Disrupter

By Michael Puttonen

When Borsar, the murderous priest, arrives to ask Sanyel for help in rescuing his son from a madwoman's cult, she has every reason to be wary. Her former foe says he has changed, and claims that Sanyel herself set him upon his current humble path. No one believes the fat priest, and for good reason; his past is a bloody one. Despite her doubts, Sanyel agrees to assist the man, but complications arise.
A detour to the far side of the mountains through a mysterious tunnel leads to unexpected peril in the land of the Cruxun, a belligerent people who enslave or kill all outsiders. Borsar proves a valuable and surprising companion as Sanyel and friends seek a way out of their dilemma. Assisting them is the advantageous knowledge that Sanyel resembles a legendary figure from Cruxun history. A surprise awaits their group when the mysterious tunnel, a remnant of an advanced culture from the distant past, reveals its hidden purpose.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Michael Puttonen
• Release date: Mar 26, 2013
• ISBN: 9781301909995

Michael Puttonen

Michael Puttonen is a Minnesota native and writer of action/adventure novels with a touch of fantasy. He honed his craft writing short stories before expanding into writing full-length adventure novels. Always an avid reader, his tastes include an eclectic variety of genres and styles that encompass storytellers both past and present. As a writer, he feels an affinity for action and adventure and loves fantasy for the freedom it offers in creating alternate worlds. His direct influences include the pulp fantasy of E.R. Burroughs and the historical fiction of Bernard Cornwell. His SANYEL series features the adventures of a young, gifted female shaman as she confronts a male-dominated world. This ongoing series currently includes the books SANYEL, DISRUPTER, CIRCLES AND STONES, and BONES OF THE GODS.

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DISRUPTER

Michael Puttonen

Copyright © 2013 Michael Puttonen

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~~ONE~~

Before this world, there was another. The present world has no name, but its inhabitants knew the previous one as Dar. The present world is primitive by comparison, for Dar was a wondrous world where metal birds sailed the skies and metal fish swam beneath the seas. It was an advanced world of invention and innovation where brilliant minds sought to untangle the intricate riddles of nature and existence. These curious minds opened one too many boxes and unleashed the mechanism of their demise, a demise that was swift, ugly, and all-encompassing—or, so they believed. In desperation, they sought salvation by preserving a few volunteers in a suspended state, locking them inside a secret facility until some future date when it would be safe for them to re-emerge and repopulate the world.

They needn’t have bothered.

Others survived and repopulated for them ...

An odd beast appeared on the southern horizon. An oval head with wide eyes showed first, followed by an elongated neck, then lastly a thick body propelled by four powerful legs. The droove was heading my way in a meandering fashion, and by shading my eyes, I determined its burden, a lone rider slouched forward, his arms dangling.

I strained my sight to determine the slumped stranger’s identity as his droove slowly made its way across the high-grassed plain to where I sat astride an identical beast. I couldn’t see the man’s face, but I recognized his apparel ... a robe colored light blue. It had been almost a year since I’d seen the like, and its unexpected reappearance was not a welcome sight. I rode my droove out to meet the mystery rider.

I am Sanyel, shaman of the Sakita tribe and recently turned sixteen. My father, the late Nanki, was our tribe’s medicine man until his recent death. With the demise of his successor, Pilkin, I ascended to that position, with the title coming to me only after considerable personal peril and controversy. Until a year ago, the dictates of our tribal law prohibited women from fulfilling the sacred duties of a medicine man. These were reserved for males by mandate of the sun god, Ra-ta—at least according to those same males. Women could not perform the intricate dances necessary in holy rituals, speak the sacred words, or practice the healing arts, all of which were required duties of those desiring the position of Ra-ta’s interpreter.

From the day of my birth, my father had defied those laws and secretly raised me to be a full-fledged shaman, only to have our heretical actions discovered shortly after his death. Though I expected capital punishment, my tribe imposed instead what everyone agreed was an equivalent sentence—banishment to the merciless Desert of Bones.

Surviving that peril by the grace of Ra-ta, I found myself thrust into a personal war with an ambitious people intent on conquering and enslaving the known world. Along with a small band of friends, I helped expel these ruthless aggressors from our land and free my tribe. As a result, the tribal council lifted my banishment, and thanks in significant part to the efforts of Semral, our greatest warrior and now council chief, I found myself unexpectedly named shaman.

