My Name is Dad
By James Frank
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A must read for every family! My book helps explain the many stages, experiences, loss, strength, overcoming, and moving forward after losing our son to suicide. Through my personal day to day life, I have tried to help myself and others move forward and ease the pain of losing a loved one to suicide. I only hope after reading this book, you wil
James Frank
James Frank was born on April 13th, 1970 in a small town in Ohio. At the age of 10, James along with his mother and sister moved to the state of Washington. In 1988 James joined the US Navy and toured the Mediterranean for 4 years. He married Natalia in 2005 who introduced a 10 year old son to James's family. A short year later, James and Natalia had a daughter. Everything was wonderful and they were living the American Dream. January 2017, tragedy hit their perfect life. Their son had committed suicide without any clues, signs, or warnings. Took James three years to gather the strength and 1 additional year to write this book.
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My Name is Dad - James Frank
Preface
The imprint of a dad will forever remain on his son.
I remember reading that somewhere. I don’t know if I truly left a mark on my son, but I know that the reverse is painfully true for me. The imprint of my son will forever remain on me.
I feel that I must warn you right here, right now. This will not be an easy book to read. It was tough writing it, and it will be tough to read it. Try as I might, there is no easy way to tell a difficult story, and difficult it is.
I must extend a trigger warning to anybody who picks up the book. This is a story about my son’s suicide in our home, the days leading up to it, and the aftermath of the tragedy. This book portrays my emotions when I found his body, and my struggle to face every day after that. It will be painful, disturbing, and triggering in every sense, but it might also offer insight into our struggles as we tried to accept the loss, battled through the grief, and found our path to healing.
Though I wouldn’t wish for my worst enemy to share this lonely boat with me, if you are in one, I want to extend a hand to you and keep you afloat amidst this raging ocean that threatens to swallow us whole, every day, for the rest of our days. I hope and pray, with every inch of my being, that no father has to live through something as agonizing as watching their own child take his life, but if the story resonates with you, I hope you find peace, closure and acceptance in it. I hope this book helps you make sense of what happened, and stops the loss of a loved one through suicide, taking away everything else in your life.
I might have been through hell, but I have to remind myself that I am still alive. While it is true that my son is gone, I am still here. There are days when I wish for nothing more than to join my son wherever he may be, but that is not an option and I must continue to live my life until it is time to see him again.
Chapter 1: The Day of the Suicide
At exactly 4:30 a.m.., on January 23rd, 2017, my eyes flew open just as they do every day. This has been such a routine to me for so many years, that I have lost count. I have been waking up at 4:30 a.m. and starting my day. I don’t even have to try anymore. No matter how late I go to bed, or how tired and exhausted my body has been, I cannot sleep past 4:30 a.m. I do not own an alarm clock. My internal clock is enough to wake me up, on time, without fail, every day.
The room was still dark. The first rays of the sun would soon begin to filter through the curtain, but for now, the faint glow of the lonely streetlight outside was the only source of illumination. My wife was sleeping beside me, and the world was eerily quiet, as it always is during this time of the day. There was nothing out of the ordinary.
January 23rd, 2017. At the moment of my awakening on that day, I had no idea that this date would become etched in my mind. I had no idea that my world was going to turn upside down in a matter of hours. This was just another ordinary day. A Monday, of all days.
The air was still chilly, and I bundled up in a thick robe before heading downstairs for my usual cup of coffee. The thought of a hot, steaming mug of coffee was enough to get me out of bed and hurry downstairs.
I took my time with my coffee, and once I felt energized enough, I walked into my office at 5:00 a.m. to answer all emails, messages, and queries that had accumulated over the weekend. For years, my wife and I have been working from home. We both ran home-based businesses and had set up a nice little corner as our office.
Hours passed as I worked. My wife was up and had woken up my school-going daughter. This too was part of our routine. At 8:30 a.m. every morning, I used to drive my daughter to school.
I got back home after dropping our daughter off, at around 9:00 a.m. I returned to my office to resume work, where my wife was also working. We talked for a bit and then I told her I should go wake our son up.
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