The TimeLine: Where Integration Begins

By Suzette Q. Heater

Seventy-seven-year old Keeliauna says goodbye to her home. Her granddaughter, Kloee, drives her to her new residence: a living center closer to her. It is a long car ride. Keeliauna drifts into a different dimension - a different time and place. The orchard house is a safe place where she can honestly evaluate her life experiences. With the help o

• Language: English
• Publisher: Mentor Emotions LLC
• Release date: May 15, 2021
• ISBN: 9780578901176

Suzette Q. Heater

Suzette Q. Heater teaches that Soul Fragmentation and M.P.D. (Multiple Personality Disorder) are a part of the soul's self protection system and a spiritual gift from a loving God to assist us in times of trauma. She has overcome timeline fragmentation and trauma in her own life and now owns the private practice, Mentor Emotions LLC; she is an advocate for emotional intelligence, awareness, and safety. She enjoys facilitating private and group sessions, and transformational retreats. Spiritual Fragmentation is a form of separation that can produce greater internal wars. Suzette passionately shares her messages of hope and spiritual integration through the eternal light of Jesus Christ to bring peace, and unity within the soul. Through her own experiences, extensive training, gifts, and empathic ablilites, Suzette enjoys encouraging and empowering others to reframe limiting beleifs, transform, and change their lives. She shares mentoring concepts and coping skills used to create a life filled with (M.P.D. ) Magnificent, Purposeful, Design.

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Preface

A father’s influence is great on a child; particularly a young girls. She learns how to set healthy or unhealthy boundaries from those around her. The way an adult responds to and treats a child assists to define their identity. A young child learns appropriate behaviors from those around them. Young girls, especially, learn a lot from their fathers. The influence on a child’s life is profound. Children learn what limits to set and what behaviors are acceptable and not acceptable from the adults around them. Children learn how to set healthy boundaries and how to embrace, balance, and refine their feminine and masculine energies from the adults around them. It is through their core belief systems they learn how to consciously and subconsciously integrate, spread, and share their energies with others.

 At a very young age, through your experiences, you begin to form patterns through your thoughts, emotions, beliefs, and coping skills (actions). As children grow up, they become comfortable with the influences and behaviors they were exposed to as a child. All children deserve and need good influences in their lives. A parent’s influence also assists a child to form the inner conversations and the voices they hear even as adults. Some say the EGO is an acronym for Edge God Out. The EGO is a part of the soul’s self protection system. It fights change. Normal inner communications are usually a dialogue between the EGO and the Divine Self. It can also be the echoes from voices we heard as a child.

We all experience the normal inner child timeline system. When you experience trauma an inner child can move from the inner child timeline system to the trauma timeline system. There are many ways we experience soul fragmentation. 

Two common ways we separate during trauma are:

An inner child can separate from the soul’s inner child system, move to and become trapped on the trauma timeline system.

An inner part on the trauma timeline can create more parts to take on greater trauma.

Spiritual fragmentation is a spectrum. Multiple Personality States reside on the the Trauma Timeline, generally within the subconscious and sub-subconscious parts of the mind. An event plus an emotion creates a memory. Memories can be stored within our minds and our bodies. Trauma Timeline separation happens when we experience negative emotionally charged events. We call this process soul fragmentation. You clean up your TimeLine System when you acknowledge, neutralize and dissolve the negative emotionally charges in your life. It is important within self-care to spend time with your inner-children. Parts and fragmentations on your trauma timeline create energetic cords that pull you down and make you focus on the past. Listen to their messages. Each system, part, and fragmentation has a voice and needs to be acknowledged, has a life lesson to teach, and an uplifting message for you, to assist you in your life’s divine purpose and mission. They support you to set healthy boundaries in your life. Every one experiences timeline separation on some level.

1

A Collusion of Time

Kloee stood in the doorway. Come on Nona. I hope you are ready. We need to get going. We have a long drive ahead of us. Kloee always affectionately referred to her Grandmother as Nona.

The elderly woman scuffled her feet. I am coming. I know I am slow. I am not as young as I used to be. Her feet shuffled across the floor and her fingers slowly moved simultaneously across the piano to assist her balance.

Kloee patiently waited. Yes, but you are still beautiful. She pleasantly smiled at her grandmother. I hope I am as beautiful as you are when I am seventy-seven-years-old. You and I will be the most beautiful seventy-seven-year-olds that have ever lived on this planet. Nona laughed and Kloee chuckled.