Before encountering the strange rider on this early summer day, I had been hunting, tracking an elusive animal. I had managed to separate a porse from its herd, and I had been chasing the shaggy-headed, fast-fleeing beast across open grasslands. I had followed the porse into a stand of kanser trees, but I soon lost the trail. Upon exiting the stand onto a grassy plain dotted with low hills, I had spotted the rider to the south.

The broiling afternoon sun stabbed at my exposed arms and legs as I eased my droove into a slow trot toward the intruder. Pricking heat rays penetrated my scalp despite the protection of abundant blond tresses that sprouted from it. High humidity in combination with the heat had my short, sleeveless tunic soaked with sweat as I watched for any unexpected movement from the slumped man astride the distant, oncoming beast. I held my spear ready, for strangers were usually enemies in my culture, and sighting the man’s blue robe made me extra cautious. Priests of a people called the Spood (an absurd name that I had once likened to something you might cough up) wore that robe. Despite the laughable name, the Spood were not a people easily dismissed, for I had yet to meet one of that tribe to whom I would willingly expose my back.

As I closed upon the man’s droove, I spotted its reins dragging the ground. The plump rider appeared unconscious, or perhaps even dead, and when his droove swung around to grant me a full view of its passenger, I inhaled sharply. The man’s curly red hair jolted me, for I was acquainted with but one overweight priest who sported such fiery locks. Could it be him? Could this be Borsar?

The rider’s droove came to mine and the two beasts nuzzled. I commanded my droove to kneel so I could dismount, and then I approached the limp figure aboard the other, whose precarious position aboard his beast showed him in danger of sliding from its back. I reached out to guide his heavy body to the ground, but I did not succeed, for the man’s considerable weight propelled him downward more quickly than I anticipated, causing him to slip through my grasp. His broad back landed hard on grass that barely cushioned his fall. Lucky for him he was unconscious—or dead—and did not feel the fall’s effect.

I took a moment to examine the puffy face now turned up to me. It was Borsar, the fat priest. Memories of our confrontation a year ago flitted through my mind. Back then, the priest had been an ardent follower of the false god, Gor-jar, an entity visible to humans but one that had no actual flesh or consciousness. The Spood had spent centuries in the ghastly and grisly worship of this deity, feeding untold numbers of human victims to a god-beast that wasn’t what they thought it was.

I had witnessed the Spood cruelty in service to this god, experienced firsthand their arrogance, and fought against their soldiers, the insufferably overconfident Creet. I had gazed at the white bones of my shaman predecessor, the hapless Pilkin, bones that had been cruelly left hanging on the wooden sacrificial abomination known as the grottis. Satu, a disabled boy I had befriended, and who I had inadvertently prevented from becoming shaman instead of Pilkin, was also a victim. The man lying prone before me had murdered them both.

The Spood had sent this man, Borsar, to govern our lands, lands once safely enclosed behind the high fence known as the Kodor Mountains, a ring of peaks that had for centuries cut us off from outsiders. With our tribe invisible and unknown to others, we had weathered the years behind those protective walls, living out our lives within a vast green bowl that included grasslands, forests, abundant water, temperate weather and that teemed with wildlife, the lifeblood of our hunter culture. The infamous Desert of Bones to the south, with its seemingly impassable sands, had been our buffer against invasion from that direction, and the mighty river Raso had shielded us from constant harassment by the Raab, our former foes to the north.

Then, it all changed. A year ago, the Spood rode drooves across the desert, a desert we once thought uncrossable. They discovered the mountain passage leading into our isolated lands. They slaughtered and enslaved us, Sakitan and Raab alike, and we later learned that their ambition was to dominate all corners of the known world.

They did not succeed. With the help of my spirit animal, the ferocious, green-skinned can-rak, and the powers of an unusual bracelet of bones given to me by my father, a small group of friends and I, assisted by freed Sakitan and Raab tribesmen, managed to evict the Spood occupiers. Since that time, the Sakita and Raab tribes had put aside enmity, and now we cooperated in mutual defense against future incursions. None had occurred, but now here was the murderous Borsar, a man our tribe had sent away and never expected to see again, lying still on the ground before me.

As I contemplated what to do, if anything, Borsar’s chest moved. A low moan escaped his lips, disproving my assumption that his stillness signified death. I could certainly change that reality by hastening the priest’s journey to the afterlife; I could thrust a rik-ta (short knife) blade into his heart and save us both from the awkwardness of an unwanted reunion.

