A Brick Out of Place

By Lamar Gardner

Step Into A Pair Of My Shoes And Into The Life Of Lamar Dexter Gardner (P.K.A DJ 20/20). This Autobiographical Novel Was Written To Give You A Better Understanding Of My Trials, Tribulations, Strengths And My Struggles, Trying To Keep My Sanity And Focus Together Growing Up In The Mean Diverse Streets Of New York. Take A Walk With Me Through The South Bronx In The 70's. The Enlightenment Era, The Spark Of Creationism, Drug An Sex Abuse, Abandonment, Dealing With Death, Suicide, Addiction, Music, Incarceration, Rehab, Isolation, Peace And Marriage. In This Factual, Tell-All, You Will Get A Comprehensive Compassion Of Who I Am?, My Upbringing, Beliefs And What Shifted My Foundation To Cause A Brick (Me) To Become Out Of Place. These Stories Are Non-Chronological Reflections Of My Rite Of Passage Into Man-Hood, My Ultimate Sacrifices, Accountability's And Truths Towards the Pursuit Of Happiness And To Stay-Woke, Growing Up In A Cruel And Unfair World Alone.

• Language: English
• Publisher: Lamar Gardner
• Release date: Dec 25, 2019
• ISBN: 9780463815465

Lamar Gardner

Professional Disc Jockey, World-Wide Fleet DJs, Mixx_Mafia Radio Affiliate, DJ Lady Love FM Affiliate (DJ), Music Producer, Music Studio Engineer, Mastering Engineer, Book Author/Writer, Music Wordsmith (Lyrics), Graphic Artist, Music & Book Promoter, Radio Indie & Internet Radio Show Host, Music & Book Publisher (ASCAP), Artist, Videographer, Music & Video Editor, Comatose Recordingz (Indie Label)

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A Brick Out Of Place

My Rite Of Passage

Lamar Dexter Gardner

This Book Is Dedicated To:

My Mother Mrs. Clementine Johnson

(S.I.P)

My Wife Jacqueline L. Aviles-Gardner

All My Children and Step-Children

And

To All Those Who Helped Shape My Life to

What It Is Now "Thanks But God Made Me

Indestructible!"

Table of Contents

Chapter Title

One The Latch Key Kid

Two My Mother

Three Johanna and Coco

Four Straddling the Fence

Five The Eviction

Six A Whole New World

Seven Mr. Nobody Is Somebody Now

Eight A Different Approach

Nine A Full 360

Ten Recovery / Time to Reinvent

Eleven New Life – New Endeavors

Twelve Romeo and Hooliet

Thirteen Our Trials and Tribulations

Fourteen A Walk To The Alter

Fifteen Memories

Sixteen Emotions

Seventeen Advertisements, Products And Social Links

Eighteen DJ 20/20"s Philosophical Quotes

AUTHOR’S MUSIC ANTHOLOGY

DJ 20/20, THE MAN, THE MYTH, THE INFAMOUS, THE LEGEND

Born in Tallahassee, Florida, In 1970 Raised in the South Bronx, New York since 1973, Lamar Gardner P. K. A. DJ 20-20 has endured many trials and tribulations to find his way into the game of music, from just playing records for my mom’s get together’s at home, to spinning records outside in the New York City school yards with the likes of DJ Putt-Putt (now at Sweetwater’s in the Bronx) and the Legendary Grandmaster Flash in the 1980’s, then also working the house party circuits around the neighborhood’s, to conducting and developing the musical playlist and scores for all his Jr High and High School talent shows and also working in the various nightclubs in and outside New York as a main attraction, back up disc jockey or sub, DJ 20/20 has shown that determination and persistence is definitely a main factor in life when you choose a profession that you love? Working on his craft since the age of thirteen, Lamar Gardner P.K.A DJ 20/20 earned the title of one of the best R-n-B/Hip-hop producers in the South Bronx area, but without real industry recognition his chances turned out to be slim to become a force in the music world and of being ‘discovered. Talent shows, Radio Interviews and other promotional tactics were just not working at the time. DJ 20/20 p.k.a Young Dr. Dre has been making music for 28 years. He was signed to Vintertainment Records in 88-90, All City Records in 92-93, Gee-street/Island Records in 93-95, Flat-top Records in 96-97, and Big East Records in 97-2001 and is presently working at his own label Comatose / Universal / Sonic Wave Recordings.