Nona felt a deep appreciation for the safety her home provided. She felt the heartache of leaving, yet there was an excitement awaiting the unknown future just on the other side of the door. She pondered for a brief moment if she was ready to walk through it. Where are we going? she asked.

Remember you signed the papers to sell your home? Kloee took a few steps forward and took Nona’s hand. Today, I am taking you to the assisted living center that is close to my house.

Nona softly touched the wooden doorframe, realizing it was the last time she would experience the comfort of her own home. Then, she stepped outside. Is it very far?

Yes, it is a ways away. We have a long drive ahead of us. Kloee gently shut the door behind them. The weather outside was warming up from a slight spring morning nip. Aroma from the trees in full bloom filled the air.

Nona took Kloee’s outstretched arm to aid her down the steps. Will I need my wheelchair, walker, and my cane?

Kloee patiently helped her towards the vehicle in the driveway. Yes, I can place your walker and cane in the back seat and the wheelchair in the trunk of my car. Nona took slow, methodical steps, feeling supported holding onto Kloee’s arm with one hand and using her cane with the other. That’s a good plan. Her face turned red. I will miss my home.

Nona felt a distinct separation within herself. A part of her felt anticipation for the new life that lay ahead; and yet another part of her felt a strong sense of loss as she turned and glanced at her home one last time. Slowly, she slid into the seat of the awaiting car.

I will too, Nona, but I am glad you will be closer to me. I can come and visit you every day. Kloee helped buckle Nona into her seat then lovingly placed a warm, white, fuzzy blanket over her before gently shutting the door.

Kloee placed Nona’s cane and walker in the back seat and the wheelchair into the trunk. She then walked around to her side of the car and turned the ignition on.

Kloee shuddered. I am glad it is getting warmer and spring is finally on its way.

I believe it is already here, Nona quietly replied.

There was silence in the car as Nona drifted off into a deep state of rest.

Thoughts and memories flashed through her mind. She solemnly sat up and looked over at Kloee. All I have left are my memories.

Kloee countered, I hope they are good memories.

Nona smirked. I hope so too. My memory is so bad. I am not sure, but I want to always remember good moments.

Kloee smiled. Nona, tell me about your given name again.

Nona’s voice perked up. Well… my birth name is Keelianuna. My family and friends call me Keely and my grandchildren call me Nona. When my mother was a child, she spent a lot of time with her grandmother, whose name was Nona. To honor my mother and her grandmother, I decided when I became a grandmother that I wanted to be called Nona instead of Grandmother. Grandma or Grandmother is so generic, but I like being called Nona by my grandchildren. It sets me apart from other grandmothers. I suppose it is odd that I have so many names and I like the spelling of all three. I have always been fascinated by names and their meanings. As a child, I enjoyed spending time with my aunt, my father’s sister, and together we would look up names and their meanings.

Nona shifted in her seat. My mother was English, and my father was Black Irish. Growing up, my father’s sister would often remind me that her name was Kelly. She frequently talked about Keeliauna and Keely being derivatives of Kelly. Kelly means Celtic Warrior and Keely means beautiful and graceful. My aunt would often refer to me as a beautiful, graceful, Celtic warrior. I appreciate my Black Irish and English heritages. I hope I inherited the best from both sides.

Kloee’s voice rose slightly higher. So, what does Kloee mean?

Nona straightened her back to sit up straighter. Kloee is my favorite name of all. It represents creation, a visionary, a new beginning, the springtime of life, creating a new story.

Kloee responded, I had no idea. That is amazing, Nona. I love my name. I am glad you shared that with me.

Kloee asked, Would you like to listen to some soft music?

Yes, that would be nice. Nona looked out the window. She glanced at the blossoms on the trees in the orchards that adorned the road side and covered the distant hill sides.

Kloee sounded concerned. There is a pillow between the seats if you would like to rest your head against the window. She turned on soft, calming music for their long journey. Nona drifted off to sleep. Her head comfortably rested on the pillow that leaned against the car window. 

2

Perception

Nona was interrupted by a familiar voice. Keeliauna, wake up. Come on. I have to show you something. Keeliauna was startled as she looked around. She was no longer sitting inside the cozy vehicle. Air moved around her like wisps of vanishing time. The scenery slid by her faster than she could comprehend. It transformed into a completely different setting. The details inside and the windows of the car began to warp into swirls like a wet paintbrush on a canvas that shifted to create a new landscape.

