Spiritual Awakening

By Yazaid Ahmed

The purpose of spiritual awakening book is to get you to experience a dream life, a happy life and a free life. It is to let you reach a point in life where you find yourself living in a place surrounded by gardens and rivers, eat the fruits of your desire, develop the relations that will surround you with love and empowerment, experience internal bliss and tranquility. It is to let you eliminate sadness and live a happy life irrespective of your outer circumstances. It is to finally allow you to stop chasing your dreams and cause them to chase you instead. It will finally allow you to understand life. If you apply the spirituality secrets that you read, it will allow you to be the happiest person in the world even if you are sick, dumb and broke.

It talks about the pains and challenges you will come across in your journey towards achieving such a state. It talks about sadness, pain, suffering and insecurities that you might be experiencing secretly that no one else knows about and it tells you how to overcome that and get back to life. And if you think that you are already happy then this book will take your happiness to a whole different level. It will be as if you are happy with your every day meals and then suddenly you get an invitation at a 5 star restaurant where you taste an astounding meal for the first time.

Yazaid went from the depth of depression, getting broke, heart breaks, sickness, thoughts about death and seeing no point in life to experiencing a life that he can only describe as "Paradise", he is literally living his dream every single day. He usually asks total strangers on the street: "On a scale of 1 to 10, how happy are you? 10 being I am the happiest I am living in paradise. 1 being I hate my life and I want to get out of here" unfortunately he did not get a 10 at all, not even a single time.

This book is an attempt to shed light on the path that will heal your heart, cure your spiritual pain and finally make you say loudly:
"My happiness is 10 out of 10 I am living in paradise!"

• Language: English
• Publisher: Yazaid Ahmed
• Release date: Sep 20, 2016
• ISBN: 9781370588862

Yazaid Ahmed

Yazaid Ahmed was at a stage in his life where everything started to go horribly wrong. His heart was broken to a point where he thought he was emotionally dead and he wouldn't be able to love again, he went broke to the point where he had only $35 left in his bank account, he was out of shape and had flabs all around his stomach, he worked in a job that buried him alive, he was officially diagnosed with a rare type of "Clinical Depression" where doctors told him "You will live with it for the rest of your life". But then something happened. He went through a spiritual awakening that cancelled all of that suffering and led him towards experiencing paradise on earth where a dream life started getting manifested for him in a mysterious way. He shows us how to embark on the most beautiful journey and live the most beautiful movie of our own lives. The secrets that Yazaid has discovered and started applying were nothing short of magical. This happened when a sudden flash-back of memory happened to him in the midst of adversity and reminded him of an ancient -more than 1400-year-old- book from which he was inspired. Yazaid Ahmed is the youngest of 5 siblings and he has a tremendous passion and zest for spirituality and life. If you ask him what his job is? he would respond with: "I am a Happiness Radiator"

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1.     Introduction

It was said, ‘Enter Paradise.’ He said, ‘I wish my people could know’ – The Book of the Abandoned Best Statement.

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Paradise exists on earth literally. It exists in the heart before it gets manifested in the outer world, it exists in the spirit deep within. Don’t get me wrong, this is not just a book on feel good and that’s it. I do mean that paradise exists on earth, I do mean that you can live in a place full of gardens, eat fruits of your desire, eat the most delicious meals, drive the car of your dreams, have friends that are supportive, friends who ask about you and tell you they love you, live in peace internally and externally, get the income target that you aimed for, have provision become available right when you need it, be it a provision of love, a provision of health, a provision of support, a provision of money or a provision of peace of mind and most importantly have your desires manifested in a way that feels effortless.

What I meant by Paradise exists in the heart before it gets manifested in the outer world is that you start experiencing it in your heart everywhere you go and irrespective of your outer circumstances, whether you are broke or rich, whether you are busy or free, whether you have time or not, whether you are sick or healthy and whether you are in love or in pain, whether you are surrounded by family or a loved one departed from this life and left an empty space in your heart.

The purpose of this book is to get you to experience this paradise in your heart first and then make you wonder in astonishment and smile when one day arrives without your awareness where you suddenly realize that you are actually living in a real paradise internally and in the outer world as well. A paradise in this life, in this world, right here and right now where you feel a constant and invisible peace, force and protection, tranquillity and bliss making your life smooth and easy, where things line up just to serve you.

