Chai Zakar: Life Remembers

By Aundray Alexander Dawson

Men whisper of the secret things. Men seek to find the profundity of the ponderings of God’s heart. I am one of these men—I sought the ever searching of infinity; I pondered the mechanics of its quickening. Also do men yearn for the clasp of love—the lavishing of the hearts luster for in the heart lay the light of all man. All people seek these wonders, and all flesh ponders upon these floundering thoughts of the deep. Yea, even I, Aundray, hath sought what the infinite holds in its keep. Traverse with me, and I shall tellest thee of a tale—one of seeking in the deep waters, one of flames of fire upon the soul. Venture with me upon the vastness of the outskirts of the deep vessels of waters of wisdom. Dash thy foot with me in the valiant heat of the luminous sun to know the circuits of love.
My tale is the telling of a lad, seeking in the shadows of the deep to find power and godhood. In the end, I found respect in Christ. He alone is the God of all things. In turn, in mine own foresight, as I asked the Lord for might—but not to conquer, rather to bestow a love that is in the likeness of His that it be so I bestow it to one who cares not for me. In this peradventure, I fulfill the challenge I made to the wicked one: that all things are therefore used for the excellency of God’s love. Liken a Spartan in the ways of the mind, I held her memory within. I phalanxes inside the province of the heart and mine chi zakar was forged. All wisdom and love to our King, yea, to our God. For He fulfilled in me this thing; he who hath ears to hear, come thither, read on, and pronounce the tale in thine minds.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Christian Faith Publishing, Inc.
• Release date: Jul 14, 2023
• ISBN: 9798886858099

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Chai Zakar

Life Remembers

Aundray Alexander Dawson

ISBN 979-8-88685-808-2 (paperback)

ISBN 979-8-88685-809-9 (digital)

Copyright © 2023 by Aundray Alexander Dawson

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Table of Contents

This book is to chasten after and reach one who is dear in my heart. While I am not with her in the flesh, she traverses with me, yea, within my very natural force, yea, even with my spirit. My remembrances of her are mighty in me; she is in the very deep of my ponderings. She inspires my bones, giving them warmth to my icy cold soul that I may reach for God. And in so doing, I aid her to heaven. This is what I desire for her. Yet she cannot do this thing without Christ. So as a man, I present this message to her.

Also, the wisdom in this book threadeth from all those who hath touched my life. Our ties and communion are a rare treasure; their testimonies are rare gems. Salute to ye all; to you, family, friends, and loved ones. What I know now is a testament to our fellowship, and this book is as a tapestry to truth, which is found in our confederacy.

Lucien, Dejana, thank you both for your hard sentences. They kept me sharp and disciplined. For you both are as a father, being with much fire upon thine heart; and when transgressed, it spews forth to cast judgment.

Lineage: I use the Hebrew tong because I feel I am a brownish-red-skinned Hebrew man in the land of Belize through the Dawson lineage of my father, Melvin Dawson, who intermingled with my mother, Daisy Gab, of Indian heritage, being a coolie woman. In my eyes, my dear friend, you are a coolie woman, as thou declare; being of light-red skin by the heritage of thy seeming Indian heritage. Both of us are of Indian heritage by knowledge of my mother, understanding that Ramanuja was both a man who believed in Brahman and a man who knew infinity. I, Aundray, am as one knowing God and the knowledge of infinity that the Son of Man may be seen to all the four winds of the earth liken a Hebrew. With love and nil ill will, my friend, thouest name, Dominguez, is of Saint Dominic who is of Romanism. Nevertheless, I love you as Christ preached the gospel to the gentiles and the poor in spirit, who can see the very infinity of love. With this, I can give it unto you with passion for thee and thy son Emory, so I bring the Lord Christ and our Father God to you through the Holy Ghost.

Foreword

Introduction

Opening

The First Decree from God

Science vs. Religion

The Way

Meaning of the First Decree

The Second Decree from God

Theses of Infinity

Prophecy of Babylon's Fall

Meaning of the Second Decree

The Third Decree

Poems Uttered in the Imagination of Heart

Meaning of the Third Decree

Glossary

References

Biblical References

Introduction

Philosophy of Love

My Challenge

My Prayer

My After-School Life

My Remembrances of You

The Times Thereafter

My Seeking

My Inspiration

My Approach

Aundray's Philosophy 101

The Deep of the Mind

Conclusion

The Bright of the Dull and the Dim

The Rhythm of Soul, the Prophecy of Selah

The Understanding of My Covenant unto the Lord

About the Author

This book is to chasten after and reach one who is dear in my heart. While I am not with her in the flesh, she traverses with me, yea, within my very natural force, yea, even with my spirit. My remembrances of her are mighty in me; she is in the very deep of my ponderings. She inspires my bones, giving them warmth to my icy cold soul that I may reach for God. And in so doing, I aid her to heaven. This is what I desire for her. Yet she cannot do this thing without Christ. So as a man, I present this message to her.