For a moment, she was surrounded by complete darkness. Gripped with fear, panic set in. Her entire body felt hot. She felt engulfed by a stinging sensation as blood pulsed through every cell. Her mind wandered back, remembering years ago when she had learned she could control her body’s reaction in situations with her breathing. The rhythmic breathing pattern quickly and automatically began to flow. She took in deep breaths through her nose, which filled her lungs, and then slowly exhaled the air out through her mouth. She felt insecure so she deepened her breaths, wanting to control every changing second. The panic did not last long. Once her body became calm, fascination and curiosity quickly subdued her fears. 

A short distance away, a tunnel of light slowly appeared out of the darkness all around her. The dark scene surrounding her gradually melted away as she moved towards the light. She comprehended that she was being transported through some kind of portal to a different dimension, a new space and time. 

The tunnel seemed real and familiar. Keeliauna recognized the tunnel of light from when she was born. It was the same tunnel that connected her to heaven and earth. It was her transition tunnel. Keeliauna heard the voice again and this time she recognized that the voice came from within the tunnel of light.

Keeliauna felt confused. Where am I? How did I get here?

Light shone down on her and she gasped. She looked down at her body, hands, and feet. She touched her face and felt her smooth skin, which was young once again. Looking down at her legs and feet, Keely watched in fascination as her feet were planted on solid ground. In this moment, she realized that she was in the prime of her life, about thirty- years old.  A set of railroad tracks lay on the ground. They abruptly ended directly in front of her. Feeling overwhelmed again with confusion and fear, she internally screamed for answers. Keeliauna thought, Where am I?

The moment she asked, an inner voice answered her own question. You are seeing your tracks of time. This is your timeline. To her right was her future and to her left was her past. On her right side, the tracks seemed to abruptly stop almost right in front of her and the light quickly faded. She had not lived it yet. There was no record so the light quickly faded into an abyss of darkness. Feeling cautious, Keeliauna took a step closer onto the track in front of her.

She turned and looked to her left. The railroad ties looked more like rungs on a wooden horizontal ladder. The track was broken down into specific spaces and each space had a carved number on the front of the track. She quickly realized the carved numbers represented years. After a brief moment, she saw people standing on tracks to her left. One person was trapped within every year represented. Every year had a spiritual fragmentation of her within it. Each spiritual fragmentation represented the age she was at the time that parts of her moved from her inner timeline system to the trauma timeline system.  She instinctively knew an invisible barrier surrounded each spiritual fragmentation within her trauma timeline track. Keeliauna noticed that the farther away from her they were, the younger they looked. The nineteen-year-old stood closest to her as Keely looked to the left, down her timeline. It was obvious this set of timeline tracks represented the first nineteen years of her life. They became chronologically younger as they went down her tracks of time.

She could feel and sense the fear as they looked deserted and abandoned on her timeline. She could not acknowledge them in this state and they did not acknowledge her. For a moment, she felt transparent.  It was as though they could not see her. She intuitively knew each part of her broke off her inner child timeline system and was stuck, on her trauma timeline system experiencing a P.T.S.D. (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) moment. Each one relieved the moment they split off the inner-child system over and over. Each was separately trapped within their moment of space and could not breach their area of time. They seemed to not see or notice her and she could not penetrate the invisible barriers. She became consciously aware of the energetic mental and physical pull they had on her to hold and pull her down and to keep her focused on her past. She had a conscious awareness that the energetic mental and pull from her past fragmentations made it difficult to stay in the present and focus on, see, or experience a brighter future.

Feeling overwhelmed with fear, Keeliauna shut her eyes tight and loudly stated, Please, God, let them all go somewhere safe with guardians of pure light and knowledge.  It is not safe here and they don’t need to be stranded on my trauma timeline anymore, scared and alone.  She opened her eyes as she thought, This is crazy! Am I going insane? What is happening?

Startled, she became aware that she could hear a calm voice calling her name again. She quickly turned around to see a big, beautiful orchard in bloom behind her. In the distance, the silhouette of a beautiful woman dressed in a stunning, white, flowing gown stood at the front of the orchard.

Keely’s awareness heightened as she heard her name being called again. Keeliauna, come follow me. 

