Mortified: Love Is a Battlefield
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From starter girlfriends to escapist fantasies to delusional attempts to stand out amongst their peers, Mortified: Love Is a Battlefield revisits the boundlessly embarrassing topic of childhood love, uncovering priceless artifacts of authentic teen angst that tell of unrequited crushes, awkward hookups, odd celebrity infatuations, and all manner of romantic catastrophes. The now older (and allegedly wiser) authors of these letters, lyrics, and journals bravely share their shame in stories that range from sweetly hopeful to borderline psychotic.
Everyone who ever obsessed over whether that guy or girl in algebra class liked them, or, y'know, liked them liked them, will relish this funny and touching valentine to our collective past
David Nadelberg
Mortified is the creation of David Nadelberg--a writer/producer/angstologist living in Los Angeles, the official town of public humiliation. Since 2002, he has sifted through hundreds of journals belonging to strangers and edited them into comedic pieces. He has written and produced numerous TV pilots for places UPN, VH1 and Comedy Central that were so amazing, they never even aired.
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- Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5This compilation of teenaged angst had its moments, but they were few and far between. More squirms than guffaws for me. I seem to prefer my adolescent agony fictionalized- it's way less dramatic that way.
Oh my gawd, I could die when he looks at me... yeah, yeah, yeah.
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Mortified - David Nadelberg
REPORT CARD:
Praise for both Mortified and Mortified: Real Words. Real People. Real Pathetic.
A cultural phenomenon.
—Newsweek
In this captivating collection, otherwise normal adults willingly revisit the heartbreak and hilarity of their teenage writings.
— Entertainment Weekly (Must List)
Horrifying and hilarious.
—Glamour
Unbearably intimate… completely funny!
—The Onion’s A.V Club
These readings capture just how wrong-headed we can be, back when we were teenagers.
—Ira Glass, This American Life
In a world where people are obsessed with Google and MySpace, you’d think a book exposing the private love letters and diary entries of strangers would be anticlimactic, but David Nadelberg has compiled the best and, well, most mortifying into a riveting book.
—Jane magazine
A first-person collection of pining at its finest.
—New York Post
Enlightening.
—Esquire
Excruciatingly funny!
—Marie Claire
Hilarious!
—USA Today’s Pop Candy
*If the only way to heal painful high school memories is to laugh at someone else’s painful high school memories, this book can accurately be labeled the antidote.… Illustrated with great awkward-phase photos, this treasure-chest of confusion and angst will make readers squirm and smile with the realization that, as Nadelberg put it, ’we were all that same strange kid.’
—Publishers Weekly (Starred Review)
Heartbreakingly hilarious tales of personal woe and social catastrophe.
—Flavorpill
Indulge in this collection of cringe-worthy (and often hilarious) stories framed with insight from their now grown-up writers.
—OK!
The most woeful tales of teenage anguish.
—Reuters
Spreading the new gospel of awkward all over the land.
—DailyCandy
It makes readers laugh and… reminisce about their own fumbling attempts at expressing hormone-fueled emotions.
—Chicago Tribune
You won’t be able to put this one down.
—ELLEgirl
Embarrassing, hilarious, and just plain wrong.
—BUST magazine
"Mortified is ungainly innocent and awkwardly charming with a bite of reality." —Entertainment Today
MORTIFIED
Love Is a Battlefield
MORTIFIED
Love Is a Battlefield
COLLECTED BY
DAVID NADELBERG
Contributing Editors:
Shay DeGrandls
Annette Ferrara
Anne Jensen
Nell Katcher
Scott Llfton
Jenny Ruth Myers
Giulla Rozzi
Brandy Barber
Heather Van Atta
An imprint of Simon & Schuster, Inc.
1230 Avenue of the Americas, New York, New York 10020
www.SimonandSchuster.com
Text copyright © 2008 by David Nadelberg
All rights reserved, including the right of reproduction in whole or in part in any form.
SIMON SPOTLIGHT ENTERTAINMENT and related logo are trademarks of
Simon & Schuster, Inc.
Designed by Yaffa Jaskoll
Manufactured in the United States of America
First Edition 10 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1
Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data
Mortified : love is a battlefield / collected by David Nadelberg. — 1st ed.
p. cm.
ISBN-13: 978-1-4169-5479-8 (pbk.)