Mysterious coincidences start to show up in your life, you get income right when you need it. Your schedule lines up with activities that you forgot to include or forgot to plan for but you find somehow that it has already been accounted for. People start to show up out of nowhere just to support you. The best thing is, you start getting clues and signs of your direction ahead in life and you live in a state of wonder and excitement for what your life might turn into. Paradise however, begins by how you perceive the world outside to be. It is when you are content and grateful that your outer circumstances will start to change.

Today is Friday, I woke up at 4:00 am, went out of the house at 4:30 a.m. to take my morning walk and crossed the bridge beneath which the river flows, in other words, the river was flowing right below my feet, the sky was raining very gently with light drizzle, I walked for almost two hours, then I came back home, had my morning tea, talked with friends and family and called my parents to chat with them then went out, it is still early in the morning.

Right now I am writing these words sitting under the shade of a palm tree putting my back against it. Looking at the sky which at this very moment is very light blue and the sun is bright but it is behind a bright white cloud which is thick enough to block its rays from becoming hurtful to the eyes and at the same time thin and transparent enough to allow its light to illuminate the ground.

The weather is breath taking, it is neither cold nor hot with a refreshing breeze that keeps on passing by your cheeks the palm tree is behind my back, the garden is below my legs, and in front of me there is a tranquil big river that has boats that are quietly floating on top of it in peace.

Behind the river there is a beautiful cliff covered by trees as far wide as I can look. Right behind me is a track full of trees from both sides and at some point in the track the trees reach out from the top of your head to hug each other which forms something close to a tunnel of trees.

Behind this track there exists, the huge spacious botanical gardens of Brisbane city – Australia. Right before the river there is a narrow track that is wide enough for only two people where a couple in their sixties or seventies passed by jogging, a perfect spot with a perfect breeze and a perfect weather, a perfect river and a perfect garden and the sight of this couple reflects a perfect hope and perfect optimism for love that lasts till old age, I can picture a romance novel that unfolded through their lives that kept them together, a bond maintained between a husband and a wife.

To make the picture even more perfect, a little bit further behind me was the sound of two or three little excited kids happily laughing and playing in the playground. This exact time where the sun shines right after little rain drizzle in the dawn, is the time that professional photographers call The Perfect Time for a Camera Shot.

I just cannot ask for more, I’m in peace internally and externally. There are no words that can describe the state that I am in right now, a state free of worry, free of concern, free of stress, full of peace, full of contentment, full of tranquillity, full of bliss, a state that I really question myself: Is it possible by any chance, that someone, somewhere, in this world is experiencing the satisfaction, happiness, contentment and peace of mind and out of world experience that I am experiencing? If the happiness that I am experiencing is distributed to a whole world it will suffice all of them

Now you might think to be in such a mysterious unexplainable and unusual happy state I must be rich or I must have no problems? Matter of fact as I was typing the words above I was fired from my job and I had no job for the past 3 months, I had only $2,640.32 Australian dollars left in my bank account, the girl whom I was planning to marry and we were planning things together got engaged. Am I worried about finding a job? Not at all, I am excited, am I sad over the girl who got engaged? Not at all, I am excited and wondering who is it that girl who will be better for me and more matching to me and at the same time I’m sincerely happy for her.

Am I resentful over the fact that I could not find a job for the past 3 months or the fact that I got fired or the fact that I was out of work for the past year before these 3 months? Not at all, I am absolutely content and happy that I have gone through this experience, I learned lessons that others pay money for in personal development courses to acquire. It shaped my personality more than any other course.

Now here is a little coincidence for you if you like to call it a coincidence, but for me I like to call it just that a sign. After I have written the words above, especially after reflecting upon when you are absolutely content with your current circumstances and grateful for them no matter what you are going through and seeing that you live in a paradise internally, this paradise and these circumstances start getting reflected in your outer world. I came back home, I placed my laptop on top of my table, I took my cell phone out of my pocket and placed it next to the laptop and while I was taking my wallet from my left pocket to place it next to the laptop as well, my cell phone rang.

