Aurelia, Aurélia: A Memoir
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An eerily dreamlike memoir, and the first work of nonfiction by one of our most inventive novelists.
Aurelia, Aurélia begins on a boat. The author, sixteen years old, is traveling to Europe at an age when one can “try on personae like dresses.” She has the confidence of a teenager cultivating her earliest obsessions—Woolf, Durrell, Bergman—sure of her maturity, sure of the life that awaits her. Soon she finds herself in a Greece far drearier than the Greece of fantasy, “climbing up and down the steep paths every morning with the real old women, looking for kindling.”
Kathryn Davis’s hypnotic new book is a meditation on the way imagination shapes life, and how life, as it moves forward, shapes imagination. At its center is the death of her husband, Eric. The book unfolds as a study of their marriage, its deep joys and stinging frustrations; it is also a book about time, the inexorable events that determine beginnings and endings. The preoccupations that mark Davis’s fiction are recognizable here—fateful voyages, an intense sense of place, the unexpected union of the magical and the real—but the vehicle itself is utterly new.
Aurelia, Aurélia explodes the conventional bounds of memoir. It is an astonishing accomplishment.
Kathryn Davis
Kathryn Davis is the author of six novels. She has received the Kafka Prize, the Morton Dauwen Zabel Award, a Guggenheim Fellowship, and the Lannan Foundation Literary Award. She teaches at Washington University, and lives in Vermont and St. Louis, Missouri.
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5I am occasionally reminded that pretention and breathtaking intellect are not irretrievably bonded, that they can exist wholly independently. Kathryn Davis has provided me with a beautiful, graceful, moving proof of that fact.This very brief memoir in essays about the woman she is and her relationship with her late husband, Eric Zencey who taught and wrote about economics, philosophy and climate change. Though it is clear that Zencey was a brilliant, loving, and supportive mate, parent, and academic this book is not about him other than in relation to Davis and their daughter. The focus here is on Davis herself, She shares her illusions about who she was going to be back when she was a student traveling by ship to her European study-abroad on the ship Aurelia, from which the book gets its title, and about the way things actually unfolded. It is about her growth traveling alongside this man (and earlier, briefly, as a single woman and with her starter husband.) It is also about our place on this planet (Davis and Zencey are/were passionate advocates for the planet, and she says of Zencey that he considered the entire planet to be his personal home.) It is about rage and beauty -- she is very knowledgeable about music and talks a lot about Beethoven, about how his experience of and feelings about deafness found their way into his spectacular later work. The work is unfiltered, but not in the cringey sense, rather in a radically honest and vulnerable way that is instructive and truly moving. Also, the writing is transcendent. This is prose, but in the nature of poetry there are no wasted words, no clunky dumbed-down transitions. Davis trusts the reader to move with her, to fill in some pivots, and I was never lost, I knew where I needed to go and loved the process of melding with her and trusting her guidance. This requires careful reading and that care and time is rewarded tenfold.This is the second book this year that I have read that made me double down on why Dirtbag Massachusetts was a bad book. After reading this I think I see what Isaac Fitzgerald was trying to do in that book and how he failed. After reading that book I had issues with the form, and those issues are now gone. Used correctly this form, a memoir in moments of decision, of quiet passion, pain and joy succeeds like nobody's business. Now I need to edit my Top 10 nonfiction books of the year list.One additional note -- the number of books in my tops of the year from Graywolf Press (Danez Smith, Percival Everett, Kathryn Davis and more) is pretty amazing. I think I need to just start reading whatever they publish.