ISBN-10: 1-4169-5479-1 (pbk.)
eISBN-13: 978-1-4391-8810-1
1. Teenagers’ writings, American. 2. American wit and humor. 3. Adolescence—Literary collections. 4. Anxiety—Literary collections.
I. Nadelberg, David.
PS508.T44M666 2008
810.8’09283-dc22
2007033690
MORTIFIED Is about our
relationships to memory.
This book is for Judy, who continues to offer a
lifetime of great memories.
—Shay DeGrandls, Poetry Notebook, Age 18
THANGST!
We’re thrilled to have the following BFFs in our lives to offer the support that helped make our second book possible: Ben Acker, Sarah Faith Alterman, Anne Altman, Curtis Armstrong, Bill Barminski, Marty Barrett, Leah Bathe, Ben Blacker, Judy Blume, Jessica Bogli, Bill Byrne, Lia Buman, Meg Cabot, Cheryl Calegari, Hillary Carlip, Karen Corday, Egan and Susan Danehy, James Denton, Andi Gabrick, Eddie Gamarra, Annie Girard, Green Mill Lounge, Anastasia Goodstein, Kirsten Gronfield, Abby Gross, Annabelle Gurwitch, Angel and Kevin Herlihy, Perrin Iacopino, Dmitri Johnson, Sydell Katcher, King King, Thomas King, Krista Lanphear, Erica Lies, Kiki L’Italien, Makor, Make-Out Room, Frank Matthews, Erika May, Mo Pitkin’s House of Satisfaction, Sarah Grace McCandless, Kevin McDonald, Matt McDonald, Marc McTizic, Bruce Miller, Stephen and Judy Nadelberg, Tim Owens, the Paradise Lounge, Shaun Parker, Elena and John Pellegrino, Mark Phinney, Ed, Pingol, Busy Philipps, Sascha Rothchild, Jami Rudofsky, Eddie Schmidt, Adam Schwitters, Will Seymour, Simon Spotlight Entertainment, Law Tarello, Kevin Tidwell, the staff at This American Life (Ira, Jane, Julie, Jorge, and more), Christian Wolf, Elijah Wood, Anne Woodward, Megan Zabel, Gwynne Zink, Jason Zwolinski, the Mortified After School Orchestra (Renee Albert, Gordon Bash, Mark Beltzman, Andrew Glazier, Ethel Lung, Adam Smith, and more), all our fans everywhere.
Finally… thanks to our fearless editor, Patrick Price, for agreeing to throw all time-honored rules of grammar out the door.
INTRODUCTION
As adults, we’re fascinated by the subject of love and lust. Ballads dominate pop radio. Sex scandals stalk CNN. Dating sites boast more subscribers than most magazines.
As kids, our curiosity about romance is even more intense. After all, we don’t just like someone. We like like someone. We don’t just flirt. We fixate.
The voices captured in the pages that follow are like brave little explorers surveying foreign soil, desperately hoping to make sense of the terrain. Some are cautious. Some are reckless. All are clueless. Imagine Lewis and Clark lost in the pages of a Judy Blume novel.
We spend our whole lives trying to understand that terrain. Hell, even asexual people—from monks to Morrissey—struggle to make sense of it. And regardless of whether we are pining for it, experiencing it, or alienated from it, each of us manages to emerge from the ashes of adolescence with our own personal interpretation.
From the first kiss to the first rejection to all the thrills that fall in between, the following entries chronicle our early awkward attempts to understand the one word that we never quite master anyway: love.
Through delusional displays of celebrity obsession, prudish outbursts of hand-holding, and disturbing sexual awakenings, whatever we discover about romance during our adolescent expeditions is what we carry with us for the rest of our lives.
As such, we hope you’ll see this collection as we do: an overdue Valentine to those confused kids we left behind on the bright yellow bus.
After all, they deserve some action.
A NOTE TO THE
READER
To protect the innocent, awkward, and angsty, some of the names, dates, places, and other identifying details in this book have been altered.
Sadly, everything else is true.
As is the nature of Mortified’s commitment to authenticity, no language has ever been added to the source material or rewritten for the sake of entertainment. Material is selected and then presented around unique narrative themes that emerge from the author’s life.
In short, these kids really wrote this crap.
