Letters from the Other Side of Silence
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In Letters from the Other Side of Silence, Joseph Little chronicles his search for a meaningful life after slipping into a mystical state atop Pacaya, an active volcano in Guatemala. The journey takes him to a reclusive Russian mystic meditating in the Himalayas, an American theologian in St. Louis who helps him turn the quest inward, and eventually to an Agent Orange orphanage in Vietnam, where Little begins to realize the wholeness of a life that balances the inner fire of wordless prayer with the satisfaction of serving others.
Joseph Little
Charles Bazerman is Professor and Chair of the Department of Education at the University of California, Santa Barbara, His most recent books are Writing Selves and Societies (co-edited with David Russell; http://wac.colostate.edu/books/selves_societies/ ) and What Writing Does and How It Does It (co-edited with Paul Prior). His The Languages of Edison’s Light, won the Association of American Publisher’s award for the best scholarly book of 1999 in the History of Science and Technology. Joseph Little is a writer and teacher of writing who lives and works in Toronto, having earned his PhD at UCSB in Language, Literacy, and Composition Studies. His work has been published in Written Communication, Rhetoric Society Quarterly, and the Journal of Technical Writing and Communication. Lisa Bethel teaches writing in the Los Angeles area. Teri Chavkin is a doctoral student in the Gevirtz Graduate School of Education at UCSB, specializing in the teaching of writing and researching the writing processes of students with high functioning autism. Danielle Fouquette is Instructor of English at Fullerton College, where she teaches writing and researches the assumptions and perspectives of teacher commentary on student writing. Janet Garufis is adding graduate studies in writing to a successful career in the banking industry. Her interests include business writing, writing and identity, and social justice.
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Letters from the Other Side of Silence - Joseph Little
February 2010
Here’s the truth: Something happened on that volcano in Guatemala. I’m just not sure what.
Steve was in the lead, talking with two teachers from Canada. I was trailing behind, nursing a bad knee. Yes, Steve was in the lead and I was trailing behind and then it happened.
The volcano in question was Pacaya, that black monster of the western highlands known for its dramatic displays of lava, which surge against prediction and against a landscape so austere it rivals the moon. We found Pacaya in Steve’s guidebook one Easter weekend. Something about punishing switchbacks and menacing rivers of lava over which folks could roast marshmallows (and they did), and we were in. It all seemed so sensible from the sturdy haven of our friend’s summer cottage, Merlot in hand.
Somewhere around 8,000 feet, that all changed. The lush trees that lined our path gave way to shards of basalt, then rock, then long slopes of rubble that climbed into the sky. What few trees remained were arthritic and bent, their charred branches calligraphic against the bright Mayan sky. Soon there was no path, only a windswept ascent that stratified everyone by ability. We would turn a corner, and strange new vistas would appear: jagged fissures in the earth two yards long, coils of braided rock, and waves, waves of lava having long been cooled, blackened, their motion frozen in time. Pahoehoes,
they call them, these cases of rock becoming liquid becoming solid again. Stray dogs in need of warmth sought the company of the fissures, natural manhole covers that vented sulphur and steam from beneath the earth’s crust.
After our final turn, I felt the heat of the lava a few seconds before I saw it. After an hour’s hike, it was more than a little disappointing—a small vein of red oozing from a titanic wall of black rock (punishing switchbacks, yes, but a river of hellfire this was not)—until I witnessed the wall itself swell and glow, breathing in ways my Midwestern eyes couldn’t reckon. At first, I thought it was just the heat shimmering off the wall, the way a paved road can make the summer horizon dance, but then it cracked. Cracked, I tell you, after centuries, maybe millennia of indifference to the world. The wall cracked and began to crumble, spewing impermanence everywhere as it dismantled itself boulder by fiery boulder until nothing remained but a sea of orange suede.
It was too much for me, all that cracking and dismantling. Nearby noises, Steve’s banter with the Canadians, the guide’s vamos! vamos!
