Dreams from Moments Like These: A Metaphysical Journey Told in Poetry and Paint
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Gary Nickolaus
Born in Schenectady, New York he was moved back to the dessert valley of his grandparents shortly after birth, where he was raised in an isolated desert town dedicated to the production of plutonium for the toys of war built in part on his family’s condemned farms. It was a good place to be raised, a middle class dream of a totally new city, with new schools and parks and government housing built for mangers, engineers, and workers all with housing styles and neighborhoods. A middle class dream built isolated in the desert to produce the most dangerous material ever conceived by man. Now he is the lead civil structural inspector of a 12 billion dollar complex being built to isolate the radioactive chemical waste produced by that production.
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Dreams from Moments Like These - Gary Nickolaus
Copyright © 2010 by Gary Nickolaus. 586267
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Rev. date: 01/25/2022
Table of Contents
Chapter I: View from a studio
Chapter II: Dreams from moments like these
Mulch for the garden
A gentle breeze on a warm spring day
Dinner time
Erin pushes Emily in the swing on the old oak tree
Erin primps before the mirror
Emily and Erin
Winter afternoon cold and clear
Chapter III: Dreams at sunset
In my youth I dreamt
A walk in the rain
Time having gone so swiftly by
Perhaps I never wanted to find you
The ages are beginning to rest heavy upon my being
Richard Brautigan
A country cemetery
Ode to a generation passing
The bodies are broken
I stand alone on a hill
Chapter IV: Dreams in the Garden
In Grandmother’s Garden
A gentle rain
In the garden
In days of watermelon and summer
Man is meant to dream of Eden
I sit in my sunroom
Edge of the Garden
Chapter V: Dreams may come
When my journey is over
A man
The mermaids never sang for me
Life is what happens
I seemed adrift on a sea of indecision
The melody of the strings
How do we exist
Chapter VI: Dreams of Family
Grandpa was a big man
This tree
The doctors have cancelled chemotherapy
I dreamt I watched my father die
Gentlemen, I am tired and I want to go home
Precious memories of long ago
Chapter VII: Dreams of Robin
I never said good-bye to Robin
Emotion always got in the way
I never said good-bye when you left me
I dreamt of loneliness last night
I had a good woman
Perhaps I never wanted to find you
I over heard a pretty girl say that she liked me
I see no need to speak of love
I traveled far burdened with your love
I want you to find the joy of life
You dream
You wanted me
The Road to Babylon
We could have a great summer together
Variation on a Janis Ian theme
The features of her face have faded
Two good people together
We were young
I dreamt of you again last night
Chapter VIII: Dreams of what might be
I traveled a long and torturous path
A baby died today
A dusty barn full of hay for the horses
The new tide
I have thought long
Roadside Attractions
Chapter IX: Dreams of Gentle People
Dreams of Gentle people
Paths through the woods
Death has touched my soul
I have seen the face of death
New York City
Atlantic City
Clerics that teach hatred
Evil lies in wait
Death of youth
We are all each of us
You ask, But what of God?
God is larger than all the religions ever conceived
My soul is chained in a barren room
Upon hearing of your untimely death
The years of passion are past
Introduction
P rior to working in nuclear power plants, I was required to undergo a psychological evaluation which of course I flunked since it was determined that I had no respect for authority, it was felt that I could pose a risk, I responded to the psychiatrist by saying that I was quality control, I accept nothing unless I have seen and understand it. After that I was allowed to continue working.
And so this is what I bring to this book, a pathological distain for all dogmas, all suppositions, this of course is how I have been my entire life. If I were to put a name on it, I would call it Asperger Syndrome. For looking back at my childhood, I displayed almost all of the symptoms of this autistic psychological syndrome: repetitive routines, difficulty with language, the inability to establish bonds with others, and difficulty understanding nonverbal behavior.
My psychological make up has actually served me well in my profession. When I began my career as a nuclear QC inspector, I was driven to understand the hows and the whys of everything I encountered. That has resulted in my current position as lead civil / structural Inspector at the United States most complex civil structural site. I immersed myself into technicalities, codes, standards, procedures, specifications: these I understand these I know.
This book comes from that compulsion to know. The painting and poetry are a means to an end, that being the understanding of existence. In both painting and poetry, one is compelled to seek the essence of a thing, to seek its totality and find the beauty that can only be discovered with the revelation of truth. That has been my life goal for as long as I can remember. For my mind is a beautiful place, full of poems and paintings and wonderful dissertations on the meaning of existence and that is where I am most comfortable.
This was at first going to be only an art and poetry book, but as I worked on the poetry, I found myself revealing concepts that I was working on in my other passion, the attempt to understand the true nature of anything, and everything. When I paint or write poetry I allow the paint or the poem to go wherever it desires. I have no expectations of fulfilling some obligation for to do so would be to destroy the perfection of the art. Only by allowing the truth of the poem or painting to come out without regard for form or style can the beauty be found that is held within. For the artist to impose some type of format or expectation is to destroy any hope of finding truth. The truth is always there, waiting for someone to bring it forward; the genius of the artist is in the ability to allow that which already exists to be actualized
And so this book was created with no expectation of any style or outcome. But in writing and illustrating this book I have touched upon some truths, some of them are not quite what I had expected, but I only sought perfection, not conclusions. Those conclusions that I have reached came from the work, were brought forth in my quest to achieve perfection within the painting or poem, for in seeking beauty one seeks truth.
The painting and poetry come from my inability to communicate that which I find essential in any other manner. If I were born at a later date into today’s world, I would have probably been labeled, given counseling, and drugs and perhaps this book would have never been produced. Instead, I was born into a less-