TABLE OF CONTENTS
Introduction
A Note to the Reader
Shay DeGrandls /Goth Girls Need Love Too
Leslie McLean / The Biblical Sense
Justin Jorgensen / Looking for Love in All the Wrong Places
Lorelei Hill Butters / The Art of Love
Laurent Martini / Introducing Live Evil
Sherry Richert Belul / Good Cheer
Jane Cantillon / My Life as a Biker Babe
Maurissa Tancharoen / Dissed
Charles Young / The Pussy-Whipped Playa
Angie Lawson / The Joy of Nimoy
Liz Black / Foreign Affairs
Lucinda Blackwood / Cowgirl
Leonard Hyman / The New Girl
Jennifer Anthony / Speechless
MCC / Angry Erotica
Kate Augustine / Head Games
Erin Carter / Fast Food Romance
GJ Echternkamp / Male Chauvinist Geek
Laura Chapman / Down with Whitey
Lacy Coil / Escape from Planet Texas
Brian Polak / The Year of Living Poetically
Karen Corday / My Imaginary Valentine
Jami Mandl / Corporal Punishment
Colleen Kane / Heavy Metal Heartache
Sean Sweeney /I Need a Hero
Johanna Stein / Stairway to Winnipeg
R.P. / Parents Just Don’t Understand
Carrie Seim / Sexual Harassment Essay
Scott Lifton / The Starter Girlfriend
Boni Joi / Breakup Poetry
Marnie Pomerantz / Hot for Teacher
Matt Berck and Kirsten Gronfield / Dueling Diaries
Kevin Wofsy / Back into the Closet
Nellie Stevens / Playing House
Epilogue: What the Hell Happened?
In high school, some girls were worried about not being able to get dates. I was worried about not being able to get murdered.
I had convinced myself that I was completely unlovable. I attempted to have the upper hand, however, by purposefully making myself appear undesirable so I wouldn’t have to worry about actually being undesirable.
I presented myself as a miserable wreck of a girl— tangled disarray of black hair, paler than a ghost, always walking around looking sullen and angry. Outside, I looked like a depressed mess. Inside, however, I was really just one big raging hormone. I often fantasized that Robert Smith, the lead singer of the Cure, was totally in love with me. Obviously, he couldn’t really be in love with me on account of the fact that I was unlovable.
So in my lonely yearning I wrote many poems in my journal—a black book on which I scrawled Book of Depression
in black puffy paint. These helped me get out my teenage sexual frustration and were a way to let Mr. Smith know how exactly I felt about him.
Untitled
So you say you have
always wanted to commit
a murder and get
away with it?
Kill me. PLEASE.
Wrap your long, white,
wedding-banded
fingers around my throat,
look into my eyes with
your small, brown irises
until mine drop into blackness
and my sight
and breath are gone
forever,
kiss my purple-tinted lips
with your red-stained ones
until mine are stained with
your loss.
no one could ever murder me
as well as you,
my god.
And no one ever will.
Untitled
The flat character
looks up at him
The sad, unsatisfied god.
She is worried, so she prays.
It is no help.
He is too sad to grant wishes
or answer prayers.
She wishes she could do something
but it is no use
He is in a world too far away
for her to see or smell.
Untitled
Speeding along in my compact space of metal, glass
and rubber
I feel like God—able to do what I please to anyone I
please.
Synonymous to the red blood cell on the rural
Artery on the way home.
I can see far ahead of me on the highway
As I realize that there is another vehicle
Coming from the other direction.
I recognize the driver—my love for him immense.
I race faster towards him, my heart beating
And increasing with the speed of the car.
I can feel warmth like no other as I envision
My vehicle moving into his lane and
Realize that I have already done so without
Enough time to turn back.
Blackness.
I open my eyes to see that the artery has
Burst, across my windshield the blood is
Spattered in a mixture of flesh and glass.
The idol lay dead, his face inches from mine
Which is stuck on-to the steering wheel.
But he is not dead yet, he moves,
Enough for me to look into his eyes
And ask him if it was as good
For him as it was for me. I stop,
Knowing that the line was too commonplace for
The God on my windshield, so I closed my eyes and
shuffled off this mortal coil.
In high school I vacillated between being extremely horny and a very active member of the Ukiah First Presbyterian Church youth group and Bible study. As such, I was a militant virgin and a compulsive masturbator.
Over the course of six months I set out to find God, only to discover something else as well.
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Sexual frustration. I constantly dwell on this subject. Perhaps God put trials on earth for people and mine is good-looking beautiful males. It is the thorn in my side-that which prevents me from furthering my spiritual growth. I need to be gently touched, physically, emotionally, spiritually. I touch others, but Jesus is the only one who touches me.
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I was