Marissa's Muse

By Carly Wayne

Sometimes true love means sacrifice.

Marissa Byrne is satisfied with her life. She is in her forties, happily single, and a graduate student at a local college. So, when she gets hit on at a restaurant bar by a man young enough to be her son, she is flattered but definitely not interested. Unfortunately, she just made a promise to her best friend that she would accept the next date offered her.

Finn is not what she expected. Gorgeous, gallant, and visiting from Ireland, he presents the perfect opportunity for her to enjoy a few dates and then move on.

But then she falls head-over-heels for the guy from across the pond. What does she do when she realizes that loving him could destroy his happily ever after?

• Language: English
• Publisher: Carly Wayne
• Release date: Jul 10, 2021
• ISBN: 9781005397661

Carly Wayne

Carly Wayne first discovered her love of storytelling as a child, when she would create alternate endings for all of her favorite fairy tales. As she grew, her fascination developed into a passion for writing about the characters and worlds she imagined.Now, Carly lives deep in the woods of Jacksonville, Florida, not too far from the ocean. She graduated from the University of Florida, and just before she lost her mind writing the dry academic papers for her graduate degree in Psychology, she returned to her first love - creative writing. The resulting novella, Marissa’s Muse, was published on July 10th, and she is looking forward to publishing her next full-length novel.

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Marissa’s Muse

Copyright 2021 Carly Wayne

Published by MoonShine Caravan at Smashwords

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Table of Contents

1. Beautiful Day

2. Breathe

3. Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Me, Kill Me

4.All I Want is You

5. Desire

6. Every Breaking Wave

7. Stuck in a Moment You Can’t Get Out Of

8. Bad

9. With or Without You

10. Love and Peace or Else

11. Where the Streets Have No Name

12. Epilogue

About the Author

Acknowledgements

Chapter One

Beautiful Day

The wait is gonna be about forty-five minutes, the girl said, staring down at a spreadsheet on the small podium. She didn’t seem at all sorry about it.

So, you wanna wait, or go someplace else? Fred turned to his dinner date, Marissa.

I guess we can wait, Marissa told him, checking her watch. It’s seven o’clock on Friday. Every other restaurant will be packed, too.

Alright. You can put us down, two for dinner then, Fred told the hostess.

While Fred made the dinner reservation, Marissa wandered into the bar section to see if there were any empty stools they could use while they waited for a table. She got lucky when she spotted two people getting up to leave and hurried over to the far end of the bar to stake her place.

The room was packed with hungry people waiting to eat, their voices raised to overcome the loud stereo system. Marissa thought about how she would rather be home in her pajamas, but Fred had been her best friend since junior high, and while he was only in town for the weekend, she had to grab as much time with him as she could.

If I knew I was gonna get felt up this much, I would've come to The Stampede Steakhouse a long time ago! Fred appeared, laughing as he tried to push his tall, lanky frame through the crowd.

Make sure you still have your wallet, Marissa replied sarcastically, moving her purse off the stool she was saving for him.

Fred laughed. Everybody and their brother must be here for dinner. He climbed up on the stool and looked at Marissa. Come here often?

She rolled her eyes. No, only when I want to get felt up, she replied with an arched eyebrow.

Sorry, sister. These hands are reserved for Mr. Right. Or Mr. Tonight, depending on who's around. Fred stretched his neck to get a good look at the people crowding the bar.

Marissa laughed, knowing that Fred was all talk. They lapsed into a conversation of half-heard sentences that only close friends could understand. They had known each other since the ninth grade, which meant they had basically grown up together. They had supported each other through dozens of failed relationships (including one failed marriage on Marissa’s part and one disastrous almost-marriage on Fred’s), college and several careers, the deaths of each other’s parents, and they still managed to talk on the phone at least every other day since Fred’s move out of state ten years ago.

So how is school going? Are you still having trouble with that one professor? Fred asked her.

She took a long sip of her margarita. No, she hasn’t given me any more trouble. She is just so condescending. Marissa was currently studying for her Master’s in Mythology and Folklore at Sunshine Coast University. Going back to school for her master’s at age forty-six was a big decision, but Fred had been nothing but supportive.

Marissa leaned forward to reach a pile of napkins and noticed a man at the other end of the bar. They made brief eye contact, and he smiled. She smiled back and looked away. The guy was drop-dead gorgeous. His thick, shiny, midnight-black hair, just a little past his collar, was brushed back away from his face. He had blue eyes — bedroom eyes some people might call them — heavy-lidded like he had just woken from a great dream, or was dreaming of things yet to be, and high cheekbones. His nose was strong and straight, his lips full. He had a square jaw, with a dimple in his chin which was covered in five o’clock shadow. He wore small gold earrings in both ears, adding a bohemian flair to the mix. The whole thing made quite a sexy picture, and Marissa fantasized that there was something about him that seemed European, but she couldn’t tell exactly what. When she tried to sneak another peek at him a few minutes later, he was still looking her way. She smiled again and nodded, not actually knowing the etiquette for that situation. In her forty-six years, Marissa had never been picked up at a bar. Under his gaze, she became self-conscious (she had never learned to flirt) and focused her attention back to Fred.

