Last of the Spirit Bears: the Greatest Hits (2014-2019): Paediatric Palliative Care & Complex Care Anthology
By R R Pravin
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“For anyone who has lost a child, a family member, or a loved one, this collection will help you get through life. And to the fans, this is a culmination of all our years together. You will cry, you will laugh, but most of all, you will gain a newfound outlook on life. May this book always serve as your guide and a shoulder to lean on through the most difficult times as it did for many who have read it. Peace and much love always.”
R R Pravin
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Last of the Spirit Bears - R R Pravin
Copyright © 2019 R. R. Pravin. All rights reserved.
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Published by AuthorHouse 05/22/2019
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In loving
memory of Professor Tan Cheng Lim, my biggest fan and avid supporter through the years, I remember how you used to always ask me whenever he saw me along the corridor, ‘When is your next book coming out? Can’t wait to read it!’ Miss you Prof.
Contents
Foreword by An Inspiration
Preface: An Open Letter
Caught in the Mo(u)rning Rain
Dreamcatcher Le Capteur de Rêves
Do They Have Telephones Up In Heaven?
Fire, Faith & Glory Le Feu, La Foi et La Gloire
Bonus Track Postcards
Bonus Track Outer Space
Bonus Track Winter’s Wreaths
Bonus Track Last of the Spirit Bears
Bonus Track A Second Forever Too Short
Bonus Track Sunflower
Bonus Track When It Comes to My Turn
A Tribute to the Children
Dedications
About the Author
Foreword by An Inspiration
Picture%204.jpgIt is with great pleasure and privilege that I pen this foreword for a most exceptional junior colleague on his latest outing in mainstream literature. When Pravin said it is a greatest hits compilation of his previous anthologies of poems on palliative and complex care, Madonna’s Immaculate Collection immediately sprang to mind. Revealing that generation I belong with this expose notwithstanding, whenever one learns about the release of a greatest hits album, excitement soars; followed by a dash to the CD store after school to pick up the treasured disc containing every hit that for various reasons one did not manage to own before, always with bonus tracks that add to the cheer.
On another equally serious note however, I have witnessed Pravin’s growth as a doctor, poet and person (in no particular order) since he started volunteering with the Star PALS team at third year medical school. In some ways, his journey is almost similar to mine, as he tracked almost the same locations in search of experiences and ways to hone his craft – to serve sick children better. It is apparent from these poems written over the years that he has learnt much from the wisdom of children and families he met. His writings developed even greater depth and richness, yet not losing their simplicity and authenticity. Only one who has experienced those raw emotions that prevail in situations that these children and families face can such empathic understanding arise. In spite of the hurt involved, he revisits that space again and again, consistently producing new poems in reflection. As a closeted activist (now outed obviously) for paediatric palliative care, I am proud to see a future champion who proclaims in the first edition of these anthologies Caught in the Mo(u)rning Rain: I believe that Paediatric Palliative Care has a long way to go and needs a captain at its helm. I am not going to rest till this ship sees shore.
Enjoy the hot hits and new material readers (thank you Pravin for gifting the most evocative poem ‘Postcards’ to our parents at the last Star PALS memorial!) and I look forward to the next Billboard number one.
All is well.
Dr Poh Heng Chong
Medical Director, HCA Hospice Care
(Star PALS is a specialist paediatric palliative care service by HCA Hospice Care)
Preface: An Open Letter
First of all, I can’t believe it is time for a greatest hits! Have we been on this journey long enough? Well 6 years is an incredibly long time. Back when it all started with Caught in the Mo(u)rning Rain in 2014, who knew where this would take us? By us, I mean the paediatric palliative and complex care kids and their families (y’all know who you are!). Though sometimes it may seem that life is full of more downs than ups, I hope you all realise that it is human nature to overcome. You all have done so in your respective ways and I couldn’t be more proud. It is not easy and the memories flood back at times of our loved ones but we need to stay strong as they would have wished for us to. Looking back at all these collections, I fondly recall all the smiles I left on the faces of all these children both as a medical student and now as a paediatric resident during my internships and postings around the world.
Paediatric Palliative Care and Complex Care is a field that is growing in relevance every day, be it in a first world or third world country. The care, both medical and non-medical, given to a child who is in extreme pain, short of breath or bed-bound matters in more ways than one. Though they may not be able to verbalise what or how they feel, they recognise the kindness shown to them and will forever carry it with them even after they move on. Children are delicate and innocent. They know not what suffering means and I am always amazed at their intense resilience to fight till the end with a quiet optimism. These poems celebrate all these children and their stories. They are living, breathing miracles and though some of them may no longer be with us today, they are solid examples of what making the best of life is all about.
