The Kalki Avatar

By Vidya Shivaraj

Kalki Avatar is a journey into psycho-spirituality which is very apt for the present generation. Just like how most of life and materialistic processes are subjected to evolution, so is spirituality as well. The writer has seen multiple dimensions of life and the book is an output of her experience with psychosis, psychedelics and spiritual ecstasy. The book presents to you a good understanding of the body, the difference between various states of the mind and perception of the nature of the soul. While most of them are restive and seek an answer, Kalki Avatar exposes the simplest yet the most powerful strategies to fulfill the quest for well-defined values. You are sure to have a stirring experience reading the book.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Blue Rose Publishers
• Release date: Nov 16, 2022

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Chapter 1 Introduction

Let me start with the mythical Kalki who is mentioned as the tenth and final avatar of the Hindu god Maha Vishnu who will appear at the end of the present Kali Yuga to punish the wicked, reward the good, and inaugurate the Satya Yuga, age of sacrifice and Dharma. It is believed that Kalki will also kill the demon Kali of Kali Yuga.

Kalki is described in the Puranas (ancient text) as the avatar who rejuvenates existence by ending the darkest and destructive period to remove Adharma and ushering in the Satya Yuga. Kalki is found in Buddhist texts as Kalachakra Tantra which means ‘wheel of time’ or ‘time cycles’.

The name Kalki is derived from the word Kal, which means ‘time’. The literal meaning of Kalki is ‘pure and sinless’. ‘Kalmallkinam’, meaning brilliant remover of darkness, is found in the Vedic literature for Rudra (later Shiva), who has been interpreted to be the forerunner of Kalki.

The initial chapters of the book explains about spirituality, the origin of Gods, religion and the way human life is designed, based on Satya, Dharma and Karma. It is more or less like a user manual for human beings to live life on earth.

In chapter 10, the psychological drama Kalki begins in which I would have written about my true experience with the divine, which induced the grandiose effect and delusion and that which made me believe that I am Kalki at first. Everything I have written in this book isn’t some sort of creative writing. It is a consolidation of multiple episodes of psychosis directed by Satya Narayana – the embodiment of truth, Yama – the embodiment of Dharma and Shani– the embodiment of Karma. I have also written about astral projection, third eye opening and my time travel experience. Henceforth, I cordially welcome you to the path and journey of spirituality with me – psycho spirituality.

What is spirituality?

Let us look at some self-created definitions and brief explanations.

1. Spirit – Measurement of positivity and negativity of the soul (energy). Values ranging from -∞ to +∞.

2. Soul – A form of energy (just like light, heat and sound energy). The soul is electromagnetic in nature. The souls with a positive spirit value are divine and souls with a negative spirit value are demonic. The soul with a spirit value ‘0’ (zero) is that of the supreme God.

Spirituality:

(i) Spirituality is growing in consciousness. It is the process of developing awareness about the self and raising the mind from the state of an Asprushya (untouchable) to that of Brahma (the creator).

To understand this, let us look at the Varnas (a Sanskrit word with several meanings including type, order, color, or class). Varnas was used to refer to social classes in Hindu texts, traced to the Purusha Sukta verse of the Rig Veda.

Brahmins: Vedic scholars, priests and teachers.

Kshatriyas: rulers, warriors and administrators.

Vaishyas: agriculturalists and merchants.

Shudras: labourer and service providers.

Those who do not belong to any Varna are called Avarnas and they are none other than the Asprushyas or the untouchables. Asprushyas (Avarnas): lower caste people like Dalits, those who do menial jobs, beggars, robbers and all those who are involved in crime, diseased, prostitutes, alcoholics, drug addicts etc.

