Leaves from Kashmir
By Saba Shafi
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burnt amber leaves of the Chinar are shed, she gathers the
scattered leaves of her journal, packs up her bag and leaves
her nestLeaves from Kashmir traces the trajectory
of a young womans journey from her native land-
Kashmir to Delhi, in a story where prose and poetry
intermingle in a lyrical, sensual dance. A moving
allegorical account of the struggles she faces as
she grapples with the diverse shades of life,
death, home, exile, love and longing.
Saba Shafi
Saba Shafi was born in 1987, in the Himalayan valley of Kashmir. A doctor by profession, she followed the traditionally desired path laid out by provincial conformism for a bright and hard working student. Things could have stayed this way if she weren’t born in a paradise that lost its peace just before she had learned how to walk, forcing her to spend her youth confined at home, gobbling down English and American literature to escape, at least in her mind, the immurement she grew up in, urging her at the same time to write. The music of a language that is not her mother tongue, but that she has deeply befriended, has opened a space of possibilities for her, an opportunity to make sense of pain, her own and that of those born in the conflict. Wielding the pen like a scalpel, she meticulously dissects out emotions, baring hearts and reanimating them. The reader will find in this first opus the sincerity and the passion of a voice that, while acknowledging the excruciating trials of existence, still loudly affirms the path of love and life.
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Leaves from Kashmir - Saba Shafi
Copyright © 2017 by Saba Shafi.
ISBN: Hardcover 978-1-4828-8928-4
Softcover 978-1-4828-8927-7
eBook 978-1-4828-8926-0
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Cover Illustrations by Rosenda Arcioni Meer,
Cover Design by Judy Loda.
Photographs by Hafsa Shah
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Contents
1. The City Of The Blind
2. And Our Lake Turns Crimson Again
3. Your Lake Is Still Here
4. My Lake Has Frozen
5. To Home, To Heart
6. To Home Must I Return
7. A Spoonful Of Home
8. Tonight, I Pine For Pines And Conifers
9. A Fairytale Inside A Fairytale
10. Speak Not Of Sadness Tonight
11. A Song Of Freedom
12. The Pen, The Whale And The Garden
13. A Whirlpool Of Longings
14. ‘Spring’ Back To Life
15. We Shall Meet Again
16. Spring In Her Heart
17. One Exile Imposed, Another Pilgrimage Undertaken
18. At Home In Exile
19. The Misty Mirror And The Birch Tree
20. A ‘Flight’ Of Pigeon(s)
21. One Last Time And Then No More
22. No Stories Left To Tell?
23. What Do I Write About Tonight?
24. Her Soliloquy
25. One Last Fight
26. Write Of Hope Tonight
27. The Carcass
28. The Empty Hands
29. Into The Dark Night
30. When Noise Became Music Again
31. Fire, Smoke And A Pinch Of Salt
32. Delhi Was So Far
33. No Winter This Winter
34. The Smell That Had Lingered On
35. The Silent Embrace
36. CLUNK!
37. Where Was Home Now?
38. Love: Finding The Possibility Beyond The Realm Of The Impossible
39. The Orange Wind Chimes
40. Washed At The Hands Of Love
41. Plucking Out Old Dreams, Planting New Ones
42. The Fragrant Rose
43. In The Twilight Of Unseen Dreams
44. Epilogue: Under The Starry Sky
For Kashmir, my home, my heart
The soul is a stranger
trying to find a home
somewhere
that is not a where
Rumi
About the author
Saba Shafi was born in 1987, in the Himalayan valley of Kashmir. A doctor by profession, she followed the traditionally desired path laid out by provincial conformism for a bright and hard working student. Things could have stayed this way if she weren’t born in a paradise that lost its peace just before she had learned how to walk, forcing her to spend her youth confined at home, gobbling down English and American literature to escape, at least in her mind, the immurement she grew up in, urging her at the same time to write.
The music of a language that is not her mother tongue, but that she has deeply befriended, has opened a space of possibilities for her, an opportunity to make sense of pain, her own and that of those born in the conflict. Wielding the pen like a scalpel, she meticulously dissects out emotions, baring hearts and reanimating them. The reader will find in this first opus the sincerity and the passion of a voice that, while acknowledging the excruciating trials of existence, still loudly affirms the path of love and life.