Besides children, this collection also celebrates the remarkable parents behind these kids! Can we give a thunderous round of applause for the parents and the siblings who tirelessly support these kids despite all odds being against them. These parents and siblings live to tell and they are living embodiments of loyalty, dedication and faith because they are 200 percent dedicated to the cause 24/7 and there can be no substitute for their unfathomable love and devotion to their child. Seeing them at the annual local paediatric palliative care team, Star PALS (Paediatric Advanced Life Support) Memorial Service or along hospital corridors, it takes me back to the last moments we shared together with their children and to see them on their journey to overcome the sadness is inspiring beyond words.
Each of these anthologies represent a milestone in our journey to make paediatric palliative care and complex care better known and to increase awareness that there is a need for specialised care in this domain, both in medical and non-medical domains from the dedicated doctors to the amazing nurses to the awesome medical social workers who make it happen! The teams I have seen across the world can’t do without any of these key people who make such a colossal difference in the lives of the children and their families, tirelessly working behind the scenes.
I am also so grateful for the opportunity to have been able to share all these books with so many fellow paediatric palliative care believers across the world and my fans have been unparalleled especially the children who are the reason I do this. I still fondly remember the terrific reception to 2014’s Caught in the Mo(u)rning Rain – the first paediatric palliative anthology and the awareness it raised through local media and it was selected as a finalist in the International Best Book Awards (Health: Death & Dying Category). It was my first time combining my love for writing with what meant the most to me in medicine. This passion followed through the years with 2015’s Dreamcatcher: Le Capteur de Rêves which featured children & families from both local and international paediatric centres. 2017’s Do They Have Telephones Up in Heaven? was released with an unforgettable book launch with a charity single and music video, ‘Face the Fight’ we did to raise funds for Star PALS, our local paediatric palliative care organisation. As my paediatric residency continued through various rotations such as neonatology & intensive care, I penned 2018’s Fire, Faith & Glory: Le Feu, La Foi et La Gloire. 4 indelible collections to last a lifetime, encompassing all the wonderful stories of the children and their families in the form of poetry and the short contextual explanations that followed suit after in the form of #inspiration.
To the families who have lost their children, I hope you know that you are not alone on this journey. We remember your beautiful children with you every day and it is in the memories that we keep them alive.
As I go through these pages, I can’t help but be grateful for all that I have learnt from these little angels and their families. I have also added 5 poems to this anthology, completing 200 paediatric palliative care and complex care poems over 6 remarkable years from 2014 to 2019 with all of you. There is a poem for every possible occasion, celebrating the highs and lows during all of our journeys together. I couldn’t have done it without all of you who have supported this dream, the books, the charity single and the Children’s Palliative Care page on Facebook. Thank you. Merci beaucoup. I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart. To all the paediatric palliative care and complex care children and families, I have you in my heart all the time and I hope you will always know that.
Thank you for giving me the chance to do what I do. This anthology is my thank you & tribute to you.
God bless. Peace & love always, Dr Pravin
Picture%202.pngThis is Misha, a dear oncology patient of mine who was one of my biggest fans. She suggested renaming my anthology ‘Do They Have Telephones Up in Heaven?’ ‘Do They Have Toilet Bowls Up in Heaven?’ instead because she said that was more important – talk about the sense of humour children have even in the darkest of times. She will forever be one of the many special princesses I am a fan of because of her incredible fighting spirit to the end. It was beyond heartbreaking to lose her end 2018 shortly after the photo on the right was taken with ‘Fire, Faith & Glory: Le Feu, La Foi et La Gloire’ and her mum said she waited for the book to be released before she passed. I recall spending the last few moments with her and Dr Heidi, a friend from our local oncology department who knew Misha when she was first diagnosed. We miss you Misha xx.
Caught in the Mo(u)rning Rain
I was caught in the mourning rain No where to run no where to hide Thought I had nowhere to go
Till you came along & saved me
Caught in the Mo(u)rning Rain is a compilation dedicated to all children in the palliative care programme. It was inspired by a teenager (to whom I dedicated the title poem) who was initially apprehensive to meet me but eventually warmed up to me. We became real good friends during that session and planned to meet again. Unfortunately, he passed on a couple of days later. It was tough and pretty rough but I decided to express myself honestly through my poetry. The collection was inspired by all the children I have met during my Paediatrics/Haematology-Oncology/Palliative Postings in both the KK Women’s & Children’s Hospital & the National University Hospital in Singapore.
