Love or Insanity: Our First Love Will It Be a Loveable or Terrifying Memory

By Bernell Sims

This is the story of a young 16 years old virgin

girl from a small town in the era of strict time

in 1950th when you are not to have children

out of wedlock or you will bring shame upon that

house. The surrounding neighbors will not speak to

your family pretending they dont exist anymore. She

meet a young boy two years her senior from another

small town just north of her but he is more experience

than her. He come to her town they meet at a place

where all the teenager go for dance and play also

buy all the junk food you can eat. She manage to

get pregnant but not by choice she is rape. She keep

silent because she knew that she wasnt suppose to

let him in without a shaperone; she fears for him and

for herself. She knew that she wouldnt be able to

keep it a secret forever; she loves him, the young

man promise to marry her. She enter the hospital

the young man that said he loved her and promised

to married is not there to give his babies his name.

She wondered what has happen to him, she knows

that she cant go back home because she will not be

accepted with babies and no husband. what is she to

do if he doesnt show up at all.

• Language: English
• Publisher: AuthorHouse
• Release date: May 31, 2011
• ISBN: 9781456757748

Bernell Sims

My desire for writing encourage me to take courses in journalism, also online studies; along with coaching in different strageties of writing. but my true inspiration came from my first love Geraldine Blackmon who made me feel I could accomplished anything I truely desire. I presently live in the Chicago, Illinois area. I was born in the small town of kankakee, Illinois where most of my family dwell.

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Love

or

Insanity

Our first love will it be a loveable or terrifying memory

Bernell Sims

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INTRODUCTION

This is the story about a sixteen-year-old girl who lived in Kane, Illinois. Her name is Ella, and she came from a family of sharecroppers. She dreamed of one day becoming a model. She was a pretty girl with smooth, soft skin, of the right height, and a beautiful shape. She had curves in all the right places, and the townspeople agreed that she should pursue a career in modeling.

Things took a turn when she met an eighteen-year-old boy from Olivet, Illinois, by the name of Simon. He was six foot five with a solid build. Ella and her friend Paula thought he was the most handsome boy in the whole town. Since they were both attracted to the boy at the Wagon Wheel, they made a bet about who would get him first. Ella won in the end. After they started dating, when anyone saw him on the weekends, they also saw her. They soon told each other that they loved one another, and when they were not together during the week because of school, they wrote love letters to each other. During the course of the relationship, Ella got pregnant. This changed her dreams of becoming a model because Simon promised to marry her and give his children his name. Now her dreams were to become a wife to him and a mother to their children.

She soon found herself alone with her children because the young man that had promised to marry her left just as she was giving birth to their babies. This forced Ella to leave her newborn babies in the hands of her mother. Simon’s broken words and his abandonment at the time she needed him most caused her to go through misery and hardship. She soon left her small town where she grew up, and her schoolmate named Mattie decided to go with her. After leaving for the big city, she found herself battling for survival.

Awhile later, Ella met Gore—a Chicago man two years her senior who had just returned from the navy. He promised to raise her children as if they were his own, and Ella felt that she had found a good man. Ella soon found out that being married was harder than she realized it would be. She learned the meaning of fools rush in and asked herself, was it love or insanity that drove this man whom she married?

This story is written from the perspective of a nine-year-old child.

Contents

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 1

The Family Tree

Ella’s mother, Mariah, was five foot nine with long, wavy hair, a Mae West figure, and a mild personality. Her father, Anthony, was six foot five, bald, built like an Atlas body builder, and had a jealous attitude. They were sharecroppers living in Crawford, Mississippi. They had five children: Carl, fourteen, was the oldest son. He was tall, slender, and easygoing. Frank, twelve years old, was tall, muscular, and honest. Eddie, five years old, was short, stocky, smart, and alert. Francine was ten years old with a short and curvy build and a lot of energy. Ella was seven years old and was tall, slender, quiet, and withdrawn.

They called their father’s mother Big Mama. She was five foot five with short, grey hair and a medium build. She was a bootlegger with a tough attitude. His sister Elma was always willing to help someone when she was sober.

Ella’s parents decided that they would move up north for a better life. Big Mama and Elma separated from Ella’s family and moved to Cotton, Illinois. The rest of Ella’s family went to Kane, Illinois. After arriving in Kane, Ella’s father found a job working at the steel mill, and her parents bought a house. It wasn’t a fabulous or modern place like the neighbors’, but it was a place you could call home, and their parents showed that they loved them.

Their father would go to work and come home, always leaving something in the lunch box for Ella and Eddie. He would give them hugs and kisses. He also helped his wife by doing the girls’ hair and making sure the boys did their chores, and he spent time with them. He made sure none of his family went hungry by keeping food in the house, and he made sure they had enough clothes. Their father died at the young age of thirty-three, leaving their mother to take care of them alone.

Their mother had to go the big city to work; she had two jobs fifty miles away. This caused her to work late, and sometimes she couldn’t get home. At times, she would be gone for two to three weeks at a time, leaving the children to be checked on by neighbors. Most of the time, they would take care of themselves. Their mother would come home exhausted, but she didn’t have to do anything. They would have the house cleaned and her food ready when they saw her coming; all she would have to do was rest. They were a loving and happy family working together.

About two years later, their mother fell in love with a man name Earl from Chicago, Illinois. He was nice and kind to all of them. Their mother and Earl got married, and they started looking at him as their new father. They called him Poppa. Something changed about six months after they got married. Their mother got sick, and the doctor told her she couldn’t work anymore; if she did, she would have a heart attack, so she had to quit. It didn’t please their Poppa that they all had to depend only on him. The food cabinets were sometimes empty, and then they would see him coming down the street with two bags of food on payday. Their mother would be happy, and they would be singing, We got food, and we are going to eat! Poppa would come in the house and take all the food into the bedroom. He took out enough food for their mother and him to eat and then put the rest in the icebox he kept in the room. The door would be cracked, and they could see them eating. He would be rubbing his stomach and saying, Stomach, look out! Here it comes! as he looked out at the children, taunting them. They could see the sadness in their mother’s eyes. The children