Hey God, Maybe it's Your Plan, but I Don't Want to Die
By Ira Jacques
()
About this ebook
Ira Jacques
How does one consolidate their life into one short blurb and do it justice? I'm a guy on the nerdy side of the spectrum. You remember the movie Revenge of the Nerds? If Buzzfeed ever gets around to determining the nerd I'd most be like, I have no doubt I'd end up as Gilbert, the one played by Anthony Edwards. Incidentally, Gilbert and Lewis were best friends in the movie, and Gilbert Lewis was one of my idols in chemistry as a high schooler. But I digress. I am a mechanic. Why? Because I enjoy the work. I'm not some Ayn Rand Atlas Shrugged-esque engineer on strike. I actually do a good bit of design and engineering work in my shop. But that's to modify cars and trucks. I do live in Southern California, after all. I started writing after my stepson's death in 2010. This first book, "Hey God, Maybe it's Your Plan, but I Don't Want to Die" is written by my stepson, Greg Holcomb-Jacques, but it was published posthumously by me. It was originally published for Kindle in 2012, but I have decided to make a free version on multiple platforms now via Smashwords just to have the story told. Thank you for reading. Ira
Related to Hey God, Maybe it's Your Plan, but I Don't Want to Die
Related ebooks
Two Infinities: A Memoir of Love and Childhood Cancer Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsRunning With Ghosts: A Memoir of Surviving Childhood Cancer Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsShout Her Lovely Name Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Crossing 13: Memoir of a Father's Suicide Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Cure for Grief: A Novel Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5The Monster We Call Dad Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsNot All Step-Parents Are Evil...Though We Might Be Crazy Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsFemale Friends: A Novel Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5You're Being Ridiculous! Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsShe Will Always Carry On: How I Beat Cancer Against All Odds Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsIt’S Been a Good Life, Dad: My Son’S Struggle with Cystic Fibrosis Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsA Matter of Principle Rating: 2 out of 5 stars2/5Lost in a Desert World: An Autobiography Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5About Suicide; Memoirs of Jane Doe Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe Obvious Game Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Buffering: Unshared Tales of a Life Fully Loaded Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Saving My Sister: How I Created Meaning from Addiction and Loss Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsSober.House. (My Story) Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsLove Ya, Mom: An Inspirational Salute to My Mother, Madeline Chinn Naas, 1929–2001 Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThings I Shouldn't Think Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsHigh on a Hill Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsBroken Glass Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsDaydreams & Diaries Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsIf My Past Wasn’t so Dark…My Future Wouldn’t Shine so Bright Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsTeen Mom: A Journal Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Petals of Rain Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsDreams From The Past Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsJesse: A Mother's Story of Grief, Grace, and Everyday Bliss Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Worst Case, We Get Married Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe World Looks Different Now: A Memoir of Suicide, Faith, and Family Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratings
Composition & Creative Writing For You
The Elements of Style, Fourth Edition Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Zen in the Art of Writing Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5How to Write a Mystery: A Handbook from Mystery Writers of America Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Pity the Reader: On Writing with Style Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Writing Fiction: A Guide to Narrative Craft Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Science of Storytelling: Why Stories Make Us Human and How to Tell Them Better Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Legal Writing in Plain English: A Text with Exercises Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5The Only Writing Series You'll Ever Need - Grant Writing: A Complete Resource for Proposal Writers Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Verbal Judo, Second Edition: The Gentle Art of Persuasion Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5People, Places, Things: My Human Landmarks Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5The Lincoln Lawyer: A Mysterious Profile Rating: 0 out of 5 stars0 ratingsThe Plot Whisperer Book of Writing Prompts: Easy Exercises to Get You Writing Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5The Craft of Research, Fourth