“How could I allow myself to mourn what I had lost? Because if I mourned it, then it was like a death, and I couldn’t accept that the me that I knew had died.”Producer: Whit MissildineEditor: Whit MissildineToday’s episode featured Stefan Weiner. As a musician, he goes by Stefan Alexander and you can hear more about his music on his website at www.stefanalxndr.com, on Instagram @stefanalxndr, or look for Stefan Alexander on any music platform.You can now find new and archival episodes of This Is Actually Happening completely ad-free, on Stitcher Premium. For a free month of Stitcher Premium, go to stitcherpremium.com/wondery and use promo code WONDERY.thisisactuallyhappening.comInstagram: @actuallyhappeningEpisode Sponsors: Ancestry: ancestry.com/happeningDaily Harvest: daily-harvest.com Promo code: HAPPENINGFabFitFun: fabfitfun.com Promo code: HAPPENINGIntro Music: "Illabye" - Tipper Music Bed: “Cylinder Four” “Cylinder Five” – Chris Zabriskie Outro Music: "The Moon is Down" - El Diablo & Adam Schraft (Rojo y Negro) @eldiablosf @rojo-y-negro www.eldiablobass.com/