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Quondam a Soliloquy - Peter McKinney
QUONDAM
A SOLILOQUY
LIFE—LIVING
LOVE—LONELINESS
ETHOS—PATHOS
AND OTHER THOTS
INCLUDES: HAIKU II POETRY
PETER McKINNEY
Copyright © 2011 by PETER McKINNEY.
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Contents
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
FOREWORD
PREFACE
SECTION ONE
ASSORTED VERSES
ALONE
WHY
PRECIOUS AND RARE
NEXT BEND
GREENER GRASS
LIFE 1
SAND
DAWN
WILD OATS
TWO BEING ONE
COLORS OF LIFE
BASICS
WINTER
IN NEED
IF
SANDCASTLE 1
(SANDI)
SECTION TWO
HELL-O, GOODBYE
LONESOME MAN
DO I KNOW YOU
LIFE II
MY LOVE
ALONE II
SOMEDAY
SOUND
LOVE
SECTION THREE
ROSES
YOU
CHANGE, CONFLICT AND COMMITMENT
LIKE WINE
TIME & LIFE
ENJOY
KUBLA KAHN II
IN SEARCH OF SOMEONE TO BE MY OWN
CHILD
AT LAST
MYSTERY
SECTION FOUR
FREELY
ALONE III
QUONDAM
UNDIFFERENTIATED
OF TWO GIRLS THAT I HAVE KNOWN
FRUSTRATIONS
SANDCASTLES II
SECTION FIVE
HAIKU II
SECTION SIX
BELLE RAVEN
LEAVES
SOJOURN
DESIGN
SAND-CANDLES
RECKONING
TO TOUCH THE MORNING AIR
TEMPEST
LIFE IS
AUTUMNAL
LOVELY RAVEN
FOND FAREWELL
SECTION SEVEN
PEACE
SWEETEST DAY
BIRTHDAY
BLACK SKY OF NIGHT
OF THE NIGHT
TO ME
RAINBOW OF THE NIGHT
YOU AND ME
ONE DAY
BUT FOR YOU
SECTION EIGHT:
EPILOGUE TO QUONDAM
AT LAST II
THRU JOURNEYS END
BOOK 2 - HAIKU, RAMBLINGS AND OTHER THOTS
HAIKU II STYLE POETRY
TOGETHER
I JUST DO,
I DO NOT KNOW WHY
PASTLES, MY LOVE
EVERYDAY
ISN’T IT NICE
INSEPARABLES
TRUTH AND TRUST
HAPPY TODAY
PALE MOON
RAMBLINGS
WORDS
NO PROMISES
OF THREE AND ME
TOMORROW TODAY
EVERYTHING IS YOU
LOVE ‘N’ LIGHTNING
FEELING LOVE
BIRTHDAY GREETINGS
MOMENTS
AS IS KNOWN
SILENT WINDS
MAGICAL-MYSTICAL MOUNTAIN
WHAT TO SAY
SILENT TIMES
MY BELLE RAVEN BEAUTY
ENGAGEMENT WISH
…AND IF…
TO ME
THE FIRST TIME
MAN
MY LOVE, UNKNOWN
MORE HAIKU II
PREFACE
PROEM
DEDICATED TO ALL WHO INSPIRED ME TO WRITE: JAN, JEAN, SANDI, KARLIE, JENNY, CAROL L, CHERYL, AUDRY, GLENDA AND THOSE I DO NOT RECALL.
ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
GREATFUL ACKNOWLEDGEMENT IS RENDERED TO THE FOLLOWING FOR PROVIDING ME WITH MANY OF THE IDEAS I HAVE EXPRESSED IN THE FOLLOWING PAGES OF ESSAYS AND VERSES.
ROD McKUEN FROM HIS MANY RECORD ALBUMS.
MARY TRAVERS FROM HER ALBUM MARY
.
MARGARET MEADE FROM HER BOOK THE GENERATION GAP
.
ALBERT ELLES, PH. D. HIS BOOK THE ART AND SCIENCE OF LOVE
.
