Unforeseen Journey
By John Roche
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You need to read this book if:
—you feel that caregiving tasks previously done with ease now require extra motivation and energy to complete;
—the compassion you once had is waning, and you find yourself
cutting corners to complete caregiving tasks;
—you feel that you are approaching the end of your rope, and you are overwhelmed due to stress and exhaustion; and
—most importantly, if you are just beginning the work of caring for another human being.
It will not prevent the abovementioned scenarios from happening, but it will allow you to tolerate them and survive. Challenges are coming your way.
Help will be needed. The help starts here.
John Roche
John Roche is a Physical Therapist who works in Downey, California. He took on the role of caregiver for his mother not knowing the effect this would have on his life. While the love for his mother never varied, caregiving changed their relationship and affected the care he provided. this their story. John lives in Fullerton, California. He has three adult children: Breanna, Evan, and Kaitlyn.
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Unforeseen Journey - John Roche
Copyright © 2018 by John Roche.
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FOREWORD
"Unforeseen Journey by John Roche is a raw and honest account of his personal experience of caring for his mother in his home for ten years — including the end of life sequences involved. An emotional testimony, it is the definition of love itself, demonstrated in the care provided, but also shows the stresses and strains put upon the caregiver.
As uplifting and satisfying as this labor of love can be, there are also life-changing consequences to the caregiver, including exhaustion and burnout. Roche’s goal is to help other caregivers avoid the negative effect of these feelings and to assure that the family member receives excellent care until the very end of life. The downfalls of informal or family caregiving, along with the motivation and strategies to avoid them, are presented based on the Roche’s real-life experiences while caring for his aging mother.
Many members of the ‘Baby Boomer’ generation are now solidly involved in having to take care of their own aging parents, either in their own home or in a sheltered living facility. Exceptionally well written, organized and presented, it is impressively informative, thoughtful and thought-provoking. A ‘must-read’ for anyone charged with caregiving responsibilities for an aging parent (or any other family member), this book is unreservedly recommended for personal reading lists and community library collections."
— Midwest Book Review
READERS’ REVIEWS
Knowing many who have undertaken this task, some well and some not, this was a book needing to be written. It’s obvious Unforeseen Journey is a book written by someone who had a profession, children, AND 24-hour care of someone he loved, his mother, leaving precious little time for himself. For those never having had both the joy and the burden of caring for a family member, it’s a thought-provoking glimpse of what doing something like this involves. To those living this experience, it touches every human emotion you may have or may be feeling and will understand it completely. I would recommend this book to all, but particularly to those facing a similar situation now or in the near future. You will get a clearer understanding of the emotions that come with caregiving and then will find valuable resources and information to avoid some of the stresses that come with this formidable task. Thumbs up all the way. I have purchased additional copies to provide to friends in or near this same situation. Makes a great and valuable gift.
Have you ever questioned whether you were giving the best caregiving and support you could for your loved one? Have you as a caregiver ever felt helpless or hopeless in the face of stressful repetition and/or suffering almost too unbearable to witness? Have you felt despair in wondering if, at the end of the day, you did well or screwed up? Read Mr. Roche’s book. It’s going to touch you. It’s going to make you feel what you felt when you were tired and cranky and struggling to get through. It’s going to make you want to weep when you think of your own particular moment of decision; when, overcome with fatigue and frustration, you failed to think through something .…with damaging results. As I read this book, I thought of my own caregiving experiences and all the ways I contributed to my sister’s quality of life in her last years. I acknowledged my own on-going torment of that instance when I, like so many others, felt I let her down; when I felt I let myself down and didn’t do the best I could have done. Then I tried to put it in perspective, the same perspective I see as truth for this author. We are human, we make mistakes, but if not for the family caregivers what kind of quality of life would our loved ones experience? In simple reality, what we have done and what Mr. Roche did is the most loving and noble thing a person can do for someone they love. Only when we recognize this truth in the book might we let ourselves off the hook. John Roche has given us a plethora of resources to assist us. Follow his wisdom and his advice….get help and stay healthy. You, and the person you care for, deserve it
.
