Bold New World: The Coffee House Notebooks
By Alex Freeman
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Imagine, for a moment, the instant in which a schizophrenic realizes that he is not, in fact, a schizophrenic, that it is human society itself afflicted. Contained in these pages are the living and the loving, the poems and the paintings, of that schizophrenic-in-remission, imagining a society sane.
Alex Freeman
Alex Freeman is a clinical psychologist, a health care worker-to be, and an impassioned porn writer just taking her first steps in professional writing after several years of writing purely for entertainment. With T.C. Mill, she has co-edited two anthologies of passionate, cutting-edge erotica with the New Smut Project.
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Bold New World - Alex Freeman
Writing, for me, is a gift of living shared with others. What the words convey, how they convey an idea, is, if nothing else, a transmission of vicarious experience. Experience, as the essence of living, allows you, the reader, an opportunity to live as you might not otherwise, in an alternate universe, a separate reality, a novel time, a bold new world.
Words do not have to leap from the page. Sometimes, they should dance. Or run. Occasionally, a line should uppercut you in your easy chair and knock you onto the floor. The method I employ is not really a method at all, but it is a process. I call it prosetry. Prosetry bears the melody and rhythm of words through the lines of poetry, and carries the paragraphs of prose on the backs of the windswept wings of a chord held to the period. Synthesizing poetry with prose is often easy enough, while maintaining the old rules of poetry with lines of prose can be much more daunting.
Art, art of any type or medium, however, has the freedom to enjoy the purity of mountain top air, the rush of a free fall, and the anarchy of limitless creation. Sure, fumes from the city below can pollute the mountain air, and gravity dictates a survivor to pull a rip cord, but whatever limits exist in these pages are all self-chosen, self-imposed, and expressed freely. It is not in the breaking of rules, but in the simple disregard for the authority of those rules that allows rhythm to percuss through the prose, sculpture to shape the form of a poem, and the blank pages to develop into a canvass now framed by the device you are reading this from.
Prosetry, then, is the way to bring new living and experience to you as you rise from the floor and regain your place in your easy chair. Writing in any form with prosetry is successful if, for instance, upon reading the words, the threadbare sandpaper of the hotel towel dragged the droplets of water across his mosquito bitten leg,
you subconsciously reach down to scratch your leg and simultaneously twitch with empathy for this poor traveler. It is my sincerest wish that, upon reading the various offerings of my blood-ink contained herein, you can travel to new places, unique times, frozen moments, and even blush in some places for voyeuristic guilt. It is my sincerest wish that you live through the course of these pages.
So as I sit here in this coffee house, addressing you as if I know you, I know that my words might fall flat as a page, ringing hollow and empty. If that is the case, please accept my gratitude for attempting to consume this offering of mine, and my apologies for failing to deliver anything more than some notes jotted down in a jittery moment of hyper-caffeination. However, if even one bare-knuckled line connects and drops your jaw, please share the link to this EBook and allow others the opportunity to live vicariously through these pages. Because, well, sharing is caring.
Thank you for allowing me to share these words, these notes, these experiences with you. Humbly, I am very much obliged for the care.
Quite Sincerely,
Alex
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Dream Guardians
Protect me, she said.
Protect me in my dreams.
She looked away, through the window, looking into forever.
Protect me in my dreams, she said.
As a single tear hung motionless,
perched on the ledge of her nose
sparkling like a pierced stud.
She looked through the window gazing at nothing in particular
but my return
Protect me in my dreams
Would that I could kiss away that tear
an ocean of longing
compact as a single drop
set to fall
Through nightmares
Protect me in my dreams
while I sleep
while I rest
protect me in my dreams,
she says
As she stares into the blankness
the bleakness
the emptiness
on the other side of the glass
Protect me in my dreams
she says.
Leaning over to wipe away the single suicidal tear
I look deep into her moist forevers
I say the same
though while I wake
always on the ledge
an instant away from a razor's edges
I say the same
While I wake I say the same
Protect me
Protect me in my dreams
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Truth Against the World
Schizophrenia beats dying alone
Eyes glued open in front
Those behind watching the
World in an apprehensive
Tribulation of withheld
Respect and understanding.
Lunatic: minority of one
Searching for nonexistent
Words to communicate the
Torrential waterfall of
An overactive consciousness
Watching with the supersane
Chipperness of a true nut
Seeing bridges in the wind:
Reflections of Irish rainbows
Close your third eye
Make an ultimate wish
Dream a little dream:
Better, not bigger
Waking brings the nightmare
The sense of falling through
An unjust reality of
Self-interest and greed that
Persecutes idealism of forethought
In exchange for embeddedness
In the cyclical continuation
Of the Cave of delusions
Issue the writ, I charge,
Of habeas corpus: why keep
Them shackled to the shadows?
Is there no court of Justice?
Courts - but no Justice
Jury - but no audience
Ears - without hearing
Eyes - without inspection
Minds - washed tabula rasa
Pleas - but no definitions
Bound to accepted labels
And me - living of schizophrenia.