In 1992 a childhood friend Mysterme Santos P.K.A. Mysterme of Mysterme and DJ 2020 and DJ 20/20 had trooped to the West Coast, San Francisco to record demos with producer Mc Sway, Joe Quixx and King Tech (KMEL-big-time radio DJ’s in California), together we made a song called Unsolved Mysterme. At this time Mc Sway (who now works doing news commentary for MTV) was working on a single of his own called Bust Your Rhymes with their group in Cali, but due to the fact the Unsolved Mysterme track was so hot, Joe Quixx decided to add it as a b-side to their single project. The track was then released on All City Records in California.

In 1992, with a real vinyl recording under their belt, DJ 2020 and Mysterme came back home, while their manager Kevin Glenn of Uptown Bounce Entertainment searched out a New York recording deal for the duo’s other recordings. Manager Kevin Glenn in due time hooked onto a deal with Island Records new independent label Gee-street Records who was very interested in the B-side single Unsolved Mysterme. After the matter was discussed the deal was signed and we were now signed recording artist with Gee-street Recordings, with a deal on the table, it was time to make it happen. We re-released the track Unsolved Mysterme with Gee-street Recordings, which was brought out rights and all from Mc. Sway and Joe Quixx by Gee-street / Island Recordings. Unsolved Mysterme was released in 1993; it was an automatic underground hit, even though it was previously recorded by All City Records in California. The Island Record label went all out on the single (video, radio, college radio, video talk shows, stickers and posters, pictures, videos of stage shows, record pools, clubs tape masters and independent retailers, etc.) And sent the group out on a 10-state, all expenses paid promotional tour.

Upon returning from the tour, Mysterme and DJ 20/20 headed back into the New York City’s recording studios to begin recording the album Let Me Explain. The group was bumped up from Gee-street Recordings to Island Recordings (Gee-street’s mother label), due to the success of the re-released single Unsolved Mysterme. The group achieved many magazine write-ups: Billboard (May 28, 1994), the Source (June 8, 1994), Spice (June 17, 1994), Era-Rap Bitz (1994), Street Sound November 1994) and One Knut Mag (January 14, 1995), Word Up! (Summer 1995), the Rap Pages (Sum / Fall 1995), etc.

In the fall of 1995 the group’s record deal was terminated from the Label even though they had sold over 65,000 copies and had developed a nice fan base; the president of the label cited irreconcilable differences between the Group and the label. After the split, Mysterme went on to get signed by Fever Records P.K.A.

Puzzleman and DJ 20/20 went on to produce the groups The BluntHeadz on Flattop Records, the Ice Kreem Man on Ichiban Records in Atlanta and Reckless Youth on his own New York based label Comatose Recordings in 1996. There wasn’t much to be done with these group’s projects because the funding and promotional expenses were limited, at this time DJ 20/20 had creative control but no real money to back up retailer’s and radio demands for the material. Then in 1997 The Specialist formerly of the group The BluntHeadz" (Record Ain’t Nothing Happen’n Here) hooked A deal with Big

East Records and released an album called Life Itself, at the same time he was recording and promoting the labels group The Henchmen We didn’t like the contract we were offered so we released that album with Big East Recordings and then left the label entirely (we did a KRS-ONE, remember he was signed there to when it was B-Boy Records)

In the winter of 1997, DJ 20/20 went to school (Monroe Community College) and took several courses in Business / Administration Management. DJ 20/20 has received numerous awards during his enrollment (College Scholarship, Deans List and a 3.5 GPA in his first two semesters), and an Associate’s Degree in Business Administration / Management. After school he went back to intern at Big East Recording’s Studio (B.A.C) / Rock Candy Muzik. He worked with the likes of KRS-ONE & Scott La Rock (R.I.P.), Castle D, Narkim the Rhythm Maker, Willie D, the Persuaders, RoBO Cop Boys, D-Nice and the Henchmen. 20 has also worked with Eric B and Rakim, DJ Red Alert, PM Dawn, Doug E Fresh, Ultramagnetic’s Kool Keith & Ced Gee, T La Rock an DJ My Uncle Chuck Chillout.