— CS
Well written, from the heart and right on as far as what you go thru as a caregiver, excellent
— anonymous
I have looked for books on the subject but I didn’t expect to find and read a story of raw emotions! I have read many of the chapters repeatedly, only to relive many of my own feelings. I truly wish I had this book prior to caring for my own family members. It is so very informative and honest. I highly recommend the read for those caring for their own family members or employed caregivers. We will all need care at some point in our lives and preparation is so important in making many difficult decisions. Thank you to the author who shared his personal and valuable story!
— anonymous
This was not a technical, heartless manual about how to take care of a family member but a truly intimate look into the struggles one son had while caring for his elderly mother. Anyone who is considering taking on the daunting task of family caregiving should read this book first.
— Supima
As I sat down to read this book I really didn’t know what to expect. In the first 50 pages I was blown away with the raw emotion John had written about. I finished the book in just two days, reading in between work, school, and home chores. I personally have not had this exact experience but this book has taught me a lesson with my own job. Working with kids is no walk in the park, and sometimes I find myself talking in a certain tone or treating my kids in a different manner than I would have in my first year of teaching. The term
burn out is a real thing that not many Americans know about or know how to take care of. For the 10 years John was caring for his mom, he went through many hardships not many people knew. I love the way this book is written and I would highly recommend it to anyone who is a caregiver for their loved one, or just wants to read a story about true emotion of caregiving. Job very well done!
— anonymous
What an insightful variation of this author’s feelings of being the caregiver to his mother as she ended her journey here on earth. I was my father’s caregiver the majority of the time prior to his death. This book truly helped me realize that I was not alone when it comes to the feeling of guilt associated with the caregiving for a parent during the tail end of their life.
— anonymous
This book makes no bones about the positive and painful sides of caretaking, the way the story needs to be told, honestly. The story makes me want to know more, yet is also enough in its cautionary approach. The author should be applauded for this raw truthful story. Thank you for sharing your mother’s life and passing with us. It resonates
— Pat
Brutally honest. Bravely vulnerable. Beautifully powerful. Immensely helpful.
— anonymous
TABLE OF CONTENTS
Foreword
Readers’ Reviews
Preface
My Admission
Defining The Family Caregiver
Caring For My Mom
The Truth And My Detour
One Mother’s Life
The Journey
The Last Eight Months
Caregiving And The Caregiver1
Ten Years Of Learning Too Late
Spiritual Health Of The Caregiver
Statistics Of Caregivers In The United States
Respite Care
Alzheimer’s Disease
The Dying Process
Cerebral Vascular Accident (Cva Or Stroke)
Epilogue
Resources
References
Acknowledgments
PREFACE
Catharsis motivated me to write this book the first time. That original endeavor worked for me, but the intended message was not clear enough. The message I want to make very clear is that the health of the family caregiver is the cornerstone of quality caregiving.
I cared for my mother for 10 years in my home. I willingly accepted this responsibility. In many ways, this was my fate. I knew I would care for her someday in this manner. What I didn’t realize was the effect caregiving would have on my life and, in turn, upon the quality of care I provided.
The person I became was very different from the son who began caring for his mom 10 years earlier. I am convinced that this unforeseen transformation could have been prevented. At the end, I was ill fit to handle an event that would hasten her death.
I will be presenting focus points and strategies for family caregivers. These are necessary to avoid what I believe is the natural attrition of a person’s ability to remain compassionate through years of caregiving work. This attrition is not a character flaw, fault, or weakness on the part of the caregiver. The declining ability to provide appropriate, loving, long-term care exists for one reason. Caregivers are human.
