Stormy Weather Clear Blue Skies

By Sky Alexandria

This book is about my life and my family how people helped me, through the good and the bad. how god was there to help and the diffrent churches i went to through the years. the names in this book and the places in this book will be changed to protect the innocent. it will tell about how i felt at the time and about how diffrent shows helped me not saying the name of the show. but using diffrent statements, and how there are good people in my life, and about the bad people in my life. when i got married what my marrage was like the good the bad the happy the sad. when i had my childern the ones i miscarried, how my childern have been treated over the years. how i felt after my miscarriages, what i thought they were and the names i gave them and why i say that is to help me know it was real and how to cope with it and how many miscarriages i had. how my birth dad treated my birth mom, how my birth mom died and how old she was and what she died of. how i was taken care of when i lived with my birth dad, what age i was when i went into my foster home and how they treated me and took me in to their home, how came to know jesus and invited him into my heart,how people treat me because i beleive in god. how people treat my sibbling's, when i got divorced. and why this book is about the truth and what i can remember, who i am related to and the proof i have of that. that i was a triplet.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Xlibris US
• Release date: Aug 17, 2016
• ISBN: 9781984552037

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Chapter I

My mom’s name was Penny; she was born in Oshkosh, Wisconsin. She was a housewife/mother and she loved what she did and she took pride in her children and loved them. She was from a family of seven and she had 1 half sister. My dad’s name was Neil he was either born in Oshkosh, Wisconsin or Fond du Lac, Wisconsin or Eldorado Wisconsin he came from a family of 15. My mom and dad got married on December 6th 1953. They had 4 living children together, and she had son who was not Neil’s. His name is Bendick; he was born in 1952 out of wedlock. They had a son together he was born out of wedlock he was born November 4th 1953. His name is name is David, then in 1954 they had a son he was born May 26th his name is called Eric. In 1959 they had a daughter she was born August5th she was born with cerebral palsy her name is Andera, November 21 1961 they had a daughter her name is Lanie and she was a triplet she did not find out until she was in her thirty’s her mom miscarried Lanie’s twins. Lanie was the only one that lived out of the three. When Lanie was 6 months old she remembered a pretty woman giving her a bath Lanie was having fun splashing in the kitchen sink and Lanie was laughing and so was this nice woman. Years later Lanie found out that was her mom and she treasures that in her heart.

Chapter II

Penny was a mom who loved her children. She did for her children what any loving mother would do, she got up cleaned the house, she played with her children, she helped them with their school work, she was sick a lot but she pushed through and did what she was suppose to. I was told in later years when my mom was born they didn’t expect her to live past 2 years old because she had a hole in her heart and she had epilepsy. Penny was sent to mercy medical hospital there she stayed until the day she died she was very sick, in later years. I was told she died of dropsy when she was in the hospital she painted a picture of horses, the nurse told her when you get done painting that picture is when you will die, she was liked very much by many, before she died the doctor told everyone they need to say there good bye’s my half brother Bendick was 11, my brother David was 10, my brother Eric was 9, my sister Andera was 4, and me Lanie I was 2, my mom died on March 11th 1964. of dropsy what dropsy is that the fluid is a watery tissue under the skin and what it did is there was a fluid buildup in her body that it made her swell up and leave bruises on her all over and because there was too much fluid it literally crushed her heart into little pieces. I was told in later years the day the family said goodbye to mom my brother David told me that her face was really pale. I was told in later years that when my mom had her funeral that there was a long line for blocks and blocks there was no end in sight I was told in later years; my brothers school teachers were there. I was told in later years she could have had a surgery that was brand new and my dad and my grandpa said no they talked it over with my mom’s side of the family and my dad’s side of the family and they said no we don’t want her being used as a guinea pig. Back then it was brand new she had a 50 percent living or dying I was also told that she just wanted to give up because she was also abused a lot by my dad. I was told in later years he threw frozen meat at her if the meals were not on the table. And that he told men they could do what they wanted with my mom and if she didn’t do they could beat on her. I was told in later years. She also gave up because she didn’t want to be abused anymore. Can you just imagine how she felt knowing that she wouldn’t see her children grow up?