Today, 2009, DJ 20/20 owns his own label Comatose / Universal Recordings (He’s C.E.O) and now has produced many instrumental tracks and many compilations, receiving a lot of light radio work (91.9, 90.3, Hot 97, 103 jams and 105) for The 20 Sack Experience Volume 1 and The 20 Sack Experience Volume II Compilations featuring various artists from the 20 Sack Entertainment, ASCAP family. Now starting his new website @ MySpace.com/20LG20 for those Artists who need music, email contacts or any other information an artist may need when dealing with him musically. DJ 20/20 is now has expand his studio business and sells hot off-the-press instrumentals to aspiring Artists on the Internet looking for music to write lyrics to and even adds their demo packages to various promotional project, A and R’s and record labels.

DJ 20/20 has also attended The Institute of Audio Research in 2007-2008 during the daytime receive his engineers license and audio recording professional certificate., and works at In Da Streetz Studio at Night (Manhattan based) 2007-2008, now more than likely you will find DJ 20/20 at his own recording and graphic arts studio Dexter’s Lab Studio’s in Far Rockaway, Queens. DJ 20/20 has recently appeared on 91.9 FM with D.W.I. AND THE SEXY MZ HILL in the BX, and on 99.9 FM with DJ Young Tech in Park Place, New Jersey, Rockland World Radio.com in NYACK, N.Y., AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST ON OLD WESTBURY RADIO WITH DJ CASSIUS CLAY. DJ 20/20 has also had his own radio show on Vonfenceradio called Word On Da Streetz / Wide World Wednesday’s, which aired December 5, 2007 to April 8, 2008 and on February 27, 2008 received the F.C.C / VFR award for best new internet radio show and on November 6, 2008 started his own radio show on Nowlive.com DJ 20/20’s Word On Da Streetz Radio which still airs today. DJ 20/20 in January 2009 is now embarking on a new mission with OVN.com Television and MTV 3 to form and invent Word on Da Streetz Television" for 2009-2010. DJ 20/20 also shoots and edits film on my Power Macintosh computer. He uses Final Cut Pro and Adobe Premier 7.1 to do my editing and add transitions for clips, a DV camera, Camcorder and a 16 bit movie film camera.

PROLOGUE

A Word From The Author

They say a brick house can stand for decades as long as all the bricks are in place but what if one of those brick was removed? How vulnerable does that house become? My mother was the brick that held our foundation together, and then tragically removed, we all fell down. So many things have happened in my life growing up, some funny and some sad. I find myself sitting around with people talking about my early misadventures. People told me 20 you should write a book (20 was a shorter version of DJ 20/20 giving to me by my peeps, duh). I never really gave it any thought because I figured the things that were happening in my life were just as normal as anybody else’s, putting these events, accomplishments or misfortunes on paper never really crossed my mind. I said self What would I like to expose the world to about me? Would people be open-mined and interested in reading it? So I said fuck it give it a shot! The stories you are about to read are as true as far as my knowledge can take you. The characters in these stories names have been changed to protect the rights of those who didn’t give me permission to use their real names. The stories aren’t written in chronological order, they are written in a style of how I would normally tell them. Most of my stories revolve around me, the brick of my family, my mother, my upbringing, trials and tribulations and what happened to me when that brick was removed from our family wall. All my stories are real and based on true events that shaped my life, my rite of passage into manhood. Enjoy.

WHO IS LAMAR DEXTER GARDNER?

I was born in South Bronx, New York April 25th, 1970 to Mrs. Clementine A. Johnson a born resident of Tallahassee, Florida and father Bennie Gardner; I have a brother Omar A. Johnson and two sisters Melinda Johnson-Knox and Selena Johnson. My family and I moved to New York in 1972 and we were raised in Bronx on 141st Street and St. Ann’s Avenue in building 592 on the 5th floor. My oldest sister Selena had stayed in Florida and refused to move to New York with my mother and my sister Melinda was born a few months before my mother died, so it was just my brother and I. As youngsters, my brother and I were considered as nerds and poor folk, my mother didn’t have a job or no real money when we first moved out here, so Medicaid and Welfare was our way of life for a while. My brother and I were nearsighted children an wore thick coke bottle glasses, my vision was and still is-1800 by-1950 and due to the fact we were poor my mother would get hand-me-down clothing from the nearby Churches, bell-bottom slacks, large butterfly collared shirts and pointy toe shoes, so you can imagine, I was looking like Roger Thomas from What’s Happen’n, we were teased for a long time in our lives as little kids but we learned how to deal with that and move on with our lives, especially after my mother died and we were forced to live life on our own terms. As you read these experiences keep in mind all the detailed information I’ve just given you, and realize how I didn’t let anything even my condition stop me from living my life as a normal person.

