The Unmaking of Rabbit

By Constance C. Greene

A lonely boy learns to come to terms with the challenges in his life

Eleven-year-old Paul tells himself that it doesn’t matter that the kids call him Rabbit, or that he doesn’t have any real friends. He’s been living with his grandmother, but one day soon, he knows his mother will call and tell him to come live with her, and then his life can really begin. But somehow it looks more and more like that call may never come.

When the opportunity arises to make some friends, Paul is thrilled—unless it means he’ll have to do something he knows is wrong. But when the unexpected happens, Paul decides it’s time for him to takes charge of his life, no matter what the cost.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Open Road Media
• Release date: Feb 10, 2015
• ISBN: 9781504000987

Constance C. Greene

Constance C. Greene was the author of over twenty highly successful children’s and young adult novels, including the ALA Notable Book A Girl Called Al, Al(exandra) the Great, Getting Nowhere, and Beat the Turtle Drum, which is an ALA Notable Book, an IRA-CBC Children’s Choice, and the basis for the Emmy Award–winning after-school special Very Good Friends.

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Paul pretended not to watch his grandmother as she sucked in her cheeks and salted and peppered the quivering surface of her poached egg. More than anything, Paul hated poached eggs. To him they looked alive.

"If your mother wants to get herself tied down to or up with—whichever way you look it—another ne’erdo-well, that’s her business. However, if you think I’m going to offer her any advice, you’re very much mistaken.

If there’s one thing I’ve learned, she said before taking the first bite, it’s not to sit in judgment on other people. Nobody’s perfect, I always say. Least of all you—she pointed her fork at him—or me, she added, with less conviction.

Paul scooped up a heaping tablespoon of cereal and ate it with his eyes closed, imagining himself blind. It tasted almost like Cracker Jack, he’d put so much sugar in the milk. He kept his eyes closed and ate until he figured he’d reached bottom.

What on earth are you doing? Gran asked. You’re spilling all over everything.

I was pretending I was blind, Paul said, wiping the spilled milk with the back of his sleeve. There were only a few drops left in the bowl, which he put on the floor for Flora to lick. Lots of people didn’t like to eat from dishes cats had used, even after they’d been washed, but Paul didn’t mind. Gran insisted on using water so hot it practically took off your hand. There was no germ living that could withstand the temperature of that water. She did the washing, Paul the drying.

Gran said, That’s not very nice. Count your blessings.

He waited for her to say, That really hit the spot. She almost always said it after a meal, especially after eating a poached egg. Gran enjoyed food. Paul could take it or leave it alone. With Gran, mealtime was an important time of the day. She got a certain expression on her face when she sat down at the table that let Paul know how much she was enjoying herself.

Gran got another piece of bread from the breadbox and ran it around the edge of the plate to get the last drop. The plate looked so clean when she’d finished that Paul thought she could have put it back in the cupboard without washing it and no one would ever know.

The trouble with your mother is she doesn’t think things through. She acts on impulse. That and the fact that she is still a child. She will always be a child, I’m afraid. She is selfish and willful, just like a ten-year-old.

I am eleven, Paul thought, so that lets me out. I am almost twelve. I’m pushing twelve and Gran’s pushing sixty-six, and I am neither willful nor selfish. It’s Gran, mostly, that gets her way.

Gran wiped her mouth with a paper napkin; then, spitting delicately on it, she dotted up the crumbs from the table.

I like a neat house, she said as if for the first time. Still he waited, and still she didn’t say, That really hit the spot. It was a disappointment but not one he couldn’t bear.

You want me to get your holder, Gran?

There’s a good boy, she said.

Gran had her first cigarette of the day after breakfast and her last with the gin and ginger ale she drank at night to help her sleep. She didn’t believe in smoking in bed. That was a dangerous practice, she said. Set yourself afire that way, you could. Didn’t she herself know of at least four people who’d gone that way? And that was a terrible way to go. Burns over seventy per cent of the body. Imagine.

Paul had burned his hand once with hot grease, and the pain of that had been so excruciating he refused to think of it any more.

Gran never smoked without using her holder—a long, thin, elegant black one that she handled jauntily. Paul thought she looked cool with it, like somebody in an old movie. He had never seen anyone else in real life who could use a cigarette holder as if it were part of her.

The holder had been a present from Paul’s grandfather, who had died before Paul was born. In Gran’s opinion, the best man who ever lived, even if he was a bit short-tempered at times, God rest his soul.

They went to put flowers on his grave every year on the anniversary of his death. Paul liked to check the other gravestones to see what they said. He was always careful not to run, for fear of disrespect for the dead. He liked the ones that said, Killed in action, Guadalcanal, November 14, 1942, or Lost at sea, July, 1, 1917.

If those people had been killed on Guadalcanal, which Paul found out was one of the Solomon Islands in the South Pacific where the United States had beaten the Japanese in World War II, then who was buried there under the earth? And how about the guys who’d been lost at sea? If you were lost at sea, Paul figured, that was it. They’d never get you up out of there, that’s for sure. Were there bones in those coffins, or were they empty? He had asked his grandmother and she’d said, That’s a good question, an interesting question, and changed the subject, which meant she didn’t have the answer.

The holder was on the table beside Gran’s chair in the living room. She had had the table refinished at great expense and, right after, she’d burned a long, dark, angry-looking ridge into the glossy surface.

Never again, she had said grimly. Paul suspected she meant that never again would she have the table refinished, not never again would she be so careless as to inflict such a burn.

He sucked on the holder going back into the kitchen. It made a juicy noise and tasted rather unpleasantly of stale smoke.

Thank you, she said, inserting a cigarette. Paul took the matches from the counter and struck one.

Never did I see such skin, Gran said as he bent over to light her cigarette. He hated the word skin. He didn’t know why. It embarrassed him.

Even when I was young, I never had such a complexion. Nor your mother either. What skin to be wasted on a boy. She reached out to pat his cheek, and Paul smiled and drew away at the same time. He bent down and picked up Flora from where she sat like a setting hen on the hot-air register, her fur billowing softly. He squeezed her until her slanted eyes popped and her tail waved furiously.

Old fat Flora, Paul said, squeezing her harder. He often thought of strangling her. It would be so easy if it weren’t for the look in her eyes. Probably he’d never forget the look in her eyes if he strangled her, so it wasn’t worth it.

A dog would be a much nicer pet than Flora, but Gran didn’t want a dog. There’ll never be another like Colonel, she said every time he brought up the subject. Colonel had been her dog before she was married, the only dog in captivity ever to climb a ladder, to hear Gran tell it. Colonel used to climb the ladder up to