Shadows, Skeletons and a Southern Belle
By Jilda Leigh
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There was an IV in each arm, and one in her left foot. She had a catheter. An oxygen tube was in her nose. Machines were humming and buzzing. The straps still hung loosely from the sides of the bed where she had been restrained. She continued to sob, looking around at the dismal surroundings. Her only thought I failed again. But, who had found me? Who had saved me? she thought. More importantly, why did they save me? WHY? Didnt they realize how much pain I was in? I mean, I just tried to kill myself, did they miss that clue? she said to no one in the room.
Shadows crept in around her. They fit her like a glove. They were familiar, always bringing the sorrow and despair. She tried to turn on her side in the hospital bed, to no avail. She only cried harder and harder. The voices started to speak again, taunting her laughing at her failure. The voices were always with her, like the shadows. The banged inside her head like a drum, always trying to get her attention.
She seriously considered ripping the IVs from her body, just to feel the pain to know for certain this was real. But, something held her at bay. It wasnt the pain that caused her to pause; it was the idea of being restrained again. It was the fear, the fear of the unknown. The Skeleton named Fear that haunted her for decades. Then, it happened, again.
Committed. The voices were howling with laughter. You botched it, you moron, they said. Skeleton Fear got up from her chair. The shadows started crawling back towards me. Then, reality hit like a frying pan against the head. Im stuck here, I thought.
I was searched, organized, prodded, probed, checked, vampired, fed, and sent to lectures. Up at 6am, breakfast at 7:30am, lunch at 12:30pm, supper at 6:30pm, medicine at 9pm, and lights out at 10pm. What in the hell is going on? I thought. I was checked every hour, on the hour, during the night. Roll was taken at every mean, every class, and every activity. This is not going to be good. Skeleton Fear just smiled. The voices snickered.
I was given a handbook to read and complete. Handouts were given at lectures. Information was passed along so we would learn how to cope with our illness. What illness? I thought. The Skeletons and the voices only snickered.
After two weeks of this participation, I was told I had improved and would be discharged. My diagnosis of Bipolar Depression was confirmed, along with OCD, and Generalized Anxiety Disorder. I was given scripts for medicines and an appointment with a psychiatrist. Then, I was patted on my head and sent on my way. I wasnt cured. Nothing was different.
Shortly after my pardon from the warden, I start dating Ivan. We have supper most nights together, and he stays with me some. But, he doesnt put me first, so Skeleton Fear takes over. She tells me that hell leave me, or Ivan has someone else.
Ivan and I argue a lot, but stay together. Its an on again, off again kind of relationship. At one point, its off. I dont see him for about two weeks. We are both so miserable. Ivan admits there were other things that came first. I was shocked, and so was Skeleton Fear. The voices were angry. Ivan moved in, and things settled down. Or so it seemed.
Leap Frog! Its a year later. Skeleton Water and Skeleton Fear have a new roommate. Her name is Skeleton Cutter. You see, w
Jilda Leigh
My name is Jilda Leigh and I’ve had the privilege of being born and bred in the South. I grew, and have lived my entire life in a small community called Killian, South Carolina. As the Brooks & Dunn song goes, "life begins and ends on the red dirt road." True statement indeed. This is where my roots are. I enjoy watercolor painting, am an avid Jimmy Buffett fan, a football junky, and a big fan of anything my momma cooks! Music is a must! My music library is vast and very eclectic. I am an avid writer, a voracious reader.
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Shadows, Skeletons and a Southern Belle - Jilda Leigh
Copyright © 2012 by Jilda Leigh.
Library of Congress Control Number: 2012913689
ISBN: Softcover 978-1-4771-5193-8
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This book is dedicated to the following people:
For Rosebud (my Muse). Along the way, Buddy Boy and The Destroyer added life, color and characters to it. They also added life, color and characters to my life as well. Thank you my darlings.
For Baby Girl, for the reasons known only to her. Peace, outtie!
For Mom—I want to send my wholehearted thanks for her love and undying faith that I could (and would) accomplish anything I put my hand on.
For my Grandma for her constant support, love, and prayers.
120239-LEIG-layout.pdfHer mind was foggy. She wasn’t exactly sure where she was. Then reality came crashing in. What happened?
she thought to herself. I’d planned everything out so carefully. I wrote a note. I took way too many pills. I even cut myself far deeper than I have ever cut myself before
, she mumbled out loud. What went wrong? Why am I still here?
Then, slowly, she began to sob. There were tubes coming out of her everywhere! IVs running to ensure she was hydrated. Hell, a nurse was checking on her every hour on the hour. This just couldn’t be happening! But, it was.
There was an IV in each arm, and one in her left foot. She had a catheter. An oxygen tube was in her nose. Machines were humming and buzzing. The straps still hung loosely from the sides of the bed where she had been restrained. She continued to sob, looking around at the dismal surroundings. Her only thought—I failed again. But, who had found me? Who had saved me?
she thought. More importantly, why did they save me? WHY? Didn’t they realize how much pain I was in? I mean, I just tried to kill myself, did they miss that clue?
she said to no one in the room.
Shadows crept in around her. They fit her like a glove. They were familiar, always bringing the sorrow and despair. She tried to turn on her side in the hospital bed, to no avail. She only cried harder and harder. The voices started to speak again, taunting her—laughing at her failure. The voices were always with her, like the shadows. They banged