CHAPTER ONE

The Latch Key Kid

The Homemade Playground—I never understood the term Latch key Kid, until I got older. Why was I so interested in that phrase? Because based upon recent family discussions, I found out I was one. Being a Latch key Kid was the phase used for kids that didn’t go outside, their lives revolved around being in the house. I mean other kids in my life had from point A to point B destinations, they would go to school and after school say outside, go to the park, hang in a friend’s house and some wouldn’t even go home. My point A to point B was to school and back home on time. It wasn’t that my mom’s was mean she was a bit over protective today I call it eccentric (crazy). You see back then her over protectiveness use to make me upset because I couldn’t understand why we were not allowed to go or do things that normal kids did! At that time the closest we got to being outside was our bedroom window. My brother and I would take our action figures and go to the window and play the games that we saw the other kids playing outside with their toys, hence, the action figures were our friends get it. The kids outside (I know this to be a fact) thought my brother and I were retards, because every time they looked up to our window they would see us jumping around in our underwear, bear chested with socks on talking and playing with these action figures Spider-man and Captain America. My Brother and I did not give a fuck that was good sport for us. In school all I would think about was getting home to snatch the mattresses off the beds and make a slide for us and the action figures (you don’t know how much fun that was to us), here you got this mattress in a 45 degree angle I’m at the bottom and here comes this fucking Spider-man rolling down hitting me in my fore head and my brother big ass tumbling behind it as other action figures came falling down behind him, now that I remember, I think we were a little eccentric (crazy) too.

You must understand being a Latch key Kid you had to know how to invent shit. Our bed and those mattress’s where multifunctional, it also severed as our fortress, we would put the mattress in that same 45 degree angle and crawl in to the triangular cave, with our moms flashlights and some goodies we stole from the kitchen at night, (mind you when we did that we was supposed to be sleeping) the guest list at our cave party’s were me, Spiderman, Captain America and my brother, o yeah we even invited the V.I.P’s the rubber Muhammad Ali and the Lone Ranger with the missing leg (we stood him up against the cereal box) and like clockwork when the party started popping it always ended with a bang. All you would hear was DIDN’T I TELL Y’ALL FUCKING ASS’S TO GO TO SLEEP! And after that history was made, It was like waking up a sleeping bear, all you saw was this big black silhouette getting larger coming in your direction, then you heard the sound of something like Santa’s jingle bells and then it got quiet, BANG, mattresses, Sheets, goodies, naked ass and action figures was all over the place. Its nights like that, until this day I still feel I have not recovered from. Oh yeah and the goodies, the cereal and shit we had to eat that the next day no matter if it was in the box or not. I told my bother we should have quit when we attempted that chilling in the bat cave party shit. That was why the Lone Ranger’s leg was missing now, by the way Muhammad Ali took a loss on his head piece that night, so now we were two for two, remember there were four action figures, not to mention the fact, our personal walks were different that next day when we went on our way to school, so those party’s quickly ended.

The Babysitters— during these latch key years of the 70’s and 80’s, I can still remember my mom getting her first job at this club called The Smoke Stack. We didn’t go there but from what we were told, mom was a hostess and barmaid there. When it was time for her to go to work she would hire these teenage neighborhood girls she knew to babysit us, the three girls that I would never forget was Kim, Murl and Charlene. The reason why I will not forget these girls is because of the things they did to my brother and I, these girls were teenage child molesters. When it all first started out my mom would leave to go to work (at first it was just Kim and Murl, Charlene came into the picture later on) then Kim and Murl would call and have guys come over to hang out with them in our house and I’m sure my mother didn’t allow that but she didn’t know. Once the guy’s came over Kim and Murl would lock my brother and I in our bedroom and make us go to sleep but who could sleep with them being loud, partying and carrying on in the living room. Thank God for neighbors, because that type of behavior came to a halt when my mother was informed about what was going on in her house, so she put her foot down with Kim and Murl and all that boy shit stopped. A week later Kim and Murl were asked to babysit again but this time they came with another girl her name was Charlene, now Charlene was nasty and every other word that came out of her mouth was fuck, now let me tell you something so we are on the same page, Kim and Charlene were seriously good-looking, light skinned, medium builds with asses to match and Murl was tall and kind of average. I’m not saying we were perverts but we were at that curiosity stage and wanted to know about things, I mean what 9 and 10 year old kids you know that aren’t a little fresh. Sure we wanted to see breast and ass, but just to see them was enough for a 9 and 10 year old, they took it to another level.

