Broke

Written by Mark Berry

Narrated by Mark Berry

These poems were mostly written in 1987 while recovering in Clifton, Bristol, in England. It heralded the start of a huge change for me, and I felt broken. The love of my life had just come to a messy end, and I’d been hitting the LSD too hard. Things felt beyond my control, and I now had to learn how to wait out the wounds for the first time. I began to write, to compensate for the anxiety and emotional state that I was struggling with.

Bullets of Madness

I’m standing awaiting
caught in commotion
as the voices call through a veil

I hear them and fear them
even need rescuing
they make me aware of the nail

that drives through our senses
when alone it commences
to obsess me in sweet delusions

the nail it pierces
my heart as it fleeces
the last of courage from my mansion

as I tasted the apple
I quaked and my rattle
fell out from my innocent hand

I learnt of your lessons
obeyed your deceptions
and was made to fit into your plans

and now I can feel
the noise of the void
as the motion slows to a halt

feels like I’m dying
I’m scared of trying
to make sense just to please them all

I was shot down
as the black limousine
slowed to a glistening halt

the devil climbed out
his gestures obscene
my fears all came bleeding out

I knew he would laugh
as I fell to the ground
he had won the final bout

shot with bullets of madness
or bullets of sadness
my heart ached ‘til it wanted to stop

I can’t understand you
my mind burns with fire
I always just wished to belong

alone is no home
just broken desire
I’ve been shot down for being in love

• Language: English
• Publisher: Author's Republic
• Release date: May 29, 2019
• ISBN: 9780648327196

Mark Berry

Mark Berry grew up with stories of the sea. His father was a marine engineer and would come home on leave with tales of places like Aden, Hong Kong and San Francisco, all hugely exotic sounding to a boy growing up in 1960s Britain. After reading about the tragedies of Titanic and Lusitania , an interest in liners followed – and so started a lifetime of collecting books, ephemera and items from all kinds of ships. Now retired after thirty-eight years in the property industry, it seemed only natural for Mark to share some of the items in his collection. Mark and his wife Val have two grown-up sons and live in rural Devon with their cats and chickens. When they can, they enjoy escaping to sea on a cruise liner or, even better, an ocean liner.