Chapter III

My mom died on match 11th 1964 I was 2 years old after my mom passed away I want 2 live with my aunt and uncle in Fond du Lac, they had a daughter the same age as me. We did everything together it was like we were twins. When I went to live with my aunt and uncle for a little while, everyone said she is ugly and a crying a lot little one isn’t she, by the time I left they all said she is a different child she is a beautiful little girl and she doesn’t cry anymore. I went back to live with my dad in the month of June or July. I found out in later years that my aunt and uncle wanted 2 adopt me but my dad wouldn’t hear of it because he made a promise 2 my mom. In later years I also found out he was doing it for himself. Because I also found out in later years that my dad treated my mom horrible, he would throw frozen meat at her if there was no food on the table. I also found out that he forced her 2 have sex with him. I also found out that he told his friends you can have your way with her if she doesn’t do what you say you hit her. I cry every time I think of how my dad hurt my mom. I remember when I went back to live with my dad I was going to be three my brother David and my brother Eric and I went for a bike ride the seat was on the back of my brother David’s bike it was June when went for a bike ride my left foot got caught in the spokes I started screaming and crying. David stopped the bike. He took my foot out of the spokes we were by the water because we lived close by Menominee Park in Oshkosh, Wisconsin. They took me down by the water it was cold water we stayed there for awhile, until my foot was numb. My brother Eric was 8 my brother David was going to be 9. Then when my foot was numb they took me home. The next thing I remember. I was 3 I needed to get my tonsils out. So I got them out. They kept them in a jar they were red and pink. They did that then. They did throw them away later. They kept them in a jar because we were wondering what tonsils looked like. Then the doctor came in and said, How is everything going? My dad said I found out in later years. He said to the doctor then I think she should have some ice cream. What do you think doctor he said yes what kind do you want I said chocolate. So I think my brother David went to get the ice cream for me. I found out in later years that I was told I was sick all the time just like my mom. Because I always had ear infections. I also remember when I was 3 I had a urinary tract infection I remember I had to go to the bathroom in a jar. That was for testing. another time I remember was I turned 3 we had a birthday party this was in November the 21st 1964 and I had my friends over and we throw pop corn all over and we were eating it also. I remember we had a couch that you could take off the cushions and I told my friends I am going to take off the cushions and hide in the couch so I did. I remember when the party was over there was pop corn everywhere I was sad because of the mess we made because everyone had to pick it up and they were not happy but I was sad because of the mess that was made. I remember I had blond hair and blue eyes. I remember that when the party hat was put on me. I also remember I always had curly hair all the time and ruffled dresses with lace. I remember waking up 1 day I saw clothes everywhere they were putting up the Christmas tree. Dad was working. When they were putting up the Christmas tree I was standing by the iron and ironing board. Don’t know if I was ironing or just standing there. But I do know the iron was hot. I also remember I had a lot of dolls a big box full and having a lot of fun with them. We lived in Oshkosh, Wisconsin in an apartment 3 bedroom

Chapter IV

When my mom was still alive we lived on 6th St. In Oshkosh, Wisconsin. I was less than 1. My sister Andera was 3. My brother Eric I think was 6, my brother David was 7 I think, my half brother was 8 I think lived right by leaches I think it was a store not sure but I think it was. Because my brothers went over to leaches got some peas and used them in a pea shooter. Then they also put slungs in the soda machine my brother David said to my half brother I don’t think we should be doing this anymore. Mom was starting to get really sick. From 6th St. We moved to Walnut. From Walnut St. We lived by Menominee Park across the street by a naval base in Oshkosh, Wisconsin. President Kennedy passed away in 1963; my mom was in the hospital a lot. We had babysitters 1 was Jenny. But before we moved to main and 6th we lived on farms by wauka and eureikia Wisconsin. Then after that then we moved to main and 6th by this time mom was really sick. Mom passed away on March 11th 1964 but before she passed away she was painting a picture of horses. There was a nurse who came into her room one day and said to my mom when you get done panting that picture you will die. And sure enough but also before she passed everyone from the family came in and said there goodbyes to her. My brother told me in later years all this and he also said that mom was white as a ghost I also found out in later years she died of dropsy. Now it has a different name. But what happens is that there is water under the skin in the tissues. And what happens is that you get sores everywhere and you swell up like a balloon so not only do you all the swelling which brings on a lot of pain you also have the sores that bring on all the pain and little by little you have this going on inside your body and it crushing everything in you. And my mom couldn’t deal with the abuse that my dad was doing to her and my dad’s friends were doing to her like I found out my dad was letting other men have sex with my mom and if she didn’t they could beat her. And my dad beat her also. Because she wouldn’t have supper on the table at the right time and he even throw frozen meet at her and also when he wanted sex and she said no she got beat he also had sex with her so much that he wore the thing all the way down which keeps the poop out of the other part of the body. So when my mom was very sick that her poop was going into her blood stream so not only did she have the sores the swelling she also had her poop in her blood stream and she couldn’t take it anymore then it reached her heart and it literally crushed it into a fine powder like if you were crushing medicine that is what all this did to my mom and she passes away on March 11 1964. I never got to know her but from what I hear she was a person who loved to laugh and she was a meek person and very kind and gentle and she loved life. No matter how sick she was she got up and did what she could until she went into the hospital. See everyone thought my mom would have passed at 2 years old because of her being so sick and epilepsy and all and the hole in her heart. And she lived until she was 33 then she passed on. Then from there Menominee Park we lived on Hudson St. My mom passed when I was 2 my dad remarried when I was 4 that is when we lived on Hudson St. In a big gray house. I remember one time sitting on the porch and leaning my head up on the railing it was a medal railing. My step mother’s name was harleenea and she had 4 boys and my dad had 4 children we were all in and around the same age range. And I had a friend right next door that I play with and I can’t remember her name but then down the street around the corner I had another friend also I can’t remember her name either. But my step mother when she spanked my brothers she used stuff that she should have never used on a child and then there was 1 time they got done grocery shopping and someone went into the refrigerator and spilled eggs and milk out of the refrigerator and I got the blame because I was the smallest and from there she left my dad and filed for a divorce. Then I heard that she got remarried and she divorced him also and then she got remarried again and I don’t know if she is married. From Hudson St. And we moved in with my aunt and uncle and my uncle touched my brother David in places that shouldn’t have been done. But things were happing like that all over in the 50’s 60’d and 70’s and in earlier days than that. I was informed in later that we lived in Neenah I also know that we used to live in St. Louis also but I was younger like 1 I know my mom and dad met Elvis Presley in real life they got an auto graphed record and picture of him. We also lived in other small towns in Wisconsin.