Keeliauna was curious as she thought, This is all so strange. Where am I? What is happening?  Keeliauna turned to follow her.

The woman ran through the trees. She always stayed slightly ahead of her as Keely tried to keep up. The woman’s elegant, beautiful dress and waist-long, soft, dark hair flowed elegantly through the air behind her. Keeliauna was not exactly sure who the woman was or where she was going, but her curiosity overpowered her fear. Chasing after this attractive creature, Keeliauna developed a greater awareness of her present situation. Soon, she was engulfed in an orchard of trees that surrounded her. All the trees were all in bloom. The beauty of each flower on the branches perfectly contrasted with the color of the trunk’s branches and leaves. The fragrance was more breathtaking than her consciousness could comprehend. The scene was mesmerizing. 

Keeliauna tried to keep up as she followed this elegant silhouette and the spellbinding voice through the orchard of bright colors and delicious smells, touching every sense within her. She wanted to stop at every turn and take in the beauty of each moment but she did not want to lose sight of the beautiful woman in front of her.

She heard the woman say again. Come on, Keeliauna. Follow me.

Keeliauna came to a clearing and in the center was a large, beautiful wooden home. The splendid home had large, hefty windows on the main floor and wrap-around porches. The home was surrounded by beautiful well groomed side yards. Lush grass looked like soft carpet. The edges were overflowing with joyful blossoming flowers that filled the air with heavenly scent. Hedges created safety barriers and arbors opened to pathways just waiting to be explored. The beautiful woman stood at the base of the porch steps that lead up to the house. Come inside, Keely.

Off in the distance, happy, joyful people and children chased each other, softly sang, and played around some trees. Others strolled through a lush garden. For a moment she thought, They look familiar. 

Her attention was interrupted when she heard the tender voice call her name again.

Keeliauna followed her through the open front door. Exquisite wood workmanship filled the entrance and a sizeable hallway. A few feet past the front door, was an open door to the left. The doorway seemed to enter into a big office space with a distinguished wooden desk and a lot of tall bookshelves. To the right was another open doorway adorned with intricate wooden carved molding, which entered into a big elegant parlor. The captivating woman stood by a large window in the parlor. Keeliauna followed her into the open room.        

The elegant woman smiled and stated, Keely, I am glad you came. Thank you for listening to my voice. My name is Anna.

Keely thought, She is too perfect to be real. In the same moment, Keely rapidly acknowledged that Anna looked a lot like her; a little wiser, but a lot like her.  Anna walked towards Keely. I am your Authentic Divine Higher Self. Anna’s beautiful, calm brown eyes reassured her because they matched her own. Her elegant, dark hair flowed passed her waist.  She tenderly said, Don’t be afraid. You can trust me. 

Feeling rather intimidated by her presence, grace, and beauty, Keely became highly alert as she thought, Am I dreaming?

Anna smiled as she replied out loud, No, you are not dreaming. I am here with you.

Just then a solid, soft-spoken gentleman walked into the parlor from the office across the hall. His dark, gentle, brown eyes and stunning, natural, wavy, dark hair put Keely even at more ease. He had gentle mannerisms about him. David and Anna both looked to be in the prime of their lives.

Keely stated, I know you. I know both of you.

Yes, you do, replied the gentleman. My name is David. I am your guide and Anna is your Divine True Self. 

David walked towards them. Keely, this place is a representation of the springtime of your life. Spring represents new life and new birth. Rebirth brings a new way of thinking.

Feeling astonished and trying to make sense of where she was, Keely asked, Did I die? Why am I here? How did I get here?

 Anna and David laughed and Anna responded, No, Keely, you did not die. This is a safe place where you can experience the springtime of your life.

Keely noticed a beautiful fireplace and wooden carved mantle that adorned one of the walls. The carvings matched the elaborate figures on the molding of the doorway. The sparkling, clean, wooden floor felt welcoming. The walls smelled freshly washed. The light flowed in through a large window that framed the fragranced blossoming trees outside in a side yard. David, Anna, the house and orchard, everything seemed to have radiance about it. Keely collected her thoughts, simultaneously feeling her body and mind striving to take in all the grace and beauty she suddenly found herself surrounded in. Feeling perplexed and astounded at how she had gotten here, she closed her eyes as she asked herself, Am I dreaming? Is this a hallucination? Is this true? 