This book is for all family caregivers, but particularly for those who are just beginning the caregiving process. Conflicting feelings of love and burden are possible as time passes. A plan needs to be put into place early in the caregiving journey to ward off the detrimental effects of this noble duty.
Family support and acknowledgement of the caregiver are part of this plan. Also, nourishing the loving relationship between caregiver and care recipient is vital for softness to remain in the caregiving role. Most importantly, providing respite care for the caregiver is likely the main key to maintaining the highest quality of care.
Much of what I express here is mirrored in available literature on informal caregiving. My respect and admiration go out to those who have undertaken this task. Family caregivers do honorable work, often under trying circumstances, and at a price to their own life.
This is a cautionary essay for the family caregiver. It is not a referendum against doing this type of work. Giving of oneself in the manner needed to ensure the wellness and safety of a loved one can enrich the lives of both parties involved. The lasting memories etched out through this time together can give meaning and real purpose to life. But without knowledge, forewarning and a strategy, the potential exists for mortifying frustration, exhaustion, and burnout.
Caring for my mom was a privilege I will cherish forever. The fact remains that knowing what I know now would have altered how I cared for Ma and possibly extended her life. She is my inspiration for this project.
MY ADMISSION
Ma had physical disability most of her life. She suffered a stroke when she was thirty-two years old, and another when she was fifty-five. Both strokes affected the left side of her body. She could walk and live alone up until the age of 76 when injuries due to falls necessitated a change in her living situation.
Taking Ma in with me was not heroic. It was simply the right thing to do. I don’t deserve a medal. The memories I have of Ma, being present at her death and sharing the experience with family are my rewards and a beautiful tribute to her life.
I made mistakes while caring for my mother. Some will say I am just being hard on myself, but I was there. I know what happened. Complete honesty is expressed here. The details and emotions of this experience may be difficult to understand or accept. Some may even consider them to be reprehensible. I didn’t understand many of my own feelings at the time.
The bottom line is this. My ability to provide compassionate care was compromised when I failed to acknowledge my own exhaustion and burnout. I could have been a better caregiver for Ma if I had taken better care of myself. There were early warnings I didn’t heed. I lost perspective on the importance of what I was doing and for whom it was being done. Thoughts I never had even remotely entertained before crept into my head, as I pondered how much longer I could continue. I went too far down an undesirable road, and a price was paid for it.
A letter to Ma, if only she could read it today:
Dear Ma,
I am so sorry. I knew the end would come but that was not what I wanted for you. I accept responsibility for this by not being ready when you needed me most. I wasn’t fit enough to react correctly to what happened. You are not to blame. After all our years together, you deserved more.
I’m sorry for not listening to you more and not being more sensitive to the changes happening to your mind and your body. I was blind. It must have been so scary for you to know that things were changing. Even though we lived together, you were alone through much of this because I wasn’t paying enough attention. You could not express easily what you were feeling, and I didn’t give you great opportunity to be heard by being there for you as a son. If only I could do this over again.
When stressed and frustrated I went ahead doing what I thought had to be done. I should have stepped back, and taken a moment to realize who you were, my mother, and not just anyone I was looking after. This got lost in the wake of it all. I was naive. All I wanted was for you to be well cared for.
It’s very sad to feel you gone because I was with you every day. I may have expressed anger and resentment but just please know that was only because I was ignorant. I loved caring for you. Please know that. I should have done better. I can only say how sorry I am. That’s not enough, but it’s all I can do. Your memory lives forever. Miss you Ma.
Love,
Your Son
DEFINING THE FAMILY CAREGIVER
Informal or family caregivers are family members who care for a parent or loved one in the home. Although the devoted efforts of the family caregiver can be very rewarding, this noble work can also be detrimental to the quality of the caregiver’s life. Definitive steps are needed to avoid this regrettable outcome. The well-being of the family caregiver must be a priority to assure that quality, enduring care is provided.
Caring for another human being certainly requires compassion and understanding. Knowledge and skill are also needed to meet the