Also, the wisdom in this book threadeth from all those who hath touched my life. Our ties and communion are a rare treasure; their testimonies are rare gems. Salute to ye all; to you, family, friends, and loved ones. What I know now is a testament to our fellowship, and this book is as a tapestry to truth, which is found in our confederacy.

Lucien, Dejana, thank you both for your hard sentences. They kept me sharp and disciplined. For you both are as a father, being with much fire upon thine heart; and when transgressed, it spews forth to cast judgment.

Lineage: I use the Hebrew tong because I feel I am a brownish-red-skinned Hebrew man in the land of Belize through the Dawson lineage of my father, Melvin Dawson, who intermingled with my mother, Daisy Gab, of Indian heritage, being a coolie woman. In my eyes, my dear friend, you are a coolie woman, as thou declare; being of light-red skin by the heritage of thy seeming Indian heritage. Both of us are of Indian heritage by knowledge of my mother, understanding that Ramanuja was both a man who believed in Brahman and a man who knew infinity. I, Aundray, am as one knowing God and the knowledge of infinity that the Son of Man may be seen to all the four winds of the earth liken a Hebrew. With love and nil ill will, my friend, thouest name, Dominguez, is of Saint Dominic who is of Romanism. Nevertheless, I love you as Christ preached the gospel to the gentiles and the poor in spirit, who can see the very infinity of love. With this, I can give it unto you with passion for thee and thy son Emory, so I bring the Lord Christ and our Father God to you through the Holy Ghost.

Foreword

In life, all is choice. The will to that of good or incline thy fist to evil is true. For God gave choice that love may be, and by this, evil is possible to the possessor of choice; without evil, there would not be choice. And all would be as a machine, programmed only to do good rather than doing good with the desire to do it. Satan possessed this thing, this free will, and did something so exceedingly abominable that God could not reconcile with his folly, for he rejected God. God gave choice— He gavest the ability to do good and evil alike. Men say it is satan that created evil. Yet, if satan made manifest evil, then God would have only given the ability to do good, and not the open choice to choose well or ill will. And if satan made evil, then he would have made this free choice. For free choice is only stablished if good and ill will are present. By this, I know God made evil, not to commit it, yet rather to facilitate choice. He made the choice of evil from the beginning, for He Himself hath choice, and He is eternal, thus choice is eternal (this makes the choice of evil eternal, but, the action of evil will be put away for all times by Messiah Prince). As it is written, I form the light and create darkness; I make peace and create evil: I the Lord do all these things (Isaiah 45:7 KJV). Unto me, this verse is dear.

Introduction

This is a remembrance of my quickening heart. When I was young, being a student at the school place of Anglican Cathedral College, it came to pass a nefarious documentary traversed about casting shadows with the illumination of wisdom. As I, even I, Aundray, watched, it put doubt in my head concerning the Creator. This was the very purpose of its whole natural force. I wondered as I watched, gazing upon its contents. I reasoned, and I believed. This film spoke and said that the wisdom of God was simply the comings and goings of the sun in the heavens. Continuing, it uttered that all religion was made to maketh it so a system of control was attained that an elite few can encompass and seize the world under their influence and power. This nefarious cabal goes by the name Illuminati.

As I stood in thought, it was made easy for me to come to the belief that these men were true, but I questioned, Is the story of Jesus just an allegory for the rising and setting of the sun? This thing much troubled my heart. This was because I was young, and at that time, someone came into my life that I knew not, but I desired to love them vehemently with my whole heart. For, if it were so what these men said was true, love would be to no avail. So while on that day, as I was in deep ponderings, I thought of God, and I made a challenge. As I wondered, I remember I asked the Lord, "Let me love her. I cared deeply for her, and I wanted her to see heaven with me by her side. I asked the Lord, Let me become a philosopher and a prophet for that she may see His hand in her life." I asked to be that of a philosopher because one of my companions, Christopher Carter, saw that I was a deep thinker, and I asked to be that of a prophet because I would declare the word of God for her, that she may know Him. By this little writing, I speak and pronounce how I became as such. It has been sixteen years since those times. Since then, I became one called by the Adventist faith. We herald the Three Angels' Messages.

The first message is:

And I saw another angel fly in the midst of heaven, having the everlasting gospel to preach unto them that dwell on the earth, and to every nation, and kindred, and tongue, and people, saying with a loud voice, Fear God, and give glory to Him; for the hour of his judgment is come: and worship Him that made heaven, and earth, and the sea, and the fountains of waters. (Revelation 14:6–7 KJV)

This message encompasses all of heaven to the whole earth and all things made by humans and God alike. So for this reason, I devote this message to the men of science who ponder the tinkering of all that is.

