When I Close My Eyes
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The Diary of My Life and Dreams: I write about things that are notreal, And feelings that Icannot feel. I write about dreams, And life as I wantit to be. I write about how I wish happily ever afterswere real, And hearts that could heal. I write aboutmy longing for love, And what it would be like tolive in a beautiful world and never have to wake up.I write about you and how you were always laughing,I write about a boy who was once here and smiling,And about what is now happening. I write aboutwhat I think it is to be happy. This is the diary of my
life and dreams, Here are the words of my diary.
Julia Danielle Murphy
Julia is fourteen and lives with her mother, father, Sarah her sister, and dog Sophie in Lewisville, Texas. She started to expand her passion for writing in the fourth grade. Julia loves animals and the environment; she is fighting to keep the earth alive. She is currently working on her second book.
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When I Close My Eyes - Julia Danielle Murphy
© Copyright 2012 Julia Danielle Murphy.
All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted, in any form or by any means, electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording, or otherwise, without the written prior permission of the author.
ISBN: 978-1-4669-3951-6 (sc)
ISBN: 978-1-4669-3953-0 (hc)
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Contents
Always Sky of Blue
My Broken Pieces
Different
The End
The Strings of Life Puppet Master
Never Ending Tears
Crying Rain
Black Rose
Feathers
Never Coming Rain
Just Another Bird
Will You… ?
The Meadow
The Wolf
Without You
Only One
The Ending of a Nightmare
My Pain
Cold Eyes
Ashes From the Sky
You Are the Reason
The Castle of Souls
Soon To Be Shattered Glass
Do You… Love Or Hate…
Goodbye…
I Will Not Let You Runaway
Other Side of Love What is Love?
Leaving Me
Tears of Mine
You Are My Fantasy
Waiting
Beautiful Dream
The Unsaid
A Part of Me
Broken From the Start
You Walk Away
Fallen Petals
You Are Everything
Two Halves of a Heart
Unknown Love of Mine
Risk Everything
Forever I Hear His Song
Can’t Hold On
Stop Time
Save Me
Eternal
I Will Believe
Always Running
On My Mind
I’m Falling
Drifting Away
Is it real?
Left Me
Letting Go
Too Late
Last Breath
No Longer Chasing
Screaming Your Name
Drowning
Stuck in a Dream
Dead
Pouring Rain
Don’t Let Love Go
Why Does Everything Have To Have An End?
Who I Really Am
Back in Reality
Hear the Truth, Hear the Lies
Remember Me
Blinding
Already Happening
Last Song We Sing
Burning
My Only Need
Shut Tight
I’ll Still Care
I Will Die
Not Today
Fooling Me
This Cannot Be Love
Need To Get Away
Toys and Guns
True Love Isn’t True
Hurting
Different Kind of Me
Love Disease
Forever Timeless Clock
Truly Nothing
Ripping Away My Dreams
Hear the Thunder
Lockless Key
Unfolding
Just Dreaming
Sacrificing
Not Enough
Once Was
You Can’t See Through My Heart
Flower of the Sky
Ditching You
Hiding Behind Lies
Always
Your Last Wave
Tell Me Everything
Stinging Truth
Why Are All the Good Guys Gay?
Bound
Only Fear
Never Had You
Leaving Scars
Don’t Look Back
Kidnapping December
Falling in Our Sleep
Fibbing
No Time
No Longer Here
Streams of Time
Waking
Hear Me, Hear Me
Dreaming Beauty
Last Day
Breaking Away
Fall of Our Environment
Dog Eating Zombie Army
Rope of Life
Rotting Heart
Believing
Unknowing
No Heart To Steal
Shores of Truth
Real Or Fake
Aware
Half a Heart
Never Did
Missing Heart
Scent of Him
Never Coming Prince
Will I Survive?
Black Sunshine
Forgetting Why
Around You
Fire and Ice
Blown Away With the Wind
Crumbling World
World of Delusion
Going and Gone
Coming
Under the Surface
Finally Come
Rising
Nothing
is My Name
Defining My Life
Miles Between Us
Love Me Not
Hollow Emotions
What is Sadness?