According to me, Varnas are actually a representation of the state of mind at different instants of time. The consciousness required for all the Varnas and Avarna mentioned above is possessed by every individual and everyone has the potential to integrate it, grow in consciousness from an Asprushya to that of Brahma and live a full-fledged complete life. I say this because, haven’t you heard that the most renowned saint was once upon a time the greatest sinner, an asprushya. I relate this to sage Valmiki who is one of the greatest sages of the Indian history but he was once a robber and a murderer. Well yes, I too have sinned. But, I truly confessed and begged for forgiveness till the verge of giving away my life. You see Karma doesn’t leave without a punishment but I was saved because of Satya. Truthful confession is the starting point of spirituality which I witnessed in the Bhava Samadhi Training which is found by my Guruji. I delved in darkness. But now I dwell in brightness. A mistake that makes you humble is better than an achievement that makes you arrogant.

The above diagram represents the present state of the modern world. The ones who are supposed to be in the top position have gone down and all the Asprushyas are in the top position. That is why the world is in chaos and people are suffering. This has to be reversed.

In the regular Varna system, Asprushyas are excluded and are termed as Avarnas. The below pentagon structure is inclusive of Asprushyas as well. This is the new all-inclusive Kalki model because like I have mentioned before, I strongly believe Varnas are all about the human thought process and it is not really about their caste, culture, gender, profession, intelligence, food, etc. Nothing really matters except being in Satya, Dharma and awareness of Karma (Truthfulness and righteousness in action).

The below diagram represents who has to be given priority and be in the top position in the society.

The reverse model:

I would have mentioned earlier, growing in consciousness means to grow from the level of an Asprushya to the level of a Brahma. Only a person with a Brahmin’s consciousness is eligible and capable of learning the Brahmanas (The Vedic Sruti works attached to the Samhitas of the Rig, Sama, Yajur and Atharva Vedas). To be in a Brahmins consciousness means, The one who does not differentiate and in this modern world to learn the Brahmanas may not necessarily be literally learning the Vedas. The meaning of Vedas is knowledge or wisdom. Let us understand that the Vedas are ancient Indian literature, the oldest Sanskrit scriptures which contain profound insights on the entirety of existence through narration of stories, verses, hymns etc., about divine personalities who existed back then. It has got nothing to do with religion, it’s more about culture that existed and the way of life.

It is considered as Apaurusheya, meaning not of a human, impersonal, authorless. It is superhuman because the Vedas are revelations of sacred sounds and texts heard by ancient sages after intense meditation. It is this wisdom that was translated into various religious concise books.

I am not the first person to say that all the holy books of different religions preach the same. Over the period of time, such austerities and Sadhana or tapas, rituals, knowledge and wisdom has deteriorated to an extent that it’s almost lost and mostly misinterpreted. Mankind nowadays is interfaced with machines and has lost the values of culture and life.

After learning the Brahmanas or one’s own religious studies (every religion preaches how an individual can unite oneself with God), one can become a Brahman (Connotes the highest Universal Principle, the ‘Ultimate Reality’ in the universe. Brahman as a metaphysical concept refers to the single binding unity behind diversity in all that exists in the universe). Brahman comes from the root ‘brh’ meaning ‘to expand’ and this infinite expansion is an inner reality mistaken by most humans to be an external process. This misunderstanding is the cause of all sufferings.

The final stage is to become Brahma – the creator. I hope you have paid attention to the difference between Brahman and Brahma. Only because human beings have the capability to attain this stage, it is clearly mentioned through the Mahavakyas (‘The Great Sayings’ of the Upanishads, as characterized by the Advaita school of Vedanta):

• Prajñānam Brahma (प्रज्ञानम्ब्रह्म) - ‘Insight is Brahman,’ or ‘Brahman is insight’ (Aitareya Upanishad 3.3 of the Rig Veda)

• Ayam Ātmā Brahma (अयम्आत्माब्रह्म) - ‘This Self (Atman) is Brahman’ (Mandukya Upanishad 1.2 of the Atharva Veda)

• Tat Tvam Asi (तत्त्वम्असि) - ‘That essence are you’ (tat, referring to sat, ‘the existent’) (Chandogya Upanishad 6.8.7 of the Sama Veda)

• Aham Brahmāsmi (अहम्ब्रह्मास्मि) - ‘I am Brahman’ (Brihadaranyaka Upanishad 1.4.10 of the Yajur Veda)

They all express the insight that the individual self (Jiva) which appears as a separate existence, is in essence (atman) part and manifestation of the whole Brahman. The self is Jivatma and the supreme soul is Paramatma. Growing in consciousness is to enhance and promote the Jivatma to unite with the Paramatma. This can be done only by the practice of Yoga. The highest form of Yoga is to be in Satya (truthfulness) and for one to constantly be in Satya, we must always be in pursuit of Vidya (knowledge). So basically everything culminates in Brahma.