FRANK S. CAPRIO, M.D. A GUIDE TO LIVING IN BALANCE
.
ALBERT ELLIS, PH. D. AND ROBERT A HARPER, PH. D. A GUIDE TO RATIONAL LIVING
.
LOUIS UNTERMEYER, ROBERT FROSTS POEMS
.
K.C. BARNES FROM HIS BOOK HE AND SHE
FOREWORD
THE YEAR IS 1970. I WAS NAVY HOSPITAL CORPSMAN, X-RAY TECHNOLOGIST; I HAD JUST GRADUATED FROM X-RAY SCHOOL AT THE NAVAL HOSPITAL IN SAN DIEGO, CALIFORNIA.
I HADN’T REALLY THOUGHT OF PUTTING TOGETHER A ‘BOOK’ FROM MY VARIOUS SCATTERED: THOUGHTS, VERSES, ESSAYS AND POETRY. THOUGH MY FRIENDS WOULD ASK ME, WHAT ARE YOU DOING?
I WASN’T REALLY SURE MYSELF! SO I WOULD NEVER ANSWER ‘OH, I’M JUST WRITING A BOOK’ AND I WOULD ADD THAT I WAS JUST KEEPING MY MIND FROM GETTING ‘RUSTY’. ESCAPING TO THE ORDINDARY DAY AFTER COMPLETING MY X-RAY DUTIES AT THE NAVY HOSPITAL LONG BEACH, CALIFORNIA.
AS AN X-RAY TECH I WAS OFTEN ASKED IF I DREAMED ABOUT MY X-RAY WORK i.e.: TAKE A BREATHE, HOLD IT, DON’T MOVE, OR DON’T BREATHE OR MOVE; OR ANY OF THE OTHER PHRASES USED IN X-RAY EXAMS. I USUALLY ANSWERED, ‘NO, BECAUSE I AM TOO TIRED TO DREAM ABOUT MY WORK.’
QUITE OFEN, THOUGH, I WOULD FALL ASLEEP THINKING ABOUT A VERSE THAT I WAS WORKING ON OR I WOULD CONJURE-UP A NEW IDEA FOR A NEW VERSE TO KEEP ME BUSY.
THE YEAR IS 1972 AND I AM IN THE PHILIPPINES STATIONED AT THE NAVY HOSPITAL, SUBIC BAY PART OF THE U.S. NAVAL PRESENCE IN THE PHILIPPINES. I HAD BEN USING A BORROWED TYPEWRITER WHEN I WAS IN LONG BEACH TO TYPE MY ESSAYS. I HAD MY OWN TYPEWRITER IN THE PHILIPPINES AND WAS STARTING TO FINISH MY ‘BOOK’ WHILE I WAS STILL ATTEMPTING TO BRING MY ‘BOOK’ TO A CLOSE.
A NUMBER OF CORPSMAN WONDERED WHO COULD BE TYPING SO MUCH, SO OFTEN, AND WOULD DROP IN TO ASK ME WHAT I WAS DOING? WAS I WRITNING A BOOK OR SOMETHING? WHAT WAS IT ABOUT? HOW DO, YOU WRITE A? WHERE DID YOU GET YOUR IDEAS? BY THEN I COULD TELL THEM, YES I WAS WRITNG A BOOK. IT WAS ABOUT ME AND WHAT I HAD BEEN DOING SINCE I JOINED THE NAVY IN 1965. TRYING TO TELL THEM HOW TO WRITE A BOOK WAS A BIT MORE DIFFICULT. I WOULD FIRST OF ALL TELL THEM THAT THEY NEEDED AND IDEA AND MATERIAL TO COMPLETE THEIR IDEA WITH, TO FORM IT INTO A BOOK.
