Emerging from the Shadows
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In August of 2009, Gregor Southard was pulled aside by a Human Resources representative and told that the company he worked for was going in another direction. A career that spanned 18 years was suddenly over. Unable to find significant work in his field, things began to fall apart. By the fall of 2012, he found himself living in a house with no utilities (for eight months) after his life savings were exhausted.
Finally, in the fall of 2013, he lost his house as well. This memoir is culled from blogs he wrote from May 2012 to October 2014. This book is not a How To book but a look at the process of finding peace in Christ after years of bitterness and despair. It is the authors hope that those who pick up this book will find comfort and clarity if they or someone they know is going through, or has gone through devastating circumstances in their own lives.
Gregor Southard
Gregor Southard is a graduate of the University of Kansas. For 20 years, he worked in the entertainment industry, working his way up from Stage Hand to Production Manager. His experiences at the historic Ryman Auditorium led to the circumstances he talks about in his book.
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Emerging from the Shadows - Gregor Southard
GREGOR SOUTHARD
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CONTENTS
Introduction
Prologue
Well, It’s Monday
Hate, Part 2
Heaven
The Call Of The Morning Bird
Focus
Years Pass Faster Than Days
I’m Not The Prodigal Son
Your Prayer
I Sea Eternity
Oasis Or Frivolity?
The Parable Of Farmer Jesus
Calling Hungry
The Baseball Metaphor
Anyone Interested In Taking A Walk?
The Old Bone Revival
The Wind Is Coming
The Lord Is Out There Somewhere
Of Boredom And Nightmares
Legacy
A Psalm Of May
The Fog, The Breakthrough, And The Deeper Magic
Nature’s Jubilee
Accomplish… What?
I’m Still Here
Wonder
You Can’t Have It Both Ways
Sufficient
Have A Heart
Is It Hip To Be The Teacher’s Pet?
A Distant Kind Of Tomorrow (Worth Waiting For)
Streams Of Living Water
Introducing, Mr. Luke Warm
The Circles Of Love And Tolerance
An Appeal To Desire
Bigger Than The Lion
Nature Myth
Life Like A Movie
God Is Mercy
Going Home To Move Forward
Nothing Other
The Brief Interlude
The Rain Of Praise
The Right Now
Most High
J’s Love Breaking Through
My Old Friend
The Journey’s Not Over
Emerging From The Shadows
Appendix: J’s Coming, Look Busy!
The Many Names Of God
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INTRODUCTION
You will, no doubt, find the formatting of this book a little different from the normal memoir. This book was born from my blog Christianity Is A War, written from May of 2012 through October of 2014. Instead of rewriting everything into longer, more traditional chapters, I decided to leave the blogs in their original form (albeit with much editing). My hope is that the reader will find some value in experiencing these moments much like I did, not in a traditional narrative, but in the moments that led to a single conclusion. What you will find is a man searching for what Christ called abundant life.
The quest ends up being a life transformed from years of bitterness and despair to peace in Jesus Christ.
That is what unfolds in these essays, culminating in Emerging From The Shadows,
which I decided to make the title of this collection. Along the way, you will find prayers of praise interspersed throughout this book. Here, I took a cue from St. Augustine’s Confessions where at the beginning of many chapters, he offers up prayers of thanksgiving to God. I hope you find this book encouraging and useful.
That’s what happens when you’re the nice guy.
A sort of random prologue to whatever comes next
A few years back, I was sitting in a familiar coffee house talking with a friend of mine when the conversation went from art, faith, and friends to the struggles we were facing. I don’t remember most of the conversation, it was a few years ago after all, but I remember us talking about the uneasy feeling of being caught in the middle of a dark forest. We weren’t missing the forest for the trees,
we were all too aware of the trees crowding in and around our lives, call them the cares of the world
if you like, and our being tempted to run through that forest to try and out run or escape them. If that makes any sense.
Here I am, a few years later, sitting in a booth at the same coffeehouse in the expanded section. In a receding economy, my favorite haunt has figured it out. It has not only survived the storm, it has thrived. The continual buzz of coffee drinkers and organic salad eaters is the soundtrack of success and busyness. I’m happy for them, though I do miss the library feel it used to convey to those few who first discovered the little coffeehouse that would.
What am I trying to do here? I’m not quite sure yet. Frustrated with the modern state of poetry, I set it aside over a year ago. Frustrated by the many factors that have contributed to a lack of opportunities for my books and screenplays, I quit writing all together. I’m not an Art-for-
Art’s sake kind of guy. So, what am I trying to do here? I can’t keep up with journals. My autobiography doesn’t interest me, either. Yet, there seems to be a story in here somewhere.
It’s not like I haven’t tried. I wrote a pilot for a television series titled What It’s Like To Die
as a sort of comical autobiography of my life but it took on a life of its own despite the real life references to my experiences as a frustrated would be professional writer. I have started a legitimate autobiography, whatever that means, a few times that I want to call I Am Daffy Duck
with little luck. I like the premise, though. Daffy is the quintessential other guy.
You know who I mean. You always hear people say things like I love Bugs Bunny! And also Daffy.
Or, Taz, Marvin the Martian, the Tasmanian Devil, etc is my favorite, oh, and I like Daffy, too.
That’s what happens when you’re the nice guy. Everyone’s glad you’re around but you’re not the one they’re seeking out at the party, as it were.
Still, while I want the t- shirt, I’m not concerned with that as an overarching theme or issue.