creations and our partial being-ness, until we fully awaken.

The New Era is when we stop just emulating Source to feel approved by it through our creations and our success. We have to step up to the next stride, which is to BE our Source and become pure creators without ego interferences anymore. The retrieval of the Will will achieve that purpose.

In this book, I will explore how we can make that purpose possible. Part I is about the origin of creation: what happened in the beginning that left us with lost parts that we have to regain. Part II is a one-on-one conversation with the Great Mother of Creation where I ask her questions about the configuration of our matrix, the meaning of our ego and duality, and what we have to do in order to fulfill the future of mankind in terms of awakening to full consciousness.

I feel very honored and excited to present you with this new piece of information. I invite all of you along for this journey so that we can bring about The New Era of consciousness on the planet.

PART I

THE LOST POWER REBORN

CHAPTER 1

WHAT HAPPENED IN THE BEGINNING

The Lost Consciousness—what are we missing?

In the beginning of time, the womb of creation, our Great Mother, exploded forward to give birth to the first unit of Creation—our Father/Mother, inside of whom, our souls were present. Mother was a magnetic, intuitive, emotional substance, designed to ground the first unit of creation in its original Source. Father was a more volatile, untamed, thought-based element designed to expand the first unit of creation. Conflict arose between the need to ground the creation in Source and the desire to explore. Out of this conflict, Father cast out restrictive Mother so He could have full reign to explore who He was.

Mother was denied; unable to support the creation with Her intuitive, caring touch, She retreated. Father, noting the absence of Mother, experienced guilt, which He continued to deny and went about His way. Meanwhile, inside of the Father/Mother Creation, our souls were imprinted with Father Guilt and with Mother Impotence. Throughout the ages, we have sought to alleviate the guilt through endless and varying acts of redemption, and we have turned to external authority for power.

And so, our souls (all souls) are trapped in a downward spiral of self-condemnation and impotence, taking us further and further from the original Great Mother, or Source. It is now time to right this great imbalance and bring Mother back—into ourselves and into humanity’s consciousness. The time is now!

Because of the fall and condemnation of the Mother aspect of creation, there is a hole in the whole. W for woman has been subtracted from our substance, and we all suffer from the disappearance of the deep, emotional, and intuitive feminine energy. We don’t respect our feelings, our emotions, or our intuition. We may think we do, but at a deep, unconscious level, we are impaired; our acceptance and respect of self are only partial. We have learned through eons how to repress our feelings and bury them under the yoke of condemnation and denial. We want to emulate our Father, the light, and be pure. We want to be perfect, positive, and repress our negative emotions as the shameful, fallen, and unwanted aspects of our humanity.

Our Destiny

What is our destiny as the people of Earth? Why are we here and what are we supposed to do? What is the purpose of life? Why do we die, and why do we have to go through torments, pains, frustrations, and desires that remain unfulfilled? Why do we all dream about a better world?

Whether we admit it or not, we all are haunted by these questions. We try to live our lives in the best possible way to enjoy and create what we want so we can be happy, or at least convince ourselves that we are. We actively create on Earth an emulation of Source that we think will bring us happiness and fulfillment. We mimic our Source to feel happy.

It is, of course, all very good, but deeply incomplete.

Thinking that achieving wellbeing in a material and emotional manner, flowing positive thoughts, and cultivating a good attitude is going to fulfill our ultimate goal is still part of a temporary illusion. It only means emulating Source, mimicking it, but it doesn’t mean we have achieved our true purpose, which is being Source—consciously experiencing what was ours to begin with, the piece of real estate that we used to own in Source.

Merging back with Source in full consciousness is our true purpose, the reason we came on Earth to begin with. To vibrate the likeness of Source and resonate with it from the outside is good. But truly to enter that Source, one has to establish a consonance from the inside, and that can happen by regaining all the elements composing the Self. Then, and only then, will we be a total match, which will allow the world finally to change for the better. Why? Because we will create it from within, from a place of total oneness and purity, beyond all ego controversies, instead of trying to fix it from without.

Who I am

Before going any further, I would like to let you know of my approach, where I was, and how I discovered all that I now know. I am a visionary and a born clairaudient seeker of truth, which means that I have a direct communication channel with divinity, in a constant one-on-one conversation. I can ask questions, any questions, and receive the answers. My tendency is always to go deeper. I relentlessly want to know the why of the whys, and my mind is very sharply formed always to dig further. I am a very old soul, having run the journey of life many times. In this lifetime, my predominant soul agreement, (soul agreements are decisions we make prior to incarnating) was to realize my total self and then to teach others to do the same. So here I am! I will give you what I know directly, as well as in the form of questions and answers with divinity.

In my research, I have been journeying backwards in sequences to the Initial Source, to come back to the very Womb, or point of creation, where we all started. It began with a huge and spontaneous experience of enlightenment, when I recovered all my Spirit. I went through a tremendous implosion-explosion of light and stayed basking in that light for hours, away from all three-dimensional factors of time and space reality. That experience accelerated my thirst for total knowledge and understanding of what our cosmic belonging is. It set me forth on a journey to retrieve the pieces that are underneath our light, a journey into the very matrix of the Essence of Creation.

These parts are the missing link, the pieces of the consciousness that were denied at the time of creation. They got lost and forgotten for eons, and, therefore, became frozen in their abandonment. Because of this missing link, we spin our wheels at the surface of the light of the universe, not knowing that underneath is a space that holds the light. That space is the void; it grounds the light to the core of Source. The light is given birth by the depth of this void, by the desire of the Mother of Creation or Universal Feminine. It is time to reactivate the lost and denied power and root ourselves at the core of truth.