Lucky for Borsar, I am not like him; I am not a murderer.

And, to be fair, the last time I saw the priest he had apparently changed his ways. He had readily accepted the demise of the ravenous god, Gor-jar, and had shown a willingness to embrace again the sun god, Sester (known as Ra-ta to my tribe), the traditional Spood deity. That I had something to do with that change of heart was undeniable, for I had spelled out to the defeated Spood the kinder and gentler attitudes I expected them to cultivate, attitudes I told them Sester (Ra-ta) demanded they embrace.

That part I had made up, of course, for I have no clue what a sun god might want, but it was better than telling them to go on killing and enslaving. Still, Borsar had not convinced me that his conversion to that philosophy had been genuine.

Now, here he was again on our soil, apparently alone, and in no condition to be a threat to anyone in his current state. His droove carried an empty waterskin, and I wondered how long it had been since the priest’s blistered lips had touched liquid. Ra-ta, the sun (my tribe calls both the sun and the sun god, Ra-ta), had disfigured those lips and burned his skin such an ugly red that it now complemented his unruly hair. His body fat appeared diminished from what I remembered from our last encounter, though it would be far-fetched to claim he had slimmed down to any degree.

I stepped to my droove and retrieved my half-full waterskin. Kneeling, I poured a small portion onto the priest’s swollen lips. He immediately stirred, his eyes fluttering open. He jerked as if in fright, lifted his head to glance around, and then settled his sight on me. He stared with no recognition for a moment, then something registered, and he made a weak attempt to reach out his arms. I pushed them down to offer him another sip of water, and he eagerly accepted the warm liquid, grabbing the skin from me and swallowing as if its nectar rivaled that of the rare quana fruit.

As Borsar gulped down the water, I waited, and when he desired no more, I took the skin from him and placed it aside. Appearing refreshed, he gingerly propped himself up onto his elbows, all the while eyeing me, no doubt attempting to gauge the meaning and level of my unexpected graciousness.

I— he began to speak, but then he needed to clear his still raw throat before continuing. I had to come, he managed to utter, and in his inflection was a plea to hear him out, reinforced by an imploring look.

Well, you’re here, so what do you want?

I hadn’t meant the response to sound so harsh, but the Spood priest’s past transgressions still rankled, and it was hard to pretend they didn’t.

Please, Disrupter, I had no one else to turn to.

Disrupter. I hadn’t heard that word used for nearly a year. Only the Spood called me by that name, a name they feared—and with good reason. A year ago, my friends and I had entered their world and left ruin in our wake. Now, here was a man from that damaged world, a man once feared, who now seemed fearful himself.

I need your help, Disrupter, Borsar was saying. It’s my son ... Do you remember him?

Did I remember him? Hard to forget the chubby, arrogant little pup. While I was in the clutches of slave-traders who were about to sell me to the Spood, he had demanded I fetch him water. I refused. For disobeying his instruction, the boy had gotten his father to present me as a sacrifice to the Spood god, Gor-jar. Fate, however, intervened to alter that plan.

Yes, I recall the boy.

He’s a prisoner of Danara, and—

Who? I interrupted. Who is Danara?

Borsar’s eyebrows lifted in puzzlement.

Danara, wife of our former high priest, Smerkas. He seemed surprised I didn’t know the name. I knew Smerkas. I had killed him. I had also met his high-haired wife during my brief time as a Spood slave, but no one had spoken the woman’s name in my presence until now.

Why is the dead priest’s wife holding your son? I asked.

She has gone mad!

Borsar had seated himself in an upright position, and he demonstrated his agitation by a sudden upward sweep of both arms. He grimaced. The unwise movement gave the priest a sharp reminder of his cruelly sunburned skin.

Some say her reason fled when she learned of the death of her husband, Borsar continued after carefully lowering his arms. Others claim it was witnessing the vicious beasts you sent into our city attacking and dismembering her friends that did it. I do not know. All I know is that she is not right in the mind. She took my son and other children of Spood families who wanted to embrace the sun god, Sester—as you told us to do. She claims we must declare devotion to another god, and she summarily locks up those who refuse to do so. She wants to indoctrinate our children into worshipping this new abomination. She is insane.