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Aurelia, Aurélia - Kathryn Davis
Time Passes
There are points in your life when you think you’re about to become whatever’s next. I was sixteen; I had read the entire Alexandria Quartet and I thought I was an adult. I had read sentences like Watching her thus, trapped for a moment by a rare sunbeam on the dirty window-pane, I could not help reflecting once more that in her there was nothing to control or modify the intuition which she had developed out of a nature gorged upon introspection
and had understood nothing except the stupendous effect the language had on me. Empty cadences of sea-water licking its own wounds, sulking along the mouths of the delta, boiling upon those deserted beaches …
The first time I inhabited Alexandria it was as a sixteen-year-old high school student living in Philadelphia, the second time, as a twenty-three-year-old married woman living on a Greek island. I was trying to teach myself demotic Greek, using a pocket dictionary and a beautiful two-volume edition of the poetry of C. P. Cavafy. The second time I felt like anything but an adult, a girl in old woman’s clothing, an impostor, climbing up and down the steep paths of the island every morning with the real old women, all of us dressed in black, all of us looking for kindling. The fallen wood was slick and wet; it was the worst winter anyone could remember. My husband—the first one—was very sick, the kalýva we were renting was cold and damp, and the only thing I could find to start a fire were old Playboy magazines, the paper also slick and wet. I hated my husband. I hated being married. We hated each other, the idea having been that coming to Skiathos would save us from our misery.
You will find no new lands, you will find no other seas …
So Cavafy wrote of Alexandria in The City.
Book in hand I looked back at myself, book in hand. In between came the part of my life called Time Passes.
The first section of To the Lighthouse occupies only a single day, all of it spent delving into the psyche of each of the central characters, rolling them into a great, teeming ball of psyches like the shawl around the skull of the beast in the nursery bedroom. Its governing question is deceptively simple: Will it be possible to make a trip to the lighthouse tomorrow? Mrs. Ramsay says, Yes, of course, if it’s fine,
and her son James is filled with an extraordinary joy
until his father shows up. It won’t be fine,
Mr. Ramsay says, looking out the window. The day could be fine; the day could be not fine. The day could be both things at once.
When I was a girl of sixteen in Philadelphia who thought she was an adult, my first encounter with Virginia Woolf was like that day, fine and not fine. The only thing I knew about her came from the title of Edward Albee’s play, which some of us had considered putting on until we were told it wouldn’t be appropriate. When I asked my English teacher what the title meant, he handed me a copy of To the Lighthouse. You’ll like this,
he said. It’s difficult. She writes about difficult human relationships.
Following the bilious confusion of Durrell, Virginia Woolf’s language—which despite the complexity of her sensibility is remarkably clean and clear—entered my soul (to steal her imagery) like a beak.
I didn’t need a dictionary to read this book, nor did it drive me to the thesaurus. I didn’t need to have experienced true love or sex or marriage or parenthood or old age or death—subjects I continued to write about, energetically, cluelessly—to make a powerful connection with it. I think this was possible because, despite the book’s interest in these matters, the dark drumming heart of it, the place I remember best from when I first read it and the place I still return to with quickening breath, is the shortest and weirdest section, the section that announces itself to be, by virtue of its title and everything in it, pure transition.
I was an adult. I’d read The Alexandria Quartet. I’d gone to Europe on a student ship (the Aurelia—the student ship everyone seems to have crossed the Atlantic on in the sixties) where each evening they showed a foreign film in the auditorium. I sat with a group of college students. I wore a paisley scarf, peasant-style and, briefly, feigned a Russian accent. The great mystery of The Seventh Seal was compounded of the film itself (unlike any movie I had seen in my life) and the fact that I couldn’t understand what anyone was saying until I read the subtitles. There were Swedish words that thrilled me to the bone. Skat. Riddare. Döden. It was like the word rook in To the Lighthouse. Sound overpowered meaning, as if the word had come into existence first, the thing it defined after.
You could try on personae like dresses. I didn’t just want to write like Virginia Woolf; I wanted to be Virginia Woolf. I wanted the brilliant, dogmatic father; the soulful, extroverted mother. I wanted the house on a Hebridean island. I wanted the eyelids. Heart’s dearest, why do you cry?
the old German professor asked rebellious Jo March, and so I married my first husband because he was German and ten years older than me. There he was, theatrically coughing and gasping for breath on a narrow, damp mattress in a Greek kalýva, as meanwhile I fed olive branch after olive branch into the woodstove. My husband was dying of typhoid on the floor of a one-room hospital, the sirocco flinging sand at the window-pane. I was Paul Bowles; I was writing "the whole monstrous star-filled sky turning sideways before her