Spirituality is all about understanding the nature of the soul, either of the self, of others or of the supreme. Animals cannot reach this level because they are only programmed for Satya and Karma. Animals do not know what Dharma is. This is the only difference between humans and animals.

आहार निद्रा भय मैथुनंच समान मेतत्पशुभिर्नराणाम्।

धर्मो हि तेषामधिको विशेषो धर्मेण हीनाः पशुभिः समानाः॥

English:

Āhāra Nidrā Bhaya Maithunaṃcha Samāna Metatpashubhirnarāṇām. Dharmo Hi Teṣhām Adhiko Visheṣho Dharmeṇa Hīnāḥ Pashubhiḥ Samānāḥ.

Meaning:

Food, sleep, fears and mating, these acts of humans are similar to animals. Of them (humans), Dharma is the only special thing, without Dharma humans are also animals.

The other definitions of spirituality are:

(ii) Spirituality is the quality of being concerned and connected with the spirits and souls (This means sensing the energies within and external of us with our sensory organs and being able to utilize it to communicate with souls, either of the self, others or of the supreme - clairvoyance).

(iii) Spirituality is to understand the rituals of the soul - the series of actions performed according to a prescribed order.

(iv) Spirituality is the unyielding stand between the dualities of creation. The centre of duality is zero which indicates the state of being in Shoonya – The state of Brahma.

(v) Spirituality is the unlimited edition of the limited edition called science. Ex. According to science, our ears can hear only between the range 20 Hertz to 20000 Kilo Hertz and our eyes can see only up to a certain range. The potential of the physical body is subjected to restrictions and fixed values. But, according to spirituality the perception of human senses and functions is much beyond what science can define and fix because spirituality is not just about the body, it is also about the mind and the soul. And that is why to manage and merge all these factors into the broadest spectrum, we have the Yantra, Tantra and Mantra.

(vi) Spirituality is an elixir which can give ultimate ecstasy. It’s a "lucid directed delusion". Let me mention something here which is out of my personal experience, spiritual ecstasy is insane. It can cause temporary or permanent mental disorder if one is not guided properly. The effects can be very similar to a person who is under the influence of alcohol (spirit), cannabis or drugs and of one who is diagnosed with mental disorders like bipolar and schizophrenia. Great spiritual leaders like Ramakrishna Paramahamsa and Swami Vivekananda have gone through this phase initially before they attained Samadhi. Spiritual ecstasy is within yourself. It is not out there. It is in you innermost flowering. The one you are looking for is none other than yourself.

Here I would like to mention an important point. The terms spirit, soul and spirituality are all the components of the same – consciousness.

Chapter 2 Who is God? What is the purpose of life?

Before looking at who is God, we need to understand the concept of time which is important because every creature or life form that exists on the planet is because of progressive evolution over time which is one of the fundamental keystones of modern biological theory. This again can descriptively be called as the principle of Karma, wherein intention and actions of an individual (cause) influence the future of that individual (effect) which has significant relevance to the past as well. According to ancient Indian history, time is divided into 4 segments:

• Satya Yuga

• Treta Yuga

• Dwapara Yuga

• Kali Yuga

The fifth Yuga is the Kalki Yuga, a prediction made ages ago which is nothing but the extension of Kali. In other terms we may say that Kali culminates in Kalki. So the five yugas are:

• Satya Yuga

• Treta Yuga

• Dwapara Yuga

• Kali Yuga

• Kalki Yuga

Yuga (Sanskrit: युग) means ‘a yoke’ (joining of two things), ‘connecting generations’, or ‘a period of time’ such as an age, with other forms of Yugam, Yugānāṃ, and Yuge derived from Yuj (Sanskrit: युज्, 'to join or yoke').