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Monsoons
I feel like the despondent shadow of a storm
Not even the rain has such a fragile shadow
Even with arrogance to storm on the sun
A bleeding sunset – an antithetical monsoon
Of supernova dimensions
Spinning the dying sphere into vertigo,
Forcing sunray showers of life
Into the deluged shadow of a twilight
Much darker than any moonless midnight.
Cold drops tickle your neck –
A distant prelude to the soft kiss of death?
Shadows embrace tickle and moisten
Where the water doesn’t flow.
Deep sulci echo for empty solace within
A limbic feeling that I don’t know exists,
But glows like the bleeding sunset,
Backlighting the shadows of a passing storm,
Stabbing the clouds with millions of nails,
Scarring the sky with veinlike canyons,
Coercing the dying light to give birth
To burning scabs that heal the damage
Caused by such soft hands.
On the great plain of this internal affect,
Lost in a directionless oblivion,
Where words have long since disappeared,
Where the deluge never ends – No, do not cry –
Since the sun never leaps from his cliff
And his wounds are a sourceless stigmata
That bleed skywards as the clouds bleed below
Forcing the thoughts of pain to remind
You that internal agony shadows ecstasy –
Showers an exoskeletal radiation of true success –
Much brighter than any cloudless summer,
Much warmer than any winter fireside.
What would the party be without the rain
To cast the shadow of enlightenment
And deluge the world with the love
Contained within the despondent shadow of the sun?
Lost beneath one skyless oblivion
Silence screamed from the dark brilliance,
Awakening from reality’s past delusion,
Immersed in the seamless azure wonder,
Reaching out into the mutual eternal canopy
To transmit a doppelganger There –
Alas – in order to be Here now
Beneath a cawing crowless shadow
Of an endless blue torrential clarity
That floods with a single cold drop,
Kissing the despondent lips of the Crow’s Apollo.
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Final Note
Through the blue smoke
Hovering still over
Red leatherette tables
Lit by crystal ensconced flames
The piano sang
One final lasting tone
And abandoned it to hang alone
In the crowded bar.
A single major C
Blew through cigar clouds
Exsanguinating
Over melting ice cubes
Into drained bourbon tumblers
Barreling into mournful falls
Of utter obscurity.
Like the teakwood chair
Sitting vacant before me
Joined only by rye soaked fumes
The C wafted away
Into the silence
Of a vapid audience
That did not care for the demise
Of art so recently died.
Alone, over a bone dry glass
Never to be refilled,
A cough saturated silence
Of a lonely room
Full of empty souls,
Both present and absent,
As dearly I depart
And an unheard pianist hangs his head.
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Knell
On the rocky shores of long ago
Steeped in sands of a forgotten glow
Tides drift off to drown below
A midnight dance they spin away
Twirling around on this deserted quay
Lost, oblivious, on this final day
The river Lethe injects the swells
With cacophonic voices that will never tell
Of all that was, both ill and well
All that is was vibrant bell’s toll
Both to fall and rise as the hearer’s soul
Not yet lapsed, still black as coal
On the rocky shores of long ago
Steeped in sands of a forgotten glow
Tides drift off to drown below.
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Cloister Fit for Two
A harmless golden blood drips
languidly from a bruising canopy
to nurture the night contained,
still, within the stone slabs of
Rappaccini's neglected yard.
I have taken a test of time,
Invested patiently to clear
the overgrown and vicious
weeds, restoring our
cloister fit for two.
How many times have I
strolled beneath a stigmatic
sunset to smell floral aromas
never known by another?
Within this reservoir of stone,
what fragrances could amass
whose simple breath gathers
in spiraling eddies above
tender lilac and silken violets
in patches along a cobbled
stone path - two breadths wide?
Meandering beneath ancient oaks
under a decaying light,
broken and battered by the leaves
of the wise beloved guardians
I perch in the center hemicourt
on a sculpted oaken tandem chair
staring at the hideous final
unplanted tract, left barren
but dreamed, patient for
a second - of time - worth
burying the knotted roots
that even time cannot untie:
an insidiously poisonous
thornless enrapture of one
Tyrrhenian glass rose, whose
eternal bloom banishes night
and gives birth to our sun again.
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Rivers to the Sea
I heard the rain drumming
On the surface of the placid river
Marking out a relaxing rhythm
That leaves you not-doing, like
Rocking on a porch sipping bourbon -
As sweet as a stolen smile,
As warm as a winter embrace,
With as much bite as your charming wit -
Watching blue jays pip
About and banter with the squirrels.
I sat on the soggy bank
Of the shady blue river
Sinking down into the mud
That clung to my skin like rich
Refreshing ointment,
As creamy as chocolate milk
Running down the back of
Your parched raspberry throat,
And felt like the world had arranged
A complementary day spa massage.
I swayed as though drunk on the bank
From the shot of free flowing rain
Pummeling me into the hypnosis
Of an I love you analgesia I
Found fluttering in the feathers
Of the river's rippling blue surface
That soars endlessly in
An eternal migration to
The infinite store of the
Vast Immortality deep below.
I'm left mesmerized by the