More Dead Than Alive
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about the Gangs, Killing, from Murders,
to Drugs dealers, Secret Society, to a Corrupt
Government, to Mothers killing her own child's, to
Dad's raping his own seen, to Poverty, not enough
Believe, to everything we wake up to in life and the
Story of my life, to Children coming up corrupted.
Darrren Henley
My name is DARREN HENLEY and I was born in East Chicago, Indiana and I dedicate this book to my Children Christ and God to my Dad and G*G to my departed Mother Karen Williams and Cousins. R.I.P.
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More Dead Than Alive - Darrren Henley
Copyright © 2013 by Darren Henley.
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Contents
Life Before December 25
4 5
To My Head
A Change In Me
About to rise
About to take place
After Life
Aint nothing
All fun
Aways stood by me
America killing us
Another day
Another war
Apart of me
Apologize
As I laid dead
As they fall
At home
Baby girl
Banging with that gap
Be my wife
Be true to you
Become my hero
Been kidnapped
Before it’s too late
Before your story told
Behind the flag
Behind closed doors
Born loser
Breathe
Britney please hold on
Brittney I’m looking for you
Brittney R.I.P.
Brothers and sisters
Bury the remorse
Call the police
Casting nobody out
Come up out this pressure
Comes to worst
Commited sucide
Could I choose
Country that girl for u
Cradle to the grave
Crime life
Day I die
Day until I rise
Death total
Die before you
Done with my life
Don’t make it
Embedded in my eyes
Evil of America
Feelin the pain
Females I meet everyday
Figured it out
Finally decease
First date
For a nigga to live
For every one
For sure
Forever your boo
From this life
Get better
Giving thanks
Giving up on
Going to die
Gotta prove to the mades
Grew apart
Hallelujah
Holding on to my name
Holy high
Hope for joy
Hoping for a way
-Out
Hoping they stop
How you felt
I do say
I got on
I got to end this
I lost here
If it need to be
If y’all could be stoned
I’m a witness
Ima do me
In my life
In poverty
In the club toasting
It’s no way out
It’s time for me to go
It was more to show
Jazmine you know
Just to stay alive
Keep my people with hope
Killers and murderers
Killing All OVER
Leaving behind to enjoy
Leaving the industry
Life going up in flames
Life one day
Life was a mister
Life with this 12 gauge
Life
Like a dream
Live this life over
Living For Your Career
Losing sleep
Love & support
Man hood
Me to you
Memories being lost
Message through these words
Moment of peace
More dead then a life
More death
Mother earth
My belief
My game tight
My guardian
My life turned out
My mind is twisted
My will
My young age
Neglecting their own seeds
Never let it go
A new meaning to thug life
New way of my life
Niggers wake up
Out for attention
Over came
Poor life
Promise
Rat-a-tat
Reborn of Jesus Christ
Rememder every tear
Reminiscing on
Rising to
Save me a place
Smoking weed
Society
Soldier on mission
Something you lost
The only one standing
The wrong season
Thing he was
This conversation is done
This society
Thought It Was Done
Thoughts of dying
Threw the valley
To be down
To be tortured
To escape
To see death
Taught me how to get mines
We all die
Who I am
Why they call you a ho
With a pen
You a real
g"
Young teens fall victim
Life Before December 25
After the rain brings the pain, dealing with the lost of these children what world could it bring? What happened with those children in Connecticut? How many parents went insane? Please learn from my mistake the Lord isn’t the one to blame. I have not seen my kids in two years. I know it’s not the same but I still feel the parents’ pain. This is one of the hardest stories I ever wrote, with a million and one things running through my brain. On top of that I’m going hungry and homeless. It ain’t about me but it’s a price we have to pay for messing up these children lives today. To the parents because he committed suicide don’t think he got away. To the human race we gotta put away this prejudice. It’s hard being a human being, no matter what color you are you just got to believe in the Lord faith to escape. Because so much is happening in society today. My prayers are like loading up ammunition. A young teacher giving her only life to sacrifice a young life, you know she with Christ. Come together to pray for her family. No matter what color you are. Put your life in that position, I’m with you. If we all choose for a better life without the government we can’t lose. To the government what happened to the tragedy behind Columbine? these childrens’ school should have never got that far on the news. I’m a parent feeling the great remorse; these children lost their life before December 25th. I believe it was all a set up.
4 5
To My Head
Momma
all I want to do is to please you, that’s all I wanted to do. To make it wealthy, to buy you something new to write many books so my dreams can come true. Every night I cry to be with you, knowing that you’re looking down. Sometimes I hear the sound of your voice. My life was different out of five; it brought tears to my eyes. Especially when you died dreaming of holding a 4 5 to my head. Remember how you used to tuck me in going to bed life moving so fast. Lord
so many passed that drove me insane. How could I deal with my pain, contemplating suicide while I’m walking. My brother and sisters they think that I lost, do they really understand the tragedy that I went through? Lord
they don’t know how hard it is to get to you. If I change my life would it make the world change? My tears bring forth rain, take a seat and let my story reach you. Another lyrical coming up like PAC, I will be a miracle to many. My words just the beginning to be reborn. I’m keeping it moving on and doing it for my people that have already gone with a 4 5
to my head.