So, are you sure you have to head back to Virginia on Sunday? she asked. "Next week the Players-on-the-Marsh are mounting a production of Twelfth Night. We could get tickets to the dress rehearsal on Wednesday."

Awww…I hate to miss that. Who’s directing, do you know? Fred and Marissa had graduated from the Hartley High School of Performing Arts, both of them theatre majors. For Marissa it had just been for fun, but Fred had become quite active in the theatre scene, acting with several different local troupes. Now he was teaching at a performing arts school in Langley, Virginia.

I think Noel Jennings is the director this year, she told him.

Noel? God, he is a hack! Did I tell you the story about how he ruined our production of Neil Simon’s Plaza Suite…

Yes, Fred had told her the story one hundred times, even though she had lived through it contemporaneously.

Thankfully, the hostess arrived to interrupt before Fred could launch into his diatribe against Noel Jennings. Marissa gathered her purse and jacket, and followed the hostess out of the bar, not daring to take one last look at the handsome stranger.

* * *

The restaurant itself was much quieter and cooler, but no less crowded. Because they were a party of two, the hostess sat them at a small table rather than a booth, and the tables were barely spaced far enough apart for the servers to walk between them.

After they had given their orders to the waitress and received some bread and another round of drinks in return, Fred whispered conspiratorially, Hey, did you see that totally hot guy that was eyeing me at the bar?

No, Marissa told him, But I saw the gorgeous guy that was smiling at me in the bar.

Really? Fred said, You got one too? Mine was sitting at the other end, with the dark hair and the stubble?

Marissa smiled. Mine was at the other end, too. With the leather jacket and the gold hoop earrings. She waited for Fred to put two-and-two together.

But my guy had on a leather jacket, too. And he was wearing earrings……Hey! Wait a minute--

Marissa laughed.

No, he was truly checking me out, Fred said.

I don’t think so, Fred. I made eye contact with him a few times and he smiled at me.

Oh, he was probably just hoping you would introduce him to me. I’m sorry, Mars, that guy was unquestionably into me, Fred pronounced.

Sorry, Freddie, he was definitely not gay, she said, He was watching me.

He sighed. "How many times do we have to go through this? I can tell…"

Fred, you have the worst gay-dar I have ever seen in a gay man. How many times have you been wrong? Fred rolled his eyes and started to object. But I'll tell you what, she stalled him. Even If he did want me, I want no part of it. He's all yours to woo to your heart’s content.

Fair. Fred agreed. Wait, why would you bow out?

Because, Fred. That part of my life is over, I’m not really interested in dating anybody. She picked at a napkin on the table.

That’s the stupidest thing you have ever said, Fred told her flatly. Why would you say that? You are in your prime. Unbutton that sweater a little. Let the girls get some air. He reached over the table, towards the top buttons on her sweater.

Would you stop? she leaned away, out of his reach. After age forty, the fantasy of a lover is more fun than the actual work involved in getting one. I am just past all that, that’s all.

Mars, please tell me you’re joking. You are forty-six, not dead. You don’t need a man to complete your life, but you shouldn’t rule out the possibility of romance.

I just don’t think I can go through it again, Fred. All the drama, all the heartbreak. It’s too much for me. I’m done.

Fred sighed. It breaks my heart to hear you talk this way. It doesn’t have to be all drama and heartbreak. You’ve just fallen in with too many jackasses who didn’t know how to treat you. Don’t give up on love just yet.

Marissa knew he was right. She had fallen in with some jackasses. She wanted to believe in the Cinderella story — that one day her Prince would come. But that was a fairy tale. The reality was that men were either looking for a substitute mother, or just another notch to add to their bedposts. She took a long drink from her third margarita. I wish I could be more like you, Fred. More outgoing and adventurous.

Promise me this, Mars, promise me that you’ll give it another try. Just one more try before you give up and pack it all in. Please?

Fred was serious and she knew it. What do you want me to do? Put up a personal ad? Match.com? Tinder? she asked him. How about ourtime.com, the dating site for the wrinklies? she giggled. The very thought was ridiculous.

No. Not unless you want to, he winked at her. But just promise that if something comes up, you’ll stay open to the possibility.

Alright, Fred. I promise. It was probably the tequila talking. Besides, she knew she would never have to live up to her promise. There were no prospects on the horizon.

Their appetizers arrived at about the same time that a busboy was clearing the table next to them. As Marissa was taking a bite out of a rather large stuffed mushroom, she looked up to see the hostess leading two men to the next table. It was their guy and his male dinner companion. Marissa almost choked on her mushroom cap; she tried to play it off with a petite cough.

Geez, Mars, are you okay?

Yeah, I’m fine. Just a dry throat, that’s all, she took another long drink. Is it warm in here to you? She pulled at the neck of her sweater.

No, I’m fine, Fred told her, still not noticing who was sitting three feet away.

Marissa picked up the dessert menu and pretended to be engrossed by it, while she tried to get a good look at the sexy stranger’s date. There wasn’t anything remarkable about him. He was probably her age, a little paunchy and balding. Perhaps moderately attractive, she assessed. He certainly didn’t dress for the occasion. He was wearing jeans and man-sandals. With socks. Marissa wondered how a middle-aged man who wore socks with his sandals