That night Kim and Murl went out and Charlene asked us if we wanted to stay out in the living room with her until they came back from the store and we did. Charlene then tells me to come and sit next to her on the couch and told my brother to sit on the floor in front of the television. Charlene asked me what do you know about girls? and of course me being nine I said some stupid shit I said a lot Charlene laughed and said no you don’t, so what is this? (Smiling and laughing), now I’m a little shy like from her asking me this question but when I turned around to answer her, she had her button down shirt open and her bra pulled up, I was embarrassed but at the same time interested in what I saw. I responded to her those are tities and my brother quickly turned around with a bewildered look on his face. Charlene then told my brother to turn around and watch the TV in a mean voice I’m talking to your brother right now your next then she asked me what are they for I said I don’t know, that’s what makes you a woman Charlene said no stupid these are for boys to suck on, don’t your mom’s teach y’all anything now in my mind I’m like for real, that was definitely one to grow on. Charlene then said look down here, what is this? I said that’s your pee thing Charlene then said damn you dumb, this is for boys to put there ding-a-lings in I said what! When I grow up I have to put thing in there, why? Charlene said because all girls like that, it makes them feel good I said Oh. Just then Kim and Murl came back so Charlene made me sit back by the TV and said as she put her fingers to her lips shhhh.

My brother asked softly what y’all were doing over there? I said I was doing nothing she showed me her breast and peep hole He said ooh y’all was being fresh I said not me Charlene was and then as we were talking I could hear all three of them laughing in the background I asked my brother do you think I should tell mommy He said no, because all she’s going to say is your lying and smack you for even thinking like that, Meanwhile, the stench of marijuana filled the air, the giggling got louder and the hint of booze past my nose. All three women came back in the living room Charlene said okay boys we are going to play a game called lock-up and Lamar your first, now I don’t know what the fuck lock-up was but I knew I was going to find out.

Charlene told me to stand up and she put my hands behind my back and made me walk towards my room, as we got to the room she put me in and close the door. I was left there for about two or three minutes by myself, I heard the music in the living room come on and Charlene came back into the room with me I said where’s my brother? Ain’t he playing too? Charlene said yeah, don’t worry about him he’s in lock-up somewhere else, now sit in this chair. I sat in the chair and Charlene started taking off her shirt and bra and said now you are going to be punished for being a criminal, Charlene walked up on me and said put this in your mouth! Now suck on it don’t be scared they don’t bite me just following orders of the game I did just that. Charlene then started rubbing on my little manhood and then laid across my bed and said look and started rubbing herself down there, now I ain’t going to front even though I was little I’m sure my manhood got rock solid. As she rubbed herself Charlene told me to get out of the chair and come to the bed in between her legs and said here lick it, lick it right here pointing with her finger, when I looked at what she wanted me to lick I saw her hairy, light skinned colored peep hole and when she held it open with her hand I saw pink and a milky substance leaking out, Charlene said don’t just sit there lick it gesturing with her hand lick it slow boy right here I said It didn’t really have a taste, a bit salty and a little like pee but it just felt nasty to be putting my mouth there, you know I’m 9.

Charlene then got off the bed, slid back into her clothes and said you stay right here, as Charlene walked out, a minute later Kim walked in and instantly stripped down an told me to get on top of her and go up and down, now I’m in shock because I’m in some nook but right now I was not liking it, it felt nasty and degrading but at the same time I was like wow this is new, I was like oh shit in mind, what is going on, I mean, I knew what was happening but I could not believe it was happening to me at such a early age, these were things I only saw in books and the tapes that George would seek and let us see (just been a boy). When Kim finished she got dresses and took me into the living room, when I got to the living room Murl was still having her way with my brother on the living room floor and Charlene was smoking a blunt watching and laughing.

As time passed on, this form of molestations continued to happen, I can even remember events such as cops and robbers (cops would arrest the robber us and instead of being lock up we had to do other things as a form of punishment), hide and seek (during this game we would hide and the one that got found had to do sexual things with the finder, while the other one was in hiding) and TV role playing (being some of the new games introduced to us with a sexual twist). we never told our mother because I knew she would kill them and to be a little honest we got use to it, we saw it as a form of entertainment not knowing we were being molested and hey someone was paying attention to us, but this event in my life would scare me forever and cause me not to be able to differentiate sex from love.