Chapter V-Chapter VIII

I found out in later years that right after my mom died that I went to live in Fond du Lac, Wisconsin. I stayed there until I was almost 3. My dad and my brothers went to live in Westfield, Wisconsin, my are aunt and uncle so when our dad went to work there were people there to take care of my brothers. They went to school there they lived there for a year. I thought it was only a couple of months but I was told different. That was in the year 1964 to 1965. From 1967, to 1969, we lived on Broadway for two years. I want to say I had a friend on Broadway we would build snow forts together. I also remember going to a lady’s house that played the harp it was wonderful and she had a Springer spaniel. I thought that was a beautiful dog. The music this lady played was so beautiful I could listen to it for hours but I had to go because she was getting ready to eat supper so I told my friend I would see her later. I also remember going to this big gray house and getting candy off her porch because she would set a basket of candy she was a very nice elderly lady all the kids in the neighborhood called her the candy lady. I also remember running down the sidewalk in bare feet singing, skipping, running jumping, and laughing. And I would always cut my foot on broken glass on the sidewalk and after so many times of cutting my feet on broken glass then my brothers and my dad would say you need to start wearing your shoes because this is not good you getting a cut foot every day first on the right then on the left. So then I started wearing socks and shoes. I remember also wearing a blue dress and spilling blue paint all her it. I don’t know why I did that it was not a good idea. I guess I just wanted to know if it came out and yes it did with a lot of scrubbing I had to throw the dress away by dad always bought dresses from the store he would never let me wear anything from a rummage sale. He told me he wanted the best for his little girl I had curly blond hair. And blue eyes and ribbon in my hair that matched my dresses that I wear every day. Even back then they wear already having everyone wearing matching clothes. I also remember we would always go over to friends called the Cummings we would spend summers there I remember when I had a lose tooth they would tie a string around the tooth and around the door handle and slam the door then the tooth came out I remember we had butter milk one time and I didn’t like it so I spit it out but we did a lot of fun things over there. They lived in Oshkosh, Wisconsin also. I remember when school started and after school I was suppose to meet the older kids by the high school but were I thought I was suppose to meet them no one was there I sat there for the longest time and it started getting dark then they came to pick me up I was scared. A lot. But when I was back at their house I knew I was safe again. I had so much fun over there. 1969, to 1970 we lived on Nebraska St. I had a very good friend who lived across the street his dad was a minister his name was Steve we had a lot of fun playing one time we were playing with matches because we were told never play with matches we just wanted to see what it would do and it ended up burning our fingers a little bit. Then Steve’s parents had a little baby girl he took me up to see his little sister. She was beautiful and there house was nice it felt weird going inside a church to go up to where he lived but that is what we had to do but at the same time it was really neat. When I was 7 I was always over at my aunt Eva’s house so took really good care of me and bought we wonderful things like cute dresses and hat’s to match and coats and purses it was fun being with her. I found out in later years that my aunt and uncle in Fond du Lac wanted to adopt me but my dad wouldn’t hear of it. I also found out that my god mother my aunt Eva was going to take care of me if anything happened to my dad my aunt Eva would buy my sister and I when we were little matching dresses and little ruffle plastic pants to go over are diapers because are dresses were too short. That I found out in later years. I remember when I was 7 one day my aunt Eva and I went out to eat, then we