Clothed With the Sun: Might as Well Repent and Believe

By Sophie Hill

When Sophie Hill came across the book Does God LOL? she pondered if this was a confirmation.

A friend of hers seemed so eager to know what happens when God LOLs that she asked Sophie to share it by writing how Chloe came to the knowledge.

To collaborate with Chloe – who envied the dead, for "they do not have to bite their tongue or respect culture etiquette" – seemed laughable and not in a humorous way. Her writing had been an outlet for recording observations and connecting dots.

It was when Chloe asked her, "Can the last domino in the 'Domino Effect' question 'Who started the chain of fall and when?" that Sophie considered at least lending her an ear. As the song says, That's what friends are for.

Things were overlapping with her observations. "Who knows," she thought. "I must've been given this gift for such a time as this – to share Chloe's understanding of what we see here on Earth when God LOLs."

• Language: English
• Publisher: Tellwell Talent
• Release date: Aug 3, 2020
• ISBN: 9780228825548

Sophie Hill

One of Sophie's biggest joys of working in the health field is witnessing the variety of expressions of human vulnerability.Giving them full attention by asking questions, her heart has softened towards the God image bearers, and it is rewarding to see it projected to her clients. It has helped that life has given her the opportunity to live and work in four different countries. While on the Mid-Atlantic Coast she was adopted by a feline, who Sophie calls Gingie-Gingerou.

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Clothed With the Sun

Might as Well Repent and Believe

Sophie Hill

Clothed With the Sun

Copyright © 2021 by Sophie Hill

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Did you hear?

God said, Let there be light! and there was light.

Book of Genesis, King James Version of the Holy Bible

1513 BC

How long did it take you to say?

I believe in Christ, like I believe in the sun—not because I can see it, but by it I can see everything else.

C. S. Lewis

British writer and lay theologian

1898-1963

The challenge most of the time is to genuinely remind oneself to stay in the light.

But he that doeth truth cometh to the light that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God.

Jesus Christ, in the Gospel of John, 3:21,

KJV of the Holy Bible

After 70 AD

When we say, ‘no one is perfect, cut me some slack! I am only human! We all are work in progress.’ Are we begging for mercy, or time?

Be ye therefore perfect, even as Your Father who is in Heaven is perfect.

Jesus Christ Gospel of Matthew, 5:48 in the Holy Bible

55-65 AD

Some people don’t let you off the hook; they always have a warning on the tip of their tongue.

Be careful not to measure your holiness by other people’s sins.

Martin Luther, Order of St. Augustine (O.S.A.) German professor of theology, composer, priest, monk, and seminal figure in the Protestant Reformation

November 10, 1483 - February 18, 1546

And instructions help.

Don’t see yourself as a product of your parents’ DNA but rather as a brand-new idea from heaven. Make a big deal out of God. Become who you are for Him.

Max Lucado

Christian author and pastor at Oak Hills Church, San Antonio, Texas

Born January 11, 1955

Thoughts

We are not victims of our parents’ DNA?! Hurray!!

We would guess right to say light has no DNA.

Can we birth ourselves to light?

Ugh! Why did we hide from God in the first place, after eating from the tree of judgment?

Had we owned our immaturity right then, we wouldn’t dread being reminded now of the need of the Savior. May I take the liberty to pray on your behalf, guys?

Create individual DNAs, oh God. Make them to delight in doing Your will! In Your precious Son’s name, I ask. Amen.

***

Something happened when I saw this word—exscind. Letters started attracting each other, forming words and pieces of the puzzle which I would have never consciously put together.

Word of the day: exscind

Pronunciation: (ek-SIND)

Meaning (Verb): To cut out or off

Etymology: From Latin exscindere, from ex-(out) + scindere (to cut). Ultimately from the Indo-European root skei- (to cut or split), which also gave us excise, schism, ski, shin, scienter, and adscititious. Earliest documented use: 1662.

Usage: The knife skipped off the stone and almost exscinded Shih Te’s index finger. Alexander Goldstein; The Foundling; Trafford; 2009

My Usage: "As he’s stabbing her in the chest, the knife skipped off his grip and exscinded part of his right index finger. His blood joined hers. A story came full circle."

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Table of Contents

Thoughts

Introduction

Chapter 1: Wishful thinking or mental illness?

Chapter 2: Empty words

Blame

Chapter 3: The Domino Effect

Chapter 4: Pride

Chapter 5: Stories

Reflecting

Chapter 6: Mirror is Neutral

Chapter 7: Broken Commandments

Discernment

Chapter 8: Transformation

Chapter 9: Godly Sorrow or Warfare?