The second message is:

And there followed another angel, saying, Babylon is fallen, is fallen, that great city, because she made all nations drink of the wine of the wrath of her fornication. (Revelation 14:8 KJV)

Babylon is as the fallen ways of wisdom that seek to exceed itself above the wisdom of God. This message I will present unto the philosophers of our time for they are as wise men seeking the understanding of all things.

The third message is:

And the third angel followed them, saying with a loud voice, If any man worship the beast and his image, and receive his mark in his forehead, or in his hand, The same shall drink of the wine of the wrath of God, which is poured out without mixture into the cup of his indignation; and he shall be tormented with fire and brimstone in the presence of the holy angels, and in the presence of the Lamb. (Revelation 14:9–10 KJV)

This message encompasses all to reach every soul upon the earth. This message I bring to my dear friend, who I have known for the past sixteen years. But also, I call all to heed this cry from our God to refute the drunkenness of Babylon.

Opening

Intel and Tactics for the Gospel

This be the vision given unto me at the camp of 2016 that is to say 5776 in the seasons of the Hebrew. This is concerning my people and my loved ones and my resolve in aiding them, especially you, my dear friend. Peace be multiplied unto all peoples and multitudes, all nations' kindred and tongues, but first we must take up the sword of truth that is love. To the people of God and those who know Him not, to my people of the Advent movement. It is so that we must make known the three angels' message to those who hath known it not. This is the instruction thou give to all at this time. We must sound the loud cry and establish God's truth to that of the whole world. Upon this world, it is so that we are at war, and there beeth two factions—that of the saints of God who hearken unto the law, loving in the face of death, upholding peace in the will of the Lord, and that of the legion of Satan or those who do not hearken to or knoweth not God, casting the law of love to the ground and breaks it asunder in pieces. The red team beeth those that follow Satan or do not know or hearken to God, doing as they wish or do what thou wilt, and the blue team beeth the saints of God and are those who live by truth and virtue that is of the Holy Ghost. From these two teams, the Lord will do His work and make known His love, unto whosoever chooseth it. The Lord will establish a green team. Green team is those who hath overcome the world through their belief in the Most High God and earned a place to dwell upon the New Earth through their love for Jesus and the Godhead. This beeth my loud cry for my people; my lions roar that whosoever hears it hath the opportunity to be established in the green team, and it is to defend someone whom I deeply care about, the salt of my heart. Green and blue shall stand fast, and the red crimson ones will be made ash, selah.

This beeth the tactic of the accuser, Satan. He is the great destroyer, the father of lies, the great red dragon. Satan appears as an angel of light. He maketh it so that there are doctrines of deceptions, who masqueradeth his fallen legion as so-called gods, attempting to usurp the role of God, teaching men that they can come to become a god and ascend above God. He knows not that ascending above God, who is love, is the cessation of love, the breaking of love, and the death of one's own spirit and flesh. In his ignorance teaching, his evil rituals of illuminations as his ancient human followers did, letting go of life and grasping the lifeless, to only regard self and negate the virtue and spirit of others who abide about which contributes to life, which includes one's own life. He convinces thee with strong drink and flatteries, deceiving the heart with earthly pleasures starving the spirit from obedience to God, corrupting the flesh, and destroying the spirit. His lies can destroy truth with time, where it is established. Lies can prevail where truth can be rewritten, where truth is established. Lies can prevail where lives are established. Death can consume much flesh through sin. With this power, infinite truth, and love from God, Satan canst deceive, reshaping them in infinite death and darkness through discarding the law of love and uttering do what thou will; this is the power of the bottomless pit and the heart and spirit of death. This power over the ages hath turned our love and conscious mind into deceit and hate. He casteth an illusion of an impossible situation, tormenting us with possible and impossible blunders, making the impossible possible in evil and shame. He useth the very mortal vulnerability of our lives against us, teaching us to fair through doctrines of death and torment, consuming us with the sting of scorpions and venomous vipers and every unclean thing and hateful bird and evil spirit. He transforms a mustard seed of deceit into a great mountain of his so-called illumination, his negative philosophy, causing men to say in their hearts there is no God, deceiving all to perceive thoughts and things that are not real. But this infinite evil canst be broken; all we need to do is let go of the flesh. Let go of our eyes and our ears and our mouth and our nose and our skin and believe. It is there we will see the harmony of infinite possibilities. It is there we maketh it evident that we are one with Them, it is there we see we are a part of the Word. It is there we can see that we are a part of a whole, who is God who is love and not death. This is the truth. It is there that our mustard seed of belief becomes a mountain of love, and the seed is germinated into the greatest of herbs likened to a cedar. This is a hard thing for us sinners to see, yet there is Jesus who has done this as an ensample, and in this, He hath conquered death and made life a free gift for all. Holding the keys of death and hell and breaking the shackles of sin and the grave. For He hath called Himself from formlessness to form; He called Himself from lifelessness to life. He hath called himself from possibilities and manifested a God