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The choices Maya has to make arent easy. Forgetting him isnt easy. Forgiving him isnt easy either. This is her story.
The story of her love, the story of how she lost people whom she loved, and the story of how she rediscovered herself. This is the story of Vivaans betrayal. And this is the story of Anshs choiceschoices that changed lives.
Maya and Ansh are bound together by a lot more than memories. It is loss that unites them and that connects them. But sometimes even love isnt enough.
Will Maya find the love of her life? Will she ever forgive Ansh and Vivaan?
Will Maya find happiness in the quest of her dreams?
Will Ansh find his way back to the love of his life?
Will love stay?
Will destiny bring them together?
Sriparna Saha
Sriparna Saha is a geologist, currently enrolled in graduate school at Rice University, Houston. For her, writing is not merely a passion because it defines her. In her first novel, she brings to you a combination of a fresh story combined with the deepest emotions expressed through short poems. http://bells1811.blogspot.com/ https://www.facebook.com/sriparna.saha.07
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Remember - Sriparna Saha
Copyright © 2017 by Sriparna Saha.
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CONTENTS
Chapter 1 Letting Go
Chapter 2 Life After You
Chapter 3 The Visit
Chapter 4 Unfamiliar Faces
Chapter 5 Ghosts
Chapter 6 The Jigsaw of Life
Chapter 7 Pieces of Truth
Chapter 8 Goodbyes
Chapter 9 Fighting the Oblivion
Chapter 10 Getting It Back: Life
Chapter 11 The Void
Chapter 12 Unanswered Questions
Chapter 13 After You
Chapter 14 Deep Connections
Chapter 15 Going On
Chapter 16 Knowing You
Chapter 17 The Wedding
Chapter 18 Connections of the Soul: Ansh
Chapter 19 Connections of the Soul: Maya
Chapter 20 The Fundraiser
Chapter 21 Lifelines
Chapter 22 Stardust
Chapter 23 Unending Storms
Chapter 24 The Retreat
Chapter 25 Diwali Plans
Chapter 26 Night Lanterns
Chapter 27 Doors to Friendship
Chapter 28 Realizations
Chapter 29 Finding You
Chapter 30 Choices
Chapter 31 Loving You
For Di
As she encouraged me to write this story;
For my Ma and Baba
For having faith in me and always supporting me;
And if you are reading this, you would know this is
for you, ‘Ansh’
Why exactly did I fall for you…?
I wonder why
So deeply, so insanely
Was it because how our long conversations
Satiated my searching soul
In this wilderness of chaos?
Or how peacefully our silence hummed its own tune?
Why exactly did I love us?
Perhaps it was the gentle touch—
Yours on my soul
Holding me
Ever so slightly—breathing life in me.
Perhaps it was the silent smile on your lips that did the trick—
Melting away under my gaze.
Why exactly did the departure hurt so?
So much that it tugged at my soul
With tears in our eyes and smiles on our lips
Is something that perhaps I might never know?
Why exactly…?
We were like shooting stars,
Brought together for a moment—to be separated for an eternity
Why do I cry and smile together—thinking of you
Is something I will never know?
CHAPTER 1
Letting Go
A s she sat looking at the night sky full of twinkling stars, sipping tea from the earthen mug and took in the smell emanating from the mixture of the tea and the mug, she seemed to travel back in time—thinking of the beautiful rainy days when she would just sit by the window, watching as the raindrops cast beautiful asymmetrical patterns on the glass window, and the wild cuckoo would call distantly as if trying to break into her train of thoughts; of the dark nights when the glimmer of the distant sky was the only source of light in the darkened surroundings of the city life, when load-shedding was a common occurrence in the lazy summer evenings. She had come a long way, far from those memories that shaped her life. Yet always, a feeling of un-contentment had unsettled and chased her.
Her life had been split between her dreams, her ambitions, and her soul that just wanted peace in the minutiae of life. She always felt that she had been chasing the unknown and that her search for peace would never culminate into happiness, until she came to Dehradun—a town where the evening brought with it silence, away from the cacophony of the city life. At times she wondered if she was affected by the need to turn back into the medieval times, resonating within her soul to slow down. This town, where she could spend her time looking up at the twinkling stars, wondering if she had committed a mistake giving up her city life, her prestigious job and all the worldly pleasures just for the contentment of her soul. But now that she was here, she could chose to be anyone she wanted.
It was here that she met Ansh.
The thought brought a smile to her lips. Sweet and adorable Ansh, so full of life with his mischievous eyes filled with laughter. He could make anyone smile with his stupid jokes. It was difficult not to fall in love with him. And she couldn’t resist the same. Nor had she tried to. Her relationship with him was different yet beautiful. They became good friends, and then moved on to be lovers. It had been the happiest phase of her life. Lately, she had started to notice the slight changes his behavior, like the gentle fraying of a cloth, holding on strong but it was hard to tell when it would give away completely. The bipolar disorder was at times bringing out shades in him that made Maya wonder if he was the same person she had fallen in love with. Today was the first night away from him since she had met him six months back and it was difficult for her to imagine a life without him. She felt that her life would turn when she had agreed to let him go. The silence of the night stretched longer as the weight of her decision was gradually sinking in.
She was jerked back into reality as the siren of the ambulance shattered the silence of the night air. She traced her steps back into the eerily silent hospital ward where Ansh lay. After the accident two months back, he had been in a vegetative state. Day and night she had prayed with fervor that Ansh would recover and be back to his usual self. It was the sheer determination of her faith that kept the doctors trying. But time had run out when the doctors explained to her that Ansh’s systems were failing and that they could just keep him alive artificially. Maya had been in a dilemma, thinking if she could bear the burden of deciding to release him from his life, however unbearable it might be. She had turned their apartment upside down, torn through each shelf of Ansh’s study trying to find some address, some source through which she could contact his family. The sheer desperation of the situation had driven her crazy. She had caught hold of a number from one of his journals, but then each time she had called at that number, it was answered by an automated voicemail that said something about St. Paul’s orphanage. Ansh had never spoken much about his family, and she cursed herself for not coercing him to talk about his family more.
She remembered the first time that she had met him and realized that he would never have wanted to live on like this—unable to cherish the small joys under the sun. And then she realized it was time to let go of him. It had been an hour since they had pulled him off the artificial respirator. An hour since she had lost the person who had come to mean everything to her. But looking at his peaceful face, she didn’t feel a twinge of regret for being in love with him; nor did she want to change the way their love had been.
Miles away from the city life, away from the probing eyes of friends and family, this stranger had taught her what she had been searching for throughout her life—no matter what, she will always remember where it all started from.
This hiatus
Could be a short-lived one, I hope.
But even if our paths never cross again
I will carry your memories in my heart—
A piece of you embedded