I picked up the phone and in an enthusiastic excited voice I said: Good Morning!, the person on the other end of the line laughed without saying a word and then she said: How are you?! I said enthusiastically again: I am absolutely great! she laughed again and said: You seem to be always feeling great I replied: Yes the weather is lovely and I just came back from a relaxing session by the river and then she dropped the line:

My client was very happy with meeting you last time and he wants your official documents to proceed with the paperwork in other words, I got a job. I was happy, but I was not surprised because I understood the lesson, life gives you more of what you are content for. The supreme wisdom that orchestrates this entire universe grants you more of what you are thankful and grateful for not less of what you are complaining from, not less of what you want to replace your existing resentments and frustrations with.

I know what is running inside your mind right now, you might be saying: but I cannot just be grateful just like that! I don’t feel gratitude in my heart I cannot fake it, I am not grateful and I am resentful and I know it. All I can tell you is this: surrender to the supreme wisdom, surrender to the most loving who is running your heart and running the universe. Simply, ask Him to grant you gratitude and gratefulness. I used to hate it when someone told me: be grateful I just couldn’t, I tried but I couldn’t I was resentful the only thing I had was a firm belief that the matters of the heart are not in our control, we cannot control our own heart, the love of a person is casted into our heart, the discomfort with another is ignited in our heart, the passion for a thing is born in our heart and the boredom from another is generated in our heart. Ask any person who is in love the following question: Why do you love him? Or why do you love her? and let me know if they could explain it.

That is why I was asking the one controlling my heart daily for years and I say: O’ God I ask you to grant me contentment then one day out of the blues a realization struck my mind about the whole blessings that I have, I started noticing big things and small things to be grateful for, I started noticing blessings in my life in an unusual way no matter how small they are. If a firefighting truck passes by me with its serene on I immediately remember that I was never in a fire before in my life and I thank ‘The Peace’ for it I say to the most wise thank you I have never experienced a fire that required a fire fighting truck in my life.

I noticed that my room that I live in now has not only a window or two but 4 windows, in addition to two big doors that open at a balcony and the balcony is surrounded by trees, breeze circulates inside the room between the 4 windows and the two doors and the room main door, sun light illuminates the entire room, trees give me oxygen and make me relaxed and soothes my soul when I look at them. I am not telling you this to brag I am telling you this to show you what is possible for you, I am telling you this to invite you to a world that will give you the same satisfaction that I am experiencing. I am inviting you to experience: The Spiritual Awakening! Spiritual awakening is that constant realization and feeling that you have when you know that you don’t belong to this world. You are here to enjoy every moment. There might be moments of sorrow but their percentage will be very, very…very low.

Spiritual awakening is when you get into a bubble of bliss, an aura of contentment and peace, an inner feeling of tranquillity that you carry along with you wherever you go. Ultimately, spiritual awakening is when you feel connected to a source of peace greater than you, an infinite love supply, and an infinite provision supply. Once you feel that connection you will no longer suffer from scarcity. You will know that whatever you need will become available to you at the very right moment. You will no longer rush, you will no longer hurry and you will be calm and collected knowing for sure that no matter what happens, your dreams are going to be manifested and they are being manifested. You will live in a state of joy and contentment for the present, acceptance for the past and excitement and wonder for the future.

2.     How My Life Turned from Hell to Paradise

And is one who was dead and We gave him life and made for him light by which to walk among the people like one who is in darknesses, never to emerge therefrom? – The Book of the Abandoned Best Statement

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Death was the only thing occupying my mind. I was extremely depressed, clinically depressed. Not just an ordinary depression but I was diagnosed with a specific type of depression that causes suicide. Science and medicine did not discover a cure for it until now and I was in denial when I found out that it is a life-long disease. I was not surprised when I came to know from the National Mental Health Association that 30%-70% of suicide victims have suffered from a form of depression. This depression caused me to be aggressive at work to the point where I shouted at my colleagues including the company owner whom I worked for. I was given an open leave for recovery that ended with my termination. During that period in which I had the dream I told you about. A series of events, each of which being worse than the other piled up and were about to explode me with resentment, anger, frustration and maximum depression.