So, if you still worship Sester, why are you not imprisoned along with the others?

I escaped Grell (Spood capital city and fortress) before her Creet followers could seize me. I had friends who assisted, and I thank Sester for their courage.

After speaking the sun god’s name, Borsar brought up his right hand and winced from the pain. Through force of habit, he touched a finger to each of his shoulders and then to his navel, pantomiming the sign of the grottis (Y). It was the symbol of the old, deceased god, Gor-jar, and I wondered if the priest was even aware that he still practiced this once common but now pointless ritual in deference to a vanished deity.

Borsar waited for me to respond. I contemplated his disturbing news but soon realized it held no particular interest for me. It was merely the same excrement always expelled from that malformed Spood culture. I had thought these ridiculous political and religious games behind me and that the Spood would be well on their way to implementing the reasonable and compassionate society I had encouraged them to build.

Why do your people always gravitate toward this type of nonsense, priest? I said, irritated. What power can this one woman possibly have over you? Did not the can-raks I sent into Grell destroy most of those who ruled your empire, those who championed your slave culture, as I instructed them to do? Why is this single woman so feared?

Borsar eyed me the longest time before venturing to answer. His face showed he had much to say, with his forlorn sigh indicating that I did not know the half of it.

"After your tribe had conquered our army and we first returned home from your land, we had great enthusiasm for the instructions you had given us, and we were all for implementing Sester’s wishes. We entered Grell and were stunned to find our home city and the entire fortress empty, devoid of life. Decaying bodies, ripped to shreds by your unholy beasts, lay everywhere. We later discovered that those who still lived had fled to the countryside outside the gates of Grell and were only now returning after observing the can-raks departing a week prior to our arrival.

These survivors told us of the gruesome massacre that had occurred, and it was as you said, only the most ardent supporters of the culture, the leaders, their backers, other devotees among the population, and those who foolishly challenged the can-raks, met with that fate. Unfortunately, some of those targeted by the beasts managed to hide, and they lived to torment us again. Danara was one of them, and with her previous position as the high priest’s wife, she quickly rallied others to her side and soon took over the government.

As Borsar spoke, I shook my head. I had not expected such a rapid revival of the old order, but I should have. I knew some would be clever enough to avoid the jaws and talons of the green beasts. I had hoped it would be just a weakened few. I had hoped those returning with this exciting new vision for their lives courtesy of Sester and me would persuade the majority to follow their lead.

Danara escaped the can-raks, Borsar continued, and came to power afterward thanks to—and I feel embarrassed even to say this (his already red skin managed to flush a deeper hue)—thanks to the help and advice of a—uh—a droove.

I thought at first that I hadn’t heard the priest correctly, but then I realized that my ears were fine and had not turned perfectly intelligible language into garbled mush.

Help and advice of a droove, you say.

I struggled to keep a straight face and then said, What did it tell her? Where to find the best grazing? How to chew her cud more efficiently?

Borsar did not laugh, for the ludicrous nature of the news he carried must have been apparent to him long before he sought to burden me with it. To him, it must have long ago lost its appeal as humor—if it ever had any. And although it should have surprised me more, a talking droove fit right in. The high priest’s wife formerly took directions from her late husband, who was a porse’s ass, so a droove serving the same function did not seem all that unusual.

I appreciate your amusement, Disrupter, Borsar was saying while clearly showing he did not, but I’m afraid it’s true. I have witnessed the droove speak. I was once at a gathering and heard the words coming directly from the beast’s mouth.

This day had started out a happy one for me. Porse hunting is an exciting and enjoyable way to fill one’s summer day. Somehow, that enjoyable day had turned into this. I should mount my droove and speed away, far away from Borsar and his talking animals. Why I continued to participate in this conversation was beyond me. Perhaps the bizarre subject was so patently Spood that I felt compelled to let it play out. I hadn’t had a good laugh in a while, and the Spood, with their propensity to find and embrace the moronic, were always good for a chuckle.

How can you be sure it was the droove speaking? I asked, that being the obvious question. Perhaps someone else spoke, someone standing near the animal.

I was no more than five paces from the beast, insisted the rotund priest. I saw its mouth moving, and no one was near it.

