It’s hard to imagine that 30 years of adulthood have gone by since that launch issue of Top Santé! Although adulthood feels quite recent, I do feel as if I’ve changed, and that the world has also changed dramatically too. That’s quite exciting because it would be depressing to look back on that amount of time and go, “Yes, the same old me”. Part of the joy and pleasure of life is the idea of evolving, so I’m quite relieved to look back at 30-year-old Mariella and think, “What a baby”!
Back then, I had a very complicated relationship, both with food and cigarettes. If I was happy, I ate normally and would be reasonably slim, and if I wasn’t happy, I ate anything and everything I could lay my hands on and would get even more unhappy about putting on loads of weight. That awful destructive cycle of self-loathing and self-harm