It was not only depression, at times it was a combination of depression, anxiety and extreme fear and panic attacks. I lost ability to have one continuous night of sleep. I would wake up every 30 minutes or every 1 hour because I remembered risks and troubles at work, so I wake up to note them down. I would dream about work, freak out about work, lots of problems at work, loss of loved ones, sickness. It was just all happening.

I hated myself, I hated life, I hated the world and thoughts of hating God and even cursing Him were jumping inside my mind. I was talking about death negatively with almost everyone, what’s the point of life? I was telling everyone that I wanted to die. I saw myself as a hopeless, helpless and worthless creature. I saw myself as a burden on this world, a burden on my family, a burden on my friends, a burden on society and a burden on earth. I barely recognized myself, this was just not me.

When I graduated high school I have had known a girl via the internet, our conversations started to develop and rapport started to build up. At first they were just conversations of teasing each other and exchanging jokes, little by little they became intellectual conversations, little by little they became about our families, then our friends, then our lives, then our troubles until I reached a point where I thought I already knew this person. I travelled on my way to college and I saw her for the first time and that was it, she imprisoned my heart from the first sight but I didn’t tell her. I continued my travel to university and I have already drawn the plan in my mind: go to college, graduate, work and get married to her, which will take about 8 years.

During college days, I was a happy person. A dedicated student and I thought I was someone who knew how to have fun. I used to be the one who gathers friends and organizes trips out of the city. I used to be the one who calls friends to gather at coffee shops to have a chat. But now when I look back I think I had some erroneously skewed perceptions about what fun and happiness were. I thought that happiness was in partying and clubbing. I always had a passion for rapping, freestyling and writing lyrics.

Put on those hip hop clothes, put on those wrist bands, put on perfume, talk to myself in front of the mirror with whatever freestyle that came to mind. Put my wallet, cell phone and keys in my pockets and head to the clubs. Grab the Mic and entertain the crowd with all the Are you ready?!, Bigg Z in the house oh yeah! and hearing the crowd screaming YEAH! used to boost my ego. Screaming to the crowd Throw your hands in the air like you just don’t care used to cause an adrenaline rush inside of me. The people who would approach me after the party is over just to be friends, the guys who want to learn how I come up with lyrics, the girls who want to just be friends all used to cause me to think that that’s what made me happy.

But then I noticed something, after I came back home and locked the door of my room and started changing my clothes, I would feel an empty void feeling deep within my heart and I would continually ask myself a series of questions: is that all? Now what? So what? at some point I thought that happiness was in making lots of female friends. So I headed towards that direction. Making female friends everywhere I went, exchanging numbers wherever I was, in a restaurant, in a library, in a party. I used to always have a small palm size notebook and a pen at the back of my pocket just in case I met a cute girl so that I exchange numbers with and make friends.

It reached to a point where someone asked a friend of mine whether he knew a certain girl he was interested in. He replied Do you think I am Zee? Ask Zee he got all the numbers they used to call me Zee at that time. I reached a stage where sometimes I would open my notebook and not remember some of the names, who were they and where have I met them. But I always had that one girl in mind and made sure I would not develop my relationships with anyone else beyond friendship, I was what you would call, a loyal lover. Did I find happiness after I made so many female friends? Not at all, that sickening feeling of void and emptiness continued to grow. A momentarily feeling of joy after each party, and after each new female friend I made that soon vanishes and gets replaced with a feeling of uselessness.

I graduated from college, left that life behind and started my career life. I thought that I was lucky to get a job, only to be surprised with getting fired after 7 months of hard work due to one episode of depression attack that caused me to be aggressive. I joined another company, I progressed through the corporate ladder and got promoted, got dedicated only to be surprised that overwork caused my depression cycle to swing back again and turn me into an aggressive person. Same thing happened which resulted in reaching a decision to terminate my contract again. Then I received a phone call from my direct manager saying: Look we know that this has been out of your control, come back to work with us. I went back, a year later my depression swinged back worse than before which caused me to shout at my colleagues at work, curse them, curse my managers, the head of the company and even punched one employee in the chest out of rage and overwork that I was experiencing which finally got me fired.