Not having been there, I could only take the priest’s word for it. In my short life, I had come across some rather unusual situations involving the inexplicable. I possessed a few talents myself that one could easily say fall within that realm. Who else could toss a rik-ta or spear with the accuracy and strength of the sun god, Ra-ta? Who else had the power to control animals with a bracelet of bones or to direct the ferocious can-rak by merely speaking to it? So this tale of talking drooves was perhaps not as bizarre as it appeared on the surface.

I stood, brushed strands of grass from my legs, and then returned my attention to the sitting Borsar, saying, So, what is it you want of me? Why should I help you with anything? You seem to forget that I know who you are and what you have done.

The red-faced man stared up at me a moment, and then he painfully rolled himself to one side and struggled to his feet. He stood before me, resolve stamped into the rigid set of his facial muscles. His voice displayed both frustration and determination as he said, I have done everything you asked of me, Disrupter. I have followed the ways and words of Sester as you explained them to me. I trusted in your assurance that Sester had returned to guide our people. I prayed and prayed for the sun god’s help in freeing my son and all the others from Danara’s madness, but there was no answer. I doubted you and Sester, and I was tempted to turn back to Gor-jar.

As he continued to speak, Borsar grew excited, and his tale of despair changed.

Then, one day, I witnessed a young girl singe her fingers when a hot ember spit out from a fire. Immediately, I thought of you and of the harsh red burn that marks the palm of your right hand, the symbol that made all Spood aware that you were the prophesied Disrupter, the person forecast to one day come and bring our destruction. And although you did bring tremendous upheaval to our culture, you also brought us words of wisdom and returned us to worship of the sun god. When the child’s burn reminded me of this, I knew Sester desired me to seek your assistance. I have come because you are the only one who can save my son and the other children.

Wait a minute. Borsar was getting ahead of himself. Why would he assume Sester was pointing him toward me? Why assume it was the god influencing him at all? My experience in dealing with the sun god, whether you call him Sester, Ra-ta, or even the female name, Mim, has convinced me that one can never be sure if the deity is directing you, playing games with you, or just ignoring you. Though people assume I have a personal relationship with the sun god, I do not. I intuit his assistance and guidance, but I have never met with or spoken to the deity. If Sester expected me to help Borsar with his problems, he didn’t tell me. Still, how had the priest’s droove found its way directly to me in all this vast land if not by divine guidance?

Borsar stood before me, still shaky and weak from dehydration while I troubled over his unwelcome interference in my lately acquired contented existence. My tribe was at peace, my duties as shaman were fulfilling, and I could satisfy my appetite to experience the thrill of the hunt whenever I wished. Why would I give that up to assist a man I had no reason to like or trust?

The anxious priest could wait no longer for a response. Please, let us go now, Disrupter, he pleaded. We can reach Grell in a few weeks, kill Danara, and free my son.

Why do you assume I will go anywhere with you? I asked, angered by his persistence. You have murdered hundreds, most likely more. Some of them were people I cared about. You deserve nothing but my contempt. I should slide my blade into your gut and watch you slowly bleed out.

Shock at my unexpected ire caused Borsar to take a step backward. He bumped into his droove, which, startled by the sudden contact, proceeded to bolt, soon accelerating to an astounding speed as it sprinted across the plains, heading south.

Come back here! Borsar shouted. Come back, you miserable creature! The beast ignored the command, fled over a low hill, and vanished from sight.

Borsar’s injunction was to no avail, for he was trying to persuade an animal that was a very poor listener and an even worse obeyer. A droove will do as a droove does, and imploring it to act as the sun when it knows only how to act as the wind is a futile exercise.

The redhead stared forlornly after the vanished beast, and his shoulders drooped. He turned to me, lines of defeat etched across his pudgy face. His double chin sagged as if being pulled into an abyss as dismal as that holding the black waters of Fuld.

I was actually feeling sorry for the fat bastard.

What do I do? the wretch moaned. What do I do now? He turned his view to the south as the droove reappeared on a distant hill. The beast was barely discernible, having diminished in size to a dot, and when it headed down the far side, it was the last sighting we were to have of the creature.

How do I get back to Grell, to my son?

Borsar turned to me with a pathetic look, making me almost want to pat him on the head and reassure him as one might a despondent child. Almost.

We’ll go to my camp and get you a new ride there, I told him, masking my empathy with a brusque tone. We have plenty of drooves to spare, and we can look after your burned skin and fill your stomach with food.

Oh, thank you, thank you Disrupter! Can we then leave immediately afterward to rescue Porlak?

