40 Days of Doubt: Devotions for the Skeptic
By Eric Huffman
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“Faith is permitting ourselves to be seized by the things we do not see.” --Martin Luther
Do you ever wonder whether you’re really a Christian and cling to what’s left of your faith when you feel like an outsider — even among other believers.
Have you ever doubted your faith? Have you ever, deep down in your heart, doubted that God was really present in your life? Or wondered whether everything you believed in as a Christian was false?
Call it existential doubt. Call it “the dark night of the soul,” as one Christian saint famously did. Whatever you call it, it’s real. It is personal, it is painful, it is distressing, and it can last for years? maybe even a lifetime. But you are not alone.
40 Days of Doubt: Devotions for the Skeptic is for all those sports-talk listening, eye-rolling, Game-of-Thrones-loving, abnormal believers out there. If you’ve ever felt that your mind and soul were fighting, you’ll find solace in these awe and wonder-filled reflections by pastor and author Eric Huffman. This devotional helps us understand how we can cope with our questions, and provides insightful answers during our times of doubt.
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Shares 40 devotionals on life and faith.
Explores questions readers may be asking about their faith.
Offers guidance for those wanting candid insight about Christianity.
Weekly Study Guides available at www.EricHuffman.org/books.
“Real. Bible. Wisdom. Eric Huffman’s 40 days (with a bonus 41st day!) of meditations on life’s problems, opportunities and meanings is real, honest, biblically sound and wise. His sometimes edgy and direct testimony is inspirational and connects with our best and worst experiences. Buy it, then read it.”
Scott Jones, co-author of Ask, Faith Questions in a Skeptical Age
“40 Days of Doubt is a cleverly constructed book that gives doubters space to (re)consider the fundamental claims of God over their lives. Well written with a very readable style Eric charts a path to a well-considered faith.”
Alan and Debra Hirsch, Missional Leaders, Authors and Speakers.
“As a recovering pastor, I confess I went through my own season of eye-rolling cynicism about church, religion and Christians. 40 Days of Doubt provides space to consider real questions for agnostics, skeptics, and just burned-out Christians who are tired of trite answers.”
Tim Stevens, Author of Marked By Love: A Dare To Walk Away from Judgment and Hypocrisy
Reading 40 Days of Doubt feels like I am having a frank and straightforward conversation about all the things that stand in the way of giving one’s whole heart and life to following Jesus. With each issue Huffman addresses, he chooses not to pull any punches about how the culture of “me” is often the real impediment to faith, and how the obstacles are often not the message, but the way the church fails to live it out. You may agree with him or disagree with him, but he will make you think as he peels back the layers of rhetoric and gets at the heart of the issue. If you are someone who wants to believe but can’t quite get there, 40 Days of Doubt may be just the ticket.
Tom Pace, Senior Pastor, St. Luke’s United Methodist Church, Houston
Eric Huffman
Eric Huffman is the founder and lead pastor of The Story Church in Houston, TX and host of the "Maybe God with Eric Huffman" podcast. He graduated from Centenary College in 2001, received his M.Div. from Saint Paul School of Theology in 2006, and was ordained as an elder by the Missouri Conference in 2011. Eric is passionate about leading new generations to know God’s transforming love through Jesus Christ. He is the author of Scripture and the Skeptic and 40 Days of Doubt: Devotions for the Skeptic and lives in Houston, Texas. Find him online at EricHuffman.org.
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40 Days of Doubt - Eric Huffman
PREFACE
I never was a very good Christian. Believe me, I tried. When I was a teenager, I remember listening to Christian radio in countless five-minute segments before switching back to sports talk or Radiohead (Millennials, ask your parents). I gave it my best effort to watch Christian movies like Fireproof and The Shack without rolling my eyes, and despite my best efforts, I failed . . . sometimes during the opening credits. Over the years I’ve probably purchased a dozen Christian devotional books, but I found them either too slick (God just wants to make you rich!) or too sentimental (God just wants to hug your neck!).
I always feared something was wrong with me for not liking what other Christian kids liked. I used to pray about it. Why, God? Why do I find goth kids more interesting than godly ones? Why can’t I like Creed as much as I like Pearl Jam? Why would I rather watch Game of Thrones than 7th Heaven?
