Breath Better Spent: Living Black Girlhood
By DaMaris Hill
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From the award-winning and critically acclaimed author of A Bound Woman Is a Dangerous Thing comes a new book of narrative in verse that takes a personal and historical look at the experience of Black girlhood.
In Breath Better Spent, DaMaris B. Hill hoists her childhood self onto her shoulders, together taking in the landscape of Black girlhood in America. At a time when Black girls across the country are increasingly vulnerable to unjust violence, unwarranted incarceration, and unnoticed disappearance, Hill chooses to celebrate and protect the girl she carries, using the narrative-in-verse style of her acclaimed book A Bound Woman is a Dangerous Thing to revisit her youth. There, jelly sandals, Double Dutch beats, and chipped nail polish bring the breath of laughter; in adolescence, pomegranate lips, turntables, and love letters to other girls' boyfriends bring the breath of longing. Yet these breaths cannot be taken alone, and as she carries her childhood self through the broader historical space of Black girls in America, Hill is forced to grapple with expression in a space of stereotype, desire in a space of hyper-sexuality, joy in a space of heartache.
Paying homage to prominent Black female figures from Zora Neale Hurston to Whitney Houston and Toni Morrison, Breath Better Spent invites you to walk through this landscape, too, exploring the spaces-both visible and invisible-that Black girls occupy in the national imagination, taking in the communal breath of girlhood, and asking yourself: In a country like America, what does active love and protection of Black girls look like?
DaMaris Hill
DaMaris B. Hill, PhD, is the author of A Bound Woman Is a Dangerous Thing, an NAACP Image Award Finalist; The Fluid Boundaries of Suffrage and Jim Crow: Staking Claims in the American Heartland; and a collection of poetry, \Vi-ze-bel\ \Teks-chers\(Visible Textures). As with her creative process, Hill's scholarly research is interdisciplinary. An Associate professor of Creative Writing at the University of Kentucky and a former service member of the United States Air Force, she lives in Kentucky. www.damarishill.com Advertising & Promotions0 TOC0
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Breath Better Spent - DaMaris Hill
BY THE SAME AUTHOR
A Bound Woman Is a Dangerous Thing:
The Incarceration of African American Women
from Harriet Tubman to Sandra Bland
The Fluid Boundaries of Suffrage and Jim Crow:
Staking Claims in the American Heartland
\Vi-zə-bəl\ \Teks-chərs\ (Visible Textures)
to the generations and the futures.
Years ago, she had told her girl self to wait for her in the looking glass.
—ZORA NEALE HURSTON, Their Eyes Were Watching God
CONTENTS
Preface
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BLACK GIRL GENIUS: THE HISTORIES
Speaking in Tongues
Jarena Lee: A Platypus in a Petticoat
Beloved Weirdo
The Birth of Ma
Ella Baker at the Ballot
Never Grow Old
Someone for Me
Only Boys Have Fans
TWICE-BORN GIRL
What You Talking ’Bout
Glutton
Those Sunless Summer Mornings
Hotter Than July
Sign o’ the Times
Grace for Be’la Dona
Dodge City Girls
Still Scary
How the Tongue Holds
Sage Poets and Popstars
Continuous Fire
In the Wilderness
Wasting Her Lips
Born Again and Again
Never Grow Old: Part Two
Gristle
IN SEARCH OF THE COLORED GIRL
The Gypsy Girl Gets No Solitude
Nevaeh Adams and Sharee Bradley (Nevaeh’s Mother)
Kamille Cupcake
McKinney
for All of Birmingham’s Baby Girls
Aniah Blanchard
Dear Christians of Alabama
Anitra Gunn
Kimberly Grisham
Aziya Roberts #WeWalkForHer
The Psalm of TeNiya Jones
Homeroom
Tendayi’s Blues
* * *
Baiting Boys
New Year’s Day 2021
#BringBackOurGirls—Not a Story
#BringBackOurGirls—Premonition One
#BringBackOurGirls—Premonition Two
#BringBackOurGirls—Who Is Criminal?
