Three Letter Lovers

By Gabe Kanae

A Poetic Journal of Youthful Infatuation, Heartbreak and Silence

 

Will I be able to live,

when everybody is gone?

 

Three Letter Lovers was written in the months following the heartbreak of author Gabe Kanae's first gay relationship. Combining song lyrics and journal entries, this collection presents a variety of real and fictitious glimpses behind overpowering emotions, unbearable thoughts and vigorous youth. With each page revealing a new harrowing and relatable conviction, Gabe Kanae's first published book will attract and entertain.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Gabe Kanae
• Release date: Nov 4, 2022
• ISBN: 9798986971728

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TABLE OF CONTENTS

(Tracklist)

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I

UNKNOWN DIRECTION 

GONE BUT LOVED 

I’VE NEVER 

FELLOW

FORWARD 

BARE 

DORM 

CLOSE TO YOU 

PROJECT 

EYES 

BASIN 

NEW CONTINUATION 

SEAGULL 

ASH 

NEWS 

CRASH COURSE 

DROUGHT 

CRYSTAL 

CHANGE OF TIMES 

STANDARD 

APPLICATION 

M vs. M 

FLASH 

SPOT 

REPETITION 

EDWARD 

IN MY BED AT NOON 

FAKE YOU 

CREEK 

YOUTHFUL 

THREE LETTER LOVERS 

WESTERN TO MODERN 

TAP 

NOTEPAD 

PLANT GREEN 

CUT 

BLUE SKIES 

DECK 

HATE. CLOUD 

TWO MONTHS 

II

THE ART OF PROBLEM 

INDUSTRY MINDSET SWAP 

NO WIN, STOP FIGHT 

SCALE OF COMMENT 

FEAR OF QUEER 

SOMETHING DIDN’T FEEL RIGHT 

THE TREE 

FOR WHAT 

MAYOR 

COFFEE MAN 

NOWHERE BUT HERE 

BEND WIND PEN 

COFFEE AND WIND 

SUMMER AIR 

GLASS SHOES 

RENO SOUP 

HOW COULD YOU TWIST 

SO THAT IS WHY 

TYPEWRITE 

SUPER SOLITUDE 

FIREWORKS 

CITY I LOVE 

DEPTH OF VISION 

PARTY 

LANCE 

I KNOW 

FINE WINE 

CRANNY 

LOVE FILLED TEEN 

TALL 

FRESH PAGE 

HOW DOES ONE 

BOTTOM GRAIL 

DROPPED ALONE 

WHY FOR WHY 

MISSED 

DIFFERENTLY 

III

CROSS FADE 

TWITCHING FEATHERS 

BARELY STALE 

CALI 

CROPPED 

NUDE 

WHITE ROOM 

PARADE 

MADDENING 

WHAT IF 

NEVER 

FUNNY HOW YOU CARED 

KID 

BOOK STORE BOY 

FLY 

REMOVED WALLS 

BROWNIE 

SOMEDAYS 

WAIT, I’M CONFUSED 

SEARED 

G.K 

THE THIRD LEVEL 

SLEEPING, WEEPING 

DECIDES 

YOU 

THE END 

IV

FELT THIS 

TREE TOWN 

MARGINALLY BAD 

WOULD 

HIGH LOVE 

EXPOSURE 

OLD 

DREADED FIGURES 

HASSEL 

SPICY HOT 

FREE SUMMER 

RAN INTO 

REFRACTION 

LIGHT STAINS 

CRACKED ROAD 

BOYS AND THEM 

GRAND HEADROOM 

GLITTER COUCH 

VISTA CRACK 

FOLK LOAD 

ANNA 

COME ON, COME ON 

MOUNTAIN WOODS 

THERE AIN'T 

DRIVING SAND 

ROOFTOP 

TOBY 

NORMAL END 

Authors Note

I’ve never been one to say goodbye easily and I’ve never been one to say goodbye at all, so, this book is filled with a lot of dread. It wasn’t my direct intention, but I constantly kept writing these pages to encapsulate the deep and masked thoughts that sometimes exist. These pages are a diverse collection of song lyrics I have written over the years, fictional thoughts and non-fictional thoughts I have finally, courageously, decided to share.

That said, the majority of this book takes place in 2021. The most intense and surreal year of my life so far. It was filled with so much greatness, love and friendship. It was also countered by heartbreak, self-loathing, invalidation, and abuse of my love and worth.

Not knowing what is real or fake in this book is the most intriguing part of it for me and I hope it will be to you as well. This is my first ever piece of writing outside of journalism that I have published, and I have also taken into account that a lot of the readers are people who solely caused some of these pages to exist how they do, whether good or bad.

I wanted this to be the first introduction to my writing (though I am working on other visual and textual projects) because each page elicits and provokes a different emotion, thought, reality and realization. I just hope you will see that within these pages is the vulnerability and the emotional weight I carried at eighteen and in my first semester of college.

I want to thank anyone who actually bought this book, whether because they felt intrigued or because I had told them of its existence. I appreciate you so much.

When it comes to creativity, one of the craziest things I’ve learned by observation

of artists, is that there is literally no right. No matter who makes what or how, nothing can please everyone. It truly is one of the worst things about being a creator (in my opinion). As a creator and artist, it is hard to release something you’re so specific about and want to be perfect because you’ve been taught only perfection can make you. Now, I try not to let perfection be a reason to hold me back. This book is an example of that.

I’ve learned that if I hold a product back and keep re-reading and editing ... nothing will ever get completed. I am nervous of releasing this book and also seeing you read it and criticize it, how it effects your emotions or how upsetting it is to you. I just hope you can let me, as an artist, learn what happens.

You’re about to read a poetry book written by an eighteen / nineteen- year- old teenager that is comprised of thoughts, experiences, journal entries and ideas from my present and past and how other people’s actions have impacted them. I hope, if what you did as a person is talked about in this book, you will have an open mind. Many of the emotions on these pages have changed. Some have stayed the same. Some aren’t even real.

I hope you enjoy