She found herself wanting to run back outside to take in every sense to reassure her that this was real. She wanted to feel the dirt under her feet, to touch, see, hear, and smell the beauty of nature, the side yards and trees that surrounded this inconceivable place.  

Anna abruptly interrupted Keely’s thoughts with assurance. Yes, Keely this is real. Anna added, It is time you learn what you wanted to learn, what you asked to learn before you even came to this earth and received a body. There are lessons you asked to learn and these lessons showed up for you through your earthly experiences. 

David walked over to Keely without her noticing. Please be patient with us and the process. Keely, you are safe. We love you. We are here to assist you. We understand it does not make sense to you now, but I promise you that it will soon. 

Keely tried to take in the splendor, Anna’s stunning beauty, and David’s striking features. Although she could feel the familiarity with both of them, she still found herself questioning her present situation. She could feel David’s embrace as his warmth encircled her. She hugged him tightly and all her fear faded away. This must be what pure love feels like. 

Their lingering embrace was reassuring. 

Anna asked, Keely, would you like to sit down? There are some things we would like to explain. 

Keely sat on the large, comfortable couch in the parlor. Anna sat in a chair close beside her. David eased into a soft comfortable chair on Keely’s other side, "I know you have a lot of concerns and questions and I promise you will understand soon. But first, I need to explain to you some important information, mostly universal principles and laws so that you can comprehend more of where you are, why you are here, and what you can learn from this experience. Different cultures and religions explain our soul in many different ways, but I will try to explain it in a way that makes sense to you. The spirit and physical body create a soul. Souls are filled with complicated systems, made up of many different pieces and parts. The main five systems most people are aware of are the spiritual, emotional, mental, physical, and the heart systems. Every soul has three major systems. All the other pieces, parts and systems are within of one of the major three. The first major part is you. It represents the whole of you. It includes all of your pieces, parts, and systems. The second major part of the soul is The Divine Protection System. It consists of every system that is connected to Deity. It includes the Authentic Divine Self or the Authentic Higher Spiritual Self.

      David paused. Keely, Anna is your Divine Self.

Keely looked confused. My Divine Self?

Anna smiled. "Yes, I have always been with you. I am a part of your divine systems and your spiritual system. I connect to all of your systems through your heart. I help you be creative and act, not react to situations. I help you create to see a higher perspective. It is my goal to team up all of your systems in divine alignment in your divine center. Your divine center is in your heart chakra. Imagine a large circle within your heart space. This is your divine center. This is a sacred space where all of your systems come together to align with me and God. I can never be broken, fragmented, or hurt. I am always connected to God. I work closely with your divine states; and I work best when your heart and mind are connected. I am the part of you that wants you to overcome challenges and be the best version of you that you can be. I support you to make and achieve self-improvement goals. I am your greatest cheerleader. I support you to overcome beliefs that limit you.

Keely questioned, "What’s the third major part?

Anna snorted. The third major system is called The Self Protection System. It includes the Natural Man and The EGO systems. It is always at war with me. Some say the EGO is abbreviated for Edge God Out. I help you reveal your true divine identity and expose the EGO states. Sometimes that is difficult, because the EGO likes to hide. It typically interprets light as the enemy. It often thinks that light will kill it. My goal is to not kill the EGO, but to help it see all possibilities. It cannot filter or sort and has no cognitive awareness. It cycles through patterns, programs and behaviors. It is part of your self protection system. It fights me and creates tension when you consciously choose to self-improve because it wants to keep you safe. The EGO fights change. These are the major three systems, but the soul has many. There is also your choice and accountability system, the chakra, and the meridian systems where energy enters and leaves our bodies; and much more. I know all your other systems and communicate with all of them. Everyone has two separate timeline systems. There is the inner child timeline system, and the trauma timeline system. An inner child can move from the inner child timeline to the trauma timeline when you experience overcharged negative emotions. They call this process a soul fragmentation. Fragmentations stay in the perceptions they took on when they fragment and move to your trauma timeline. I help you co-consciously and subconsciously change their perceptions. We call this a reframe. We work with the light of Christ to heal, align, and transform trauma into wisdom.

David placed his hands on the side arms of the chair, lifted his weight, and relaxed deeper into his seat. "The trauma timeline system has a spectrum. At one end of the spectrum, minor, charged emotions from ordinary embarrassing moments, honest miscommunications, or misunderstandings can create simple soul fragmentations that are easy to acknowledge