: It all retreated into the distance. And then, with no warning, it happened: My syntax simply departed, leaving my words to float in the atmosphere like dust. My rationality, drifting out there among the birds. Soon enough, the words themselves scattered and dissolved, leaving me to experience the world without categories, without reference. Ever tried to take a math test while falling into a lake while sleeping? Well, it was just like that.
I know what you’re thinking. No, I wasn’t high up there on Pacaya. I wasn’t low. I wasn’t looking for an experience to transform my life into something special. Stripped of language, I simply slipped beneath it all—and by it all, I suppose I mean my mind—to a place where even fundamental distinctions were no longer clear, like the difference between you and me, right from left, now and not-now. And though mighty and positive, it was also a place of purgation, an evisceration of the psyche, you might say. Truth be told, I want to use the word cosmic here because cosmic it was: an encounter with a God mysterious, though not the God of Michelangelo’s making, not ol’ Greybeard from my youth. No, it was an imageless God up there on that mountain, a cosmic Whole, an intimate presence that made all things One.
I don’t remember the hike down or much of the flight home, but when I got there, I threw out 30 books I knew I’d never read. I’ve since thrown out 30 more. I took art off my walls. I cut my hair. I trimmed my fingernails and cleaned my car. I canceled Netflix. I no longer enjoy martinis. Let me say that again: I no longer enjoy martinis. I focus more on people and less on my perception of their perception of me. I used to think the circle was the perfect form. Now I only like circles when I imagine them collapsing on themselves, realizing their ultimate point form. If a circle’s just going to hang around being a circle, it’s wasting space I figure. The world doesn’t need another lazy abstraction.
Where, I ask you, where will this profound sense of economy lead? All I can come up with is my vanishing, my vanishing.
That’s what I’d say if I were a betting man.
August 2010
The past several months have been one long string of Hallelujahs. Having kicked the martinis, the books, the Netflix to the curb, I found a life lean and kinetic, pulsating like the body of a teenager. And the world, it now bulges with significance: Every tree branch bows under the weight of some unutterable wisdom. Every drop of water seems ripe with creation.
The air has a kind of electricity to it, and time itself jerks along in discrete units. There are days when I swear I can sense the universe reconstituting itself moment by moment, like a film or a TV screen: individual pulses too fast for the eye to perceive. The quanta are real, I say to myself, time’s apparent continuity, the illusion.
Recently, I’ve turned to poetry to try to express these holy moments. It’s not particularly good poetry, mind you, but what is astonishing to me is the ease with which they write themselves into existence. They come to me in the car, on the street, in the shower. They come to me fully formed as if someone else wrote them. This summer, a few came to me while I was resting in a hotel garden in Poland (I was visiting my grandfather’s birthplace, Szeroki Kamien, and got delayed by the floods). It was as if I’d opened my mouth and butterflies flew out. I wrote them down and sent them off to The Antigonish Review. We’ll see what comes of that.
In private conversations, I’ve been catching myself using phrases like The Great Unnameable
and The Cosmos
instead of the God
and Heaven
of my upbringing. And in my journal writing, I pour onto scraps of paper words at once mysterious and oddly familiar, like:
What am I? I am aware of myself as a resilient bubble deep in the sea, confident I will be reunited with the Atmosphere from which I was separated so long ago.
A deeper spiritual life. What does that mean? Deeper into ourselves? Deeper as a more intense emotion? Deeper into the marrow of others?
On the leading edge of the mind, only crusts of words remain.
Sweetness, then darkness. For every A-B, there is a B-A that follows.
What is this palindromic nature that light and heat record?
That I might wince and wonder, of might and much discord, me or my evil twin, pecking away at my soul, a buzzard within.
Raises me to reverie
Rapids of the mind, left behind
Divining the skies
Scratching the wind
You are to me as sun to snow.
There’s a difference between (1) the idea of growing old together and (2) growing old together. The second one is truer; the first, an expectation, a mental construct, an artifice. It impedes the flow of reality, places a cracked window between you and existence. There is a peril to conceptual living.
I browse magazines and all I see are abstractions, concepts bereft of a pulse: Christian, Republican, obesity, shamanism, fascism, Buddhism, modernism. I think to myself, I’ve never met an -ism. I scour the language but find only words that stand in for whole families