Depression, it's PAYBACK time!

By Chrissy B.

Chrissy B used to be depressed. That's right; USED to be because she found a way to kick this inner "demon" out of her life for good. But is it really possible? Well it happened to her and now she'd like to show you how to get there too. But be warned: This isn't a book about learning to manage depression. This is a book about kicking depression out of your life and closing the door for good. So, this means that you will be challenged, but it will be well worth it! Imagine life without depression. Imagine the possibilities. Imagine…

• Language: English
• Publisher: Unipro
• Release date: Jul 3, 2020
• ISBN: 9786586018462

Book preview

1

So this is what crap feels like!

Louise woke up and as usual, the alarm blaring in her ears was an unwelcome reminder that life is horrible. It seemed that she’d only just managed to drop off to sleep. The bed sheets were all crumpled and caught up in her legs – another sign that she hadn’t slept well yet again, tossing and turning most of the night.

For a split second, she forgot about the monster that had been accompanying her for so long. Then BAM! – it landed right on her chest, a heaviness she just couldn’t shake off no matter what she tried.

Louise dragged herself into the shower, glancing quickly in the mirror. Yep, very dark circles under her eyes – the makeup would have to be piled on again so that people wouldn’t ask questions. It wasn’t teenager’s laziness. Getting out of bed had become an enormous effort for Louise for quite some time.

Even the simplest of tasks was a big deal – choosing what to wear, getting dressed, making breakfast, if she even bothered to have breakfast. But it wasn’t just because she was sleepdeprived. There was a constant heaviness on her shoulders, a heaviness that stuck to her like glue wherever she was and whatever she was doing. It could be the sunniest day, her eyes and mind would appreciate that day and she could even manage a smile, but the darkness inside her would violently smack the smile right off her face and zap her of her energy and zeal for life. There she was again, at rock bottom.

She went downstairs and tried to avoid any contact with the family apart from a quick Bye as she went through the front door. Her mum’s love-filled, hot breakfast and the family’s Land Rover waiting outside to take her to school didn’t do much to brighten up her days. The fried bacon smelt good and she quite fancied a sandwich, but she would rather miss out, than sit down to a conversation with her mum who was so chirpy. It’s such an effort to pretend that everything’s okay. She didn’t want her family to worry about her. Even if she told them how she was feeling, they wouldn’t understand anyway. No, this was her little secret.

Louise wondered what it felt like to be happy and bubbly like her mum. She often looked around at other people who were smiling and laughing and felt jealous. How awful. What a sad specimen of a human being. It’s not that she wanted everyone around her to be miserable too. But feeling this way is so very lonely – like you’re the only person in the whole world that feels like this. It’s suffocating. Inside she’s crying out, WHY ME? WHY DO I HAVE TO FEEL THIS WAY? GET ME OUT OF THIS HOLE!

Sounds familiar?

Maybe things for you aren’t exactly like the example above but consider this…

If you

sometimes feel worthless, even helpless;

look around you and the things that once caught your attention seem to hold no interest for you;

are living your life the best way you can but are bombarded by all these negative thoughts;

are in a constant state of feeling really anxious and really empty at the same time, and you ask yourself "What’s the point of being here? Maybe I should just end it