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You approached me with a thumbs up and well-planned scam to sabotage my heart. That's how it can happen in a saloon, and it did four and a half years ago. I sat at a slot machine in the corner, hit three red sevens, and turned toward the bar. You left your seat and came to stand beside me as if to encourage my next win. You had a Madonna-like face and green eyes that could spot an easy mark. In a weak and generous moment I handed you my winnings, and we slept together that night. I knew that wasn't the way to love somebody, but I didn't know yet that you were a user in all senses of the word.
R. Nikolas Macioci
R. Nikolas Macioci earned a PhD from The Ohio State University, and for thirty years taught for the Columbus City Schools. In addition to English, he taught Drama and developed a Writers Seminar for select students. OCTELA, the Ohio Council of Teachers of English, named Nik Macioci the best secondary English teacher in the state of Ohio. Nik is the author of two chapbooks: Cafes of Childhood and Greatest Hits, as well as four books: Why Dance, Necessary Windows, Cafes of Childhood (the original chapbook with additional poems), and Mother Goosed. Critics and judges called Cafes of Childhood a "beautifully harrowing account of child abuse," but not "sentimental" or "self-pitying," an "amazing book," and "a single unified whole." Cafes of Childhood was submitted for the Pulitzer Prize in 1992. In addition, more than two hundred of his poems have been published here and abroad in magazines and journals, including The SOCIETY OF CLASSICAL POETS Journal, Chiron, Clark Street Review, and Blue Unicorn.
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THE BEGINNIING WELL REMEMBERED
Thoughts of you hurt like arrows in the throat.
All day I've fought words in my brain
that drag scenes back into consciousness.
You approached me with a thumbs up
and well-planned scam to sabotage my heart.
That's how it can happen in a saloon, and it
did four and a half years ago. I sat at a slot
machine in the corner, hit three red sevens,
and turned toward the bar. You left your seat
and came to stand beside me as if to encourage
my next win. You had a Madonna-like face
and green eyes that could spot an easy mark.
In a weak and generous moment I handed you
my winnings, and we slept together that night.
I knew that wasn't the way to love somebody,
but I didn't know yet that you were a user
in all senses of the word.
I gave constant pocket money, learned later
you bought heroin. You played me
for desperate, and that is when I realized
you had become my addiction.
After much effort I'm glad to be south of you,
but today is one of those weaker afternoons I keep
slapping my mind with memory.
Tonight I will write about this, waiting for better
judgment to restore equilibrium, or in other words
to be rid of you again.
BLOSSOMS
I walked alone along South High Street
admiring a row of four mock cherry trees
dressed in alabaster. You did not walk
with me but stayed in the car while I
snapped pictures of trees bowed down
in white. I missed you even though you
were only feet away. Sunlight glared,
made blossoms gleam, and I snapped
shots that looked as if they'd been
shaped by snowfall. How could I know
then that the death of our relationship
would soon be news to me and wound
an April day. I continued photographing
while blossoms fell at my feet.
I shouldered my camera and returned
to the car. At first you did not speak,
but your winter eyes pressed into me.
Unprepared to hear you admit a drug
addiction, acid rose in my throat. I did
not speak for a few moments. You said
you hadn't told me before because you
knew I wouldn't understand, and I didn't.
I drove around the neighborhood with
burning in my chest. I remained silent,
angry when I dropped you off. You said
you were sorry and walked inside.
I knew then that it would always come
down either to me or drugs, and I couldn't
compete with heroin.
As I drove away I noticed a few blossoms
had caught under the windshield wipers,
edges already rusty with the beginning
of their end.
REQUIEM FOR GROCERIES
Hungry, without money, groceries, you turn
to me. I drive you to buy whatever you want
or need. Snow, rain, ice doesn't kept us from
trekking to Kroger.
Like a kid, you practically gallop ahead down
aisles, always ahead. It intrigues and annoys
me how you violently throw items into the cart
as if you are mad at them. I study you from
behind. Gray sweats hang loose on your
emaciated frame, still you maintain a dancer's
body. For the moment I have persuaded you
away from smoking by obtaining e-cigarettes;
nevertheless, you always ask me to purchase
several packs which I assume you sell for drugs.
I pay, and you load sacks into the trunk.
The bill often amounts to more than a hundred
dollars. Sometimes I relinquish every cent I have.
I suspect that many of the items are consumed
by other people in the house where you live,
all of whom are drug addicts, an environment
I wish I could extract you from.
You always thank me, but I never know for sure
that you appreciate