Nathan's Story
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Luke Hartwell's Nathan's Story is a powerful follow-up to his Atom Heart John Beloved. Hartwell has taken Keith Hale's novella Space as the vehicle to introduce an attractive new character, Harper, to the story of Nathan and John. Hartwell intertwines the story of Nathan and Harper with the story of Nathan and John while avoiding a rehash of old information from Atom Heart John Beloved. Like the first book, Nathan's Story makes readers think, can produce tears, and will bring plenty of smiles.
Watersgreen House is an independent international book publisher with editorial staff in the UK and USA. One of our aims at Watersgreen House is to showcase same-sex affection in works by important gay and bisexual authors in ways which were not possible at the time the books were originally published. We also publish nonfiction, including textbooks, as well as contemporary fiction that is literary, unusual, and provocative.
Luke Hartwell
Luke Hartwell is the award-winning author of the novels Atom Heart John Beloved, Nathan's Story, Love Underneath, Desire, and several short stories. Luke has always been attracted to the gay boy in love with straight boy dynamic, and many of his books explore those relationships.
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Nathan's Story - Luke Hartwell
Chapter 1
Ispent my childhood in a small town in the middle of Texas. Most of the residents, like my own family, are descended from the Bohemia region of the Czech Republic. Bohemia. Bohemian. It’s funny what that word has come to connote because most of the Bohemians I’ve known are anything but bohemian. Some of the Czechs came to America for better economic opportunity; some to avoid being conscripted into the Austrian Empire’s army. But the people I grew up around were not musicians and poets living in voluntary poverty and wandering around the country. If anything, they were noteworthy for being conventional and staying in one place. In my case, that would be my home town.
As a boy, I played in the dirt a lot. We had grass, but cars rolled better on dirt, balls bounced higher. It was a country house; no asphalt once you left the highway. My choices were grass, the rooftops of various sheds that I wasn’t supposed to play on, and dirt. If I raked or hoed the dirt under the grove of shade trees in the back yard, it was pleasingly cool to the stomach when flopped upon. I rarely wore a shirt during summer months, not even to eat or for company. I liked the feel of the sun and the wind on my body. I never was much on wearing clothes.
As I inferred, my home town is a conservative town. Although everyone is friendly enough, there isn’t much tolerance for difference. The most obvious example is that if you aren’t Czech, you don’t get elected to anything and are never made to feel like you really belong. But that’s one thing I didn’t have to worry about; my father’s family, the Cernochs, and my mother’s family, the Novaks, have been here since the beginning of the town. But for whatever reason my mother had switched religions after my father’s death, leaving the social security of the Catholic Church to join an evangelical church that was attended mostly by ex-Baptists and non-Czechs. Suddenly, we were viewed differently, and we knew it.
All through my childhood, I was attracted to older boys. I couldn’t hardly talk to them, I was so in awe. If a boy was older and attractive, everything about him filled me with the strangest feeling. I didn’t know what to do with it. If there was a good-looking older boy in the room, all I could do was stare.
At age ten, I fell in love. This happened at the town bowling alley. I had gone, reluctantly because I knew my limitations, with a group of kids from church. I could not bowl to save my life, and after embarrassing myself in front of the church kids numerous times, I told them I was bored with bowling and would just watch. Then, watching them enjoying the lanes together, bowling the occasional strike and cheering, I truly was bored and also humiliated, envious, and miserable. Despite being thoroughly Czech-American, the only place in that town I ever felt like I truly belonged was my own house and yard.
Maybe a cheeseburger would help. I walked over to the concession.
What’d’ya want?
the oily-looking girl behind the counter asked. I gave her my order, glancing at the sign hanging on the wall above her head: Now Hiring Friendly People.
I could see that the unfriendly people presently employed were not working out.
When my order was ready, the cook slid it through the little window between the kitchen and the counter area, but the girl was busy talking on the phone. I waited impatiently, smelling the fries and burger, longing for a taste. Then an older boy further down the counter came to my rescue.
This is getting cold,
he said, stepping behind the counter, picking up my basket of food, sitting it in front of me, then returning to his seat.
I felt my heart stop. When I could breathe again, I looked down the counter at the boy, who was eating a chili dog, licking chili from his fingers. Don’t do that. Don’t lick yourself like that. It was that feeling again of not knowing what to do with the longing surging inside of me, stronger than ever. The boy looked different than anyone I had ever seen—big holy eyes, earnest face, self-confident, muscular build, and so attractive I was in a swoon. I couldn’t take my eyes from him.
He did not immediately notice me looking at him, but when he did, I memory-photographed the response in slow-motion: the inquisitive glance that met my eyes, the handsome face breaking into a friendly expression something short of a smile, then a casual, Enjoying your burger?
Yeah.