Not the End of Us
Pools of Love
Until the Day
Unkept Promise
Shield of Hearts
Open Door
My Love
Mirror of Fog
Poison
Never Whole Without You
Testing love
Reading My Mind
Real You
Lullaby of Tears
Nature of Me
Flowing Rivers of Pain
Star-crossed Lovers
Knowing Love
Wake To Me
Refusing Reality
Engraved
Scaring Me
Truth of Me
Escaping Love
Mind’s Edge
Beating Clock
Soul Song
Red Tulips
Steaming Tears
Demon Melody
Blossom of Love
Key Hole
Song of the Screaming Bird
You and Me
Who Are We? (Lullaby)
The Cure
Forever Tag of Love
Missing December
Crimes Curse
Running Away From Love
Turning Around
The End
Into Your Arms
Obsessed
Deeper Than True
Unseen
Happiness Was Once Mine
Color of Love
Have You Ever Been So in Love?
Forever Waiting
Why
Erasing My Fears
Forever and After I Die
Souless Girl
Disappearing Love
Take Me
Ajar
From a Distance
The Forever Dancing Ballerina
My Kens
More Time
Background Character
Through
Reaching
World of Regret
Foggy Reality
Restart My Heart
Fairytale Girl
Erasing Spell
Ruining You
Crying
Butterflies in Me
Hiding the Love
In the Hands of Love
Upside Down
I Am Queen
Daughter of Artemis
Future of Lies
Ridiculous
I Once Knew You
Fairy Love
Unloved Dolly
Princeless Princess
Sleeping
Not Aloud
Guardian Angel
Do Not Even Know My Name
Balloon in the Sky
Racing You To Love
Steps To Getting Over You
Ugly Kind of Beautiful
Eyes of Mine
Winter
Glass Case
Chains
Sleep Spell
Smiling Lies
Unchanging
Seeing Nothing
A Little Longer
Never the Same Inside
Hideous Problems
Untrue Lover
Abyss Falling
Needles
Magic
Judging Me
Lost Feelings
Valentines Day
Him Or You?
Longing For You
No More Boys
Everything
Snow White
Changing Inside
And This is Why I Cry…
Rain Dance
The Beauty of Love
Love Spell
Until the End
Regretting the Past of Daisy
Proof of a Heart
Never So
Happiness
Lipstick Stains
The Meaning of Words
Chaining Me
Behind Eyelashes
In Love and in Life
I Hope To My Heart
Loving You is Pain
These Few Seconds
Empty
Dancer in the Flames
Depositing My Heart
The Truth of You
When I Know…
Never to Find
Rarely
Track of Life
My Savior Knight
Watch Me
Hate Me, Love Me So
Never To Be Mine
These Bullets That Pierce My Heart
Door To My Heart
Why Have You Not Come?
There to Bury You When You Die
Wakey, Wakey
The One in My Dreams
Bring Me Happiness
Happiness Without Doom
My Once Smiling Heart
Pretend
The Dairy of My Life and Dreams
In Life Or in Dreams
Dancing To the Sound of Love
Dedicated to
Mom, Dad, Meme Connie, Grandma Joanie, and Great Grandma Joyce, and of course: the boy with the most beautiful smile.
When I close my eyes, every space that surrounds me changes into what I wish it to be. When I close my eyes all of my dreams come true, and the sky is always blue; when I close my eyes you are still here with me.
Julia Danielle Murphy
Always Sky of Blue
No matter what you do,
I will always love you,
And the sky will always be blue,
As long as I’m with you.
My Broken Pieces
You broke my heart,
You tore it apart,
You took it away,
You chewed it up,
And flushed it down the drain,
It ended up in the dump,
You let it fly away,
And now I have to hear you say,
"With me it cannot play,
Do not let it stay,
Unless your heart is ready for another break."
Different
I’m not like them.
I do not laugh when something is funny. I do not smile when I am happy. I do not cry when I get hurt. I do not have to think before I put one foot in front of the other, I just do it. I do not see things in the same way they
do, I see the world at a different angle. When I look at them
I wonder why I am not the same as them
, why I’m different.
I am different from the rest of them.
The End
The time is running out, and the end is coming. Each second brings us closer to the end and when the end comes, all life will go. He will come, and save us, or he will not come, and we will all die. It all depends on him. It all depends on God. I know he will come and save us, I know this well, for he speaks to me in my dreams. I will find him, but I must hurry, for the end is coming soon.
The Strings of Life
Puppet Master
For some reason, I have lost control. I do not know what is going on anymore. I have lost control of what is happening in my life. Emotions are boiling up inside of me and birds are flying around my head wildly. I’m having a nightmare that I can’t wake up from, no matter how many times I pinch myself. But that is only because I am no longer in control of this dream. Someone else has taken over my dream, over my life. After a second or two the strings attached to my body start to come into view. I cannot believe I thought that I could control the strings; the strings of