Scribbles of Realisation

By Amro Kabeel

Scribbles of Realisation is a collection of short writings which focus on matters of faith and understanding one’s self in life. The scribbles were written randomly over a seven year period as a form of expression, then they were organised and edited into this book. The writings abstractly represent the author’s journey to God and act as a reach out to distant Muslims and anyone who’s spiritually inclined. Amro always wanted to write something of the sort, but he never knew he was writing it all along. Therefore, Scribbles of Realisation is also a realisation to itself!

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris UK
• Release date: Nov 29, 2021
• ISBN: 9781664116900

Amro Kabeel

Amro is an Egyptian Muslim writer who lives in the Middle East. He is a people’s person with a bit of humour sometimes. Amro likes to keep things neat and clean and so claims to have OCD. He is a balanced ambivert who cherishes his alone time. He is always eager to learn and likes to read life’s signs. Amro always follows his instincts and trusts his gut. He relies on both his feelings and rationale to make choices. He likes to have a vision but also takes things as they come, thus having a plan without ever having one. Amro loves to follow his religion with passion and be in the company of the righteous. He loves to be in spiritual gatherings where Allah and Prophet Muhammad () are praised and remembered. Amro has completed this book at the age of 30. He is just a simple man fulfilling his destiny.

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Contents

Acknowledgements

Introduction

Reflect

I Am of The Muslims

Why

Global Change

The Muslim Identity

The Irony

Numb Pleasures

Life is But A Day

Guilt

Q and A

Innocence

Tao

The Opening Prayer

Sacrifices

Supplications

The Light of Faith

Spread Peace

Mending Salvation

Clear Sides

Think, Ponder, Seek

Doubt

The Surrender

Soul-Searching

Water to Fish

Words of Advice

Repeat Until Repaired

Whims

The Maestro

Good Vibes

Patience and Gratitude

Friends and Goals

Happy Twists

Dark Rooms

People of Intellect

Inner Work

Realise

Devotion to God

Slavery

Colourful Black and White

The Alchemy of Happiness

The Sinner’s Garden

Religion 101

Islam

Taghut

Darknesses versus Light

The Last Message

Words of Guidance

Sujood

Hijab

The Rejects

The Soul’s Revenge

The All Forgiving

Be Gold

Signs of A Hypocrite

Falsehood

The Principles of Islam

Muslim

Isaiah 42

The Essence of Islam

The Messenger ( 54613.png )

True Love

Love of The Messenger ( 54618.png )

Scholarly Opinions of Prophet Muhammad ( 54620.png )

Madinah

Jerusalem

Always Near

The Kneeling Narration

Selflessness

Confrontations

Jesus Is ׳Iesa ( 54622.png )

׳Iesa ( 54624.png )

The Nafs

A Prophetic Metaphor

May Allah Guide Us

Rise

The Merciful

The Unlawful

Real Pleasure

The Remembrance of Allah

Salawat

Society

Consequences

Asceticism

Skipping Life

Writing to God

Guidelines

Practice Makes Perfect

Keep Learning

True Faith

All Lives Matter

Content

A Few Mouthfuls

Redefining Rich

Five Points

Free World Inmates

Find Yourself

Messengers of The Truth

Truth versus Lying

Divine Qualities

Liberation

Fear and Love

Be Different

Heroes

Find Your Sheikh

The Saved Seven

Muslims Must

Intentions Determine Faith

Lighten Your Burdens

Afterword

References

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In the name of Allah—the Compassionate, the Merciful

Especially dedicated to Mama, Shaikh Rabee,

and my beautiful daughter Aisha.

And remind, for the reminder benefits the

believers. (The Holy Quran 51:55)

ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS

All praise is due to Allah. We thank Him, seek His aid and forgiveness, and repent to Him. We submit to Him and follow His path towards truth and righteousness. I profess that there is no god except Allah, and Muhammad ( 51626.png ) is His messenger.

May the bountiful prayers, peace, and blessings of Allah infinitely manifest on Prophet Muhammad ( 51628.png ), his family, and his companions. Indeed, he ( 51626.png ) is the blessing above all blessings and the channel of all goodness.