The Battle—you see when you are a latch key kid you stay in trouble at home my brother and I was always getting our ass’s kicked for something. A time that definitely comes to mind and remains unforgotten, was the time we thought we would take it upon ourselves to burn down the enemy fortress. It was Spider-man, Captain America and the one legged Ranger against G.I Joe with the kung fu grip, Optimus Prime and all the green and beige Cowboys and Indians (the ones that came in the big plastic bag from Woolworth). At this time we were introduced to a new bed, a couch pullout bed, the threaded tweed material with the cotton stuffing on the inside. My brother and I had this bed for a minute now, so the tweed strings were starting to hang around and it had two medium sized holes in it from past action figure battles. In to battle like a Sherman tank there stood my sanitation garbage truck brand new, green and white, black rubber Mag wheels designed by Tonka, this shit was official. I got it for Christmas with the Cowboys and Indians.

The green and beige Cowboys and Indians had the top perimeter thoroughly covered, while G.I Joe with the kung fu grip and Optimus Prime were getting busted down by my mini army on the bottom. In my imagination it was impossible to get those damn Cowboys and Indians on the top so I had an idea I’ll burn and smoke them out, these were the kind of fucking idea’s us latch key kids come up with, when we spent too much time in the house with no adult supervision. I saw a tweed thread hanging and decided unbeknownst to my brother this was my victory move right here, strike, strike, strike and the tweed was lit burning like a fuse on a stick of dynamite, it’s on now. My brother noticing I made this with his stupid ass, instead of telling me to stop because he was older, celebrated with me as the fuse burrowed itself into the cotton about to blow down the Cowboys and Indians. Next thing we heard was a song in the background playing in the living room on the Zenith stand up and turn television set with the lighted up orange dial and black numbers. It was a classic Michael Jackson Tune, the tune we heard went: bah-bah bah babah, bah-bah bah babah, oh baby give me one more chance, it was the Jackson 5 cartoon theme song, at that time the cartoon was a must see. My brother and I jetted out the room like bats from hell, mad happy like this cartoon wasn’t on just that morning, forgetting that the tweed string burrowed itself into the cotton, by this time I had set three threads on fire. We put out all three, you know safety first", then we hauled ass to see that episode. Now from modern day physics we all know that once cotton is on fire it’s a wrap to put that shit out especially when the embers on the cotton tips are still lighting on and off, it’s like burning rubber.

Just like two groupies in a trance we were watching this episode faithfully; the Cowboys and Indians were facing the hottest summer blaze they could ever imagine if they were alive. All of a sudden we smell smoke and notice this grayish cloud hovering above us, we gave each other the look, yep we fucked up as the Jackson 5 cartoon sang its outro we scurried to the room like two retarded, non-experienced firefight like we was going in to handle this blaze. I pushed open the door all I saw was black charcoal flavored smoke take over the whole apartment, shit stopped being funny and heroic then, I started to cry, not because of the fire, but because of the fire that was coming in the door and saw the smoke filled house and back wall and couch burning, my ass even started crying, once again it was on.

I performed like an idiot as I dived on the bed with a pot of water hoping to drown the flame, but it was too crazy. I looked for things to save, where’s Captain America and Spider-man, from what I saw I did accomplish my mission from all the green and beige gook I saw on top of the burning chair, oozing down the wall and bed frame, I won the battle, now can I handle the war. After we were rushed out of the house the firemen proceeded to tear shit up even shit that wasn’t on fire bastards, when all was said and done they brought me out my sanitation garbage truck at least that what it was before the fire. I chalk this shit up today as another fucking latch key kid moment.

Paper Planes— A year after the fire incident we were introduced back to our room, before that our bedroom was the living room, we spent our Christmas and New Years there. Upon being introduced back to our room we were happy, it was freshly repainted and my mom purchased us a new bed. After all the new bedroom euphoria wore off and things started to return back to normal our latchkey syndrome phase returned immediately. When you’re bored, you tend to do things that you think are entertaining, not really giving it a second thought to the dangers of some of the boredom fighting solutions that you come up with.