Since that time, I’ve learned two things about God and myself: first, if God is real then He made me the way that I am—curious and rebellious, with a knack for sarcasm. Second, I know I’m not the only one who struggles with being a good Christian.
So I wrote these devotionals for all those eye-rolling, sports talk–listening, Game of Thrones–loving part-time believers and full-time skeptics out there.
I know what it’s like to wonder whether you’re really a Christian when you feel like an outsider and your faith is holding on by a thread. I know what it’s like to have more questions than answers in churches where, too often, the best questions go to die.
Sometimes I think there are two voices arguing in my head. The first voice is a cynic. He would say he’s scientific or just a skeptic, but he’s too biased to be a good scientist and too jaded to be a good skeptic. Scientists and skeptics may not accept your beliefs about what’s true, but they’re not vehemently opposed to the existence of Truth. The first voice wants me to believe in nothing because there’s zero risk in cynicism: if you don’t believe in anything, then your beliefs can never be wrong.
So whenever I see something truly majestic—a giant waterfall, for example—the first voice speaks up to remind me that, while it’s a very nice waterfall, there are thousands of other waterfalls in the world, many of which are more beautiful than this, so I shouldn’t get too caught up in my feelings of awe or my instinct to worship Whoever created this waterfall.
Likewise, whenever I look up at night and wonder how any of this is possible: existence, pleasure, love, joy, pain, and the stars—my God, the stars. There are two hundred billion of them in our small galaxy alone, and two hundred billion other galaxies, most of which are much larger than ours, each containing around two hundred billion stars, and all of which were born from a singularity no larger than the eye of a needle. My God, I begin to think, but the first voice interrupts again to remind me this universe is cold and indifferent, without form or purpose, an unhappy accident. Stars are not evidence for a loving Creator; to the contrary, they’re a reminder of how obviously small and insignificant our brief existence really is. Whatever feelings you’re having right now are neither transcendent nor true; human emotions are merely evolutionary coping mechanisms to help us deal with our pointless lives and our inevitable deaths.
That escalated quickly. Sorry about that.
But the good news is, there is another voice in my head, and he is a romantic. He sees the waterfall and the stars and he knows there’s more going on here than just random luck or cosmic coping. He says things that sound ridiculous to more learned elites, like Everything happens for a reason
and God has a plan for your life.
He believes in love and self-sacrifice, justice and forgiveness, and angels and demons. He nudges me to dive head-first into the divine mysteries of our existence, in search of Truth.
If you’ve ever heard these two voices shouting it out between your ears, I hope your next forty days are filled with awe and wonder, lots of questions and maybe some answers, too.
WEEK 1
DOUBTS
ABOUT GOD
Do you think God ever gets stoned?
I think so . . . look at the platypus.
—Robin Williams
DAY 1
IS EXISTENCE REASON ENOUGH TO BELIEVE IN GOD?
Atheism makes sense. I may be a Christian now, but I still think people have some very good reasons for rejecting supernatural beliefs and embracing atheism. Just think about all the innocent people in the world who are suffering right now. By the time you finish this sentence, hundreds of children will have died in places like Afghanistan and Somalia—and even in more developed nations where cancer centers treat children who are battling that vicious, indiscriminate disease.
Atheism is not irrational, especially when you consider the hackneyed arguments some Christians make to support their faith in God. Arguments like, The universe exists, so God is obviously real,
which is a lot like saying, Coffee exists, so Juan Valdez is obviously real.
Yes, coffee obviously exists, and yes, it may seem that coffee didn’t just appear for no reason. But
1. raw coffee beans are the result of natural selection;
2. coffee farming, harvesting, and roasting processes are the results of many generations of trial and error and scientific experimentation;
3. it would be ignorant to assume that one man, Juan Valdez, is solely responsible for all the coffee just because he’s the one coffee grower you know by name.
Juan Valdez is a fictional character, but even if he were real, there have been a million other coffee growers over many generations. So why can’t we just say, "Coffee comes from natural processes, is fine-tuned by science, and we don’t need to know why. More important, coffee is amazing, so let’s just relax and enjoy our time with coffee."