Paediatric Palliative Care has a very special place in my heart. I’ve experienced loss and I know how it feels – the alienation, the anguish, the injustice, I’ve been through it all before, therefore I know. I believe that Paediatric Palliative Care has a long way to go and needs a captain at its helm. I am not going to rest till this ship sees shore.
This book isn’t only meant for children with cancer or in palliative care. It applies to children with special needs such as those with Down’s Syndrome (Trisomy 21), the autistic children and even children whose parents or loved ones have cancer! This book does not discriminate and is all-encompassing filled with words to comfort, words of kindness and immeasurable compassion – something really special about this book and if you look hard enough, you may just find some magic that’ll make all your sorrows go away & make every day a better & brighter day!
Every punctuation, every capital letter is intentional to evoke an emotion, to bring back a memory and to paint a portrait in the minds of the reader. Accompanying each poem is a short paragraph on my inspiration for writing the poem labelled with #Inspiration so that readers will be able to gain a deeper understanding into the thought process (pretty much like a live newsfeed) and the personas I adopted while crafting the various poems. All the words are from my heart to yours. May they make you laugh, cry or inspire you!
This is my gift to all the children of the world.
Especially the Paediatric Palliative
Kids & their loving families.
Contents
Foreword
The Aftermath
Mercy
Caught in the Mo(u)rning Rain
Cookie Jar
Repeat Offender
Hold Me
Vanity
Waterfall
Creep!
Un-Impossible
Dead
Cocoon
Walk Beside Me
Spare Change (Two Pennies Worth…)
Tattoo
Overcast
Ward 1.4.3
Disney Princess
Summer Fashion
Girl Talk
Rain, Rain Go Away
One More Time
Sleepless
Blinded
A Melody, A Memory
Tin Kids
B.M.A
Hey Mr Sandman?
A Child’s Play
Peter Pan (to Neverland)
Still Waiting (for my angel)
Octopus (whatchalookinat?)
Who in the world cares but me?
The Final Remembrance
Kerosene Lamp
Papa, Papa
The Homecoming
Free My Soul
if I could live one more day
Just You & Me
Magic
I don’t know
Morning Glory, Evening Sunset
Built A Little Different
If Only God Could Save All the Children On this Earth
Blame Me Not
Everybody hurts
I’ve Got A Dream
Angel
Never Let Go
Swan Song
Let Me Be
A Quiet Place
Anew
Foreword
10.jpgThis is a special anthology of heartfelt poetry inspired by the author’s privileged time befriending children and their families who faced the trials and tribulations of the greatest test in life. It provided snapshot glimpses of the hope, the despair and the courage of living life to its fullest in the journeys through the valley of the shadow of death. Even as it is said that when a parent dies one loses part of the past; when a spouse dies one loses part of the present; when a child dies, one loses part of the past, present and future; here words immortalize many the precious moments life gifted to these brave young warriors; their memories live forever.
Dr Tan Poh Lin, Senior Consultant,
National University Hospital of Singapore Division of
Paediatric Haematology & Oncology
75427.pngWHO Definition of Paediatric Palliative Care
Palliative care for children represents a special, albeit closely related field to adult palliative care. WHO’s definition of palliative care appropriate for children and their families is as follows; the principles apply to other paediatric chronic disorders (WHO; 1998a):
• Palliative care for children is the active total care of the child’s body, mind and spirit, and also involves giving support to the family.
• It begins when illness is diagnosed, and continues regardless of whether or not a child receives treatment directed at the disease.
• Health providers must evaluate and alleviate a child’s physical, psychological, and social distress.
• Effective palliative care requires a broad multidisciplinary approach that includes the family and makes use of available community resources; it can be successfully implemented even if resources are limited.
• It can be provided in tertiary care facilities, in community health centres and even in children’s homes.
11.jpg‘Strike A Pose Little One’ – give me a prop & I’ll make it work. As always, birthdays were special milestones my family never missed celebrating. It is a festive occasion & all children, I mean ALL, should have a chance to see a cake (& even if they can’t blow candles as I know some special kids have weak muscles or tracheostomies) to understand how special they are on their birthday. I remember helping out with a home birthday surprise for a special needs child who was around five or six years old. He had a tracheostomy. It was the first time the family celebrated his birthday & it really moved me. He was really excited & you know that glimmer of joy in a child’s eyes when you see one, especially with the candles, the balloons and the singing. Really lovely moment there.