Edition Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Emotion Thesaurus (Second Edition): A Writer's Guide to Character Expression Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Writing to Learn: How to Write - and Think - Clearly About Any Subject at All Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Letters to a Young Poet (Rediscovered Books): With linked Table of Contents Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Letters to a Young Poet Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5THE EMOTIONAL WOUND THESAURUS: A Writer's Guide to Psychological Trauma Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5The Power of Writing It Down: A Simple Habit to Unlock Your Brain and Reimagine Your Life Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Elements of Style: The Original Edition Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Wordslut: A Feminist Guide to Taking Back the English Language Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5A Writer's Diary Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Writing to Wake the Soul: Opening the Sacred Conversation Within Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Into the Woods: A Five-Act Journey Into Story Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5The Everything Writing Poetry Book: A Practical Guide To Style, Structure, Form, And Expression Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5The Creative Journal: The Art of Finding Yourself: 35th Anniversary Edition Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Romancing the Beat: Story Structure for Romance Novels: How to Write Kissing Books, #1 Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5Better Grammar in 30 Minutes a Day Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5
Reviews for Hey God, Maybe it's Your Plan, but I Don't Want to Die
0 ratings0 reviews
Book preview
Hey God, Maybe it's Your Plan, but I Don't Want to Die - Ira Jacques
Hey God, Maybe it’s Your Plan, But I Don’t Want to Die
Greg Holcomb-Jacques
Smashwords Edition
Copyright 2012 Greg Holcomb-Jacques
All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system without the written permission of Ira Jacques except where permitted by law. The copyright is filed in the late Greg Holcomb-Jacques’ name but belongs to Ira Jacques.
ISBN-13: 978-1311868978
DEDICATION
Nathan Hale was quoted as saying, I only regret that I have but one life to give for my country
right before he was hanged by the British. Hale was an American hero. You were my hero, and I’m willing to bet that your last words were no less dauntless. I chose to publish your diary as a means of preserving your history. Though the text of the book is written in your own words, the actual book is dedicated to the memory of you, Greg. Your family and friends will love you forever.
TABLE OF CONTENTS
Foreword
July 29th, 2009
July 31st
August 3rd
August 4th
August 5th
August 8th
August 9th
August 12th
September 10th
September 22nd
September 29th
November 8th
November 26th
January 1st
February 11th
February 12th
February 19th
February 20th
February 24th
February 28th
March 4th
Epilogue by Ira Jacques
Foreword by Ira Jacques
All of the dated text is taken verbatim from Greg Holcomb-Jacques’ personal electronic diary word processor file which he kept on our family computer. Jennifer and I originally thought it best to bury the file with our son, but after reading through it so many times, we decided to share it with our family and Greg’s close friends. They encouraged us to publish. Some said we should sell it and donate the proceeds to DIPG research while others said we should just give it away for free, and in the end, that’s what we decided to do. This e-book is free. Thank you for reading our son’s story, and please share it.
Ira Jacques
July 29th
What’s funny is that not even a month ago, I had just finished watching the first season of the AMC series Breaking Bad with Freddy and Heath, and we joked about how we’d learn what it takes to make a mobile meth lab, pool our money, and buy ourselves an RV and become outlaw drug chefs so that we could have college and travel money. Yeah, it’s funny, because, well, today’s the day that my own results came in and were disclosed to me. The results that say I have some nasties attacking a really important part of my brain. Mom broke down like she always does and started asking Dr. Vargo all these questions about a thousand miles a minute, while Dad… he just sat there. He didn’t say anything at all. And me, well, I just tried to act like I was brave, even though, truth be told, I was scared shitless.
The ride home from the hospital didn’t get any better, either. I mean, my dad (well, stepdad) STILL didn’t say anything, and Mom kept trying to cheer me up with some horseshit rah-rah-rah we’ll-get-through-this-no-matter-what pep speech. Finally, we got home and I had a chance to be alone with my thoughts, and that’s why I’m here. I figure, if I’m going to die, I might as well start documenting some things. Like first off, I’m still a virgin.
Isn’t that crazy? That’s the first thought that popped into my head the moment I learned that I was dying. I thought, "hey, this is fucked up, man. I am a pretty handsome guy. In fact, Carrie (that’s my ex girlfriend from last year) said she’d be willing to do it if I really wanted to, but I thought that I wanted