Yoga – युज्यते अनेनइति योगः - Connecting the self with the divine or being connected to everyone and everything. The term Yoga has its verbal root as युज् (Yuj). We need to note that the root word for Yuga and Yoga is the same. If we want to understand the nature of existence and the process of creation from the beginning till the end, we need to be aware of Yuga (consciousness of actions over time) and awareness of the self with the supreme - Yoga. This is the significance of Yuga and Yoga having the same root word, with the same meaning – Yuj - connecting. It is through Yoga we need to discover Yuga to dissolve Karma and proceed further in the path of spirituality.

Karma is a sequence of actions over a period of time (including the time and actions of the previous Janmas). Being in awareness of time is nothing but being in consciousness of our actions at every instant of time. But, to be in the consciousness of Karma is not as easy as it’s said. It has certain prerequisites, the first and foremost being truthfulness and righteousness (Satya and Dharma). Well this is also not so easy because sometimes our ego, certain circumstances and false beliefs will stand as an obstacle which will blindfold us. Then what are we supposed to do?

That is why one should always be in pursuit of Jnana - "Vidya", knowledge. Humility is the gateway to knowledge which in turn opens the doors of truth and wisdom – the quality of being wise and having good judgement. Out of my personal experience I would like to mention that this sort of guidance actually starts from right parenting – inducing devotion, morals, respect and love for one another. Many of the great people who have left behind footprints on the sands of time were strongly influenced and supported by their parents who were mostly Bhakti (Devotion) and Karma (Selfless service) Yogis. Spiritual knowledge begins and is passed on to children by parents and it is enhanced by a Guru (teacher). This is the Jnana Yoga path to Moksha. It is a pity that this modern world is now mostly materialistic and more of a man to machine interface, where people are in an unruly competition of flaunting their assets over which success is defined. The essence of true knowledge is altered and diminished also the nature of parenting which is the reason behind weaker and vulnerable upcoming generations.

Just a throwback, I would like to write about some of the memories which have impacted me in the practice of devotion. I am glad to be taught by my parents to value people for whom they are and not estimate them according to their monetary possessions. My mother would constantly keep me under the fear of God, curses and punishments so that I don’t indulge in bad deeds. She would include me as well as teach me all her devotional rituals. During mother Mary’s feast, she would make me and my sister walk all the way from our house in Austin town to Shivaijnagar Mary’s church in Bengaluru.

A week before my daddy passed away, I was just 12 back then. I remember him calling me and making me sit by his side. He would often fondle with my fingers for they resembled and reminded him of his father whom he loved dearly. I find the smell of alcohol and tobacco enticing because that is how my daddy smelled and of course he was a little drunk and had just had his cigarette when he called me. He looked at me and said, Mago (daughter), mark these words and practice it even if daddy is not going to be around. It is absolutely okay if you are unable to do good to people. But never ever think of indulging in bad deeds against anyone. This is the simplest way one can live a righteous life. I surely knew he meant it because I have witnessed his lifestyle.

Well not just my parents, my maternal grandmother and aunt too are surely another influencing force in my life in the practice of devotion and morals. I used to spend time with them during my holidays. Every night my aunt would put me to sleep by narrating the story of Ramayan and Mahabharat. After completing her household chores, my grandmother would always pass time sewing clothes and reading Tamil books – Kumudam, Kalki, Rani Muthu, Bhakti Malar, Ananda Vikadan, Kungumam, etc. We would watch movies together and she would teach me the moral of the story. I faintly remember if we were watching the movie of the famous Tamil heroes Shivaji, Gemini Ganesan or MGR. There was a scene in which a small child would be made to repeat:

Thirudathe – Do not steal.

Poisollathe – Do not lie.