Acknowledgements
Kun Fayakun!
Be, and it is!
‘When He decrees a thing, He says to it Be!
And it is.’
My humble pen can write simple stories, but it cannot find enough words to pen down the Glory of the The Master Storyteller, The Light Manifest, The Creator and His Creation. So, I simply bow my head.
Manan, my husband, my mirror, my love (and hate!), who kept embracing the ugly in me, until he transformed it into something beautiful: who kept picking and joining, as I kept throwing and breaking. Thank you for being steadfast, for pushing me to write this, for making it a reality. Thank you for being.
How this book got written by me, through me, is nothing short of a miracle. One phone call, one reality check, one shaking up of the soul is all that was needed to help me string the scattered beads of pearl lying before my eyes all along and make a necklace that would adorn my neck and those that choose to wear it. Kareena, thank you for being the calming force in my life, for assuring me that no matter what the world thought, you had more faith in me than I could ever possibly have. Thank you for that loud knock on the shut doors of my heart.
My love and gratitude to my beloved aunt, Rosenda, who kept ‘pulling my right strings’ at the right time. Without your unwavering faith in me, I wouldn’t have made it this far. From the cover design to the title, from the sight to the breath, you have been in me and in every page of this book.
Make hay while the sun shines. I couldn’t have asked for my sun to shine more brilliantly and at just the right time! Sana, I value your presence in my life deeply.
Mama and Baba, my heart and my soul. You are not meant for nothing.
The power of these words made me believe. "You are our booin, our Chinar." I hope I become one, some day.
Junaid, whom I love a million times more than I express, whose heart shall always be connected to mine.
My namesake, Saba Mahjoor, who nudged me to keep writing and keep believing, I cannot thank her enough for the kindness she showed to a complete stranger.
Aunt Gazala for reading and re reading the manuscript painstakingly, Mr Rafiq Kathwari for being gracious and generous in his guidance, Ayan for all the valuable inputs, Hafsa, the loving sister I never had, who gifted me her spectacular photographs, Momin, my friend, my accomplice, Afnan, my kid brother, Ma, Daddy and the rest of the family, for all the love and warmth they have showered upon me, thank you a million times over. Justine, who holds the mirror up so gently for me, nudging me to keep looking in it, many thanks for giving me your hand each time I fell. Othman, my dear friend, my very own ‘physician,’ who urged me to keep churning it out, my thanks to you as well. A bouquet of gratitude to my grandparents, my uncles and aunts (both sides of both the families!) and all my cousins for their valued presence in my life. Gratitude to Dr Wahid Khan who listened to me, no matter what, no matter when. Sabzar, my other brother, who has been a blessing in this life.
A big thank you to Judy Loda of Judy Loda Design for putting together the beautiful cover of the book. Your creativity is amply matched by your immense kindness.
Gratitude is due to Miss Farrina Gailey and Mr Pohar Baruah of The Partridge Publishing House for their timely assistance in getting this book published.
Last but not the least, to all those who read this book, I hope you enjoy it as much as I enjoyed putting it together.
Saba Shafi
Delhi, 17 March, 2017
The City Of The Blind
Write! Write! Write it all out!
The urgency in his tone had been glaringly palpable. His voice had burst forth in brief flashes through the telephone, as she kept clinging tremulously onto it. She had been hit by ‘the malady.’ Yet again. And his message had been brief and telegraphic, but it had carried immense depth and import in its seemingly inscrutable, cryptic code. A method to contain and channelize all the madness. That is what she had been advised to seek. With such insanity on display in the streets of her home, it was impossible not to crumble, impossible to stay afloat. Dotted lines, slanting, seductive curves, broken fragments of her fractured imagination–these were to be her panacea. When the outside world seemed hopeless and despairing, one could only hope to create a false sense of security inside, for it was impossible to detach oneself from the darkness that was slowly creeping in from all sides, impossible to keep one’s eyes open when children were being blinded blatantly, impossible to save oneself from the shadows that kept lurking all around, in each corner of the deserted streets of a ghost city— a city of the walking dead, fast becoming a city of the blind.
Write!
he had reiterated,