AS TO WHERE I PERCEIVED MY IDEAS WAS SIMPLE; THEY WERE ABOUT MY LIFE AND EVERYDAY EVENTS THAT COULD BE WRITTEN IN ESSAY OR VERSE. WRITING THIS BOOK ‘QUONDAM A SOLILOQUY’ HAD LOOSENED MY MIND AND STARTED IT THINKING OF OTHER POSSIBILITIES. HOWEVER, THE IDEAS AT THAT TIME WERE STILL UP IN THE AIR UNTIL I COULD SETTLE DOWN AND BE FREE FROM THE NAVY—TO DO AS I PLEASED, WHEN I PLEASED!
PSM
PREFACE
IT IS NOT THE INTENTION OF THIS BOOK AS A WHOLE OR ANY OF ITS ESSAYS OR VERSES TO SOLVE ANY PROBLEMS, NOR TO EVEN PROFESS ANY NEW IDEALS. HOWEVER, IF AFTERREADING THE CONTENTS TO COME AWAY THINKING WITH A DIFFERENT POINT OF VIEW ABOUT LIFE—THAT IS ALL THAT CAN BE EXPECTED, AND THAT IS WHAT LIFE IS ALL ABOUT; OR AT LEAST THAT IS HOW WE WOULD LIKE IT TO BE, AND HOPEFULLY THAT IS HOW WE WOULD LIKE LIFE TO BE.
THERE HAS NEVER BEEN A GREATER NEED FOR MAN TO UNDERSTAND HIMSELF. HUMANITY HAS PROGRESSED FURTHER TOWARD UNDERSTANDING HUMANITY IN A BRIEFER PERIOD OF TIME THAN HUMANITY HAS IN THE PAST MILLENNIUMS.
THE NEED TO UNDERSTAND HUMANITY AND THE MEANING OF LIFE AND THE INTERPLAY OF THE TWO. AND TO PROBE EVEN FURTHER INTO THE MYSTIQUE OF HUMANITIES PAST AND TO CREATE A BETTER FUTURE.
ACKNOWLEDGING HUMANITIES PAST, COPING WITH HUMANITIES PRESENT; POSSIBLY HUMANITIES FUTURE WIIL BE AN APPROPROATE BLENDING OF THE PAST, THE PRESENT, CULMINATING IN THE FUTURE—A SYMBOSIS OF ALL HUMANITY.
life’s muses persuasive:
RESTRAINED: TEMERARIOUSLY WE ABANDON
OPPOSITION…
WHIMSICALLY…WE CONFORM INSOUCIANTLY…
CONTINGENTLY SATIATED…
BAFFLED…
CONSEQUENTLY: WHIMSICAL RECTITUDE…
CAPRICIOUS MANNERS….
SECTION ONE
ASSORTED VERSES
TO EXPERIENCE THE
LONELINESS OF
ONE’S SELF
IS TO
UNFOLD
ONE OF
LIFE’S
INTIMATE
MOMENTS…
TO DREAM THE
IMPOSSIBLE
DREAM
IS TO
UNFOLD
BEFORE
YOURSELF
ALL THE
WONDERS
OF
LIFE…
RAINY
DAYS AND
MONDAYS
BANISHED
BY THE
GOLDEN
RADIENCE
OF
YOUR
SMILE.
TO SEEK
AND
NEVER
FIND!
YET, I AM NOT
DISCOURAGED
BY
LIFE’S
MISFOTUNATE
ACTS…
TO GAZE
UPON THE
WONDERS OF THE
WORLD,
BEWILDERED BY THE
AWESOME MAGNITUDE IT
ENCOMPASSES, WHEN
COMPARED TO
ONES SELF…
TO HAVE
SEARCHED THE
ABYSMAL DEPTHS
AND TO HAVE
SCALED THE
LOFTIEST PEAKS IN
SEARCH OF
THE TRUTH OF
MANKIND,
HIS LOST LOVE FOR
HIS WORLDLY BROTHERS!
TO KNOW AND TO HAVE BEEN
SILENT!
TO HAVE SPOKEN AND NEVER BEEN
HEARD!
TO LONGINGLY LOVE SOMEONE—
YET UNABLE TO
LOVE THE ONE
YOU LOVE.