The Aftermath
Out in a quiet meadow
I lay praying silently
In my heart seeking
The cure for all the woes
Which plague my once-upon-a-time
Peaceful being
Opening an old glass window
Coated with cakes of dust
Butterflies sprinkled across
Sparkling golden fields
Greet my cataract-laden eyes
Which yearn to see one last time
Free me of all sorrow
Won’t you sweet love?
I say to the old tombstone
Lying lifelessly in my courtyard
With the remains of a friend
Who was my reason to live
Till he died 1st January1984.
A sweet sparrow
Sings to comfort
A tortured soul
Hoping for an answer
To end this loneliness
Once & for all
Save me, help me.
#Inspiration:
The Aftermath was the first poem I penned for this compilation. For me, writing has always been therapeutic. This poem reflects the sadness someone encounters during one of those quiet moments we all have when we can reflect and reminisce friends or family we have lost. Natural feelings of regret & loneliness are usually the aftermath of someone’s passing – it is only human to cry out once in a while.
Mercy
Mercy sweet mercy
Can’t you feel
This pain of mine
Not even love can cure
Been through the lies
They call protocols
Stealing my life away
Even quicker than the tumour
No more treatments for me
I’ve begged
But nobody listened
Not even you mercy.
Mercy have mercy
Can’t you hear
My pleas for salvation
Which never came
Despite enduring humiliation
For having lost all my hair
Through no fault of my own
Fighting my tears
Amidst the laughter
When all I asked for
Was a teaspoon of mercy.
Mercy show mercy
Can’t you remember
What sympathy means to me
Or has your heart hardened
Till it feels no more
While time runs out for me
Draining my life
Day by day without
A tinge of your mercy.
Teacher, doctor,
Daddy, mummy,
Brother, sister,
At the end of the day,
What does it matter
When mercy itself
Has failed to pardon
My only life
Which I lost
Without your mercy.
Mercy O Mercy
Please don’t do this
To any other
Who may need you
Have mercy
For mercy begets mercy.
#Inspiration:
Mercy was a poem which came to mind when a friend recounted her experience while she was in the treatment room in the Paediatric Haematology & Oncology Ward. The child was about to have a procedure done on him and he looked sadly at his father, asking if the procedure was going to be painful. The father reassured his son that there would be no pain, trying his hardest to fight back any tears that were forming. It was a tough moment but I imagined what the child was thinking and hence Mercy was born.
Mercy is a figment of the child’s imagination – someone the child talks to & negotiates with especially when the child is about to receive really painful injections or chemotherapy. When I was eleven, I acted as Princess Portia in the Merchant of Venice (it was a school which only had male students) & I remember reciting the famous ‘Mercy is like the gentle rain…’ monologue when I disguised as the male judge to save my fiancé’s best friend. I learnt a life lesson & till today, I learnt the importance of having mercy in any and every context possible, especially in the medical world.
12.jpgDuring my term in the 65th Medical Society as the Publications Director, I decided to work with Star Pals (the Paediatric Palliative Organisation in Singapore). We organised storytelling sessions cum cheer squads for kids in the palliative care programme. Haikal Anwar suffered from cerebral palsy. When we entered the house, his family warmly welcomed us & they were so thankful for everything we did for Haikal. We read him stories, had a little birthday party and we sang for him. It was Christmas & we promised that we’ll visit him next Christmas. In this picture, we have myself, Haikal & his lovely family in the background and our dedicated Star Pals social worker Ms Geraldine (one of the most A+mazing people I’ve ever known – she would always go the extra mile to update me on a sick child or inform me when a child passes on even if it’s in the middle of the night!).
Unfortunately, the next Christmas never came. Haikal suffered from a bad episode of pneumonia. His condition deteriorated acutely and he passed on. I was really heart- broken when I received the news cause I was planning a second visit during Christmas. I thought about his loving family who worked really hard to support him even though they weren’t the youngest of parents. But I’m glad we did what we could for him & hopefully made that little difference, no matter how small.
Caught in the Mo(u)rning Rain
My heart’s too sad to drive
Down this road called life
Heavier than a cannonball
How much further must I travel
Alone in the morning rain.
Colliding into dilemmas
On this slippery slope
No hand to hold onto
Just my tiny umbrella