A Change In Me
This young nigger I love to death, he’s ready to take his last breath… Dying over hats grew up feeling like he was already put to death. Puffing on a fat sack never leaving home without his gat, telling me can I see death? Wondering what goanna happened next so I coming with a bunch of niggers in packs. Spinning out control dealing with these hoes, grew up in this hell hole losing control. Spinning out of control dealing with these assholes. Living at home where he was cast out. A young nigger about to bug out having doubts pushing him out. Turning the lights out hoping the Lord
will dig him out caught up in a shoot-out paranoid got me grabbing a 380 Let me go baby I’ve been going through this daily only the Lord
knows if it’s on NBC trapped in the sea hard for me to see Will we ever be free? Only thing I see up ahead is danger. Not too much left in me, witness to my city going under siege. Throwing up pitchfork homies R.I.P. seeing you in V.I.P. Lord
it’s time for us to agree, praying for a change in me. Spinning out control, dealing with these hoes. Grew up in a hell hole losing control sinning out of control, dealing with these assholes.
About to rise
Under anxiety attack haven’t slept, I’m wondering about death. Besides my word and my balls and my kids are the only thing that I got left. With a knot growing on my chest give me more time to serve the purpose. While I’m here I don’t know how long I got to live, watching my children shed their tears. In a week I will be writing my will. Finally be a witness to the next life, standing in the light while I see Christ. To my kids you gotta do your best to stay on this earth and fight for what is right. I know a lot of things haven’t been right beside that y’all are all I got left memories of me Jamell and my Dog. We made it up there with the rest of y’all. Lord holding a memory of me at the same time holding on to me. Forgive me for my bad deeds it got me addicted to weed. Before I leave let me get a chance to see my seeds only memories I got left. Taking them to Chuckie Cheese. Thanks for blessing me while my heart bleed. I used to be a junky and a coke addict. Trying to commit suicide in my mother attic. Instead of having a child hood I was being abused. My family made fun of me because I was in a special school. In the house they broke the rules but I’m the one that got abused. They made fun of me every time I went to school. As I grew both my baby mamas did me in too. Everybody else wanna join in, to make it even harder for me to get ahead. My dad turned away from me too. You see the struggle and fight that I had to breakthrough people taking advantage of me. Baby I’m sorry for last night. My spirit will be here for a long time in heaven smiling down. Forgive me as a child somewhere in my childhood my heart died nobody will cry when I die cause I’m a outlaw about to rise.
About to take place
For the crimes I’ve done Christ
finally forgave me for what I’ve done. It was a hard lesson to learn, every dollar I burn. I used to live by the guns didn’t even know if I was going to make it to see my sons. Now I’m a ghost writer. Now my words like a hit for hire every letter on fire. Promise my mother I will never retire. I will always stay around to be a writer because I used to be a born loser. Hung around nothing but losers. From a criminal crew with my picture on the news. At that time I didn’t realize how much I had to lose. My uncle passed me the towel and started singing the blues, That week I failed and whinding up in jail facing a B felony above my head. Thought I couldn’t make it without a Dad. I was in the making of my first book when my mother passed. I left the worst in the past now I can sit back and laugh. From an open casket, knowing that my people smiling down from heaven. My sister Dog
got your ashes. For everything I wrote to the people, this is another part of my life that ain’t no joke. I feel like I gotta write some more. If I can make it in life just imagine how many more? You just got to trust in the Lord
and believe in him more when it pours. This is how I used to live now this is the way I feel. My story will forever live. To the old generation to the new generation we gotta have patience and be prepared for what is about to take place.
After Life
You treat a nigger like he’s a HO. I survived many after lives to become a soldier. From shooting up the block, to armed robberies, to gun shots. My mother went into the state of shock because she thought I wasn’t going to make it to 11. From stress calling on God
when she saw her son loading up a glock. Around the clock I grew to a Mack-11. For the haters on the side it’s millions of me coming up world-wide. For the fame and the name nigger we’re doing our thing. Got niggers in the cut with the A-K’s, 5.0 scared to drive down our way. We undefeated in this drug trade! Killing up our enemies so sweet so a nigger can have peace. Jumping out the 6/4 with the street sweeper. We don’t play games on my block! We not know (HO) we refuse to die before we go for broke. If we gotta run up in a liquor stores to flip. Leaving ya’ll a tip for the things that I built. Niggers here always stayed on the grind. I seen a tear in my homies eyes when I put that nine to my mind. What will it be like? In the afterlife would I have my nine in my left hand at a red light? Do I have to be fully strapped at night? Slice my wrist with a knife? Do you see the reason why I had to change my life? From the gun fight, till God
being in my sight and taking over my life. My lifestyle speak a lot of stories after traveling throughout the after-life, I give the Lord
the glory. Momma
forgive me for your worries. You were very loving. A nigger had to do his thing. I don’t hold you for the blame. For my folks, they know a nigger was insane. Three minutes on this earth I was in pain. From then on it was hard for me to obtain. We ain’t no Ho. We trapped in this game with a name for a after life.
Aint nothing
Turn to the next page niggers want to know how to get paid and be saved. When it’s a lot of ways to grind my young juvenile went wild grabbing his nine thinking the world was mine. Running with all type of crimes my oldest brother is what I was looking up too. With a tool in school running around banging blue. Accidently shot a teacher too my youngest brother about to be prosecuted, trying to betray my life facing life.
Surviving the pain trying to survive so much, everyday wiping the tears from your mother eyes tasting the pain. They trying to control our brains surviving the pain trying to survive. So much everyday wiping the tears from your mother eyes, holding a nine they’ll never take me alive.
I was a youngin pushing rocks on the block