#BringBackOurGirls—Premonition Three
#BringBackOurGirls—Premonition Four
#BringBackOurGirls—Waifs and Wanting
#BringBackOurGirls—Mama’s Boy?
* * *
Acknowledgments
Citations
Photo Credits
PREFACE
Breath Better Spent: Living...
At this moment, I am a writer who lives and works a teaching job in Lexington, Kentucky. This is a place that has little love for the me and the Black girl self I carry on my shoulders. These feelings have intensified since the murder of Breonna Taylor and the subsequent attempts to smother public outcry regarding her murder (such as the political attacks against Attica Scott that criminalized her professional responsibilities as a legislator). When I speak of love, I speak of community and a type of nurturing environment that allows my writer self and my Black girl self to live uninhibited. Any love that is available to me in Lexington, outside of the Black women writers/artists and allies community, is often conditional and in many cases a kind of love that is transactional. The love in this city is given as a type of reward. I never have the courage to forget that the love and affections I do experience here are akin to some type of radish, rhubarb, and pumpkin-spice jelly love, like lye in with your chocolate love. And I like my love sugarcaned, honey-dipped, and fluorescent, a neon advertisement kind of love, billboard-style love and big enough to read when you are way down the highway and told to you in many tongues, told in two or three different languages kind of love. A love like water veining the earth, even in the concrete spaces, until the rubble runs out and the water blankets her like an ocean kind of love.
Love and nurturing are essential parts of the human experience. A secure foundation of love and nurturing bears many gifts; imagination might be the greatest of them. Our desire to know is like the smell of the first mother’s neck and the ways it winds into her girlhood story. We want to know everything and what was human before we left the nests of Eden with a sack of water from the Nile. Modern civilization is far from Eden; it has chosen other priorities and untrustworthy scribes. So I will begin here, not in the imagination, but in the knowing.
I am a remnant of what used to be known as an American.
Likewise, my writing is cloaked in the intellectual and creative legacies of American literature, but what inhabits my writing cannot be discussed outside of the context of my Black girlhood experience in this place we call America.
In this book, I am telling you a story illustrated in pieces of my heart and fragments from my mirror.
This book may be some long-forgotten promise. Years ago,
after I freed myself from some of the expectations this America
had for me, I told my girl self, the one who waited to greet me in the looking glass, that I would bring her with me. I promised that I wouldn’t stuff her, my girl self, into my girdles and the other undergarments that make me fit for the world we live in. I promised to carry my girl self on my shoulders and celebrate her. In this way, I am acknowledging the ways she has been a warrior and protector of my sanity.
Many of the pieces in this book are semi-autobiographical. In Black Girlhood Celebration: Toward A Hip-Hop Feminist Pedagogy, Ruth Nicole Brown defines Black girlhood as the representation, memories and lived experiences of being in a body marked as youthful, Black and female.
With this theory in mind and my girl self on my shoulders, I have named this book Breath Better Spent: Living Black Girlhood. The conceptions of breath are central to this book. Every breath in physical or sacred form, every laugh sounding like a giggle or thunder, every whispered joke or secret—even the currency of gossip—every prayer I utter or the prayers uttered for me, every gasp, every praise and squeal were sound investments, good time spent in girlhood. Take it in. Breath is both individual and profoundly communal—particularly in the form of language. Breath is a type of life force. One that is both physical and spiritual.
The title includes breath because it takes in the experiences of Black girlhood, not in isolation, but in conversation with what we understand to be life on this planet at this time. These poems examine the cyclical lives of Black girlhood that does not confine itself to age or geography. It also takes special care to talk about recent Black girlhood experiences that I have encountered in my womanhood,
like my time spent with Saving Our Lives, Hear Our Truths (SOLHOT), a volunteer collective that celebrates, respects, and honors Black girlhood, and Black Girl Genius Week, a public showing-off of SOLHOT epistemol- ogies and values. My time with SOLHOT is best articulated by my sister poet Nikky Finney. She describes the experience as being "in the tradition