Because my experience of the light through enlightenment had left me with the urge for a grander reality, I had to dig deeper to access more profound truths. I had to be a pioneer and forge a new path. I had to enter into unknown territories, accepting one element after another in a fascinating treasure quest, to approach the un-manifested, or pre-manifested, initial desire of the Universe.

First, I became aware that the Universe’s primary energy is an emotional one. It is a tremendous desire that pulsates from its center out. This energy bears in its womb all the ingredients of creation: the Will, the Spirit, the Heart, and what will become the reflection of Source, the material of self-realization, the Body. The Will is the Mother; the Spirit is the Father. They contain us, the children, and will deliver us into creation. We are inside of them.

The Will, standing from the Whole or Beginning, is the densest material of creation. It is very magnetic and holds everything together. It is the feeling and nurturing part of the essence, and it keeps the creation grounded to its root. The Spirit is more volatile and electrical; it is the scout of creation, the part of the Essence that takes thoughts and initiates. The Heart is the blender; it brings together all the elements of creation so they can flow into Source. It carries the love of the universe, and it is destined to reunite all the aspects of its grandeur. The Body or Matter is the lowest vibrational ingredient of creation; its frequency is slow. It is designed to be the mirror, the reflector of all the other ingredients once it is in place, meaning manifested.

The initial Will, the womb of creation, is a matrix that holds all this material together within itself. One day, the desire brewing incessantly reaches its maximum contention and needs to get out and express. It takes a journey of self-expression in order to know itself or to self-realize. This universal energy encapsulates everything and is capable of forming all the rest. It is called the Will, the magnetic essence that created everything else down the line. It is the Great Mother of all Creation.

That initial core atom is made out of pixels—light pixels that have tremendous power and momentum. They are not activated into being the light we know about; they are dormant and not yet manifested. The Will and the Spirit dynamic is the precursor of the necessary dual mode. In order to have any activity or creativity, two are needed so one can reflect the other, in a reference system. All of that is in the matrix of the Universe, the initial Will, and so are we!

The energy that we call God, the Spirit or Father aspect of creation, is inside with the energy that we call Goddess, the Will or Mother aspect of creation. The initial Will or Essence that will eventually form everything else is the Great Mother, the very Supreme Being who is the source of all creation. She holds everything else in Her Womb. The Great Mother of creation contains all the aspects of creation: the Spirit, Father God of creation, and the Will, Mother Goddess of creation, the Heart and the Body, along with us, the children. All these elements are pixels, and so are we. As the children of creation, we are inside our Mother/Father unit.

When the Supreme Being, Great Mother of Creation, starts to become aware of Herself and what She carries inside of Her, She moves, literally; She has an emotion that is imprinted upon all of us—God, Goddess, and inside them, us, the little pixels. She had been dormant for a long time, in gestation, so to speak. She had always been, and at some point, She awakened and moved! She moved and started to awaken the parts of Her Womb. These parts started to be activated; they wanted to move as well. So they did, and that began the initial prefiguration of the creation, the world as we know it. It is what we call the Big Bang, the initial explosion of all the substances coming out of the womb of creation.

The force from the explosion that created is the very energy, the creativity bursting out of the Great Mother, in Her willingness to know who She is, and thus exploding, creating! In Her matrix, there is a phenomenal desire to know entirely who She is. That’s why She projected Herself out in the form of a twosome: a God aspect of creation and a Goddess aspect of creation. We, the souls, are inside of them! We are the little pixels carried by our creators. The initial Will burst out and gave birth to the first unit of creation: Mother/Father God, or God and Goddess. It is the Will inside the creating matrix, the very substance of the Universe, that pushes the whole outside.

It is of key importance to know this so we can have a further understanding of our origin and the forces at play within ourselves.

And there we were! Expelled out of the initial womb into the twosome of creation: our Father/Mother God and Goddess. The unit was dormant, unaware of itself to begin with, and had to awaken to itself. We were inside the bubble of the first unit of creation, inside our Mother/Father God. We are like newborns, unaware of who we are. Then there is a movement, the Mother second generation moves and imprints that movement onto the Father, the spirit, who doesn’t like it to begin with because He doesn’t know what that is. He can’t identify a feeling since He is a thought, and He doesn’t know as yet that the feeling is His other part, His other reality. In His lack of knowingness, He pushes Her away! She is what She is—emotion, movement—and She does what She does, mirroring, feeding back on what He does, so He knows. Her role is to keep the creation grounded into Source. He is what He is, thoughtful initiator and analytical. He reacts by condemning what He feels. Because feeling, or movement of energy, is not who He thinks He is to begin with, He condemns feeling, denies it, and pushes it away! It is just a normal reaction of the Spirit who has to assert who He is in order to find out about Himself.

That was the most important and drastic event in the history of our creation. Because at the very moment, when He, the Spirit pushed against She, the Will, He radically condemned a huge part of the unit they were. A huge part of their original package became split, and of course, was imprinted onto us like a genetic message, since we were inside of them! We all started our journey with a condemnation, a denial of a part of who we are. The Mother was denied and fell into rejection. The will was lost to begin with, and we all suffered from the deprivation of a part of ourselves that is vital. We were imprinted, along with the Father/Spirit, with a lack of Self-acceptance that has reflected upon our history ever since. We all were impaired, afflicted by a profound sense of rejection and powerlessness that would play a crucial role in our storyline.

Of course, that was part of the divine plan of self-realization and evolution. A part of the consciousness had to collapse to create a dynamic in the matrix