I looked back at the counter in front of me, too afraid to look at the boy again for fear he would or would not be looking back.
The next time the church kids went bowling, I tagged along despite their protests, hoping luck would once again put the older boy in my path. He wasn’t there, and I had a miserable, desolate time, became moody, caused a small scene by rolling a bowling bowl into the reset mechanism, and was thereafter banned from church bowling trips.
I didn’t see the boy again for three years, but I never forgot his face. I learned his name and age when I was thirteen by coming across his photograph in the local paper while checking the movie listings. His name was Harper Clements, he has now eighteen, and he lived in a small area nearby known as Roe. But not for long: He had been accepted into the Air Force Academy.
The next day, after lunch, I put a shirt on to look respectable, got on my bike, and headed for Roe. It was a five-mile ride, and I took my time, not wanting to arrive a sweaty mess. Still, I was there sooner than I expected. It did not take me long to find a mailbox with the name Clements on it. Of course, there could be more than one, or Harper could be living with a stepfather with a different last name. In any case, I was too afraid, once I found the mailbox, to approach the house to see if it was really his. I sat on my bike staring at the mailbox for quite some time, then rode to the only store in town, which doubled as a service station, to buy something to drink.
I recognized him instantly even in the motorcycle helmet, filling his tank with gas. Harper glanced at me as I rode up, but no look of recognition crossed his face. This is what I expected. Why should Harper recognize me? I was thirteen now and looked nothing like I had at ten. No goofy kid expressions to smile at now, just the usual early adolescent confusion playing about the face, threatening to erupt into The Scream. So, I shyly made the first move.
Your name’s Harper, right?
Harper looked up again only briefly, then turned his attention back to the pump. Yeah. How’d you know?
It never occurred to me to say anything but the truth. All those years in church had taught me to worship with respect.
I saw you once at the bowling alley when I was younger. And I saw you in the paper yesterday, about you joining the Navy.
Air Force,
Harper corrected.
Oh, yeah,
I said, feeling stupid.
Harper looked at me again, said nothing. Then, when the tank was full, he took off his helmet, looked me straight in the eye, and smiled the widest smile he could possibly smile.
You saw me once at the bowling alley? And you remember me?
The force of the question drove the stupidity of the situation deep into my eyes. All I could say was Yeah.
I haven’t been bowling since, well, I don’t know. Long time. When did you see me? How long ago?
Three years.
Three years?
At least he hadn’t repeated the words with ridiculing emphasis, as if I were a nutcase. He’d merely repeated them with a question mark.
Yeah.
Harper just kept staring at me. Then he broke into another smile, this one perhaps more cautious than the first, but still warm. Come on,
he said. Want to go for a ride?
Sure.
Just put your bike in the garage.
Harper turned toward the building. Hey, Jim? Okay if we leave this bike in here? Keep an eye on it for me, will ya?
A voice from inside the garage said it was fine.
Just a second. I need to pay for my gas.
While I waited for Harper to return, I admired the cycle. Black and silver, with a bit of blue. Pretty sharp. And Harper was dressed to match: black jeans, blue shirt. And next thing I knew I was sitting behind Harper on the cycle, wearing Harper’s helmet, holding onto Harper’s waist as instructed. I was in heaven, or at least felt myself drifting there. I sensed myself rising, and I could see myself on the cycle with my arms around this older boy. I could see the entire road, the countryside, the county, the whole state, and for a moment the whole continent, then I vanished from earth altogether, toward my own white sun, like an asteroid, shooting through the cosmos. Then I returned, and I held on tighter.
Harper drove to West Mountain, then turned off on a hiking trail, then, finally, on a smaller trail that led to a clearing in the forest. He parked the cycle, and I followed him into the woods, carefully stepping around the poison ivy and the slightly more exotic poison dogwood, saying nothing.
How old are you?
Harper asked.
Thirteen.
Harper nodded, kept walking. Sometimes he paused to hold a briar back so it wouldn’t slap me in the face. We came to a second clearing surrounded on one side by a grove of fir trees and on three sides by oak. Harper stopped, looked around, and sat down on a fallen log. Come on,
he said, sit with me.
I was glad he added the with me
and didn’t just say sit.
I knew even before I left home that he could treat me any way he wanted to and I would take it. I was glad he wasn’t like that, but I figured that already. People like that don’t help a boy get his cheeseburger.
The clearing was flat, and wide enough that a good portion of the sky was visible. But the log on which we sat was to one side and shaded. Except for the pairs of dragonflies coupling in mid-air, it was pleasant enough—although with perhaps more spiders and gnats than a rational god should provide. I could hear a frequent buzzing in my ear, and when something landed on my arm, I instinctively slapped it.
Then I said earnestly to the dead gnat, Sorry. I thought you were a mosquito.
Harper grinned at me but said nothing.