TO BE TOGETHER WHEN APART;
IN MY SOLITUDE I FEEL
YOUR PRESENCE WITHIN ME.
TO PARTAKE OF THE MARVELS OF
LIFE: TO BE BORN; TO GROW-UP;
TO LOVE AND TO BE LOVED; AND
TO ENJOY THE WARMTH OF
YOUR LOVED ONE BY
YOURSIDE FOREVER.
LOVE—A COMPELLING FORCE TOO
GREAT TO RESTRAIN. THE RADIANT
REMEMBRANCE OF
YOUR SMILE FUFILLS THE
VOID OF ETERNAL LONELINESS
I HAVE WHEN YOU ARE NOT BY
MY SIDE.
TO NEED NO ANSWERS AND TO WANT
NO QUESTIONS.
I JUST WANT TO LIE BESIDE YOU, WHEN
WE ARE TOGETHER NEVER
SPEAKING FOR WE SPEAK THE
SILENT LANGUAGE OF
LOVE.
YOUR GOLDEN SMILE IS TO
ME—WHAT MOST
PEOPLE CONSTRUE AS
THEIR PLACE IN THE
SUNSHINE OF
LIFE.
THE REASONS FOR BEING:
FINITE OR INFINITE?
THE SUN…THE MOON…THE EARTH…
AND US…. WE RECEIVE WARMTH
AND LIGHT FROM THE SUN;
ROMANCE FROM THE MOON;
SUSTENANCE FRO THE EARTH;
AND ETERNAL LOVE AND
DEVOTION FROM ONE ANOTHER.
TO ENJOY THE
GOLDEN APPLES OF
LIFE WITH YOU,
I HAVE ONLY TO
GAZE UPON
YOUR ETERNAL
SMILE AND BEAUTY.
TO KNOW—WHY!
BUT WHY DO
I KNOW?
I AM UNABLE TO
ANSWER.
YET EVEN IF
I COULD,
WHO WOULD
LISTEN TO
ME!
***********************************
TO EXIST IS: TO BE
CONCEIVED, TO BE
BORN, TO
GROW, TO
LEARN, TO
LIVE, TO
LOVE, TO
HATE, TO
ENTREAT, TO
FIGHT, AND TO
DIE.
***********************************
TO REMINISCE IS TO
RE-COLLECT—HALLOW DREAM
***********************************
TO DREAM, A DREAM IS A
FRUITLESS EFFORT TO
FULFILL ONE OF
LIFE’S
INTANGIBLE MOMENTS OR
DESIRES.
***********************************
ALL I WANT IS TO BE
HAPPY!
IS THAT SO
INTANGIBLE!
LONGINGLY
I ONLY ASK TO BE
HAPPY.
O SO VERY, VERY HAPPY WITH
YOU
MY LOVE
FOREVER.
***********************************
TO DREAM THE IMPOSSIBLE
DREAM IS A MANIFOLD
ASSEMBLEGE OF
DESPAIRING
IMPOSSIBILITIES—QUITE
SIMILAR TO
MY LONGING TO
LOVE YOU AND BE
LOVED.
***********************************
TO SAVE SUMMER AND
NEVER KNOW
WINTER.
AND SO SPRING LIKEWISE
AUTUMN.
YET, WINTER IS A
TIME OF BEING TOGETHER
AFTER
HARVESTING THE
BOUNTY OF
AUTUMN’S
CORNUCOPIA.
***********************************
THE DAYS OF WINE AND ROSES HAVE
ALL TO OFTEN WITHERED IN THE
HOT SUMMER SUN.
***********************************
LITTLE ONE, YOU MAY NOT
UNDERSTAND WHAT SAY OR
MEAN; YET WHAT
I DO YOU SHALL.
***********************************
AND AFTER WE HAVE
KILLED THE WIND! WHAT, THEN,
SHALL WE HAVE LEFT TO ENJOY?
***********************************
TO AND FRO FLOWS THE
CEASELESS WIND RENEWING
LIFE AND BREATHING THE
BREATH OF
LIFE TO