Your Blue Is Not My Blue: A Missing Person Memoir

Written by Aspen Matis

Narrated by Susannah Jones

From Aspen Matis, author of the acclaimed true story Girl in the Woods, comes a bold and atmospheric memoir of a woman who—in searching for her vanished husband—discovers deeper purpose.

Aspen’s and Justin’s paths serendipitously aligned on the Pacific Crest Trail when both were walking from Mexico to Canada, separately and alone—both using thru-hiking in hopes of escaping their pasts. Both sought to redefine themselves beneath the stars. By the time they made it to the snowy Cascade Range of British Columbia—the trail’s end—Aspen and Justin were in love.

Embarking on a new pilgrimage the next summer, they returned to those same mossy mountains where they’d met, and they married. They built a world together, three years of a happy marriage. Until a cold November morning, when, after kissing Aspen goodbye, Justin left to attend the funeral of a close friend.

He never came back. As days became weeks, her husband’s inexplicable absence left Aspen unmoored. Shock, grief, fear, and anger battled for control—but nothing prepared her for the disarming truth. A revelation that would lead Aspen to reassess not only her own life but that of the disappeared as well.

The result is a brave and inspiring memoir of secrets kept and unearthed, of a vanishing that became a gift: a woman’s empowering reclamation of unmitigated purpose in the surreal wake of mystifying loss.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Brilliance Audio
• Release date: Jun 1, 2020
• ISBN: 9781799753612

Aspen Matis

Aspen Matis is a writer living in Greenwich Village, where she's finishing her degree at The New School and working on a novel.

Reviews for Your Blue Is Not My Blue

[kim pine · Rating: 5 out of 5 stars]

Wow, such a shift from beginning to end extremely great book. Really enjoyed it roller coaster ride for sure. The oddity of the whole story seemed quite explained. At the end. Still, I was left with wandering how Justin could just disappear and never ask about Aspen kind of leaves a hole, but life is strange for all of us

[frank Williams · Rating: 5 out of 5 stars]

Having just completed her first book this is a very honest inward look of this woman learning about herself

[Katherine A Kelly · Rating: 1 out of 5 stars]

I listened to the first book bc I really love adventure autobiography especially women authors. I have listened to quite a few and A Girl in the Woods wasn’t one of my favorites I was interested in listening to this book. It’s a DNF for me. While I hurt for her and her trauma as a survivor for SA I place no judgements on her healing. I do place judgments on her poor life choices she continuously makes (not her rape) but the constant need for toxic males. Not sure why therapy never was a bigger priority. I hate writing this bc I am judging her life but that is what this book was about and it is just reading poor choices after another. Marrying a man when you are 20 who is ten years older who refuses to work sponging off parents and floating through life. Dropping out of college over and over. HAVING THE LUXERY to play at life like this. Getting so many amazing opportunities to write a book but continue to push your luck by extending your deadline with extension after extension. Drinking and stealing over and over. It just glorified being a waste. No shock the guy you married left you. He sounded unstable. It was so hard to read this book with so many horrible red flags. Not that I think the trail fixes your life but it’s clear little to no growth occurred for her. Most of the reviews on Good Reads do s good job explaining how annoying this autobiography is.

Oh. Also the excessive descriptions didn’t paint the world in a unique light. It just solidified the authors delusional self importance and refusal to grow up.