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Written in the winding-down stages of a severe psychotic episode filled with manic delusions, this extraordinary story chronicles Julja's relationship with drugs, family and friends.
Julja's teenage games take a serious turn as she becomes inducted into a computer cult. The surge of dopamine in her brain connects her with psychic aliens and chemical conspiracies, sordid and secret. On this dark journey of discovery, she pops pills prescribed by Big Pharm and relinquishes all ties to her sanity as she attempts to reach a heaven full of voices and gods.
Spotlight Books is a collaboration between Creative Future, New Writing South and Myriad Editions to discover, guide and support writers who are under-represented due to mental or physical health issues, disability, race, class, gender identity or social circumstance.
Ana Tewson-Božić
Ana Tewson-Božić grew up in Belgrade and Berlin before moving to London and then to Brighton as a teenager. She has taught in South Korea and also worked as a refuse collector, care-worker, cleaner and proof-reader. She has spent significant time in mental institutions and is diagnosed with schizo-affective disorder.
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Crumbs - Ana Tewson-Božić
Tata
When my father was a young beatnik, he was visited by a light-engulfing orb of almost human proportions, small enough to make its way through the old, shuttered window of the shack in Croatia.
He took acid once, and then lost his speech for a month. He told me not to mess with that stuff.
Afterwards, the Serb would sit and smoke and watch the eye in the wood of the scabby door to the courtyard and it seemed to be the eye of Satan, or Sauron, overseeing all that we did there.
Some places hold the ancient power of a community. The neighbours chatter to me and my acid trip. I am transported higher. The door in the yard watches, as it watched my father, it guards the house I’m tripping in.
In this place, I see heaven. I am buoyed by the souls of the relatives in their homes around me, buoyed by the fact that they’d known and liked me. With these powers, I see fragile bodies rise through a church steeple and crumble into ash against the ceiling. I see great alien eyes and tongues of steely poison poised to greet us at our deaths. They see me back and I never felt so much terror.
Butch has seen it all before, he says on the walkie-talkie.
I wake when I’ve got too close to the reptilian all-seeing eyes. I go to the bathroom and splash water on my bovine face. I hold meat. I have breasts that are soft and pliable; Butch feels them and the acid tingles. The whole place becomes a sink-hole, a toilet bowl—we all spin down the drain with the sounds of plumbing an opera.
During my first psychotic episode, I was taken in by my parents. Tata was the devil, Mama an angel of light, a willow woman. I threw Faust at my father’s feet in a holy rage. Woodward played Dark Souls on his Xbox and I saw the world in it. My mother was entangled in the roots of a tree, I saw her on the screen and rushed downstairs to find her sitting.
Mama and Tata
In a tall tower by the sea dwelt a woman of the waves. At the nape of her neck her hair did curl, though the rest of it she furiously tried to straighten. As she grew older, she sat glued to her laptop, a portal into other realms. Her hair losing pigment glowed brighter than it had in years. Her eyes glazed over like a wondering child’s.
In these realms, her words flowed like pale fires and lapped at temples in a righteous rage, made quiet with only a secretary’s tapping.
She’d been a typist for years, the keyboard was her piano, the trade she plied. She wiped words clean and examined them in wonder. But in the examination room, she ripped too heartily, and when away from the device, she would continue the excavation of language and thought, to the detriment of her tower-dwelling fellows.
Among these fellows