This time I have had enough, I felt broken, I felt hopeless, I couldn’t handle the pain and after 8 years I decided it is time to let the girl know about how I felt about her, I needed her next to me as soon as possible. I picked up the phone, called her and I told her everything, I told her how I felt about her, I told her what has been going on in my life, I told her that I wanted to be with her and I proposed to her. Somehow I knew that she would say yes. We were great friends after all. However, she kept quiet for few seconds, there was silence that seemed to be years long not just few seconds. Then she responded with: let me think about it.

I didn’t know what that meant, was it a yes, was it a no, was it a maybe? Was it an I don’t know I just didn’t know. So, I kept on waiting. Until one day I called her and she said something to the effect of: Sorry I don’t feel the same for you. That was it, 8 years of anticipation, 8 years of waiting and 8 years of dreaming about her came down crashing in a split second. I felt as if the earth opened up and swallowed me. Getting fired more than 3 times, getting diagnosed with a serious type of depression and now losing the person whom I built a life with in my imagination. Perfect.

At this very moment I felt that life itself is useless, why go to work? Why achieve success? Why do all of that if the person whom I planned to do this for rejected me? This was the first wrong concept I had in my mind. I was attached. My self-worth, self-esteem and self-respect went to the ground, I lost confidence and I was without a job, broke, sick and just got ditched.

I received a phone call from a friend for a job and I secured it, but I was already emotionally and mentally devastated and exhausted. I went late to work, I left early, I didn’t know what I was supposed to do, the medications I was on were making it hard for me to stay awake. I just didn’t know how to get out of this dilemma. If I go to a restaurant I would hear the sounds of people talking, the sounds of knives and forks against the dishes and they used to irritate me as if they are plugged into a stadium speaker that’s put right next to my ear. I would look around at people and if I see two friends smiling and laughing I would wonder: How is it possible that someone on this earth could be happy?!

Then one day on my way from work to a restaurant to have lunch, while looking down on the ground, dragging my feet and totally sucked into my depression, I remembered a sentence from the Book of the Abandoned Best Statement that promised if you ask for forgiveness from the supreme wisdom controlling this universe, some people call it universe, some people call it the source, some people call it the intention, some people say God. At this moment I would call it … The Peace. That sentence promised if you ask The Peace for forgiveness you will get wealth, you will find love and marriage that results in having children and your life will turn into Paradise.

This thought was so intense it was almost like a lightning on my heart, I knew it’s time to get back to the Book of the Abandoned Best Statement and I started by asking for forgiveness for every single mistake I have done in my life whether I knew it or not. I asked for forgiveness for staying away from the Book of the Abandoned Best Statement, I asked for forgiveness for my partying and clubbing life style, I asked for forgiveness for my aggression, I asked for forgiveness for my resentful thoughts towards the world and towards the wisdom running this universe, I asked for forgiveness for wronging myself and for beating myself up and I asked for forgiveness of everything.

I decided to stop anything that I thought was wrong and asked for help to let me know if there is something else wrong I’m doing without my awareness. I kept on asking for forgiveness hoping that my situation at work will improve, maybe get some clarity or get promoted. Only two weeks after I started asking The Peace for forgiveness, only two weeks! my manager called me and said: Yazaid, you seem to be not interested in work and I am looking for someone who is interested in work and takes care of it. Therefore this is your last day at work!

In other words I was fired again for the 4th time! I didn’t get it. Torturing thoughts attacked my mind: Where is the promise? Where is God? Where is the source? Where is the loving universe? Where is The Peace? These promises are false and fake, I’m believing in fake promises I lost the very same thing I was holding to all my life, the very and last thing that kept me alive…I lost faith.

I went out of the office not knowing where I would go, not knowing what I would tell my parents I just started driving with a complete absent mind. Although I lost faith there was still something inside of me telling me hang in there. I went to pray and I found a very old man with a white beard and one amputated leg and some medical certificate saying that he needed an operation. He was asking for financial aid. I was broke with only around $266 left in my bank account. I said to myself, help this man maybe The Peace will help you. So I opened my wallet to give him maybe few cents or few dollars, I found only one note equivalent to a $133.