I thank and dedicate this book to all my family and friends. To every kind heart, good soul, and believer. To everyone out there seeking the greater meaning.

INTRODUCTION

Nearly seven years ago, I was what I would describe as a lost soul, a wanderer who lost the way. I was someone who didn’t exactly know who he was and so chose to be whatever he perceived. In perspective I was a westernized Arab, and in principle I was just another with a shallow approach to life and a bad ego. I was distracted and preoccupied with all the things that don’t really matter. I was not happy; I was only chasing happiness and trying to prove I can be. Desire drove me, ignorance held me, and approval compelled me. In the midst of all this, I was trying to keep my Muslim identity. Eventually, my instability settled down to a different reality. There was a series of events that helped me, and I remember my brother telling me at some point ‘Amro, it seems like all your life you’ve been trying to be two very different and contradicting persons, and I think you need to choose one person now and just be him—whoever that is.’. I received those words at the climax of my turning point, but my story begins earlier.

As a child, I was naturally inclined towards my faith and had a strong connection to it. I often recall how at the age of ten, on a breezy summer night in Egypt’s North Coast, my paternal uncle and I stayed up under the stars and had a conversation that woke me. It was delivered with serenity and received with a sense of familiarity—a sincere reminder of God’s Majesty, His wonderful prophets, the test of life, and the destined ending of Heaven or Hell. A few years later, my maternal uncle had visited Makkah and returned with a gift, a beautiful prayer carpet that I still pray on till this day. By the time I was 13 I was an obese child, and so I asked God to help me lose weight and promised to never miss a prayer after that—a promise I’ve honoured and still keep. However, at the height of my teen years my prayer was meaningless, just a quick bodily motion that had no spiritual presence. My sins were much heavier than my deeds and my lifestyle was misaligned with my upbringing. This continued until my spiritual disarray was coincidentally met with the person who would align it. While searching for a mosque on a Friday afternoon, I was guided to one that would eventually become my second home. That day, I was taken away by the eloquence and ingenuity of the Imam¹ who delivered the sermon.

What followed next was a long and continuous process of purification. At first it was very brisk, like when fall starts and leaves fall away before winter begins—so did my old habits begin to shed. I became the Imam’s friend and slowly took steps away from error and into righteousness. I became a student eager to learn all the things I’ve missed. The Imam would emphasize that the foundation of our religion is love, and that every believer must be wholly immersed in it for Allah and the Prophet ( 51630.png ). When I drew closer I realized how far I was, and so I supplicated to God for love, knowledge, and wisdom and He showed me the resources to retrieve these treasures from. The companions of Allah, the ones who pass this life seeking Him alone and in doing so become a path for others, became my friends. The majority of my week’s evenings was spent seeking God with them. This beautiful blessing would occasionally fill me with tears, especially when I contrast it with where I was. Where I was ignorant, I became learned. Where I was empty, I grew fulfilled. Where I was unable to read the Holy Quran, I learned to read it. Where I did not guard my tongue from profanity, I saved it. Where I did not protect my gaze from indecency, I lowered it. Where I had no patience, I developed it. Where I could not control my outbursts of anger, I tamed it. Where I was lacking in so many different aspects, I found wholeness. Eventually, I revived my soul and transformed into an entirely different person. One who is still full of mistakes but is determined to improve himself.

As I went through this change, I would often write short pieces that reflect on my learnings. The scribbles I wrote were more than a self-dialogue as they also carried hope to someday reach people. There are many Muslims and spiritual people that need to be reminded of their purpose. We all need messages that stimulate realisations to snap out of unawareness. This is why I decided to gather my scribbles into this book and crown them with select verses of the Holy Quran and Prophet Muhammad’s ( 51640.png ) narrations. All of these writings abstractly record my journey to God, and I pray that it is of benefit for whoever reads them.

Reflect

I AM OF THE MUSLIMS

Allah has revealed in the Holy Quran:

Indeed, those who say: ‘Our Lord is Allah,’ and then led a righteous life—the angels will descend upon them: ‘Do not fear,