Diary from Flame of Love: - to know NSA better -

By Qiufu Yang-Möller

I had a boyfriend who could not stay in my life because of his secret job. But one day I sensed suddenly that he has come in my life again.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Books on Demand
• Release date: May 21, 2014
• ISBN: 9783735776136

Qiufu Yang-Möller

Ich bin in China geboren und aufgewachsen. In China war ich Tänzerin, Moderatorin, Schauspielerin, zuletzt Redakteurin, Autorin, Regisseurin und Produzentin beim Fernsehen. Seit 28.11.1987 lebe ich in Deutschland. In Deutschland habe ich folgende Bücher geschrieben und veröffentlicht: 1. Geheime Mikroinformation 2. Orchidee der geheimen Liebe 3. Geständnis einer Pflichtverteidigerin 4. Diary from flame of love 5. Kochkunst aus China 6. Mottos of life 7. Qiufu Architecture 8. Das Schicksal einer chinesischen Künstlerin in München

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D:

( in Facebook )

You look good and beautiful. I am appreciating your beauty. I would like to be your friend and to know more about you. Hope to read from you soon.

Y:

Thank you very much for your writing. You can know more about me in my homepage www.QiufuYangMoeller.de.

Where are you? I am in Munich and I have just come to my home. Now it is at 18:04 o’clock in Germany.

D:

Thank you for your reply. I am from Dublin. But I work in London. I am always a busy person, kindly. Send me your e-mail in other I can tell you about myself. Call me please, so that I can hear you. My mobile number is: 0044-xxxxxxxxxx

Y:

Hello D.

Now I take time to answer you.

I was born in July 3th, 1958 in China. In China I was dancer, presenter, actress, at last became editor, author, director and producer at Television. At that time I wanted to go to Hollywood to become a film star. But I met one German who was my love of my dream and looked somehow like David Copperfield. So I came to Germany and wanted to live with him forever.

In Germany at first I studied German Language at elementary school and Kiel University very hard for over 3 years and wanted to be best wife, mother of world for my husband. But in 1992 our situation became too complicated suddenly to endanger our life and we could not change it. To rescue us I left my husband in 1995 to live alone in Kiel. But my husband thought that I did not love him, otherwise I did not leave him. Therefore my husband tried to forget me and accepted one woman in his life until today. Now my husband understands me finally. But I do not want to return to him to destroy his life with that woman.

In 1997 I moved from Kiel to Munich, because I wanted to work at Bavarian Film City and wanted to put in my patent application direct at German Patent Office and European Patent Office in Munich. Unfortunately because of my situation I could not achieve to work in Bavarian Film City and after I had put in my patent application at the patent offices I was attacked by one very big man in my flat suddenly. One week later eyewitness Mrs. Reiter died and I was put in a psychiatry for over two months!

In 2003 I was put into other psychiatry for over 5 months!!

In 2005 I was put into one forensic facility for over 5 years!!!

Before I was put into the forensic facility, some very kind and beautiful gentlemen and boys had visited me and spent night at me often who because of their secret jobs could not gave me their real names and addresses. I had given them my love, because they took care of myself and protect me…

My situation of today is still very complicated, because the criminals are still free who had put me into the psychiatric facilities and forensic facility. The background of my situation I can not publish still, therefore I can not tell you here more.

I would like to see the very kind and beautiful gentlemen and boys again and give them my love still…

D:

My dearest Y.

I was so much excited to read your writing and to hear you angelic voice.

Thanks so much for taking your time to write me in spite of your busy schedule. Content of mail well understood and noted. Thanks for the beautiful pictures. You are really an angel and thanks also for the good command of English and I will never let you go.

I do not know how to approach this with you on line, I have been fighting a battle within myself, my heart says I should tell you how I feel, but my head tells me not to be stupid that it would just cause damage to our friendship and that you would not be interested.

I wish that you were here or that I were there, or that we were together anywhere. How I wish I could be there with you, but distance has kept us apart. Apart physically, but in spirit, you are always in my heart. Friendship which has been tested by distance and obstacles and has passed… That is true friendship. The test of true friendship is not when we are together. It comes when we are not together and realize that despite the distance, thoughts and feelings are still there. I just wish you could see how much you mean to me. God has reason for allowing things to happen.

Everyday I wake up thanking God for us. Because what started out as an internet contact between us has now turned into a strong bond between two friends who have now discovered the true meaning of friendship the natural way, in making us feel the joy of what it is to be real friends. All I know now, it that throughout this past few days, I have learnt a lot from this friendship of ours and I have seen what it is like to give yourself completely to the other person when you are so far apart. The most important thing I have learnt, among many more things, is to trust and to be sincere to you.

From the day I came across your profile, I knew that you would turn out to be a good friend and you have more than proved that. Whenever you think of me, please know that no matter how many miles separate us or now much of our lives comes between us, you are and always will be the true friend I desired all this years. I thank God for giving me the privilege to meet you. Though the miles separate us, the bond we have is far stronger. You are the only one I have spent all these few years looking for. And now that I have found you… no distance can separate us. For now, I am contented with the progress we have made and I assure you that with time our communication rate will improve.

Thanks for making my life so much more meaningful and giving me a reason to live again.

My job will be taking me to Australia by tomorrow for a month. Before I go I would like to hear you more.

Y:

Hello D.

I have just found that my last writings to you are not to see here. Why at all? Yesterday you have said to me that you will write to me and call me today. Unfortunately I have not received the both. Is it right?

D:

Ohhh baby it was not my fault. I tried to call you but the signal was bad. I'm so sorry honey. I've been inside the Engine room of the ship all day, I am so busy…

I guess you had a wonderful night baby.

D:

My love:

I just can't get you out of my mind. I really want to be close to you because a lot has been running through my head lately. I'm having trouble putting my thoughts into words, so you will have to bear with me through this.

I keep thinking about the future, about life, and what I want out of it. I keep thinking about us and what this relationship means to me. I keep thinking about these things and I realize they go hand in hand. This relationship is my future, it's what I want out of life. I want to grow old with you. I want to experience this crazy love forever and ever, and I really think I'm going to get to experience it. I want us to walk through new houses picking the one that would be just right for us. I want to see you walk around our house in a big t-shirt with your hair down and catch me and I am staring at how gorgeous you are. I want you to pull the covers off me at night and then I have to get even closer, if it's possible, for you to keep warm. I want to see you laugh like crazy at me when I do stupid stuff. I want to rub lotion all over your body because you lay out in the sun too long. I want to hold you when you cry and smile. I want to fall asleep every night with you in my arms. I want you to fall asleep on my chest listening to the beat of my heart and know it beats for you. I want you to be the first thing I see when I wake up and the last thing I see when I go to sleep. I want to see your rough morning hair; I know it will be so cute. I want to sit on the beach with you and watch the sun set, and I want everyone to see and envy the love that we obviously have for each other.

I want to see you walk down that isle and I want to take your hand for the rest of my life. I want to spend all night, and maybe the next day, making love to you with an undying passion. I want to be Sixty years old and still make out with you like a little kid. I want to cook a meal with you