Chapter 10: Heart Be Established By Grace

Chapter 11: Prompt When Needed

Chapter 12: God Sees

Searching for the Truth

Chapter 13: History of Humanity

Chapter 14: Grace

Chapter 15: The Word

Chapter 16: Clues Continue

Chapter 17: The Original Doer

Conclusion

Bibliography

Introduction

‘No person should be blamed for the circumstances surrounding his or her birth. Why permit the things that we cannot control, to burden our life. Learn to accept them and life will work out its purposes on its own time. We are not accidents. We are here by design. Opposition will give away to opportunity. Believe and have faith in that; it is true. God is more concerned with where we are headed than with where we have been.’

I paraphrased what I understood while listening to an audio by Tom Dooley. People of faith have an advantage. They understand that there are consequences for disobedience or unbelief. They also know that holding grudges and resentments, or fighting and killing for outdated belief systems, are not just detrimental to one person, but can carry seeds of darkness forward to sprout in future generations. Similarly, seeds of goodness can be planted and can bloom.

What if the human story is a continuum? What if, until we accept the laws of God and look to Christ, the sins of our forefathers become our own and blood sacrifice is still required for redemption?

Chloe and Jessie Belle are the first and second oldest sisters in a family of five children. Chloe is favoured, yet she grows up to be hardheaded and cynical. Jessie Belle is not favoured—in fact she is sometimes tormented by her parents—yet she grows up to be a woman of light.

Despite their differences, they are as close as two people can be … and then the unthinkable happens; Jessie Belle is brutally murdered, shattering Chloe’s world. Join Chloe on her personal journey as she explores the seeds of ancestry that shaped the lives of her and her sister, seeds that ultimately lead her to God.

P.S. Though it might seem like biography to some, I believe it shines the light to expose and bring awareness on what happens with our memory and focus. Something we have control of—what we focus on and what we choose to pass on..

Chapter 1

Wishful thinking or mental illness?

Maybe wishful thinking is some sort of mental illness …

Our Father: What is all this commotion I sense today? It is like the screams of parents who have lost their child. It feels like strong blame toward Me.

J: Hmm, okay, okay. That could be… because they are viewing My body. Of course, there’s crying and blaming you for allowing bad things to happen to ‘good’ people. I thought the best option was, Bear ye one another’s burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ. (Galatians 6:2)

Our Father: Oh no, no, NO! You did not, My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken Me? again?

J: It was quick, the way I hoped. The last was done first. He pierced the side of the throat. Then, he stabbed the chest 19 times. Not 39 times like two millennia ago. They have evolved.

Our Father: You tried to pull a John? But instead of getting beheaded, you got stabbed?

J: Yes and no.

Our Father: Which one is it? I don’t understand. And who aimed for the throat?

J: Of course You do not understand! You only know, …in the image of God created He him; male and female created he them. And to answer Your question, Who aimed for the throat? I think it was John. Do not take My word for it though.

Our Father: Whose word do I take then? Wait! By John, You mean Your cousin, John the Baptist? It can’t be!

J: Well for starters, he is son of Zechariah this time around too. The difference is that his mother is named so this time. On top of that he married Mary and named his son Gabriel. That’s why I think it is him. Some type of memory lingering? Maybe? The truth is that throat-cutting was the last experience; I mean, it was the last seed sowed in John. Wouldn’t that be its sprout? My life too started where it was left off. At two years of age I was flogged because I wasn’t potty trained, kept peeing my panties. A woman similar to the one in Luke 7:37-39 saved Me.

Our Father: The one with the long hair that washed Your feet with her tears, kissed and anointed them with the ointment?

J: I think so, because she sobbed seeing the two-year-old me being beaten mercilessly with a designated wooden stick. She went and told my guardian, They are going to kill her! My guardian then left the very next day, traveling for hours on train and busses. After that she hitchhiked to reach the village. She heard my screams as she was coming up the hill.

Our Father: You mean the beating was going on from the previous day? Never mind, actually, I would like to know what did you do to trigger Zechariah’s son doing unto others what was done unto him?

J: I was promising his niece, his sister’s daughter, that I would give her some leftover fabric once I got back from the dressmaker’s. When she was living with us, we were making dresses from same fabric.