Now, replace coffee with the universe and you’ll see why atheism makes sense to so many people: "The universe comes from natural processes, is fine-tuned by science, and we don’t need to know why. More important, the universe is amazing, so let’s just relax and enjoy our time with the universe."
Sometimes I’m still tempted to think like an atheist, but deeper reflection leads to deeper truth. Coffee must come from somewhere, right? The grounds come from beans, the beans from plants, the plants from soil, the soil from earth, the earth from primordial gas, ice, and dust, collected and partitioned 4.5 billion years ago by gravity, and gravity from . . . OK, we have no idea where gravity comes from. We used to think it was simply a magnetic pull, until Albert Einstein showed gravity to be a curvature in the space-time continuum. Gravity actually causes space and time to bend.
Try and wrap your mind around that one for a minute, and if during that minute you happen to drift into space, near a black hole where gravity is much stronger, those sixty seconds will equal one thousand years here on Earth. And if the books and movies I’ve consumed are correct, you’ll return to find a planet in ruins, being harvested by alien robots, while what’s left of the human race subsists underground. But you’ll only be sixty seconds older than you were when you left, and you’ll tell them all the stories about the way things used to be. They’ll make you their commander, and you’ll lead the great human uprising of 3018.
But let’s get back to the coffee. We all know we have more than just nature and science to thank for this gift: coffee comes from primeval components, manipulated by gravity, fine-tuned by innumerable, impossibly perfect conditions over 4.5 billion years, nourished by nature, enhanced by science, and cultivated with care by human beings.
Now replace the word coffee with my life, and you’ll begin to see why belief in God makes sense.
Today’s Scripture
What may be known about God is plain to [human beings], because God has made it plain to them. For since the creation of the world God’s invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made.
(Romans 1:19-20a)
Today’s Prayer
Creator God, when doubts fill my mind, renew my hope and joy.
(from Psalm 94:19)
DAY 2
IF GOD EXISTS, WHAT IS HE LIKE?
If you happen to be a Christian, you were almost certainly born into a Christian family and/or a majority-Christian nation. You probably wouldn’t be a Christian if you were born in Pakistan. If you were born in ancient Greece you wouldn’t have believed in one God, but a pantheon of gods and goddesses. It would seem that your beliefs, whatever they are, are socially conditioned; therefore, it follows that your beliefs can’t be trusted as reliable indicators of objective Truth.
If that is the case, then all beliefs are relative, and if all beliefs are relative, then no god is truly God, and no truth is universally True. But there is a major flaw in this logic. If every belief system is the artificial product of social conditioning and can’t be trusted, then so is the belief that all belief systems are artificial products of social conditioning and can’t be trusted. The relative truth argument is a house of cards.
The credibility of any belief system—including Christianity—should be considered based on the veracity of its arguments. People who are most reluctant to consider the Christian God often have more problems with Christians than they do with God. Such is the case of atheist author Sam Harris, who famously wrote, Even if we accepted that our universe simply had to be designed by a designer, this would not suggest that this designer is the biblical God, or that He approves of Christianity.
¹ Harris and other atheist leaders often make this logical leap: God is not real, and even if He is real, He’s not the Christian God.
It’s understandable why some people hate Christians and want nothing more than to discredit Christianity; many have been hurt or offended by judgmental believers. In the same book, Harris also wrote, Christians have abused, oppressed, enslaved, insulted, tormented, tortured, and killed people in the name of God for centuries, on the basis of a theologically defensible reading of the Bible.
² I may not agree with Harris’s assessment of history but I can at least understand why some people project their negative opinions about Christians onto the question of God’s existence.
But there exists in Harris’s (and others’) reasoning a glaring weakness, as pointed out by the very witty G. K. Chesterton in 1908:
The modern [intellectuals] speak . . . about authority in religion not only as if there were no reason in it, but as if there had never been any reason for it. Apart from seeing its philosophical basis, they cannot even see its historical cause. Religious authority has often, doubtless, been oppressive or unreasonable; just as every legal system has been callous and full of a cruel apathy. It is rational to attack the police; nay, [in times of great oppression] it is glorious. But the modern critics of religious authority are like men who should attack the police without ever having