One day my brother and I were sitting in our bedroom window watching the other children play in the park. Our window faces from the side of the building, and was indented in a half moon setting. Under our window was a lot or as we called it a junkyard and when it rained, standing water from the rain would create a small pond on the ground that existed for days. Small creatures, especially mosquitoes would inhabit this standing water pond and the smell of rotting meat, mildew and fungus would fill the air and would come through all the windows that resided on that line. We hated that smell and if it was hot oh my god you would think somebody died down there. People on our line use to throw small garbage out of the window and the Super of our building would constantly complain about it, but the people in my building didn’t give a fuck, they were already pissed about the raise in rent, the lazy cleaning and conditions of the building, but our building was still one of the cleanest on our block. I loved it.

It was a cool Saturday afternoon / evening and the latch key boredom has now kicked into overdrive, so my brother made a suggestions hey let’s make and fly some paper air planes out the window and see how many of them make it to the park I looked at this fucking man as a fucking genius, I would have never thought about flying airplanes out the window, I mean we would make them and fly them around the house, but out that window that took balls and pure genius. See, my mother warned us about throwing things out of the window she wasn’t with that shit, she would say we are contributing to the odor that came through the window, and she didn’t want to be accused of being part of that in any shape or form, for my brother to even go that route took balls he was in his rebellion stage.

As we started the airplane game, we watched as the planes soared threw the sky, some made it to the park, you got 2 points for that and some crashed and burn into the muck under the window, you got-1 point for that and some even got stuck in the gate that separated the park from the junkyard, for that you got extra points, like 5. All kinds of planes were made in this game, you had your classic triangular pointy plane, and then there were the Concords with the bended tips, the gliders which were designed from half pages and the jet planes that had the tale ripped to allow air to flow extra through the back for a better wind glide.

The plane game got boring as we accumulated the points to about 100 to 89 in his favor. We had to find a way to make this game more interesting and just as I thought this fucking genius came up with the plan of action, hey lets set the planes on fire and see whose plane makes it the furthest in flames this was sure to bring the point values to triple that’s what I needed, this dude is a fucking genius of all genius’s. As we set the planes to blaze, from tip to end, some flew marvelously, but this time none made it to the gate, because once in mid air the fire would engulf the paper airliner and send it plummeting on some passenger 57 shit, this happened 99% of the time to the paper birds.

As we continued to terrorize and smolder these paper creations, more and more of them began to plummet from the gate straight to the muck under the window. As the paper assault continued we didn’t realize that the super didn’t clean the garbage down there for a week, he was out sick and there was a beautiful pile of dry everything down there. The plane game got boring again and things started to really heat up, as the last plane went down smoke started to come up, I started having déjà vu, I remember something like this happening before.

A heavy banging came on our door and someone said y’all open this fucking door Of course I did and my mother went straight to our window looked out and low and behold the pile of garbage was now a towering inferno, ash, soot, burnt garbage and fossilized planes were everywhere and the standing water that rested under that garbage was still there. The Super hopped out of his sick bed and was down there fighting this scorcher with rakes and water from the neighbors from the 1st floor, shit I didn’t know who the fuck put a mattress down there.

Can you imagine he’s down there fighting this fire and blazing paper planes keep coming down like rain, he must have been under attack down there? So after my mother scanned the scene we faced the music, that wasn’t the only fire going on that day. We were singing like two Indians, rain dancing and everything, now the assault was on us, at the same time of the assault we were constantly being reminded of the battle that forced us out of our room the first time. The latch key syndrome definitely had to be cured; I couldn’t stand any more of these ass whippings, my ass becoming flat (but at the moment he was a fucking genius).

Baked Ass Over Easy—An event that also comes to mind I feel I must share, was the way we prepared ourselves to go to school, one morning in particular, we were preparing to go to school and we did our normal routine. We would get up retrieve our iron clothes from the closet, separate them out on the bed, make cereal or eat whatever was for breakfast, take a shower, lotion up, get dressed, pack our lunch and leave for the school bus that waited down stairs. This particular day in question was cold, and you know on those cold winter days, you tend to be sluggish because you don’t want to get up; you want to stay under the covers and stay warm. All of a sudden I heard let’s go get y’all ass up school time. My brother like clockwork starts coughing cough cough he only did this when he wanted to stay home, then you heard ‘I don’t want to hear that shit put your clothes on and get out, then I heard awe man". My brother got