Porlak? What’s a Porlak?

It was a rather insensitive thing to say, I grant, knowing full well he spoke of his imprisoned son, but resistance to such temptations when dealing with a man such as Borsar is not easy, especially when the boy’s name lacked even a hint of poetic charm. The priest, however, did not notice, for he was riding an emotional high, believing I would accompany him to the land of the Spood and solve all his problems—a scenario unlikely to occur.

I’m sorry, Disrupter. I apologize for not informing you. Porlak is my son’s name.

This obsequious side of Borsar was rather jarring, for he had once embodied an invariable arrogance and unflinching callousness, and he was thus no icon of the meek or compassionate. Could this miraculous transformation into a humble and courteous human being be real? My doubts about that had existed from the moment I informed him of Gor-jar’s demise and identified myself as the Disrupter a year ago. I had thought the defeat of his Creet soldiers and his resulting precarious situation had merely forced him into a shrewd and calculated move to appear compliant. I saw it as his convenient way to preserve his skin. I had fully expected him to revert to his old brutal self once removed from my sight, but no evidence supported he had done that.

Down! I commanded my porse, and he responded, folding his legs beneath him as he settled lower to allow mounting. I motioned for Borsar to climb aboard.

Shielding my eyes from Ra-ta’s late afternoon rays, I felt the caress of a variable light breeze as I led the droove west through softly rippling, waist-high grass. Our current camp lay at the edge of a kanser forest not far distant, and I could already spy the darkness of its hirsute spires. We had occupied that location on the wood’s edge for a month while trailing a slowly migrating porse herd of considerable size. The hunting had been rewarding, resulting in full pots and satisfied bellies. I had looked forward to a lazy, relaxing summer of easy hunts and pleasant times with my friends, but now a red-haired priest had arrived to shove a cold blade into those warm expectations.

Disrupter, may I ask you something?

I glanced at the plump man astride the droove, but Borsar didn’t allow me a chance to grant or deny permission, for he went ahead and asked anyway.

Do you believe in redemption?

How do you mean?

Do you believe a man with a certain, ah, questionable past, can redeem himself in the eyes of Sester if he embraces his holy values with unreserved passion?

If you’re talking about yourself, I don’t have an answer for you. I have always believed that the sun god knows you by what’s in your heart. You may speak of peace, love, and acceptance, but if you don’t believe or practice what you’re saying, then it rings false and Sester will know. Will he forgive one’s sins? I don’t think the sun god works that way. I believe he wants you to learn, and if you choose certain paths, he’ll allow you to follow them and work things out for yourself. If you choose an evil path, are you doomed? I once thought so. I thought that the inevitable destination for one so inclined was to drown forever in the black waters of Fuld. Now, I wonder. The spirit world exists, this I know. So if physical death is not the end, then what is the purpose of living such a short span in a physical body only to spend eternity being punished for what you did in that brief existence? There has to be a broader meaning and purpose to physical life.

Borsar then interrupted my rambling discourse, looking for clarification.

Are you saying you believe one can do anything in this life and not be punished by Sester in the next?

No, that’s not what I’m saying. What I’m saying is that I don’t believe it’s the sun god’s wish to punish. I think he allows us to punish ourselves. He gave us free will, I believe, and then stood back to see what we would do. It appears to me that Ra-ta—that’s the name we Sakitans know Sester by—is conducting a grand experiment. I have come to believe that we are slowly progressing up a spiritual scale, both as individuals and as a species.

But how can one progress if not given the time to do so? asked Borsar. How can I possibly repair all the damage I admittedly have already done? I could die tomorrow, and my intent to change would come to nothing.

My father once told me he believed time does not exist except in our world, I responded. He believed that the spirit world was the true world, where time is meaningless. He said living a physical life is but a small part of our overall reality, so not everything has to be accomplished within its short span. My father believed there are many physical lives, separated by short or long sojourns in the spirit world. He believed that when you pass into spirit, you see the true nature of things. There, you learn what you did right and where you wronged others so you can evaluate your actions and seek to redress those wrongs. Your method to accomplish this is up to you, and you can always ask for higher guidance in deciding. My father believed that most choose to come back into physical as another person, another created part of that person’s eternal soul.

How can that be? Borsar expressed. If we have been other people in the past, would we not know this? We have no memory of such.

"I asked this same thing of my father. Are we