Pitchaiyedukathe – Do not beg.

After watching this, my grandmother would make me repeat this every day, ten times and of course most of the time in my life I have practiced it. In my life I would proudly say that I have not borrowed even one rupee from anyone. Even if I did, it was only from my close family members and I have made sure that I paid them back. I don’t owe anyone anything. I guess I fulfill the eligibility to visit the holy Mecca except for the fact that I am a non-Muslim.

Another important person in my life because of whom my life changed altogether is Parama Pujya Guruji whose teachings are transformational and embedded in my brains. My Chitti had attended SSY (Siddha Samadhi Yoga) class near my house conducted by Marappa Guruji. Awed by his teachings, she wanted me to join the children SSY. Along with the practice of basic Yoga and meditation, we were made to read aloud, write and make charts of affirmations designed by my Pujya Guruji who is not just a yogi, but a computer scientist as well. He was in Canada before he started his establishments in India. Few of the affirmations which keeps ringing in my head, executes like a loop function and is predominant in my actions are:

• I give my 100% in everything I do

• I am responsible for everything I do

• I am a world leader

So basically it all starts from practicing good morals and gaining the right knowledge which opens doors to being in Satya and Dharma without which no Yoga or anything for that matter really works. Not to belittle all the other forms of Yoga which are physical and methodical like Bhakti Yoga, Karma Yoga, Raja Yoga, meditation etc, I am just projecting my views with respect to my experience of life. In fact Bhakti Yoga according to me is the easiest and the best. I call it smart work and all the other hard work. I have had some profound experiences with open as well as closed eyes meditation and the practice of Bhakti Yoga which led me into hallucination but as I have mentioned before, it was a lucid, directed delusion.

Keeping it as simple as possible, to be in awareness and consciousness of Yuga (connection between incidents) and decoding Karma, "Vidya" is the key. The epitome of knowledge is Goddess Saraswati who is the consort of the creator Brahma and I would have mentioned earlier that to become Brahma means the perfect unification of the Jivatma and the Paramatma for which the aid of knowledge is absolutely necessary. Amma Saraswati is the Brahma Jnana Pradayini. Not only humans, even gods, goddesses and demons do their Sadhana to get the blessing and boon from mother Saraswati. During each of the Yugas, the one whose energies were dominant over all the others were known to be called as Gods.

In Kaliyuga - Mahavira (Jainism), Buddha (Buddhism), Jesus Christ (Christianity) and Allah (Islam) were mainly known as gods over the period of time respectively. In Dwapara Yuga – Dwa is a Sanskrit term, meaning two, which is why two epics existed. It is well known that Rama from the epic Ramayana and Shri Krishna from the epic Mahabharat were known as gods. In Treta Yuga – the meaning of Treta means collection of three –Brahma, Vishnu and Maheshwara were known as gods. Satyayuga was dominated by Satya Narayana. I hope you all are aware of the declaration I have made before starting to write about the Yugas and the existence of God’s. I know it is not in order, it is partially chronological. I have written it with respect to what I experienced during my psychosis.

What could have been there even before the concept of time or existence of earth? It is simply the cosmos – the universe seen as a well ordered whole or a system of thought. The cosmos and the whole of creation are governed by three fundamental laws:

• Satya (Universal truth)

• Dharma (Righteousness)

• Karma (Actions)

If one keeps traversing with a spaceship into the unimaginable space, what could be there beyond the cosmos? To understand this, I would like to explain it with a simple mathematical model.

The above figure represents a simple number line system, a Cartesian plane with the centre being zero. Let us not be worried about when and who found zero and let’s focus on what zero represents. The point of origin is zero and it represents nothingness. This signifies creation itself began or originated from nothing, Shoonya (this is the reason why some of the Hindu deities are referred to as ‘Swayambhu’ which means ‘self born’). I represent infinity as the point of cosmos, because cosmos is the universe at its entirety and this entirety is nothing but infinity.

Can there be anything beyond infinity?

To understand this let me first share an abstract from