Our Father: Oh no! First things first, you were promising to a woman. Does that ring a bell? It was two women who ordered John’s head. (Mark 6:23-28)

Second, the promising used to be Mine. Anyways, I forgive You for not knowing what You were doing. It sounds like his memory was working, but Yours wasn’t. Many were pissed at You. He not only had broken the Sabbath, but said also that God was His Father, making Himself equal with God. (John 5:18)

J: Shhhhh, let’s see … what is she saying?

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She was running after the casket, wanting to drop the CD in prior to them closing it, oblivious to her mother yelling, Too late now! She’s been here two days. Almost the whole city attended the viewing; you were the only one who did not approach the open casket!

Once closed, she then followed the funeral home staff to the room that the body was being transferred to, wanting to be alone with her sister prior to the rest of the people arriving. Touching the casket gently, she whispered angrily, You believed him when he told you ‘You’re not beautiful’. And now you’ve left me! You are beautiful! And I am your legacy!

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Our Father: What kind of behavior is this, shushing your Father? Who is she? You died for her?

J: Duh, I die for sinners. To point out the positive side though, this time around I was spared a decade or so.

Our Father: Yeah! We definitely have to see the positive side. After 2,000 earthly years You were spared 11 years! What an achievement!

J: You are being sarcastic. Step up your parenting skills, Father! Then neither John nor I will ever become the objects of grudges! Have You ever been down there?

Our Father: Been where? To the planet where they ask you, What do you do for living? I’d end up a bum in the streets. Up here I do not stop working, as You know. Down there, I seem to want every day to be the Sabbath.

J: Wait a minute! The movie Bruce Almighty was based on true story? What’s the location you mostly frequent?

Our Father: You’re bombarding me with random questions. To answer the second, I stay outside food stores, of course. Lately I mostly frequent the big supermarkets. The health food stores don’t allow Me even near their sidewalks.

J: Yes! From the entire Holy Bible they mostly remember …multiply, and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth. (Genesis 1:28). You are staying outside where ‘the living things that moveth upon the earth’ are slaughtered only to take space inside freezers! What happens when they become many and subdue the earth? They will mass kill and mass produce! That is what happens! They listen to You, alright!

Our Father: In my defense, first I said, ‘be fruitful’. You are cherry picking. Are You jealous that they listen to Me the most? They will catch up and understand Your warnings. LOL Do not labor for the food which perishes, but for the food which endures to everlasting life, which the Son of Man will give you, because God the Father has set His seal on Him. (John 6:27).

J: Which part are You LOLing at? ‘Push the poor as far as possible from the entrance’ part?

Our Father: To Me, LOL stands for ‘lots of love’. But I want to laugh, LOL, with …the days are coming in which they shall say, Blessed are the barren, and the wombs that never bore and the breasts which never gave suck." (Luke 23:29)

J: Shush, is her again.

Our Father: Who is she that You keep shushing me for? Is she going to make it into the Book of Life?

J: The only way to find out is to listen!

***

So Christ was once offered to bear the sins of many; and unto…those who look for Him shall He appear the second time without sin, unto salvation. (Hebrews 9:28)

***

As the priest left the pulpit she approached it, addressing the room full of people, I am spiritual, not religious, she said. Then she turned her head towards the casket and added, But probably that’s what Jesus of Nazareth meant when He said, ‘The wise are not honored in their own household.’

Turning again toward the people, she continued, My sister’s an angel of peace! So many of you, over these two days of viewing, have approached me to say how beautiful she was. Well, one person, in this room, made her believe that it was okay to simply be accepted, as opposed to being loved, valued and appreciated. I forgive that person, because he doesn’t know what angels look like. Her birth disappointed our parents because they anticipated a boy, since there was already a girl—me. They did not know that angels are genderless!

***

I don’t know about you but to me it sounds like, He came unto His own, and His own received Him not.(John 1:11)

Doesn’t it?

Anyways, after mentioning how gifted her sister was with her hands—she was good at knitting, crochet, embroidery, and so many girls had trusted her vision, design and handiwork for their dowries—Chloe turned again towards the casket, saying, That is my spiritual teacher in there, you guys.

Chloe might have been hoping, But as many as received Him, to them gave He power to become the sons (or daughters, who knows?) of God, (John1:12) According to Chloe, to God we might be genderless.

She questions the order of things. Is God’s dream for us females to become a ‘rib’ again? Or a ‘ribbon’ for the box we were taken out of? Again according to her, we women ought to repent for not feeling complete with God as our first love.

I know, I know. Sigh. Good things take long to come when we leave the Best for last.

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