I needed the money, I didn’t have enough in my bank account and this was all I had in my wallet but I opened it in front of the old man and he was looking at me and at the wallet and I would break his heart if I just put the wallet back in my pocket. I said to myself, what shall I do now? Should I give it to Him and ask for a change?, then I said what’s the use of it, you are destroyed already, your $266 dollars will soon be finished and this $133 will soon be finished also and you will end up being broke, it will do nothing to you but it will make a difference for him. So I gave it to him and went away.

I gave him $133 and two months later I got a job which is exactly $1,333 more than my previous salary plus an additional $266. Work load was much less. Duty hours were perfect for me starting from 7:00 am and ending at 2:00 pm and after that I had all the time for myself and my Mom. I’d have morning tea with her then go to work to meet decent and respectful work mates and an amazing manager whom I’m still in good contact with until today. Came back home at 2:15 pm (work was only 15 minutes-drive instead of the 1 hour drive previous work) have lunch with my Mom. Then I decided to go back to the Book of the Abandoned Best Statement and dedicated my time to reading it, understanding it, memorizing it and applying it. Implementing one sentence of it caused me this change, what would happen if I implemented it all.

I have always heard that this book of the Abandoned Best Statement changed lives, is changing lives and will keep on changing lives but I never understood why didn’t I go to it earlier and until today I cannot understand why people abandoned it knowing all the life changing power it possesses. This book of the abandoned best statement healed people who applied it, brought them love, brought them honour, brought them wealth, brought them dignity and made their lives easy and I knew very well that it will turn the life of whoever reads it with contemplation and applies it into paradise and that’s why I dedicated my time to it.

But I couldn’t find an answer for, why did people abandon it? Until I noticed a pattern in the Book of the Abandoned Best Statement itself that kept on saying: "but most of them do not know"

Every day I would dedicate two hours to it, one hour to memorize and one hour to contemplate over it and read its meanings and its commentary and I started applying the principles and secrets that you will find some of them spread throughout this book into my life which turned it into a paradise internally first and then an outer paradise literally.

For 4 full years of doing this, I have never ever had a depression attack, I was never in a bad mood and in those 4 years I remember I felt a little bit down only 2 or 3 times that didn’t last for more than half an hour or an hour max in each of those 3 times.

My life became easy, my desires are getting manifested, ranging from passing exams, buying the car of my dreams, finding new friends in a way that people call by coincidence who appreciate me, love me and ask about me. I don’t know what happened to negative life events, either they disappeared and vanished or my perception changed to a level where I don’t see any event as negative, I don’t know what happened. It has become very difficult to irritate me or upset me.

It is as if I entered a different world, an aura of protection, peace, bliss and tranquillity. My health has improved, I started exercising every morning. I was the only one among my friends who is content with the place I lived in. Everyone around was complaining, everyone wanted change, everyone wanted out, everyone wanted to live in a different city or a different country.

People would give me a weird look when I say I’m happy where I am with what I have and I am happy and satisfied with who I am. One day I was jogging at 4 or 5 am next to my house in an old neighbourhood which was an area that was simply buildings, streets, traffic lights with no sight of a single tree. Then I looked around and a thought crossed my mind for a split second that said: It would be nice if I were in a place surrounded by greeneries and fresh air like those they show in movies.

One or two years later I was taking my morning walk again at the same time around 4 am while reciting in my heart from my memorization parts of the Book of the Abandoned Best Statement until I reached a point where it said: "Surely (as for) those who believe and do good, their Lord will guide them by their faith; there shall flow from beneath them rivers in gardens of bliss." As soon as I finished reciting this sentence something inside of me told me wake up and look around.

I looked around and I was on top of a bridge, right in the middle of it and right beneath me was the river and surrounding it were spacious gardens. This is the very same river I told you about earlier in this book. Same time and same Jog but different surrounding.

I started noticing an invisible force that keeps on facilitating life for me. I go to the post to send a mail or receive a mail I find it empty and I’m the only customer, only to be surprised by a long line of customers that reaches until the door as soon as I was done with the customer care representative.

I go to my new job and my manager tells me to be careful because you have to conduct a lot of meetings